Beans

Today joy helped me create my journal. :)) Today was shit and I was basically losing my mind, but misery loves company. And joy is definitely good company. Life is insane :3 and the world is going to shit. I’m just living like Larry and letting the universe take me wherever she pleases. Thank you all for your cooperation. I’ll check yall out later :3 omg I almost forgot to tell yall guys Friday we’re going on a date :)) I am really excited well that’s if joy is feeling okay. We are gonna watch one of my favorite movies Coraline. Basically this weird clay animation horror movie, but it’s def my favorite. I like to move it move it. I like to move it move it. We like to! Move it! :DD yall would not believe how bad of a mood I was in like not even a couple of hours before rn (it’s currently 9:23 where I am central time) :,) plz pray for joy lmao. Tysm for the prayers as always peace and love to yall

I dedicated this song to my beautiful partner whom I love very dearly @ https://music.apple.com/us/album/not-a-lot-just-forever/1526437437?i=1526437723 Through your eyes I see A smile you bring to me To your joy, I tether @Yimpa

I enjoy cooking with you and for you…. I wub u

https://music.apple.com/us/album/painkillers/1332144279?i=1332144502 Very lovely morning Try not to kill yourself today Think of all that you'd be missing Prescription made Painkillers Count your blessings early before the lot will hit the gates Winnings for the lucky living just takes Painkillers Living just comes with a bit of heartache Heartache comes with a bit of young faith Faith stays young till your heart get broken Hope grows up to become someday I never hurt no one and no one will ever hurt me I believe I believe I believe I believe Faith plays dumb till the doubts all leave I believe I believe I believe I believe Manna won't fall till the people all speak I believe I believe I believe I believe Canaan ain't far for the souls who barter their pain for sweet relief My queen won't feed on milk and honey She impartial to the summer sun She's a lone fire burning in the sand And a cold, lonely night without one She cocks her pistols 'fore she pops her collar Oh she's all but lethal pulling off that laser gun She's rips the halos off of angels for the fun of it If all she ever does is smile at you, run What'd ya need these for? Round here the cries die young Fly momma, fly to where you come Speak momma, round here the quiet die young Very lovely morning Don't kill yourself today Think of all that you'd be missing And don't you ever pay mind to that line in your way that says you'll ruin it You'll ruin this for everybody won't you Very lovely morning Try not to kill yourself today Think of all the things you'll be missing Prescription made Painkillers

:)) thank you!

Tummy cramping need cuddles for emotional support

My feet next ( Feat )

nerds lol jk

I have work tomorrow, I’m not really looking forward to it. I have general anxiety. And find communicating with others very difficult. Being new and learning new skills in a different work environment is also a heavy toll on me. I don’t plan on staying with this company for too long. Real retail is gross, but for some reason my twin sister prefers it. I on the other hand don’t. I enjoy work, but not so much with the public. I enjoy being able to do my job. And having my own independence, but collaboration with others is another story. I have struggle to admit when I need help. For instance when I realized I was running out of toothpaste. I knew I needed to tell you, but was too afraid to say anything. Fear and Anxiety have dictated my life for so long. And to me this story has been going on for quite awhile, but this feels like just the beginning. This journey of life is terrifying, but at least I have you. I love you.

I hope you feel better soon love you

Solipsism is BS. ._.

Stomach pain is like a 5.5 the pain isn’t as extreme as it was yesterday Trying to stay hydrated, and will be extra careful about what I’m eating

I’ve woken up several times during the night because my tummy It Hurts :^: come love me

Sometimes my tummy cramps really hard And then I feel really sick, because how bad it’s hurting to the point where I was assuming “maybe I need to take all my clothes off” because how bad the cramping was. (I didn’t need to this time) thankfully after some breathing exercises the pain was beginning to subside now I can rest in peace

Thank you for this post. God is Great!

I just really want to know her last name

beans said “I feel afraid of your judgements” We’re working on a lot together learning to be more mindful and considerate of feelings It’s not perfect but that’s okay, because we are humans! It’s okay to have an imperfect relationship:)) I’m very bad at using this platform tbh

It pains me seeing you in pain too. regardless if it’s tears, emotionally distress, physical pain, etc. im so happy to have you in my life it feels nice to know you care for me i love when you express yourself and your concerns youre an amazing partner, and I’ve been very fortunate to have gone through this journey with you

•-• AGHHH

Currently experiencing the worse sleep ever constantly being woken up by multiple people Loud and unexpected noises by multiple people whom have absolutely zero consideration of others not to mention the cherry on top of a child crying their absolute lungs out, only to be triggering another child’s need of attention/demands and then crying because it’s bed time. and then the needle that broke the camel’s back a symphony of a house full of dogs barking ._. You got to be fucking joking rn

I just got to witnessed my favorite cousin’s engagement i remember as little girls we spoken about going out and exploring the world together To Paris, Italy, Japan, Mexico, etc I never in my life would’ve imagine the day that I would be able to witness her engagement. My heart was completely moved; because knowing she found someone who loves her completely and fully. Is all I could ever want for her. She’s my best friend, but also my favorite cousin. I’m so happy I got to witness such a precious moment in her life. And I’m so excited for her wedding. it felt so surreal, it felt so unexpected. im so happy i came

🦆❤️ stinkabutt

Breaking internalized racism is difficult but I’m proud of you. In my past I was the same, it’s up to us as the new adults of the generation to do better.