LambdaDelta

Since you're in/from NZ, that reminds me how I invented, or at least popularized using a VPN to NZ for WEB-DLs of new movie releases. Before 2021 they'd mostly be sourced from AUS to leverage the timezone difference, and there aren't that many providers with servers in NZ, but after I beat every major group by at least 1.5hrs on Eva 3.0+1.0 people quickly transitioned to this method. The intelligence of evil

It's time we had a dedicated topic on this matter. Sources are irrelevant (personal experience, videos, books, research papers, movie scenes... any resource will do). Scams, cons, heists, etc. also welcome, but the subtler the better. The best theft not only goes wholly unnoticed, but has you thinking you gain something in return (e.g. clickbait). In the end, it all boils down to corruption. If a crocodile is the perfect animal to symbolize traps, for corruption it is the octopus. It can camouflage, release ink to literally muddy the waters, squeeze through any hole no matter how small; yet when its tentacles grab you, they won't let go. And there's 8 of them, so while you're busy fighting one or two or even 7, there's always another to nab you from behind. Plus it's slimy. This is exactly how self-deception operates. And what is theft if not (self-)deception? Except Maya has infinitely many tentacles, is so well-camouflaged it's indistinguishable from your perception, and is completely intangible. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/110777-octopus-awakening Here's a visual I generated for this thread, heavily 'inspired' by an image taken from the Europol website and fed into an AI trained on stolen data, with a slightly different color scheme, a background overlay of the world map, and a correct placement of different industries the octopus has its tentacles wrapped around. Drugs/pharma between USA & Mexico, financial schemes in the Caribbean tax havens, law in the western EU (The Hague, Euroclear, Geneva), oil in the GCC, and construction (or more broadly, manufacturing) in China/India/Bangladesh. It's rather interesting that they all align pretty closely in a straight line just above the Equator. As though the places above or below are of little importance, serving only as sources of extraction of value. But enough foreplay. I'll get us started with a personal story, at the risk of tarnishing my reputation or catching a ban. This one takes place within the microcosm of digital piracy, yet contains layers upon layers of theft, lies, self-deception, gaslighting, and exploitation. Got plenty more just like it, crazier and broader in fact. Even though the examples we'll hopefully assemble here are useful, truly understanding the depth of this matter requires massive and intimate real-life exposure to it, and even then most of it you'll never know due to factors beyond your control. Example 1: So just this little anecdote from a fairly niche domain illustrates the degree of prevalence and entanglement of the issue. The same pattern is present not only all over this planet, but across the infinite dimensions of reality. Unless you're unflinchingly prudent, it will get you. Especially when your guard is down. However, there exists a certain precipice where you see through all the deception with complete clarity and fall in love with it head over heels. But we'll leave that for the spirituality subforum. Some Actualized.org videos directly pertinent to the matter at hand: - How To Avoid Getting Scammed, Cheated, Exploited, Conned, and Screwed In Life - How Corruption Works - The Social Matrix - How Society Is A Mass Hallucination (fun fact: this one is somehow shadowbanned even on the direct channel page search; by keywords 'social' and 'matrix', 'hallucination' works) I'd also throw over a dozen others onto the list, but as already stated that won't be anywhere near enough. Now, let's get the ball rolling. Of particular interest is the theft you've personally committed or are committing. Sharing that publicly will do wonders for your shadow integration work. Who's up for that? Though first consider that this could all be an elaborate honeypot disguised as philosophy designed to trick people into openly confessing to their crimes.

In the rare event I cannot find an audiobook I create an Audible free trial account and rip it straight from there, the 1 credit they give can be recycled at least 3 times. Whether I had 1k or 400k in my bank account had no influence on this behavior, only the rate of content consumption changed over the years. Paying isn't even an issue most times, I often pay for stuff that I then rip all the same, 'cause money is just the surface layer. What matters more is infrastructure, convenience, preservation, and accessibility. In their naivety people don't consider that Leo could kick the bucket tomorrow, soon after which the Vimeo hosting charge will bounce, and there goes their access to the LP course, or any other online product sold by anyone. Probably very few here have taken the responsibility of backing up even simply the free public Actualized.org videos in an audio format with a quick yt-dlp script running as a cron job. One might say that it's still theft, just wrapped in reasonable-sounding justifications, and they'd be correct. Devilry can be conscious, but realistically it's damn near impossible to pull off without devolving into monstrous corruption, and even then you remain corrupt regardless.

Then please consider helping a fellow devil out by populating this thread with examples of your devilry

Liechtenstein, the kingdom of light

A+ for content, C for formatting But in seriousness, a fantastic summation with an encouraging conclusion. These blessings ain't free, they carry a serious responsibility and heavy duty to the machinery of Consciousness. God can strip them away or grant insane additional powers at a moment's notice, depending on how you behave. And yet the joy lies in voluntarily executing the tasks given to you no matter the cost; the highest point of spiritual mastery is walking through hell with a smile as you realize you're the one who wrote the entire codebase. Reminded me of this old post of mine (watch the movie btw, I'm sure you'll love it)

It's incredible how the post about women and sex generated almost 1.5 pages of discussion and counting, given that it's sandwiched between Quotes #391–392 that are far more significant, as it not only explains the sex stuff but infinitely more, and yet not a word on those in this thread so far. Perhaps the issue is precisely that they're too all-encompassing, so there's nothing to discuss/argue about. Ironically in pointing this out I'm still the exact same as everyone else, trapped in my own selfishness; the only reason I'm able to handwave away the topic of relationships is due to being asexual, whereas to others it's an actual serious matter. Delightful to see such a divergence of perspectives, especially considering we're all One thing.

You may be disappointed when you finally get to try it. Or not, everyone is different. For me mescaline and proscaline were so unremarkable I barely even remember anything about the experience. To the best of my recollection, there wasn't much of VC, they're on the lighter side of PEA body load. You can find synthetic mescaline sulfate btw. I only bought a gram of each, perhaps that's why it was so mediocre. But if a substance requires shoving hundreds of mgs down your throat to have a significant effect, that usually means it's simply not a very good one, with very few exceptions. Most likely there'll exist some close analogue that's an order of magnitude more potent. To wit, both 2C-B and 2C-E are part of the "magical half-dozen" of PEAs, together with mescaline, as per Shulgin.

Well, at best it will just be an unpleasant background nuisance. Mind over matter doesn't fly here. Even being unable to control auditory hallucinations while in absolute God-realization is possible (in general, on any substance), Consciousness is weird like that. But if the trip goes sideways the body load will surely add fuel to the fire, creating a vicious circle. Puking on that 30mg 2C-E and similarly with a bunch of DXM just wasted the trip and gave me a headache, no other negative effects per se. If you take too much the body might auto-reject it. Then again, oftentimes it's immediately after puking that people start rolling hard as fuck on MDMA. But the mechanisms there are different. I haven't experienced vasoconstriction in a long time due to a variety of factors — switching ROA to IM, barely doing any phenethylamines, and getting/producing higher quality substances, among others.

It's quite intense, with a steep dose-response curve. A few extra mg can make the difference between fun & games and existential terror. I have a good amount saved, it's still one of the better substances out there; pity it's a rarity these days. 'Real trouble' simply means body load and vasoconstriction specifically. On 30mg I had to puke and was overheating. The DOx are even harsher and just last way too long, days for some people, never more than 20h for me, but past even 10 any trip gets annoying and lukewarm. Psychedelic amphetamines as a class are rather pointless overall, save for a few exceptions like MDMA; either do psychedelics or amphetamines, not their retarded child. More like it just has a darker vibe to it, it's to 2C-B what DPT is to DMT. But some prefer that, myself included. For fat egos and generally immature people it sure feels like a bad trip though. In the EU at least there's plenty of online pharmacies that sell prescription meds that are OTC or just stolen in, let's say, less developed member states. RC benzos aren't as easy to come by these days as they used to, but can still be found on the clearnet. Sounds about right, 20mg is often rather light even for amateurs; Leo just has an abnormal sensitivity to all psychs.

Prescription with an asterisk. Here in Spain ADHD treatment is totally antiquated, especially for adults. Best case scenario they give you methylphenidate for 70€/mo even subsidized, which produces nasty effects for me. So despite not having ADHD officially diagnosed, its severity is all too obvious, so I self-medicate. Had a close call with serious addiction, but it's under control now. I buy lab-tested d-meth of 99% purity. The main effect is simply amazing clarity and focus, as well as fluidity of mind, no libido increase or any of that nonsense; hence baseline, it doesn't affect my perception in weird ways or make me manic. Still, can't recommend anyone do this even in a similar situation. What you said about Kriya before the edit is interesting, I do basically zero spiritual techniques of this sort, and the only times I seriously tried (shamanic breathing and meditation), I went into full-blown delirium two for two. Which ain't a bad experience by any means, I'll experiment with actual anticholinergics this year, it just wasn't directly conducive to my understanding of reality so I never bothered to try again. But maybe soon time will come to revisit some of these more traditional methods.

As powerful as some of the classics like LSD or 5-MeO's at that dose. Lesson is if you take enough of almost any psychoactive, it could launch you into God-consciousness all the same. Whether you'll survive the ordeal is a separate matter. Posted my old trip report, check it out if interested: Not ideal, at this point you just have to see how trustworthy the source is. 30-35mg is a good starting dose for someone experienced with other psychedelics. Cut it out regardless, but for vasoconstriction specifically it's good practice to have something like clonidine around, plus benzos/antipsychotics as emergency trip killers. 2C-B is pretty light though, the real trouble starts at 2C-E, DOx, and NBMOes. Possible. I've seen everything from people accidentally snorting 200mg and simply drowning in a sea of visuals, which is child's play next to my 120mg or even Leo's 20mg. Depends on quality of one's consciousness, but also there's a pretty definite ceiling via receptor affinity levels and such.

Probably closer to 100μg tbh. THC seems to potentiate other substances almost exponentially. We'll see it how it goes when I get my THCA isolate. For now I can't imagine it having a psychedelic effect other than dirty confusion. Then again, for me methamphetamine is psychedelic & the best tool for increasing baseline consciousness. An utterly insane statement to 99% of people, and for good reason; if they tried to replicate this they'd sorely regret it, at which point it would already be too late. Genetics is such a volatile field, you never know what to expect, which's why it's so fascinating.

A rather old trip report, from nearly 2 years ago. Pretty powerful nonetheless; I'll throw it in here as to not pollute the thread I'm referencing it in with a wall of text.

There are no old/new labs, only LL. Either your current vendor stored it badly, or they bought crystal base and laid it on blotter themselves, with sloppy technique &or underdosed. But you should also just keep it sublingual regardless. The 1x-'s are still nowhere near the potency of the original, their creator admits as much himself, which is very integrous of him.

Mentioned here already, but Bugonia is awesome. Acting, cinematography, editing & sound design, all the gaslighting and psychological mind games; manages to keep the tension the whole way through. A breath of fresh air amidst all the garbage being pumped out. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt12300742/

Eh, it's alright. If that's all you have access to, it's still better than nothing. Though if it's sourced from darknet markets and especially in pressed form, it's difficult to assess the purity. Phenethylamines in general carry a more notable body load due to vasoconstriction, while rarely providing anything special that can't be had from tryptamines. Not entirely worthless by any means, but never my first choice. 2C-B is one of the most forgiving in that regard as well as tolerance-wise. I did have my first complete awakening to Solipsism on 2C-B, but that was with 120mg, which regular people shouldn't push. Otherwise it's pretty decent as a sort of training wheels psychedelic, but then again so can 4-HO-MET and the like.

Hahahaha, that's a good one. Every country has a dark and violent history, Croatia is no exception:

But seriously, Leo seems to have fallen into a trap he once pointed out himself — starting too many projects at once. And when he said he's done making promises, which in itself is a promise of sorts, several promises have been made and also not delivered since then. Maybe a rewatch of "How to get shit done" is in order, where Leo says that talk is cheap — first go do it then come talk about it. I understand there's a business to run, so some hype/marketing has to be generated, but when nothing ends up delivered it's a bad look; not announcing anything at all would've been preferable. "Corruption of Actualized.org" would be an interesting meta-addition. There's endless examples of the abyss between the teachings and how 99% of users apply them. Plus more of Leo's own corruption; the personal exposé in Psychology of Being Wrong was a good start, but not enough. Where's the list of all the evil stuff? Wrong and evil are somewhat different. When I was the only one to post that list publicly it got deleted, probably for being too explicit. But if we profess to care about truth so much, that goes against the spirit of the work. Drag all the filth out, no matter how painful; that's the best way to combat corruption. Though at a certain point, it's understood that corruption is an absolute metaphysical necessity, and giving up or continuing to fight after that realization are both corruption in their own unique ways. But even if Leo doesn't deliver, there's always DIY contemplation & learning to test how much you truly understand the other lessons.

In Barcelona you can meet our boy @Davino. Mountains around Madrid are the best, only rivaled by some places in the north. But it's no catastrophic miss by any stretch. It's pretty quiet in the little pueblos and mostly old folk, but at certain times of the day people go out to hang out at bars and whatnot, so it's not totally dead. Starting around end of June I'll be down south in the Marbella-Malaga area to visit family, let's see how it goes. In any case wish you a fun and eventful journey.

Ironic how this is framed as reductio ad absurdum, when in fact it's a tautology on par with "existence exists" and exactly how reality 'came to be'. God created itself, causality, limitation, and separation.

As in creating itself. DNA replication inside you is God creating itself, you forming thoughts/ideas while reading this or doing whatever else is God creating itself. Same for nuclear fusion powering stars and whatnot, but it goes far beyond the material; God also creates time, mathematical truths and their discovery. Any process and state is created by God through imagination. It creates every distinction too, such as organic vs. inorganic, life vs. death. Someone biologically alive and in otherwise perfect health can feel soul-dead (depressed) as they're God unconsciously creating a perception of reality as negative or meaningless. The more this is understood and integrated into baseline consciousness, the more alive one feels.

Even ignoring bypass of first-pass metabolism and faster absorption via sublingual, LSD in particular is very weak to chlorine (though these 1-acyl substitutes are slightly more resistant), which is far more present in the stomach (from tap water or whatever else) than in the mouth. When dealing with blotters I tend to keep them under different sides of the tongue, occasionally chewing for a bit before finally swallowing after 20-25 minutes. The entire 1x-LSD series was created and manufactured by Lizard Labs, since they closed down it's not produced anymore. So the only difference switching a vendor could make is if one stores theirs really poorly, otherwise it comes from the same lab and likely even batch. Despite being direct prodrugs of LSD, none of them hold a candle to original, quality LSD-25. 450μg of 1P-LSD is a joke next to 150μg of LSD-25. @Davino can confirm. Figure 7 comparing subjective effects in the study linked by @PsychedelicEagle shows this quite clearly. It's a shame that the vast majority sold is impure and inaccurately dosed, oftentimes by a factor of 2 or more, and as such very few dosages given in trip reports are to be trusted. Lastly, LSD tolerance & cross-tolerance is some of the most insidious out there, requiring at minimum 2 weeks to fully reset.

I experience permanent DMT tolerance, so consider yourself lucky