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That is not how desire works lmao

I don’t know if I want to journal. This forum is very judgemental. And only incels can be that judgemental. So I’m not interested in getting blasted by sexually frustrated incels who just are angry that other guys who are not as developed as them (according to their tiny brains)) can get laid. Because one thing is for certain. Spirituality doesn’t get you laid. Spirituality and dating are two completely different domains but don’t expect those numb ***** to get that. They can’t even separate that dating and spirituality work according to different principles.

Spirituality is not about tucking your dick between your legs. Ken Wilber doesn’t tell me to castrate myself. Perhaps your teaching does that. I don’t subscribe to spiritual bypassing. I have fully integrated stage red and other lower stages and I’m not ashamed for it. Currently I’m tier 2 and pushing towards tier 3.

Who told you life is fair? Look around.

You don’t get any pussy. That is for sure.

I don’t have crazy goals though. I just want one wife and child. But I want to develop myself so much that if our relationship ends I will be able to find a new gf the next month. So now I’m just training myself in various social and emotional skills. I have codependency. That is my biggest obstacle to overcome.

That is so true. Love is kind. But at the same time you have to limit love to make it meaningful and give it form.

And white knighting again. Your thristiness just drips from your messages. 😭

That is what I’m trying. I’m trying to love multiple women and not be fixated on one. It is such a liberating state to not be tied to one source of love.

Thanks I will contemplate this. But how not to get cut off from the Tao though?

I love her feminine energy. She is polish and lets me take the lead. She is funny which is rare nowadays. She is not love bombing me. I think she is pink pill. She rarely shows her cards but sometimes I can see it in her eyes that she loves me. But she never says it. I think she wants to settle down. But I’m not sure about that. I’m in for the fun.

You are not reading me correctly. I don’t care about guys opinion. I’m just annoyed at the idea myself. If you had two plates of food. One is licked and the other is not licked. Which one would you choose? That is just a matter of taste. Perhaps you are the guy who likes licked things. More important factor is the inherited emotional baggage and stuff. I want them malleable. my experience is that such girls take the grievances they have with their exes on their current bfs.

Link?

Give a link

I like a girl but I can’t get over the fact she has tattoos and I heard she had some violent bfs. She is only 27 and really stunning looking and great personality. Usually going for younger but she is really relationship material. To be honest I prefer inexperienced girl who lacks relationship experience. I can’t phantom the idea of me walking down the street and some guys laughing behind my back. If I don’t want to have kids I wouldn’t mind because it is just for fun. But if I want to start a family it does matter for me. I don’t want to inherent all of her emotional baggage and shit. Although she is an arm candy and it is amazing to show off. That is just a temporary thing.