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I'm seeking advice on what to pursue with my time dedicated to enlightenment (which I have an abundance of outside work) I'm looking for the most useful information, links, videos, books, skills, knowledge or advice I can obtain that anyone could provide in my journey. Currently my focus is on Self Inquiry Normal Meditation ' Ego goals ' I like to call them, working on yoga, martial arts, astrology, geography, language skills Anything to add would be appreciated, Thank-you ? Also I know what I'm seeking is what many of us are, but im attempting a more personal type view, say what was the most influencing factor in your journey, a book that opened your eyes, a video that made you question things, an article that made you take a look at your own life, ect..

If the ego chased personal development with skills to use/have or play around with once enlightened, making a game of (me me me me me) would that be more benificial? As you won't have any material desires ultimately why chase them now, provide your body with a plethora of resources. learning/mastering/having - Martial Arts, Yoga Astrology, Geography, Nephology A foundation of money to navigate society more freely Nutritional information, Food source Increased vocabulary/language skills Societies foundations of social practice Items such as these + whatever you see as benificial to you could motivate your ego towards its own demise, in turn helping your Self Ultimately once realised. You need to speak the egoic language if you want more traction.

For me becoming more aware of the present moment opened my eyes to the beauty of what's surrounding you, at first it was such a tremendous change I questioned my sanity but realised it was just my focus that changed, in retrospect technology & it's screens stayed the same

Disclaimer - I've tried to translate to words so that you would all understand it in a way closest to the original experience of mine, I also understand (to me at least) language is dangerous to express these experiences in because of the way your mind has structured your own understanding on the subject, but it makes my ego feel nice to share ? Yesterday I started myself on a short walking meditation around my backyard, to set the scene a little i was walking about 100m in circumference, past such scenes as trees, basketball court, my house, pool & various other external visuals & over many different terrains, all while throwing a small basketball from one hand to the other. When my body is active during a meditation sometimes to keep my mind focused I'll use different techniques simultaneously, so self inquiry & do nothing were my two main focuses that day, you might call it counteractive but it's what works for me sometimes. After about 5-10 minutes my mind started gaining traction on the self inquiry process, the first 'breakthrough' you could say felt like my mind flipping through a thousand slideshows of ideas in which they each got tossed to the wind because I 'knew' that they were simply just that, ideas, thoughts, a process for which traps occur, and the 'opening' of my mind or the 'letting go' part was a simple idea of having no free will, which was the Pandora box so to speak of my experience. What occurred felt like devoid space opened, exposed and exploded within me simultaneously & in alignment, a silver string that connected me to my 'self' let go and I saw the world like I was watching a movie, raw senseoral, pure experiential, transparent & blissfully aware state where I was surrendered to the experience itself, I could have stayed like that forever, my perspective was radically different from anything I have known & my mind stuck to the idea of it feeling like my own personal movie with that I was watching everything happen, internal & extrenal senses all at once, it was what felt like experience itself and the only reminder of it now is a mere ghosts whisper that's left a shimmer of what was. This state lasted for another 10 minutes in which I tried to experiment what happened if I held the ball still in my hands, which brought back a rushing feeling of the 'self' into my awareness, 'I' made this decision, my ego informed me and in return 'me' jumped back in its slot, filled up the space which had opened but always been & almost felt like an intruder to my existence. After deliberation on the experience I've come to place it quite minuscule to what I 'see' enlightenment to be in the long run, but has only further motivated me more than anything has previously, showing a small gap in the mind & helping me not get so lots in the many, many, many traps is plays.