failforward

I'm starting my journey with 5-MEO-DMT. So far I've done 4 doses vaped. I started with 1 little black scoop, then a red scoop, then 1 red with 1 black, my last one was 2 red scoops, which is supposed to be 16-24mg. My plan is to do 2 reds and a black next which would be 22mg - 34mg. The first 3 tries didn't do much, just a bit of a relaxed high a little more intense with each increase in dose. The last one(16-24mg) just more intense high, some minor visuals with eyes closed and some tingling in the body. What were the doses when you broke thru with 5meo vaped?

How much did you take in mg or scoops?

So I'm in a bit of a jam. I've been the sol-provider for a family of 5 for the past 10 years and was fired for the first time in my career two weeks ago. Many, many mistakes were made over the course of my career and I am paying for those now. I have no idea how this will play out and it's a real struggle to stay positive. I know in the long run I will look back and see this as one of the best things that had ever happened in my life but in this moment I'm tested daily to remember key teachings from Actualized.org: stay present, stay positive, happiness is independent of circumstance, adversity builds strength and is required for growth, etc.