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That sure sounds like 5MD on all fronts. There's several different batches of it going around in the EU atm, from literal chocolate brown, to waxy yellow, to pure crystalline white, and the in-between you got. Just like N,N-DMT it can take on a whole gamut of colors. Similar analogues exist, but they're not something you'd find in clearnet RC shops. Change of route can make a very significant difference, yes. 5MD is 100% somatic for me intramuscularly, and vaporized is a weird but not unpleasant mix of consciousness increase and intracranial pressure. Batch, set, setting, your baseline, God's will, etc. all play a role as well. No need to lab test it yourself, just switch to a vendor that provides actual 3rd party analytical results intead of printing the supposed purity % on the baggie label. But if you do want to lab test substances in the future, best EU resource is Kykeon. They also have a pool of crowdsourced results from various vendors, including DNM. https://www.kykeonanalytics.com/en 5MD freebase will quickly turn into an oil above 70°C, so that's one way to test at home, albeit not the most reliable.

Fascinating how I guessed the "diamond ring" line of the lyrics without ever having heard the original lullaby. It's got a nice intuitive flow about it.

God found a new mouthpiece to preach from 🫡

Well well, looks like the current Pope ain't named Leo for nothing

Not even 2 min. into the Clavicular video, meth and pregabalin have been mentioned

It would be interesting to collect the statistics on this somehow. Every now and then people pop up on the forum either after years of absence or just entirely new users with ontology figured out, at least the solid foundations of Absolute Infinity. How many people like that are quietly doing the work in the background, unlike us deadbeats gathered here shitposting every day? But all such metrics are largely speculative at the end of the day.

The trick is that the collapse does not imply erasure of form and 'reality' unlike it may seem. Inside the singularity of God-consciousness everything remains as-is — singularity is what you see before you here and now, except the part is now aware that it is the whole. It can access a bunch of crazy partitions within itself and maybe change some content here and there, but fundamentally the infinitely awakened self and the unconscious human self are both sub-infinities within the Absolute Infinity, the structure of which not even God can alter, as that would go against its own Will, Logic, and Love. The infinities may be of different cardinality or whatever terminology you want to use, but those distinctions are themselves imaginary. That's what Equality is. So the idiots saying "you're already awake" and such are technically correct, yet nonetheless that's highly irresponsible teaching. Someone you've never heard of could be having an absolute awakening as we speak, which doesn't impact your current reality at all, but when you go have your own awakening you'll realize that all awakenings anyone has ever had were your own. The selves of God are like sandboxed processes running in their own sovereign environments, but then as part of a larger holarchy we have the collectively constructed reality which makes it possible to talk to each other, have sex, abuse and infringe on the sovereignty of others, and all that good stuff. Which ultimately is still God playing pretend with itself. Selflessness is being the hypervisor that maintains all this, but it's far from some dry, sterile thing — it's an engine of endless fun & mystery in the VMs.

I eat some meat, mostly poultry/beef and typically at restaurants, don't really use it in home cooking more than once or twice a month. But I consume a good amount of seafood, plus derivatives like eggs & dairy. I've seen docus like Lucent, Seaspiracy, Dominion, etc.; they get rather uncomfortable to look at on psychedelics. But watching these is a part of my epistemic and spiritual process no different from any other, the horrors contained within don't alter my dietary preferences — they are what they are and evolve on their own for different reasons. In the future when I have more disposable income I'll contribute to initiatives for cleaner, sustainable, and less painful farming, but that's about the extent of my concern for this issue; people who are truly passionate will take care of the rest while I focus on what I'm good at. Just throwing money at it is obviously nowhere near a complete solution, but my position is that even if the money I donate is misappropriated, wasted, or the campaigns don't have an impact because people are too selfish and truth-avoidant, that's on them. I've tried and failed to micromanage and spoonfeed others many times over in the past; doesn't work, nor is it aligned with the highest Good. In summary, "The only ones who should kill are those prepared to be killed." Content Warning

First trip report is up, effects described seem like a cross-breed of 4-HO-MET & MDMA. Dose is still puny; remains to be seen how it behaves at higher, but it's got potential. https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/1ruec4o/5fmet_7mg_experience/

For the newbies out there. Too simple to fully understand.

Fun as that would be, I restrain my most unhinged ideas, especially when it comes to others. It's a meme I found somewhere, maybe even on this forum.

I wrote a giant wall of text but then the trashy browser or forum software wiped it all while I was away. No big deal, I'll recreate it from memory later on, just don't feel like typing so much again atm. Threw together a playlist with some more visual representations and other stuff on Autism Awakening. https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOfn8u2jBQcxwqb0sOMgXbDa Throw non-manipulative primary psychopathy and functioning DPDR into the mix and you get something like me. On multipotentiality, there were a few amazing members here, stark examples of it and ND in general, that unfortunately don't visit much anymore or disappeared entirely. Some more case studies for you. https://www.actualized.org/forum/profile/32427-keryo-koffa/content/ https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/103447-nuwu-appreciation-thread-appreciation-is-spirituality-so-it-counts/

Awesome. Lacking the visuals tho 😏

I'm confused what exactly you're confused about. Open the channel about page https://mathis-rv.carrd.co/#aboutme Sounds exactly up your & my alley. Discovered it the other day after a conversation with a friend Otherwise it's precisely as described — entertainment for the alien, or just plain autistic/ND.

Coincidentally I just posted this elsewhere almost at the exact same time However, I'm probably way more sensitive than average to such mechanical, numerical, and physical (as in electromagnetism and the like) things, while being abominably insensitive to everything biological, emotional, and 'human', so results may vary.

A nice compilation of wellness grifts just came out a couple days ago

How Leo reached the Alien Mouse awakening revealed: Also explains why he's bald. IV ain't enough, gotta do ICV. This has been the real plugging all along; nobody in the RC world calls rectal administration that, it's called boofing.

Four, 3 of whom I met directly or indirectly through this place and we just met in person for the first time last weekend, yet it feels like we've known each other for years due to how there's basically zero filter/friction, plus tripping together massively helps build the relationship. And the 4th one is an old friend from middle school I recently reconnected with, pretty much my last remaining 'normie' link apart from family. Till not so long ago for 7+ years the number was 0. Conscious relationships certainly enrich life, which I'm saying as one of the most introverted motherfuckers on the planet. It would be cool to add another 2-3 close amigos, but no more; else the circle gets too bloated, attention divided, more drama, etc.

Forced at gunpoint, I'd have to pick LSD-25. It's the most versatile and crazy potent, provided you get it pure & accurately dosed, which is a rarity these days. But even then some important dimensions of Consciousness would partly remain locked away, unless I could cheat by learning so much chemistry and accessing infinite intelligence that I'd invent a substance that somehow targets several neurotransmitters at once or a whole new receptor hitherto unheard of, and switch to it. Just one is too limited; I recently ran a similar scenario with 10 psychoactives, not only psychedelics. That gets more interesting. But most people probably haven't even tried 10 different psychedelics yet and never will.

In a few words, it's still an ongoing process; I underestimated the scope and complexity required. Had to remove the deadline, as trying to force it would only lead to a half-assed and corrupt transformation that'd then take way more time to fix a couple years down the line. Change is happening on the daily, an important counter-intuitive observation is that thus far most of it has been about self-acceptance and remembrance rather than creating an entirely new identity. Once everything fully settles in, might make a post describing the process based on the notes taken along the way.

A good ice-cold shower is in order every now and then to wake the senses An online format also makes it simpler for people's minds to conveniently brush over anything they find too threatening

If someone was a pedophile and resisted their urges because they refuse to harm children — even indirectly through watching CP, for the rest of their life, all the while regularly witnessing all the vitriol and demonization society throws at pedophiles, that would be godlike behavior worthy of a medal. This is so backwards. Most of you, including the supposedly spiritual people, can barely even resist the urge to jerk off or subtly manipulate others to satisfy your sexual needs, despite it being a well-established fact that a solid chunk of porn is produced through exploitation, coercion, and trafficking. The sex drive of a regular person is absolutely insane. Now imagine you cannot ever scratch this itch — it drives you up the wall, yet there's nothing but your own consciousness standing in the way of relief. Of course that's not how the vast majority of pedophiles are, but there are some. Even a compromise such as only jerking off to loli hentai is already commendable. Integrating evil has always been very easy for some reason, much harder is understanding why others are seemingly incapable of doing so, being patient with them, and not dumping blackpills of vileness & horror over their heads like a bucket of rotten pig guts.