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What is that??

It feels really strange to be broken up. And separated, but this journey to self healing is essential. Joys mental health took an all time low. And it was only escalating worse and worse. It broke both of our hearts. Both of us in denial about what must happen, and not wanting to let go. We obviously care of each other a whole lot. though joy is contemplating about if they want to continue our friendship. I asked if they can make their decisions once they had the ketamine and if they truly feel it is necessary to end it. Then I won’t stop it. though I want to keep our friendship, because joy has been a wonderful impact in my life. Joy taught me the importance of therapy, self advocacy, to stand up for myself, etc

This is all I wanted from you. I just wanted you to acknowledge how much pain I was in. And not to feel crippling guilt, but to acknowledge what’s happening. You saying sorry means a lot. Thanks joy. I’m also sorry for the ways I’ve felt cold, and neglectful. I don’t know either what else to say but I love you too

@Yimpa my nephew is playing Fortnite with my monke this is making me laugh so hard omfg 😭❤️‼️

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTjrLQsUo/ 😿❤️‼️ I cant help but love and care about you

Please get home safe

Thanks for trying to take care of me. i hope this isn’t the end of our friendship I really care about you and want to see you again

It feels really good to see Penny and my family. I hope your ketamine therapy goes good. I hope you’re okay.

@Yimpa Dawg just snap out of it. You sound like a maniac joy typed this themselves, but I found it funny so I don’t mind it

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Very difficult journey for the both of us its very hard for me to be supporting of joy when I’m also drowning in my own ocean

For the better or worse that might be a question for you to ask yourself, but for me personally it has been for the better. I feel like I understand what joy was trying to say now.

I’ve opened up to Joy about finding other people attractive though they’ve reassured me it’s okay. I do have open discussions with Joy about how I feel. We do not keep things hidden from each other. Or at least now we’re more open with each other. I use to feel really offended when joy did that in the beginning of our relationship because it genuinely did hurt, however my perspective has definitely evolved

We truly do have a very strange relationship