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Right-o, the capacity for endless doubt, delusion, and falsification only further proves the infinitude. Past verifying, the next issue is understanding how those things work on a technical level. Virtually nobody understands the working of time on a 'micro-level', beyond "God imagines it" and how it plays into the grand scheme of reality. Trouble is each of those things is a nested infinity unto itself, and inseparably intertwined with all the others. So finitude itself is a deception. The absolutes are so clear-cut cuase they're immutable, singular, and cannot be 'poisoned' by relativity. Still, an incredible intuition leap takes place when you do.

I have no experience with 3, but it shouldn't be all that different from 4-MMC, which is regarded as even better. There you don't want to go over, say, 500mg per session, and only do them once every couple of months. Most important is hydration and cooling your body with cold water. Plus supplementation, this one's for MDMA but most things overlap between them https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/15m9sf/mdma_supplementation/ You'll probably find more info on r/researchchemicals than here.

Thanks! I wouldn't say this was a particularly integration heavy trip, since it's more of a test drive of a new substance and an appetizer for a major one the following day. Walking around in such a state would almost certainly be an impediment, but I can envision a scaled down version of it that can be utilized on the daily. My main takeaways have been a rekindling of passion for languages, creative writing, and symbolic expressions of all sorts. Plus a reminder about the importance of not-knowing. Now I'm gradually implementing that as regular practices, in addition to constantly ingesting knowledge of all kinds in a holistic manner. It's a delicate balance to strike, still working on that, but I'm already starting to see reality for the alive, intelligent system that it is with more consistency. To make time for all that, I'll also have to part ways with many dear distractions, but it'll be worthwhile. It all comes together in another report I need to publish, but even there it's a bit early to speak of tangible changes in my routine and whatnot, I'm currently finishing up the consolidation of all the structural changes to my mind's operation.

My first experience with the substance, and perhaps the first report on its use intramuscularly: Firstly, a bit of context: I've been away from spirituality the past 3 months, actively avoiding it and getting into trouble in various ways, for interesting reasons I'll share elsewhere; until finally last week a sudden tectonic shift in consciousness occured, which rendered running away from God untenable. Still, coming back, particularly to psychedelics, was scary, and I backed out several times. But ultimately one way or another fear had to be overcome with love. IM'd 3.5mg, starting moderately to be safe – good call, this kiddie dose turned out to be a major experience. Some 'objective' data: the onset is within 3-4 minutes, then comeup is another 5-7, characterized by elevated HR and several potentially psychosomatic effects such as a feeling of hunger reminiscent of being sick to your stomach. After this initial discomfort, which mustn't be resisted, it settles into a very stable and smooth experience, as though this is your new baseline level of consciousness. The peak lasts around 30 minutes, after which it starts gradually and subtly dissipating until ceasing after ~90 minutes in total. Compared to 5-MeO-DMT, which doesn't work on me in the same way it does on most, I would call MALT much more consciousness oriented, whereas 5MD is yogic, energetic, somatic, etc., which actually makes it unique among all the substances, it operates on Being in a very distinct yet important way separate from mind. I imagine at breakthrough levels 5MD would white me out and result in more of a No-Self/Nothingness experiences rather than Infinite Consciousness. Also 5MD carries a heavier body load and is occasionally sore at the injection site, something I've only noticed with Ketamine, this is independent of causticity, another factor is at play. I'm staring at the homescreen on my tablet, first the Gmail icon, when suddenly my mind connects with all the email accounts I ever had, how I created them, all the messages contained within. Then it's the audiobook player app, I cognize all the files, their encoder/container, size in bytes on disk, the methods by which they were decrypted, holding the entire encryption 'space' – RSA, AES, EC... and of course the contents of the books, the life stories of their authors and narrators. Next is the to-do widget, with items written in Russian. Through those Cyrillic characters I take a quick dip into compsci again by blazing through UTF-8 and then there's the entire history of Russia like an open book. Mind is a compression algorithm of infinite potency, the whole of reality is readily available exactly where you are, only a change of state is required to start unzipping it. Small caveat, even though I describe it all sequentially, it's not really structured that way, some parts are retroactively added and expanded by simply recalling them at a later point, because in those states time is simply irrelevant, it hardly matters whether to pull from the present, distant memories, or several months into the future. This has become something of theme in my deepest psychedelic voyages and it'd say it's an important step towards jailbreaking the mind. My focus shifts to Love, I begin with feeling the affection of my mother's genuine concern in my heart, then quickly expand outwards until it's crystal clear that the exact same feeling underpins every act of hate and violence currently happening in the world. More obvious than that we're on planet Earth! In fact, are we? I turn my gaze towards the window in which the reflections of the headlights of the cars driving down in the street can be seen, and enter a state of not-knowing. I remove the notion of cars, only the mystery and beauty of the multicolored lights flashing before my eyes remain. After that, several minutes are spent admiring my hand, or more precisely the intelligence that animates its motion and sensations, with all the infinite background that appears to enable this. I take a moment to appreciate how science, utilized correctly, enhances spirituality immensely. Metabolism, optics, 4 fundamental forces, matrices, calcium ion channels, topology, polarity, measurement, engineering, the list goes on. It's quite amazing to look at a computer in such a state where you can fuse all the understanding that powers what a computer is, from how the kernel is written to the way our eyes perceive luma and chroma. In the same way, tripping on a psychedelic becomes something else when you study the neuropharmacology and chemistry behind it. And yet the mystery doesn't go away, in fact it only deepens. I briefly held the ambition of fully grasping and articulating just how these substances raise consciousness to infinity and then without fail modulate it back down, irrespective of how beyond brains and time you go, before quickly realizing that even if I manage to get all that, to explain it I'd have to explain all of reality with infinite context, which is by definition impossible. Though Truth can bypass this limitation by having insight into itself directly, Nothingness is fundamental to that. Finished off with a fascinating experience of endlessly zooming into the wood planks that make up my floor, while simultaneously observing myself doing that from a bird's eye view of sorts, as though an eye looking into a microscope so far it loops back to seeing itself from above. So this was a nice first glance back into the realm of God-consciousness and this chemical in particular, which I now consider some of the very best available, of those I've sampled thus far. P.S.: I have really strong opinions regarding the IM route, to me it's patently clear at this point that the other methods are just barbaric and inefficient in comparison. Yes, you can raise valid concerns about purity and sterility, but all that is solvable with some effort. There's a reason IM & IV are used in hospitals. I distinctly remember having to deconstruct the massive stigma surrounding it, I too used to think this is pathetic junkie stuff, and stepping over it was quite uncomfortable, but I'm so happy to have been wrong on this issue. So I highly encourage to keep an open mind. Part of the reason hardly anyone is reaching levels of consciousness Leo talks about is wrong route, his abnormal sensitivity offsets that, but it won't for a regular person. Just look at Shulgin's notes and dosages with 5-MeO-DMT vaporized vs. IV. It's regrettable seeing people plugging 20mg and getting nowhere near where I, insensitive as a rock, manage to with a dose you can't even measure with your ridiculous scoops.

Framing it is as important as experiencing, I'd say

Obligation is low consciousness. It's about voluntarily taking on more responsibility, simply out of love for reality. 'you' still hold some very limited control, and You are the entire force. Just a matter of aligning the two. Well, depending on how you look at it there's indeed no free will whatsoever, so I'm not denying that either.

For me it was when I stopped seeing any divinity and wonder in everyday life and it turned into a tedious layover between trips. It's still a struggle, but a clear sign is when I'd ceased even attempts at contemplation/integration going to straight dismissal. Eventually even the peaks became more of the same, because my consciousness wasn't advancing to receive new ones. If you don't get qualitatively different insights for a while it is a telltale sign to take a break, unless your intention is to re-verify or deepen what you already got. Also tolerance kicking in was a factor, at one point I was doing so much so often that a 15-tab strip of LSD barely brightened the colors; it was getting unsustainable even simply from a financial standpoint. These days I don't trip very often, on average once a month, but each one is incredibly powerful. I rarely try new substances anymore as I've settled on a few that work the best after a long period of experimentation. I've also really attuned my intuition to when I truly should trip such that I'll withdraw or postpone as many times as necessary. Developing a communication with God helps with that, which won't work nearly as well if you don't see God all around. When the sober avenues have been exhausted is a good time to trip. While my human life isn't particularly important to me, my levels of contentment with it, especially the increase in capacity to love and provide value to others while remaining at peace, as well as consistently seeing and appreciating the divine intelligence animating everything around, are good indicators of growth I use. When I am fully ready to step onto the next level, which necessarily entails assuming more responsibility, God accommodates. I've learned not to force it and go at the pace reality sets. Trust the process.

@Psychonaut I know what shop that is. Not my go-to. If you're still struggling with that 5-MeO-DMT vinegar stuff, it's worth getting the HCl from another place. The methyl/methoxy variants in the PCP/PCE 3-subs tend to be similar in that they're rather manic and stimulating. I've done a few of them and it seems to track with the online consensus. Not sure what piqued your interest in 3-MeO-PCE except that one trip report where the person and their partner got sent into nightmareland after an accidental OD. But we may just have completely different tastes when it comes to dissos since MXPCP worked well and you like 2F-DCK, to me it's just a dirtier Ketamine. Asking AI about psychedelics, especially RCs isn't the best idea. In this case it happened to pick the same two I would, more of a coincidence though. That about 3-HO-PCP is a confirmation bias hallucination based on partial truths. Lord have mercy on your soul if you take 3-HO expecting it to be safe and trauma-healing. O-PCE description is closer to reality, but ultimately the primary function of both is obliterating the human self in a different way than other psychedelics. I have a post about it: For advanced spiritual work those two are the apex of the disso gamut. Most similar to how MXPCP works for you would still be DMXE & MXiPr, which are gone but it is fine, one you already have is sufficient. By extrapolation it should pair really well with a lot of tryptamines, I recommend trying that sometime. As an example:

Spot on. And as a result, it is unfalsifiable, since there's nothing to falsify Truth with. Ironically enough, understanding the mechanics of finitude is a far, far more complex matter than grasping this, which is literally a tautology and self-evident. Yet it still takes years and has to come first, as without the necessary context all the other sense-making will be partial at best, or just plain wrong. Lovely summary you got there. Welcome!

Hi, It will be laid out in more detail in a future guide, I currently don't have the time, but here's a duplicate of what I wrote elsewhere, it's sufficient for an overview:

Interesting, I've heard similar things about it, at least that it's pretty light, social, and mood-lifting. Wasn't so great for me, it's confusing but in a lukewarm kind of way, not the total divorce from reality and journey to Wonderland characteristic of stronger stuff. It's also the most impure RC I've seen so far, Chinese lab standards leave a lot to be desired. Either the molecule itself has some weird properties, or they need to make a cleaner batch. Have you tried DMXE? It's not as widely available these days, but is the closest structurally to MXE, the disso golden standard. PCP backbone instead of PCE makes a much more significant difference than methyl vs. methoxy. DMXE is noticeably warm, gentle, and synergetic, matched perhaps only by MXiPr. Is MDMA really that long? Never lasts more than 4 hours for me. Maybe it's just genetic quirks, I also barely register the comedowns that people paint as horrible no matter how much I take, guess daily headaches have created an immunity over time.

The forum is probably the least important of the Actualized resources in regard to the actual work. Virtually all it is is a collection of "Yeah, well, you know, that's just, like, your opinion, man", although there's some useful ones here and there. Leo himself said he views it as a testing ground for new ideas and shitposts a lot. In the recent videos what you speak of has toned down significantly, there's an appreciable difference to how it used to be. Not that it matters too much since the message has always been to take the useful stuff as food for thought and discard the noise. It's healthy and inevitable to disagree with your teacher on some content, the important thing is structure. If you're in perfect agreement all the time, might as well become them, and then there's no autonomy of mind, which is really what this whole thing is about. Having strong opinions very much fits the bell curve meme. It's up to you to discern which side the person is on, and it varies from topic to topic, but there's also a general pattern. And yeah, he still has biases remaining. There's sort of 3 major categories to those: unconscious ones, ones you're aware of but are very difficult to drop for one reason or the other – working through it may take decades, and those you deliberately opt to keep because they're practical or you just like them and they're generally harmless. A highly conscious person may have very few of the first sort, but the rest are here to stay. Seeing through them in oneself and others is your job. Hell would sooner freeze over before people quit their biases. What's off-putting is the egoic footprint oozing through the cracks, but it is only repulsive to you the ego. Part of the intuition is correct, relativity and nuance are indeed very important, good on you for keeping that in mind. Beyond that it's just overlays that weigh you down. It might be useful to frame communication as a kind of quadrant. truth-truth: the truth in you recognizes the truth in Leo | truth-falsehood: truth in you recognizes falsehood in Leo, doesn't judge, appreciates the intelligence behind it | falsehood-truth: falsehood in you fails to recognize truth in Leo, warps or misses it. Truth in you should be on the lookout for that to catch and eventually correct it | falsehood-falsehood: your ego judges Leo's ego due to some meaningless bias misalignment. This is just to be ignored, or rather not given any significance to, and it'll die out soon enough. Going into detail on those examples would be unproductive as it's content and highly prone to subjectivity. I can't be certain what you mean in that last one about 'epistemology', but it's worth pointing out that it'll take a while to appreciate just how crucial and vast it is. It's been 1.5 years since the trajectory shift and I'm only now starting to truly dial in on the full scope.

It's so fascinating. You moved on from mushrooms to 4-AcO-DMT. From insufflation to rectal. From pipes to e-mesh. From Salvia to Salvinorin A. In the conformity video you have a full section on psychedelic conformity and how you were able to get qualitatively different results by being open to new technology, with the example of Ayahuasca vs. synthetic N,N-DMT. We're on the same page regarding how weed is pure stupidity next to THCA. Yet there's a few areas where you still insist on using the same techniques you were back in 2018, maybe with a few tweaks. Like microscoops instead of volumetric dosing, or plugging instead of IM. Or this vinegar stuff. It's all good if you've tested every method and settled on the ones that are most effective and convenient for you, perhaps that is the case. But you speak as though no alternatives exist and these are the definitive methods, when in fact they may not necessarily be so for others, nor are they the most precise and rigorous. I know there's not enough time in the world to give every fine detail, especially many times over, but more nuance would be nice since most people take everything at face value. It appears that conformity is not purely a collective phenomenon, it also exists as attachment to ideas and methods one has personally derived, and it is especially difficult to notice and escape when those actually work and are superior to whatever was out there at the time.

Agree to disagree, I'll just present an alternative viewpoint. This on its own is myopic. Sure, going by straight molar mass freebase is 17% more potent and therefore cost-effective. But what about loss during vaping? It decreases with refined technique and better equipment, but present nonetheless. A person just starting out is guaranteed to waste a bunch. There's degradation too, even though 5MD isn't nearly as bad as N,N-DMT in this aspect, it's still a factor, while any salt will outlive you with half-decent storage. And when making it available for rectal, especially with a kitchen tier tek like vinegar, you simply cannot guarantee that every molecule of 5MD will bond to an acetic acid one, so some are left out. 'Dissolve' isn't even the right term here unless you massively oversimplify. You are forming 5MD acetate, which then becomes water soluble, but with a bunch of excess acid, hence the sting. Converting from salt to freebase is both less technically involved, and far more forgiving if done lousily. Lastly, salts tend to carry less impurities. You won't see this on a regular NMR, something more detailed like LCMS + GC is required. In the end, why not get half-half of each, or whatever other ratio you think will suit your use. Works both ways, if you want the option to vape, you also want the option to IM/IV. It ain't 'every use case' when 2/4 of potential ROAs are left out. What's even the reason to 'suck it up' when you're about to enter a powerful trip, besides saving a few bucks and acting tough? You want as few distractions as possible. Similarly you wouldn't want to taste Salvia's awful harshness right before getting blasted into insanity consciousness.

Not illicit, it's a legit lab and company, otherwise they wouldn't be able to sell it as an RC to clearnet vendors. Tracking down the source isn't that difficult, just a matter of some looking and networking, and there's no reason they wouldn't do business with you the same way as long as the product is unscheduled.

I know a guy that synths a few kilos of 5MD at a time, 25g is the minimum they sell. Bulk turns out ridiculously cheap per gram, 4-5 times less than with vendors, who are just resellers. Trouble is being able to afford this much at once. Lesson is, being poor costs more in the long run.

Guilty as charged

That's also what I'm finding out. Quite amazing how simple decarboxylation bypasses the regulation. Just what kind of morons write these laws? It's stranger than with RCs because of the massive consumption scale. Seems even cheaper than synthetics like JWH. Weed is aboriginal muck with an obscene smell, truly we're still in the dark ages. I'll get a gram even though I'm not good friends with cannabinoids, at worst it can just be shared with others.

I'll listen to any kind of funky shit, but also plenty of vanilla

Well, despite promising visual aspects and NMR spectra, the in-vivo could still turn out faulty somehow, so I prefer not going overboard on first orders. I'll assay 5mg soon, day after same dose HCl for a fair comparison. If it performs as expected I'll get another 1-2g. After unpacking & weighing losses + gifts I'll have 900mg remaining. Trips range from 3-10mg, beyond that only on special occasions. That's via IM of course, with the other inefficient routes a gram is only good for maybe 50 mediocre trips. So just the current amount is over 100 trips easily, which I won't be doing more than once per week due to having plenty of other chemicals to work with and in general having switched to a less frequent but more potent schedule. A second buy then guarantees stock for a few years at least, the rest are similarly secure already. Studying the effect of daily sub-1mg injections on baseline consciousness & prolonged exposure would be interesting. Transitioning to alien with 5MM 👽 Next comes time to lay off spending money on chems, talking on forums, etc. to concentrate on building wealth that will allow buying the kind of bulk you're proposing. Or better yet, ordering custom synths 😎

Fumarate ist here. A pastel cream sort of color, plus the nice fluffy texture common for this salt. Definite improvement over the brown and chunky EU HCl version. It's a better suited format for tryptamines anyhow, which may prove more effective despite lower potency by weight. A bare minimum of 100 breakthrough trips, at less than a euro per. What a time to be alive.

Extracting Salvinorin A is a start. From there one could, for instance, dissolve in acetone and vape it off an e-mesh. Like inhaling air. Salvia is disgusting sludge that absolutely cannot be trusted to be dosed with any reasonable accuracy, no plant material can, and it's nowhere near as forgiving as weed. It's akin to chopping up a toad and eating it to consume 5-MeO-DMT. I'd bet good money well over half of bad trips happen due to such factors. It's such a capricious molecule, there's not even a feasible way to make a synthetic version or convert it to salt.

But Leo how will listening to music deconstruct my rationality (it's actually very simple, just have one track play on repeat until literally starting to go insane. I once got stuck in a children's song 'Haenschen klein'. What a curious state of consciousness that was. For best results have the whole thing memorized, you'll smash your phone soon enough, but think twice about the head)

In the middle of rewatching this one, seems like a fantastic appetizer for the upcoming series.