Inti

Wow.. spot on. It's funny how things work sometimes, I realized i had codependency issues a month ago during a LSD-trip but i haven't had a word for it until now. I remember i kept losing my trail of thoughts during the trip, so i sat down and wrote down my thoughts on a piece of paper but my mind kept leading me astray, since i had it written down it was easy to return to the thoughts i was running from. I was getting closer and closer, the visuals got stronger, i was sweating, my body got tenser and tenser it was almost as if i was electric. At this point my friend who was sitting on a couch with his back turned against me, unaware of the shit i was dealing with at that moment said he was going to put on a song he thought i would like. I have the paper in front of me at the bottom it says "What are you running from?" And in capital letters "childhood traumas". It feels like i was reborn, a burden finally lifted. It's fascinating how my ego tried to deceive me and how something in me kept pushing, kept looking. The song that my friend put on during my realization got shuffled in a playlist of 400 songs while i was reading your reply. Thank you for you reply, it was very raw, straight and spot on

Hello my fellow human beings, i have a problem and i need some guidance! One of my biggest setbacks is my fear of losing. I hate losing so much that I avoid situations where I have to take risks, always playing it safe and avoiding competitive situations, satisfied with the mediocre. I want to become more competitive not necessarily with other people but with myself. A fear dwells inside of me, a fear of making mistakes especially in front of other persons. I wanted to give affirmations a try but I’m having a hard time coming up with a good one. I’m not even sure what I should be affirming is it my fear of losing or making mistakes? Does anyone have any suggestions of affirmations or anything else that can help me on my path to self actualization?