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There's no problem with it, as long as you don't make this your identity, a 'traveler' or 'instagram influencer', or as you said constant escapism. It can be very fulfilling, fun, a learning opportunity to understand very different cultures, in some places it's almost like you're on another planet. There's time for solitary introspection, and time to explore the world. And ultimately, when the distinction between you and other collapses, outwards will become inwards and vice-versa. Looking at all the mountains and jungles and oceans you'll be seeing the beauty of your own Self.

The 5-MeO baggie must make your gf jealous

Being conscious of how you Will every single of those air molecules you're breathing into being is a good start.

That's a very common effect, it's the same for me. About the only thing 5-MeO did for me, but very important.

If you're as bad as I was, you don't even have to start in-person. Call businesses and such, ask about whatever - opening hours, pricing, stock, how to get there... That's a bit less taxing, you can always hang up and go to the next, going through dozens of calls in a day. Say hello to bus drivers, make some small talk with cashiers, at the bank, etc. Then approach random strangers on the street, nothing emotionally charged yet, just asking directions or something. After you get very comfortable in that (it's like a snowball effect, starts slow and then one day you suddenly break through to zero anxiety), maybe join a club/group of some hobby, like chess or hiking, there you can get to know people and already have some common ground, from which you can move on to talking about other things. Speak up at family gatherings, in class, whatever situation you're in. Lastly if you care to take it further, do pickup or talk up people out of the blue. But just doing all of the above en masse for 7-8 years has taken me from crippling social anxiety to being able to talk to anyone with complete confidence. Can be done much faster too, depends on your current level and the time you can commit.

Because their 'aura' is so intense it penetrates through the fat devil that everyone is straight to the God within, making a temporary divine connection, which is transformative, even if you later slip back into ego dynamics. Leo says about the same thing in What is Integrity. The geniuses and rulers invent and enable material prosperity, which's great, but not what people truly want, so it ends up being taken for granted. Also they build on top of one another, while awakening only requires one's own mind. It's not that people don't care about awakening and God per se, it just seems so outlandish, difficult, and scary, that most take the more 'reasonable/grounded' path of attaining happiness through material pursuits, which counter-intuitively gets them nowhere. To care about Truth requires a certain degree of innate intuition, wisdom, and also faith. Or a radical experience that transforms you and sets you on the path.

Come over and I'll share some. Got 5g last month.

No, not the kind of Alien Mind (Mouse) Leo talks about. Rather a less advanced version of it, more practical than spiritual, a liminal space between human cognition and something otherworldly. Still, it's majorly distinct from regular states of consciousness. Over the past 2 years, I tried 60+ psychoactive substances. For the most part, they're different flavors of the same thing, but a few really stand out. I'll discuss one such chemical here, its effects are so unique I couldn't replicate them with anything else. It is O-PCE, a dissociative, a class that isn't discussed much if at all here, and that's unfortunate, since they can be as powerful, if not more so in some aspects, than classic tryptamine/lysergamide psychedelics. I don't expect many people to follow up on this or even be able to find it (it's very rare outside the EU), but that's okay. First I'll list some of the main effects I got, and then describe the technicalities. Crossing games like sudoku, chess, and others, and coming up with the best moves for each within the combined board/grid. Entering a black void where there's no sensory input/output, concepts arise directly in the mind. Paradoxically, this is where true visualization can happen, Tesla-level. A twisted multimodal way of thinking wherein asking a question like "What would Jesus do in a given situation?" shows the number 4 arising out of the darkness, and an octahedron forming from it. The answer is decoded as "something that a human can't conceive of". Multifold amplification of recall ability. Being able to retrace paths I hiked perfectly, along with what thoughts I was thinking or what I was listening to at the time. Same with car routes and the like. Enhanced mapping where I can bring to mind customs regulations of multiple EU countries, create a map with nodes, find similarities, connections, and ultimately business opportunities within those. Something like this. Multi-window perception of time (past, present, future), as well as of various avatars/parallel realities. This has ripple effects such as fractured causality - events lose their before/after relationship. A conclusion appears in the mind before the premise is formulated. A good visual example of how this feels like: Stepping out of own's identity and introspecting objectively, as if you were reading a book, largely solving the ego entanglement issues. Dimensional folding - existing between two spaces, as a flat plane with no third dimension. A bit like Funny Valentine. Similarly, spatial inversion, I 'look' within myself to 'see' the world, it's kind of like headspace, but more warped, akin to a Klein bottle. Naturally, neither language nor my use of it are capable of faithfully describing such things, but that's what we have to work with. Now for the other information. The optimal ROA for this chemical, the only one to produce such effects, is vaping. All the others are nothing like it, mostly similar to your regular dissos. I use an e-mesh to vape it, that is the best way, but people also have success with simple oil burners (meth pipes). I'll only be talking about the e-mesh here. User maxpechura has left very comprehensive instructions regarding the mesh in this thread, big props for that. You can also see this video. The optimal mode I found is power, with the wattage range of 13-17W. If you've crushed the crystals into fine powder well, you won't really need to go above 15. I typically do 14. Set an setting matter very much, it is a fickle chemical. It almost demands you being in complete darkness and silence. Also a clean mesh is crucial, I change mine basically after every session, the difference in intensity is major. Do a deep inhale, keep the vapor inside for ~20s, exhale, wait a little and repeat if you want to go deeper. Close your eyes. For someone without a tolerance (which can build quickly), even 15mg might be enough to dissolve into hyperspace, so start cautiously. The dosages for insufflated ROA on PsychonautWiki map quite accurately to vaping. Final miscellaneous notes, it's not a physically addictive substance, but can be psychologically so, so make sure to take sufficient breaks. Similar to MDMA, over time some of the 'magic' can be lost if you abuse it. Plus, being a salt form (though one that vapes really well), you don't want a lot of it in your lungs, it leaves a nasty residue. Haven't tried freebasing it, could be something to consider. That about does it. I have some exciting things to share regarding psychedelics, when the time is right - if I live to tell the tale.

There's really nothing to compare it to like that, that's why it's so unique. Simply by virtue of structural similarity there's some aspects like hole doses of ketamine, it's not even body relaxation, the notion of a body is removed. 5-MeO doesn't really work on me, but I can surmise it's a very different kind of consciousness, not a unitive infinity. No geometric visuals and such. What I put in the post is about the best descriptions I'm able to give. Combining it with other substances seems counterproductive. Physically there's no bodyload, just progressively louder tinnitus on the comeup as all dissos have, which then fades perfectly into the background. Vapor isn't harsh at all, has a unique smell/taste that I've learned to appreciate. Afterglow is a bit of a downside, there's a degree of residual stimulation, some confusion, mania, similar to PCP/PCE analogues . Best is either doing it during the day with all blinds shut, or if you can power through a few hours of comedown trying to sleep, you'll get the craziest dreams, basically a continuation of the trip. Haha, that was a good one!

Not really, unless they have connections to the marketplace admins. It's much more complicated to create fake reviews on those platforms than Trustpilot and similar. Reddit and forums prohibit all sourcing related discussions, so you don't have much to go off on. But on Dread there's no such limitations, exit scams, fake reviews, data leaks, etc. are quickly detected and reported.

https://www.rijksoverheid.nl/actueel/nieuws/2025/01/28/eerste-kamer-stemt-voor-designerdrugsverbod Effective on July 1, 2025. 6 months remain. Netherlands is the largest, for all intents and purposes only producer of research chemicals and even many classic already illegal psychedelics in the EU. While at the moment this amendment largely targets trashy substances (stimulants, synthetic cannabinoids) for junkies, some good phenethylamines such as the 2C-x class are also affected. The law also allows for expedited banning of entire substance groups in the future, no more year-long debates. Last but not least, a lot of vendors are expected to shut down, as said trashy substances make up a large portion of their revenue. The most prominent lab in the EU, Lizard Labs, responsible for producing pretty much all tryptamines and dissociatives on the market has closed last month. The US will also be affected, even though Canada has its own largely independent RC market, it's not as diverse, so expect even less variety and higher prices. I expect plenty of analogues to pop up regardless, but they're getting progressively worse as legal options run out. I've stocked up on pretty much everything I could want and put it into deep freeze, that way I can't be caught off guard. If you care and can afford it, consider doing the same, especially if liquidation discounts come up.

@Schizophonia did you end up trying it? To me it's basically the same as 3-MeO-PCE. There's like 6 substances in this subclass with nearly identical names. O-PCE interestingly enough is more similar to the legendary MXE (3-MeO-2'-Oxo-PCE). O-PCE is that without the 3-MeO part.

A lot of the chemicals being banned right now are actually pretty dangerous. Cathinones, amphs, fentalogs, synthetic cannabinoids. Very addictive and potentially deadly. You can see all the degeneracy people get up to on them on Reddit. The psychedelic part of this current ban is collateral damage, as every phenethylamine under the sun is included. Although even those are more unpredictable compared to other classes due to increased vasoconstriction. This is a blanket ban to avoid analogues popping up. Sets a dangerous precedent though, my best guess is pyros are next. It's not a particularly useful policy, things are just going to move to the darknet. Some politicians are too ignorant to understand this, others simply want to sweep the issue under the rug away from the public eye. Main trouble here is that shops will start to shut down as selling only a couple permitted chemicals isn't very profitable.

Lately each of my nightly dream sessions is a psychedelic trip unto itself. When falling asleep, I get a moderately intense ringing in my ears, and a feeling of sinking into the bed, or more accurately my mind. This began after about a year of daily use of Zolpidem for making the dreams more vivid. At some point I decided to quit, and after a difficult period of re-learning to fall asleep on my own, a new dimension opened up. Chemical-enhanced dreams don't hold a candle to the ones I get now. Whether it's slipping into total delirium, exploring the fluidity of consciousness, using Leo's voice to narrate insights to myself, previewing small snippets of the future, or tapping into bottomless creativity to generate and watch entire YouTube channels filled to the brim with impeccably edited multi-hour essays on topics of interest, there's never a dull time. This last point about creativity is particularly valuable, currently I have little conscious control or understanding of how I'm doing any of this, but if I can get some grasp of the mechanics, great things can come from it. Tonight in my dream I took ketamine, tripped for a bit, woke up, and continued tripping despite being completely sober. That's some freaky stuff, feels beyond lucid dreaming, like the line between several very different states of consciousness is dissolved, creating a unique blend. You spend 1/3 of your day sleeping, so use that time productively

Doing this for 3 years, until I'm 27. Nothing will change per se, I wasn't doing any of that to begin with, except masturbation, which I'm attempting to eliminate. However this decision brings the needed clarity. I'm blessed with a much lower sex drive than most men, honestly I don't even know how guys with regular libido manage to do any serious spiritual work, that's such a major distraction. Even greatly toned down, it's an immensely powerful force, which occasionally serves to annoy me, like a pebble in my shoe. I'm stuck between wanting some action, but not enough to actually commit any resources or time to pursuing it. Maybe once a month or so I'll have thoughts about how it would be nice to get a girlfriend, fantasize a little, but that's a highly idealized version, the real relationship would be quite different, if it's anything like the ones I see around I'm not interested. Now I'm making things very simple. I'll focus on material success, sports, academics, and spirituality, and in 3 years revisit the matter. Depending on my situation and level of desire then, I can consider actually investing the time in dating and such. If not, postpone again. This is one of the things I feel like I'd be comfortable to have regrets about missing out on. Life is so vast you can't realistically do everything you want, so there's a need to prioritize. If I don't achieve certain mystical milestones or travel across multiple countries on my list, those will be far more significant than not having sex or relationships. I guess the key takeaway here is that there's a sneaky difference between keeping your options open and indecision. In some situations it's actually better to be close-minded if done consciously.

I wouldn't be so sure. The most simple solution can be the best one. The core of the issue has been indecisiveness, the rest should fall into place as I go along. But I'm open to being wrong, it's an experiment. For sure. Some people don't fit into that system, but God has larger concerns. I've even found some ways this force gets co-opted by the ego for its avoidance mechanisms. Tricky stuff.

My 2¢ as one of those hermit-like people that resonate with the post: I had to work very hard for 8 years since age 15 to get over major social anxiety (like being scared of calling the ISP to ask a question bad). This culminated in being able to now talk to absolutely anyone, everything nice and cordial. Basically spiral wizardry. Possibly some genetic component got activated in the process, as my dad made tens of millions brokering deals, one of the best negotiators you could find anywhere, but I digress. This was undoubtedly vital, an investment that will pay off for the remainder of my life. But now there's no point in taking it further, only maintenance. The more I develop, the larger the rift between me and others, and it's up to me to bridge that gap, since it's like a one-way street, doesn't work from the other end. That appears effortless in the moment, but it takes its toll later on. Occasionally interacting with 'child of man' can be refreshing, fun, and enjoyable, especially after long periods of isolation. But 'fun' and 'enjoyable' are much weaker words than 'bliss', 'Love', 'joy', which I get when being with God. I've had deeper connections to inanimate objects than to people. This is utterly inconceivable to anyone I tell it to, so they attempt to rationalize it somehow by projecting onto me (i.e. I have a fear of connecting with humans, so have to delude myself into making do with 'things'), when in fact it is they who are afraid of letting go of their human identity. So I don't bother anymore, and adapt to whatever they need, playing along in their games. I pretty much only talk to family, acquaintances from class, and random strangers, and it's going great. One with God is the majority. Another fat limiting factor is the need for use of language to communicate, this one thing already disables so much potential. Within one's own mind that can be transcended, but with others it's tricky to say the least. For women it might be a bit easier since they're more sensitive to nonverbal cues, I wouldn't know, either way it's only a marginal improvement. All that said, I still love human beings, for all their shenanigans and evils. Making and seeing them happy is the bedrock of my life purpose. But it's more of a subtle relationship than something direct. The post was very nuanced and covered all the bases, so I'm not sure what people are finding fault with.

This is great. Maybe post a text version. Luhmann has some interesting things about systems. In short, every system is a self-referential and autopoietic mechanism of simplifying its environment, but as it gets more complex, a need arises for an internal system that coordinates and manages all the other subsystems. A complex system also makes its environment more complex, so the process of simplification is now more involved. The controller system and other subsystems also start treating each other as the environment, which quickly creates a massive mess. No wonder effective systems management is so hard. https://medium.com/deterritorialization/social-systems-and-autopoiesis-a34f52fe9da1 Complimentary to big-picture thinking I also like to contemplate micro aspects of system dynamics. For example, some time ago I made an observation: Initially it's very cognitively taxing to ponder every little thing, but gets easier with time as it's fully internalized and automated, bringing enormous payoffs.

For those topics I prefer to study individual cases rather than comprehensive docs. So I'll supplement with some videos and articles that are particularly memorable to me. I created a playlist and tried to more or less organize it by category (rape, torture, serial killers, genocides, disasters, etc.). Channels that appear repeatedly are dedicated to such cases and are worth digging through, there's too many for me to list. Sensitive people beware, you ain't seen nothing yet. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOc_5z8jQfWGyqfbCiu0m4iv Some other playlists: Cases Almost Too Gruesome to Mention https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=PL62b-VBLkIjOFCO7kz2050-wHzgNvRLvy One of The Worst Humans To Ever Exist https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLd5nujujnZnCIo2BEfJ0FzoHbv636_VLH Chinese dog meat https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgxl6SHyOsiKdydO9JVvSCnkC20wTHkgX Ruined lives & psychosis (from drug/psychedelic use) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIh2dcBajGr6f51ID_M7IV52 https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIjgsOWfl4s0DNj5jHstQ63j I'm also currently making a playlist about severe mental illness - schizophrenia simulations, interviews and such. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOepjLZKhIoFeLZVUmScGyaA + an addendum to the Dirlewanger Brigade (Come and See was based on them) - an eyewitness account https://www.warsawuprising.org/witness/schenk.htm I'll update the playlist and make new posts if I stumble on or remember more stuff. If you study all this, integrate and learn to love it, then you'll be quite awake.

What I did is take each plastic zip baggie with the powder in it, empty it of air as best as I could, put that into a labeled mylar bag, stack multiple of those, and place them in airtight glass containers (with rubber gasket on edges). That is placed in my freezer at -18°C. It's by no means a perfect process, but you needn't be too worried about that. Sure, it would be preferable to have oxygen absorbers, or true vacuum seals, at -20°C and below. At a certain point you'll be dealing with diminishing marginal returns as you improve the process further. You would need loads of dessicant for it to have significant effects inside the freezer, cold on its own does that very well. Glass vials are nice, but you'd still need to block out the light, and it is not a very convenient access method, nor space efficient. If you have some rare substance under 100mg, it makes sense to store that in a vial. Same for when preparing volumetrically dosed solutions, but I keep those in the refrigerator. You're correct about thawing, so it's best to keep small amounts of things you use on a regular basis inside your room. For instance, I have 80 tabs of LSD freezed, and 8 in my room inside a carton box. Same principles apply here, the main dangers to chemicals are humidity, light, oxygen, and heat. Minimize those, and even at room temperature they will last very, very long. I believe the only substance of mine so far to have suffered any damage is harmala, after a year it's partly oxidized, perhaps because I didn't properly zip it up. Even then that does not necessarily imply loss of potency, people have consumed 10 year old oxidized drugs and didn't notice significant differences.

Well it is possible to know looking at the chemistry. But to account for all shenanigans will require some experimentation. Germans are just shit out of luck, all they have is trash like this. Have you tried it IM/IV?

N-BOC can be deprotected either through heating, which is what's happening during vaping, it is destroyed at a lower temperature than the DMT is vaporized, or through chemical reactions (with acids, e.g. TFA), which is quite involved. Either way, you'll need to do plenty of research, gather data. After deprotection you'll be left with the freebase, which's not suitable for rectal or injections. Either take it orally with harmala extract, or do an additional step of converting to a salt like fumarate or citrate. It would probably be easier for your friend to get accustomed to vaping or find another substance.

It might not even be the vendor's fault, there was an instance where a smalltime vendor got a batch from China that was mislabeled, supposed to be 2C-B-FLY, but actually was Bromo-DragonFLY, which's ~20x as potent. People took their normal 2C-B-FLY doses and died horribly painful deaths, all the while tripping, including the vendor himself. Wouldn't happen with a reputable clearnet vendor as they test whatever they get from labs with a third party via GC/MS to ensure everything's in order.

That's not feasible. You'd need tons of capital, a degree in neuropharmacology or some adjacent fields, and government permits to be taken seriously and not run into legal issues. You'd have to make this your life purpose, otherwise you'd just be another crackpot. Serious studies with MRI machines, complex administration procedures, extremely pure substances, multiple participants, double-blind controls and all that nonsense are a must to do good research. The best outsiders like us can do is finance such studies, advocate for them politically, or participate as subjects.

Thing with darknet is you can't be as certain you're getting the pure chemical. Even if it's mostly pure, there's incentive to cut corners, introduce some adulterants which most people wouldn't notice. Testing is a pain in the ass, plus all those at-home kits are not fully reliable either, for proper results you'd need a lab to do a GC/MS on it. If your order happens to be laced with something serious, you might be too dead to worry about leaving a negative review or getting your money back. Paradoxically, reputation is of more concern on the darknet than clearnet, as that's really the only incentive to play ball there. RC vendors exit scam all the time, but that ends at taking your money. They know they can get away with it since nobody will sue, going to court is much more expensive than whatever order value you lost, plus fear of some legal and social repercussions. The chemicals they sell though are much purer, typically coming from a single lab that has appropriate government permits and such. Any RC vendor accepting bank transfers is also a legal entity that can be found in the country's company register, the names of the owners are all traceable. So if customers were to kick the bucket from a contaminated batch, they'd be in real trouble, and the 'not for human consumption' label wouldn't save them.