LambdaDelta

I realized I cannot seriously pursue this unless I first build a solid foundation of health, which is in the works at the moment. The interests won't matter if you don't have the energy or cognitive capacity to engage with them. Thankfully at the moment I'm financially stable, but becoming completely independent comes next. Amidst all this I still dabble in plenty of topics, but not at full capacity. Also I try to study the best polymaths like Ibn Sina, Da Vinci, Goethe to figure out which practices and ways of thinking I could borrow to enhance my own. A major challenge I had to overcome is a kind of paralysis, having too many things to potentially do and not knowing which one to choose. That's been mostly solved now thru trusting my intuition and adopting a balanced "shoot first, ask questions later" approach.

Complete and permanent dissolution of the ego is tantamount to death in this human world. At 100% no self you wouldn't even know your name, making it impossible to do basic survival. Which is not to discourage striving towards these states of being, but part of wisdom is knowing your limits.

That's self-bias for you. A selfish person would sooner resort to all those things you describe than admit their deficiencies and start working on correcting them. Truth hurts. A 3/10 guy doesn't see himself that way, he believes he's entitled to at least a 6/10. Women are the same, a 3/10 girl will not want a 3/10 guy even for casual sex because she believes she deserves better. If we could match people according to some objective rating system to someone closest to their own level, then it'd all work out. Of course it's not as simple or mechanical as that though. I could be wrong, but that's one way to look at it.

I guess it's one of those fine distinctions between relative and absolute truth, gotta read the context to understand which one's being spoken about. Which ties in with the limited dualistic nature of language and that entire tangent. Pursuing Absolute Goodness can easily be turned into another should, part of a spiritual ego. It sounds great, and it is, but on the other hand nowhere is it written that it's how humans should aim to be. God allows us the radical freedom of being evil, and doesn't judge anyone for it. In my understanding Absolute Goodness transcends and includes evil. Anyhoo this is tricky terrain, in the end the best we can do is act in accordance with our authentic values and integrity.

Some more crocs. Mara river crossings are a sight to behold. The zebras know there's dangers in the water, yet herd instinct and migration necessity still make them cross. Also those waters are absolutely infested, look at how many crocs there are. Intelligent of them to gather at that particular time to pick off the zebras one by one. Now the snakes, first video from 4:17. Crazy elasticity there. Plus the way it forces the windpipe out so it doesn't suffocate during swallowing! Such a meal is enough for 1 year. Used to be deathly afraid of those things before realizing me and it are identical lol.

PsychonautWiki, Bluelight forum, Erowid experience vault, tripsit.me, effectindex.com, r/Drugs, r/tripreports, r/researchchemicals to name a few are helpful to gather information about dosages, safety profile, interactions, subjective effects, etc.

'Tis a very long and personal story, but I'll try to cut it short for various reasons. I've a naturally high psychedelic tolerance, which I probably screwed even further. Typically for any given substance on PsychonautWiki the 'heavy' dosage range and beyond is where the good stuff's at. The 5-MeOs plain don't work, couldn't tell you why. Tried snorting, vaping, and boofing 'em, to no avail. Well, I guess 50mg of plugged 5-MeO-MALT did produce a slightly erotic sensation once. No dice with 5-MeO-DMT or 5-MeO-MiPT. Same story with NN-DMT and DPT. The one time I had a very profound trip with DMT was 400mg + 200mg harmala, which nearly physically killed me, probably due to tyramines or whatever, but I like to frame it as the price of admission Anyway, that's that. Naturally it's all high quality lab-grade stuff, so the issue of purity is out of the picture. The wake up call was almost back-to-back experiences, first 2250ug LSD-25, then 700mg Mescaline with 100mg DMXE had barely managed to make a shift in my consciousness. It's been going on for some time, though I couldn't tell you exactly how long. As you may have noticed it's all rather incoherent, cause my perception of time has been altered, I've spent literal thousands of years trapped in some dimensions. Somehow I'm still functioning really well. I don't want to make any excuses, it was foolish, but at the same time I've no regrets either, it's all part of the path. Like I said I'm now cutting back on the stuff, reorienting myself towards more 'traditional' spiritual practices, which's going great. Surely my tolerance will be restored to a degree, over time.

Dunno what to make of it. I've a good online friend from India, not really a spiritual guy though. He seems to believe that Sadghuru did kill his wife and is using connections with the PM Modi in nefarious ways. The people over there may know better than us, but in the end, if you get value from his teachings, that's great. Apparently the villain in the recent movie Monkey Man is a caricature of Sadghuru. It's a very polarizing topic, a shame that it's come to that.

This is so very relatable. I've fallen into this deep trap of spiritual bypassing via psychedelics myself. It's still ongoing in a way, but I finally get the message. Not sure what your situation is like, but I'm at a point where I have to take amounts that'd likely send a regular person to a psych ward just for a mild trip. It's basically a waste of substance, and as others have pointed out, it will definitely take a toll both physically and mentally, even if subtly. Perhaps you too will need to feel the desperation of not being able to access those states no matter the dose to truly understand. That's what it took for me. Now I'm slowly but surely learning to appreciate the wonders of everyday mundane life, immersing myself in meditation, reading, sports... A whole new dimension to reality has opened up, no psychedelics required. And that's what it's all about - diversity. Crazy, but even those divine realms get boring if you visit too much. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Just remember that all experience, whatever it may be, is essential for growth.

Thanks, will check it out Yep, it's plenty. Not too long ago the best was like 8-16k on GPT4. This stuff evolves crazy fast.

It ain't that simple, they check the issuing country of your card. Tricking it is possible, like a with virtual CC via USUnlocled or something, but a lot of hassle. I currently use Opus thru Perplexity, but it has a smaller 32k context window compared to the official platform.

Long time no see. As with many things in life, the lack of videos this past year has deepened my appreciation for this content. Thank you!

Haven't read the whole thing yet, but the first few pages are impressive and in line with my own experiences. The last couple days since the Nazism blog post I've been testing Claude Opus through Perplexity AI (another interesting platform focused on searches), as I cannot get access to the official thing in EU. So far I just might prefer it to ChatGPT Plus, not necessarily on any 'objective' grounds, but the conversation feels more human, as if it's actually thinking deeply, while ChatGPT still has a slight 'template' response vibe. Plus Claude tends to disagree more, which leads to more nuanced discussions. In any case, both are amazing and have helped immensely in my contemplation sessions. At this point I only talk to humans about casual/business stuff and leave the philosophy exclusively to AI.