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That's what everyone suggests, and it works for most, but there are always edge cases. I do intense and perilous things all the time, that's how I first got into serious spirituality. My sensitivity is broken on many levels and regardless of the degree of intensity it never lasts. There is a way to make it permanent, through pure insanity. Otherwise, that's the sort of condition I live with. Given the infinite potential freakery of Consciousness, it's hardly surprising that such a thing exists. Awakening is a remedy, but no cure; it's a lifelong treatment process. Even seeing God's intelligent design in everything gets boring, believe it or not. Leo calls existence Miracle, and it is, but simultaneously it's a Certainty. Eventually all realizations come to that, and there's nothing interesting about certainty. So forgetting is fundamental to God experiencing its miraculousness. Only the oblivion of death is capable of dissolving ennui this dense. What people like me need is not more intensity, it's more not-knowing and venturing into utterly alien realms of Consciousness. It's not all bad though, there's advantages like rapid progression, lack of attachment, and abnormal risk tolerance.

Too much to explicate on that. The benefits and pitfalls of religion are fairly obvious and known, I'd just be regurgitating stuff. I read loads of texts from a variety of mystical traditions, they certainly enhance the spiritual experiences. I've directly experienced myself as YHWH, ΑΩ, Teōtl, etc. as well as grasped things like sanctity of life at the most fundamental level. In the end these are more like supplements that provide new perspectives on God, but they are not the absolutes. The value is poetic and artistic. It's about furthering creative expression and appreciation of God's Beauty. But you cannot, for instance, derive true morality through any scripture, religion, or tradition. At best they'll just provide a few hints.

What a strange conclusion to make, nothing I said suggests that. Though you do need some logic. How would you even know to look beyond the words in the first place? Or filtering out the noise? The point was not about you, it's highlighting much broader issues, yet you keep going on about your personal approach. Which nobody denied the validity of, so there's no need to get defensive. Truth needs no defense after all.

Here's some simple ones I found today. Just a quick exercise. The second half are a little more involved. https://lichess.org/training/aXw2V https://lichess.org/training/qoALR https://lichess.org/training/0D7DU https://lichess.org/training/O7zUv https://lichess.org/training/1GS05 https://lichess.org/training/GEo5v https://lichess.org/training/QyKaJ https://lichess.org/training/JgwzW https://lichess.org/training/QdGLd https://lichess.org/training/3ua8k https://lichess.org/training/Btv3a

It's in the name — 'ratio', or fraction, which is not the whole. Arithmetically, 'rational' is just "expressible in finite terms", so of course that cannot be done for the infinite. But there is a higher-order rationality where every fraction is a whole and finite terms are revealed to be infinite.

You should still take notes after each one, lest you forget important details. But small unstructured snippets aren't worth anyone's time, including your own. It is best to gradually accumulate and integrate your insights on a particular aspect, or better yet deeply interconnect several of them in a single glorious overarching writeup. You're guaranteed to learn a ton in the process, plus it's more efficient and futureproof too. Personally, I'm no longer going to publish individual reports, unless it's to share information about some novel substance/dosage/ROA and whatnot, for science. The contents, unless properly articulated, can only serve as mild entertainment.

I sure wish my memory was worse sometimes, remembering too many details is a significant contributor to boredom.

Such Christians are few and far between. Most have not even read the Bible, or do it in an extremely sloppy way. In Luke 18:19 you refer to he doesn't necessarily reject that he is good, he asks why the guy thinks he is good. It can be read as denial, but also as a rhetorical question pointing to how he is indeed God. Conversely, there is John 14:6 — Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”. Read literally, this invites worship; but metaphorically, if Jesus is Love, Father is Truth, and the Holy Spirit is Will, what he says is exactly right, that's what the Trinity is. Seeing it that way requires a God-realization though. There's a number of different interpretations for any given passage in all scripture, which is precisely the issue. Interpretation by default is corrupt and no method is taught for how to correct that, the few that are lead to further corruption. Necessarily so, since the absolutes are noninterpretable. Not knowing what it is you have a relationship with will not end well. It would be more accurate to say that the God most people have a relationship with is actually the Devil. The best Bible verses are nowhere to be found in the lists of most quoted/popular ones, instead they're filled with nonsense about God protecting, guiding, and forgiving you, which is what people truly care about; it is used to excuse their sinfulness cloaked in false humility. "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is — his good, pleasing and perfect will". Isn't this the essence of Actualized.org in a few words? And yet all Christian explanations of it miss the mark entirely. So the general problem exists and is worth pointing out, but if Christianity or another tradition helps deepen your spiritual connection that's great, it's as it should be.

Unless I'm missing a different one; rook to h3, pawn takes, knight g4, f3 pawn takes, and queen takes queen. But that 'wins the queen' only in the strictest sense of the word, after that knight takes rook and black is set to lose no matter what. There exists no other winning sequence for black than the queen sac. White dug its grave with that queen d8 move; should've taken the rook right away, then it's game over.

There is a special edition of the Bible that uses red text to indicate direct quotes of Jesus. Rather sneaky, initially it seems like a good idea. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_letter_edition

Qxh2 was the first thing that popped into mind without even fully examining the board, but for whatever reason it didn't seem right; too deceptively simple perhaps. So I started calculating various positions from Rxg2 until it was apparent that there's too many pieces on that square no matter how you slice it. Went back to the initial idea, and turns out it's a checkmate straight after rook to h3. Funny how intuition works. I knew pinning would have to be involved, but didn't see the most obvious place.

Sure don't. Most often it just comes preinstalled, like religion. There's lots of balanced options to be found, you could even dual boot. But it now becomes more of a matter of ignorance. Lots of people don't know what an OS even is, or that there exist any others besides Windows. There's still people in my university classes searching document text with their eyes and sharing 'screenshots' that are photos of their screen. I vaguely remember seeing a video where they switched some people's computers to Linux skinned as Windows and hardly anyone noticed the difference. Naturally, conformity and ignorance are deeply intertwined, but one can be more pronounced in a given situation.

Far be it from me to criticize the guy since I'm undisciplined and inconsistent, plus he seems collected and thoughtful when he's not putting on a loudmouth persona in one of his motivational speeches. His achievements and mental fortitude are undeniably extremely impressive, but none of it moves me in the slightest. It's simple personality and intention misalignment. For someone of phlegmatic temperament and insecure volition, there's next to nothing to take away from Goggins besides the bare essential universal principles of growth, endurance, and overcoming limits. The combative language (armor, war, beat down, competitor... from the first 20s or so) just doesn't resonate, my perception of the world is fundamentally different. Guess I'm also lacking in the masculine, haha. But it is certainly valuable if you have high levels of outward ambition and a desire to prove yourself. As far as mastering one's mind goes, figures like Jung, Ralston, or Leo are infinitely more inspiring to me; in fact these techniques are more flexible and can yield similar results if directed that way.

Counterexample: refusing to use Windows. So much of the FOSS/privacy activism is conformity. The subtle or sometimes not so libertarian ideologies they share, using LibreOffice and other inferior alternatives just cause they aren't made by Microsoft, rendering many websites half-functional due to overly aggressive JavaScript blocking, getting outraged at Google ToS changes without investigating whether it'll actually affect them, showing off neofetch screenshots... Windows is still extremely customizable through registry tweaks. It's not quite kernel level control, but sufficient to make it highly personalized and largely devoid of bloat. Pair that with WSL and maybe a remote headless Linux server, and you got the best of every world.

It's the same when spiritual people talk about 'sacred duty to reality' and whatnot. There's no such thing. Duty is just easier to handle since it's limited in scope, but it's an artificial concealment of other options. Such an attitude betrays a lack of trust in oneself and a misunderstanding of what Love/Goodness/Sovereignty, and a slew of other facets are. Oftentimes there's a double standard: easy decisions are framed as voluntary, done out of the goodness of their heart; but when it's complicated or costly, they fall back to the duty explanation.

What's the structure of _ ? How are _ and _ similar; how are they different? What am I missing? Why am I doing this? Why do I want to know? What am I? How can I be more loving? Where and how am I fooling myself? How do I know anything? Is _ aligned with truth; to what degree? What are the biases/hidden assumptions? How to inquire deeper?

I went to an opera this week. Everyone was wearing the same formal attire, people paid 30€ for a glass of champagne, and applauded just because others around were doing it even when they obviously didn't truly feel like it. All of high society is one giant conformity, and Britain of the Victorian era is its most extreme caricature. Doing anything whatsoever out of obligation is conformity.

Sounds fun! How vexing that this molecule eludes me still. Should you meet a serpent, ask about me. If it's the right kind, it'll know, and might tell a fascinating story, provided you have nayuta years to spare.

Try it intramuscularly before moving on. I was in a similar situation, the 5-MeO's and base tryptamines simply would not work or at best have some pathetic, short-lasting effect. I've tried vaporized, insufflated, and rectal multiple times with different batches, all a waste. Then I experimented with IM and everything clicked, now these substances are among my most used. 5mg of 5-MeO's could be a breakthrough, 8+ definitely is, and I have a low sensitivity to every psychoactive. It is not guaranteed to work, DMT still has zero effect on me, but the others were fixed. Do not use freebase for this under any circumstance, pure HCl or another salt is required. https://www.reddit.com/r/5MeODMT/comments/1bhtmum/warning_my_experience_with_rapid_onset_cataract/

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Right-o, the capacity for endless doubt, delusion, and falsification only further proves the infinitude. Past verifying, the next issue is understanding how those things work on a technical level. Virtually nobody understands the working of time on a 'micro-level', beyond "God imagines it" and how it plays into the grand scheme of reality. Trouble is each of those things is a nested infinity unto itself, and inseparably intertwined with all the others. So finitude itself is a deception. The absolutes are so clear-cut cuase they're immutable, singular, and cannot be 'poisoned' by relativity. Still, an incredible intuition leap takes place when you do.

I have no experience with 3, but it shouldn't be all that different from 4-MMC, which is regarded as even better. There you don't want to go over, say, 500mg per session, and only do them once every couple of months. Most important is hydration and cooling your body with cold water. Plus supplementation, this one's for MDMA but most things overlap between them https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/15m9sf/mdma_supplementation/ You'll probably find more info on r/researchchemicals than here.

Thanks! I wouldn't say this was a particularly integration heavy trip, since it's more of a test drive of a new substance and an appetizer for a major one the following day. Walking around in such a state would almost certainly be an impediment, but I can envision a scaled down version of it that can be utilized on the daily. My main takeaways have been a rekindling of passion for languages, creative writing, and symbolic expressions of all sorts. Plus a reminder about the importance of not-knowing. Now I'm gradually implementing that as regular practices, in addition to constantly ingesting knowledge of all kinds in a holistic manner. It's a delicate balance to strike, still working on that, but I'm already starting to see reality for the alive, intelligent system that it is with more consistency. To make time for all that, I'll also have to part ways with many dear distractions, but it'll be worthwhile. It all comes together in another report I need to publish, but even there it's a bit early to speak of tangible changes in my routine and whatnot, I'm currently finishing up the consolidation of all the structural changes to my mind's operation.

My first experience with the substance, and perhaps the first report on its use intramuscularly: Firstly, a bit of context: I've been away from spirituality the past 3 months, actively avoiding it and getting into trouble in various ways, for interesting reasons I'll share elsewhere; until finally last week a sudden tectonic shift in consciousness occured, which rendered running away from God untenable. Still, coming back, particularly to psychedelics, was scary, and I backed out several times. But ultimately one way or another fear had to be overcome with love. IM'd 3.5mg, starting moderately to be safe – good call, this kiddie dose turned out to be a major experience. Some 'objective' data: the onset is within 3-4 minutes, then comeup is another 5-7, characterized by elevated HR and several potentially psychosomatic effects such as a feeling of hunger reminiscent of being sick to your stomach. After this initial discomfort, which mustn't be resisted, it settles into a very stable and smooth experience, as though this is your new baseline level of consciousness. The peak lasts around 30 minutes, after which it starts gradually and subtly dissipating until ceasing after ~90 minutes in total. Compared to 5-MeO-DMT, which doesn't work on me in the same way it does on most, I would call MALT much more consciousness oriented, whereas 5MD is yogic, energetic, somatic, etc., which actually makes it unique among all the substances, it operates on Being in a very distinct yet important way separate from mind. I imagine at breakthrough levels 5MD would white me out and result in more of a No-Self/Nothingness experiences rather than Infinite Consciousness. Also 5MD carries a heavier body load and is occasionally sore at the injection site, something I've only noticed with Ketamine, this is independent of causticity, another factor is at play. I'm staring at the homescreen on my tablet, first the Gmail icon, when suddenly my mind connects with all the email accounts I ever had, how I created them, all the messages contained within. Then it's the audiobook player app, I cognize all the files, their encoder/container, size in bytes on disk, the methods by which they were decrypted, holding the entire encryption 'space' – RSA, AES, EC... and of course the contents of the books, the life stories of their authors and narrators. Next is the to-do widget, with items written in Russian. Through those Cyrillic characters I take a quick dip into compsci again by blazing through UTF-8 and then there's the entire history of Russia like an open book. Mind is a compression algorithm of infinite potency, the whole of reality is readily available exactly where you are, only a change of state is required to start unzipping it. Small caveat, even though I describe it all sequentially, it's not really structured that way, some parts are retroactively added and expanded by simply recalling them at a later point, because in those states time is simply irrelevant, it hardly matters whether to pull from the present, distant memories, or several months into the future. This has become something of theme in my deepest psychedelic voyages and it'd say it's an important step towards jailbreaking the mind. My focus shifts to Love, I begin with feeling the affection of my mother's genuine concern in my heart, then quickly expand outwards until it's crystal clear that the exact same feeling underpins every act of hate and violence currently happening in the world. More obvious than that we're on planet Earth! In fact, are we? I turn my gaze towards the window in which the reflections of the headlights of the cars driving down in the street can be seen, and enter a state of not-knowing. I remove the notion of cars, only the mystery and beauty of the multicolored lights flashing before my eyes remain. After that, several minutes are spent admiring my hand, or more precisely the intelligence that animates its motion and sensations, with all the infinite background that appears to enable this. I take a moment to appreciate how science, utilized correctly, enhances spirituality immensely. Metabolism, optics, 4 fundamental forces, matrices, calcium ion channels, topology, polarity, measurement, engineering, the list goes on. It's quite amazing to look at a computer in such a state where you can fuse all the understanding that powers what a computer is, from how the kernel is written to the way our eyes perceive luma and chroma. In the same way, tripping on a psychedelic becomes something else when you study the neuropharmacology and chemistry behind it. And yet the mystery doesn't go away, in fact it only deepens. I briefly held the ambition of fully grasping and articulating just how these substances raise consciousness to infinity and then without fail modulate it back down, irrespective of how beyond brains and time you go, before quickly realizing that even if I manage to get all that, to explain it I'd have to explain all of reality with infinite context, which is by definition impossible. Though Truth can bypass this limitation by having insight into itself directly, Nothingness is fundamental to that. Finished off with a fascinating experience of endlessly zooming into the wood planks that make up my floor, while simultaneously observing myself doing that from a bird's eye view of sorts, as though an eye looking into a microscope so far it loops back to seeing itself from above. So this was a nice first glance back into the realm of God-consciousness and this chemical in particular, which I now consider some of the very best available, of those I've sampled thus far. P.S.: I have really strong opinions regarding the IM route, to me it's patently clear at this point that the other methods are just barbaric and inefficient in comparison. Yes, you can raise valid concerns about purity and sterility, but all that is solvable with some effort. There's a reason IM & IV are used in hospitals. I distinctly remember having to deconstruct the massive stigma surrounding it, I too used to think this is pathetic junkie stuff, and stepping over it was quite uncomfortable, but I'm so happy to have been wrong on this issue. So I highly encourage to keep an open mind. Part of the reason hardly anyone is reaching levels of consciousness Leo talks about is wrong route, his abnormal sensitivity offsets that, but it won't for a regular person. Just look at Shulgin's notes and dosages with 5-MeO-DMT vaporized vs. IV. It's regrettable seeing people plugging 20mg and getting nowhere near where I, insensitive as a rock, manage to with a dose you can't even measure with your ridiculous scoops.

Framing it is as important as experiencing, I'd say