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For example you can read 10 books on Spain but you visiting the country will trump all the books you read. But the thing is that direct experience can be deceitful. For example your direct experience might tell you the world is flat because it looks like it but the books and science might say something else. This counts for spirituality too. Not everything you see will be the truth. This parable is explained in the mythology of the life tree and the lake. It is easily to be deceived by the reflection of the water and you might not know what is real and a reflection.

So I met this girl today at the train station. I invited her to an instant date. She only drinks beer. I prefer to drink water; I don’t like soft drinks. But because she wanted to drink beer. I drank it too. The thing is I don’t like soft drinks. I either drink water or nothing. Sometimes I drink wine though but only on occasion. But if I chosen to drink water which would be my preferred option: I would come across as cheap I wouldn’t be able to bond with her over a drink not get her drunk Not harm my health with alcohol I always sell myself out to bond with people. In the past I have tried to just order water but the girl looks strange at me. And it is just weird and not acceptable socially.

As a spiritual person I got messed up by this notion. I allowed my parents to mess me up, other people and lately I allowed girls to do that. But though is enough. Today I came to a point that I realized that eye for eye, tooth for tooth is a spiritual if not more spiritual. Sometimes you have to unleash war onto your enemies because god demands it as explained in the Bhagavad Gita. The thing is that God is your highest authority and teacher and if you don’t listen you will get whipped to death or learn your lesson. God is all loving and all punishing. It has the soft hand and the hard hand. And whether you love or punish somebody it is the hand of god doing it and you are just a vessel. Sometimes tough love is the real thing. So this is what happened; my ex broke up with out of nowhere to go back to her ex. And I spilled the beans and exposed his wicked personality (how she treated me) and her Christian sexual dark side.

You are stuck in the rationale of spiral stage orange and lovey dovey love from stage green. There is a point you can integrate and transcend that. Sometimes punching somebody in the face is more loving than anything else.

Human love is much more advanced than animal love. But is still very primitive compared to higher levels of love like alien love. Turn the other cheek is human love and although it much more advanced than eye for an eye which is very animalistic but there is love beyond that. It kind of reminds me of Wilber’s pre-rational, rational and trans-rational. Our love is as sophisticated as our brain. And there comes a point that the rationality of turning the other cheek becomes a burden.

Did you do psychedelics?

@Lyubov true. Some people act like this is a stupid topic but there is a lot of depth to this topic. Dates is mostly mind games.

It is jealousy I think. I have some looser friends who can’t get girls and when I talk about my escapades with girls they get stingy and you can just feel they hurtin’ for a squirtin’.

This knob of conscious is just map of consciousness that David Hawkins discovered dialing consciousness from 1-1000+ LOC through letting go. Psychedelics just helps you with letting go. It is not rocket science guys.

Is this Jeff from RSD?

You just enjoy yourself and the music. I usually try to make male friends first. And start small by challenging girls. Never hit on them. It is better to shit over them or give them some shit. But not in an overly aggressive way. After that your kindness will be appreciated. Just being kind from the start is not appreciated. That is if they are club girls.

I don’t have good pick up friends. The friends I go out with cock block me. Although they are good looking they have a bad vibe. I can’t even introduce them without looking bad. So I tell them to not get involved when I approach. Going out alone is better for me.

Emotions can’t be suppressed. Only transmuted. Pulls out a wine bottle 😈

The art of bad comedy hour

Social and emotional intelligence and mastery. The rod is more powerful than the fish. you can have the fish if you give me the rod.

You can’t master something without understanding it. I wanted to know if other guys had the same or different experiences. Experience trumps everything. You actually want to try as many different things as possible. Most people just learn to ride one pony and stay on it as long as it serves them. Last week I went to techno party for the first time. It was crazy. You don’t even want to know.

I’m aimed at developing mastery. I’m not aimed at getting result in form of sex or a gf. My heart got broken couple weeks ago so I don’t trust girls anymore. I need mastery and self development.

No I’m pan-theist. Colleagues can just be nice to be nice. If you are looking for nothing serious one shouldn’t shit where you eat. I never game in places where I come regularly because I’m not that smooth and girls like to gossip.

@NoSelfSelf girls in churches are actually very receptive. Finally you said something that made sense although unintentional 😭

I think it is a common problem. People want their partners to be 1 in all. A best friend, a spiritual partner, good sex partner and much more. It is just very rare to find such a good fit in multiple dimensions. At the end you have to play with the toys god is giving you.

This solved it

Life doesn’t work like that. Everybody has a plan until they get punched in the face. You just have to roll with the punches. Actually dating can fuel your motivation and create synergy in your life. Recently I had a break up and that was a nuclear bomb in terms of energy.

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If you feel loneliness you haven’t understood solipsism. Yes consciousness is one but that doesn’t mean you are alone. You are everything so there is no separation. Read Wilbers latest book. It will help.

@Keryo Koffa pigs don’t want pearls. She loved my pearls (godly love) in the beginning but her pig instincts quickly kicked in and her pig mother reminded her of earthly pleasures. I mean. She can’t wait for couple of years until I graduate? Yea I don’t have a lot of money right now but I’m not a bum. I’m pissed. And I want to call her again but I don’t want to ruin what is left which is not much anyway. Only thing that is left is a distant acquaintance.