AION

Finally the holy trinity is coming together. Something I long prophesied. The father Leo. The son Miguel And the Holy Spirit mother Natasha

She is not a normal chick for sure. She comes off as alien being to me.

Money is not the only attractor. Only having money attracts gold diggers. This is my list from my notes: 1. Status/dominance — social rank, resource control, being deferred to by others 2. Physical vitality — health, fitness, testosterone markers (jaw, frame, posture) 3. Confidence/frame — self-referencing internally, not needing validation 4. Purpose/ambition — visible drive toward something bigger than her 5. Warmth/humor — the emotional payoff that makes the first four feel good to be around, not just impressive

I don’t know but I tried to be nice with you but you simply don’t get it. The world doesn’t evolve around your demands and conditions for men. High quality men independently have their demands and standards. And if you don’t meet those you are not part of the party. And don’t be mistaken. Men are the prize. 80% of women go for the top 10% of men. And you saying you don’t. I frankly don’t believe it. But you don’t even are eligible. And I’m not part of the 10-20% of men so I’m not eligible but I’m not butt hurt about it. I admit I would like to be part of that high quality of men. Why not? Why is wanting to be high quality bad? And why is it for you to be high quality women and be desired bad? Everything about you leaks that you want to be that woman. That is why these topics are so sensitive for you. To be honest I do get girls I want but I have to work much harder for it than the high quality men. I could be like you be butt hurt about it. Or be like one of the mother Natasha cult members and throw a hissy fit that life is not fair but life is not fair.

That is not how desire works lmao

I don’t know if I want to journal. This forum is very judgemental. And only incels can be that judgemental. So I’m not interested in getting blasted by sexually frustrated incels who just are angry that other guys who are not as developed as them (according to their tiny brains)) can get laid. Because one thing is for certain. Spirituality doesn’t get you laid. Spirituality and dating are two completely different domains but don’t expect those numb ***** to get that. They can’t even separate that dating and spirituality work according to different principles.

Spirituality is not about tucking your dick between your legs. Ken Wilber doesn’t tell me to castrate myself. Perhaps your teaching does that. I don’t subscribe to spiritual bypassing. I have fully integrated stage red and other lower stages and I’m not ashamed for it. Currently I’m tier 2 and pushing towards tier 3.

Who told you life is fair? Look around.

You don’t get any pussy. That is for sure.

I don’t have crazy goals though. I just want one wife and child. But I want to develop myself so much that if our relationship ends I will be able to find a new gf the next month. So now I’m just training myself in various social and emotional skills. I have codependency. That is my biggest obstacle to overcome.

That is so true. Love is kind. But at the same time you have to limit love to make it meaningful and give it form.

And white knighting again. Your thristiness just drips from your messages. 😭

That is what I’m trying. I’m trying to love multiple women and not be fixated on one. It is such a liberating state to not be tied to one source of love.

Thanks I will contemplate this. But how not to get cut off from the Tao though?

I love her feminine energy. She is polish and lets me take the lead. She is funny which is rare nowadays. She is not love bombing me. I think she is pink pill. She rarely shows her cards but sometimes I can see it in her eyes that she loves me. But she never says it. I think she wants to settle down. But I’m not sure about that. I’m in for the fun.