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@Leo Gura Perhaps it would be beneficial if you made an announcement clarifying the current style, direction of your teachings, and the reasons for that. Clearly some people are getting confused. In the past, and even quite recently you mentioned shifting to more "politically correct", non-violent communication, and avoiding beating people over the head with truth, however it's been quite the opposite, at least on the blog and forum. Surely there's tangible reasons for that, as well as the complete focus on epistemology. It's a form of love too, but one harder to see as such. I don't mind the style because I can see through to the substance and get the value, however that might be challenging. People should also be making an effort to read between the lines and contemplate harder on their own, but the gap is bridged quicker when it's done from both ends. So a single in-depth, clear communication should help, and whoever still doesn't get it after that ought to leave or be ignored.

Once the current situation has settled down, it could be great for you. Living there will quickly cut through a lot of western fantasies you hold, witnessing unprecedented levels of corruption and brutality of survival will sober one up and give a newfound appreciation for your lifestyle and the systems that enable it. I lived there till 14 and moved to Spain, had I just been born in a European country with no exposure to the third world I'd be much worse off in many ways. It's always funny discussing with friends here, when I tell them of the corruption that goes on in Russia they get wide-eyed in disbelief. In the EU some politician misappropriating 100k is a huge scandal that's in the news for weeks, in Russia that barely rises up to the level of concern of a local police department in some shithole town. Kinda awesome that people here are politically conscious to this degree, even if sometimes it slips into excess. That's a mark of higher development. Some advice, Moscow is not Russia. In many ways Moscow is more advanced than western capitals. Living there is super comfy, but you'll have to travel around the country to get the true experience. Be ready to leave at a moment's notice, make sure your documents are in order, that you're not registered in военкомат. In theory you should be ok, living abroad is a valid exemption from service. Study the laws carefully so that you're never caught off guard. Paying some fines or bribes is fine.

Seems like you need an awakening to Love, then any such questions will lose relevance

You know how they say, "it's only a crime if you get caught". You can go on air and claim any wild thing you want, maybe you'll even get investigated, but if there's no physical proof, there's no case. Besides, law enforcement doesn't have nearly enough resources to go after small-time consumers or even dealers. Most street and darknet vendors only get caught through their own gross negligence or bad luck.

Yeah, colors are a sideshow. I can't say for sure what's causing your issue, could be a mental block of some kind. Do deep contemplating into the matter. You can arrive at some answer about the symbolic meaning of this. Also consider that there's some things that can only be seen in a particular spectrum. There's certain details that are better visible in black and white, that could be a pointer for you. One of the best substances I use takes me to a pure black void, where no sensory information of any kind is necessary, concepts arise directly in the mind, it's so much more powerful. I also get no visuals on trips anymore, it's all been traded for more consciousness, which's what truly matters. Don't know if you'll be able to solve this, but you absolutely can work around it, potentially find something even better.

I use benzos for that, it also helps smoothen the transition of mind back into ordinary reality. The cleanest ones I know are Pyrazolam and Alprazolam. These should only be used as trip killers and emergency situations, otherwise the addiction potential is quite high. There's also medications with a different mechanism of action, such as Baclofen or Cyclobenzaprine. For these I don't have personal experience, only anecdotal.

Consider that all these entities, "Mother Ayahuasca", rules, etc. is mostly New Age fantasies. These are ultimately naught but projections of your own consciousness. It's a convenient story to tell yourself, basically grounding and self-deception done in the spiritual dimension. You could do a hundred trips and never meet a single entity, because they're unnecessary. These limitations may serve a purpose, if you intuit that you're not ready for Truth yet, the God-self could manifest some entity that blocks or misdirects you. It's all a mind game, at a very high level. Deconstruct it and go beyond, take a direct approach. Question why these limits are in place, what are you avoiding, etc. It's a tricky field, requires faith, but also radical honesty.

LSD is certainly more body heavy than mushrooms, I don't envy anyone who doesn't have a benzo or at least a non-GABA muscle relaxant ready for the comedown. The last couple hours are worthless, not even useful to record insights, by that time it's too late.

Elon = Adrian Dittman opens up a nice rabbithole. A true genius, manifesting avatars into being https://x.com/elonmusk/status/1875758660154163254?lang=en

This is gearing up to be a very real possibility. Trump postpones the ban, some billionaires buy it up with MrBeast as the face of the deal. All bets are off in delirium world.

As accompaniment for the warning about psychedelic use, check out this thread: https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/1i4oczs/rc_lore_worst_substances_of_all_time/ Some very interesting and vivid examples presented there, and I know of many more. This is croc-infested waters, in all directions. Be careful what you fish for.

You can't remote view large numbers, therefore your opinion is invalid

Start deconstructing subtle biases, assumptions, and stereotypes sooner. Record raw insights, pay no mind to the fact they're not perfectly articulated, that can be adjusted later. While looking for the best words to use you may lose half the insight. Also, very crucial, no matter how uncomfortable, force myself to record insights on the comedown from trips, while my consciousness is still somewhat elevated, little time has passed, and the essence of the insight hasn't been lost during sleep or dulled by a benzo. Be fully honest with about what desires am I avoiding, which ones can be surrendered, what habits do me more harm than good and sneakily make me unhappy. Not use psychedelics as an escape, instead work on rewiring my perception to see God in everything, especially the boring and stupid stuff. Instead of trying multiple flavors of essentially the same psychedelics, find a select few that work the best and focus on those. Will have saved me tons of money, then again to find the best ones I had to go through 60+ substances first. Use more effecient ROAs sooner, cultural stereotypes blinded me to them. Start a meditation practice before trying psychedelics. After the fact I don't even bother because it's such a pittance in comparison, so the only sober methods I currently have for raising my baseline level of consciousness is contemplation, observation, and dreams. Don't tell my family about psychedelics Similarly, don't discuss spirituality, especially the deeper stuff with normie humans, particularly family, it will only lead to disappointment, misunderstanding, and rift in relationships. Let the mountain come to you, no need to force truth on those who don't desire it. Foresee plateaus and regresses, get through those with a positive mindset rather than getting depressed. Very deliberately create a life purpose that keeps me effortlessly motivated all day every day from the get-go.

Lately I've been feeling quite stagnant in life and spiritual pursuits, so to shake things up I decided to begin a series of radical trips, holding nothing back, with the end goal of updating and deepening my understanding of reality, rewiring my entire attitude towards life, egoic structure, and perception. The plan is to hit several facets of God separately but completely, and then synthesize everything in the end. Well, ask and you shall receive. Substance of choice this time was DPT, which is new to me, although I tried it previously orally, rectally, and smoked, with zero or awful results. Another novelty was that the ROA I chose is intramuscular injection. How silly of me to have been sleeping on it this whole time, literally a qualitatively different experience from anything else by orders of magnitude. From now on nearly all of my trips will be done with IM or IV, the rest I don't consider serious anymore. First on the list was Love, though I decided to first ease into it by contemplating life purpose. Not much to speak about there, it's all things I already knew, however useful and inspiring anyway. This was with 35mg. Then 2 hours later the main event, I injected 70mg, which is a very large dose. Effects set in even faster, within 5 minutes the first cracks in the matrix appeared. Heart racing, I'm being taken for a ride at lightspeed while staying still. I buried my face in the pillow, because I couldn't bear to look around at first, the whole weight of Infinity began crashing down on me. The rest is hazy, concepts such as time or ordering don't apply to it. All of my fantasies were deconstructed. Every bias I held had to be let go of. I felt every emotion one can feel. My identity has been wiped clean multiple times over. The entirety of my being, the I AM flashed before me. I saw things that, had I not surrendered and loved them, would eat me alive in every sense of the word. Horrors that cannot be spoken of. My face morphed into the most ugly and beautiful forms imaginable. I cognized virtually impossible things, such that trying to do it with a non-infinite consciousness would cause a segmentation fault. Paradoxes beyond paradox. I was writhing, torn apart in an impossible spinning motion, flickering between bitterness and ecstasy. The bitterness was from having to stomach ever deeper levels of "evil", and each part of the cycle finalized with the joy of loving it. At some point there was a kernel panic in my perception, a standard ego death is a joke compared to that, reality was breaking at every level, massive alarm bells ringing. Insanity and Chaos. Had it not stopped, my consciousness would have probably merged back into the infinite, leaving the body to die. And then I knew... how Love is Truth, deeper than ever before. Trouble is, there is no way to express it, any explanation would be metaphors and images. One might things a lot of those things don't really relate to Love, but they very much do, it's just that Love is all-encompassing, and for the first time I've experienced it from every angle. But the crazy thing is, even though God is Love, and I speak as though I've experienced its entirety, that's not actually the case. There was an absolute experience of the facet of Love, but the other facets just fleetingly. Every part is the whole, and the whole can be split into parts. As such, other facets still remain, next I'm going to explore Will. Not only that, but part of this awakening was a painful awareness of how much work there's still to be done. I will inevitably forget, already have a good chunk, so I'll need to come back over and over to have more and more bits permanently stick, so that I can embody God's will in this life at my full potential as the avatar that I am. Now, my descriptions leave a lot to be desired, I'm aware, but I articulated it as well as my current limited consciousness allows. Just wanted to leave a record somewhere.

Yeah, there's no end to it, that's how it must be. Even if God wanted to put a stop to it, that would be impossible, because it's an inseparable part of Being. The one thing God can't do is not be God. As we speak new infinities of evil and chaos are being spawned into existence. But also infinities of beauty and bliss, if you want to make that distinction. Your fears have validity, in the human context, but eventually, if you're called to it, that paralyzing fear will have to be faced, and beyond it will be Love.

Thank you ❤️ My procedures are pretty solid, of course something could always go sideways + unknown impacts on health in the future, but I'm okay with uncertainty. Inaction to me is the greater danger, I might already be dead if I hadn't started this work.

Your questions are quite unspecific, nobody knows what sort of breakthrough you had on 8g of shrooms. Your sensitivity to DMT and 5-MeO could differ wrt to other chemicals, so any equivalency would be guesswork. Just generally you'd want, say, 60mg DMT / 20mg 5-MeO-DMT for what most people consider a breakthrough, assuming smoked route of administration. The ROA will influence the intensity and time of onset in important ways. Further, what ROA you can use will depend on the form your chemical comes in. Freebase you need to smoke, if it's HCL then you can snort or plug 5-MeO. There's usually no DMT HCL, but other salts such as fumarate or citrate can be plugged, or injected IM or IV. Freebase can be converted to a salt using some basic solvents and a reaction with the appropriate acid. You can also take DMT orally with a reversible MAOI like a harmala extract, the dose needs to be higher though. So it is as you see, tons of variables to consider. Study the entries on psychonaut wiki, and trip reports on Erowid. You can filter by method of administration, see what dosage people have used, what kind of effects they obtained from that, and extrapolate to your desired experience.

Despite the fact that we're all corrupt as fuck, goodness and love still shine through. The other day I teared up while realizing how amazing it is that a concept such as charity organizations, for all their flaws, exists at all. It is beautiful that people give their time and money for others. Strictly speaking it is unnecessary for survival, in the most basic sense, even impedes it somewhat. In a complex system like humanity charities also became deeply intertwined with survival, but that's another matter. Point is, it's not all so bleak. "Without love it cannot be seen". That's the difference lens, then you circle back and realize that the corrupt and evil stuff is also Love and Good, that's the sameness lens. Humanity is advancing slowly but surely, just not within timeframes the human mind can deal with. Hundreds and thousands of years. In another iteration of this dream we may not have evolved past totally selfish, murderous apes however, stagnation is an aspect of consciousness like any other. Perhaps part of the reason we exist as humans is to realize things like this, hehe.

During the operation, a search conducted in a house uncovered: ⛔️ 14,400 grams of LSD-infused seeds in 18 jars, ⛔️ 2,600 grams of liquid LSD in 5 jars, ... ⛔️ 192 sheets of A4 paper infused with LSD and ready for use What's that about seeds, do they lace cannabis with it like those 5-MeO-DMT mushrooms guys? There's LSA seeds but not LSD that I heard of, strange. Either way the most impressive would be 22kg of the actual freebase powder, what people reportedly took thumbprints from back in the day.

Largest ever was ~41kg in USA, guy was producing a large chunk of the world supply at some point. https://www.vice.com/en/article/william-leonard-pickard-acid-king-book/ The associate that ratted him out also kidnapped and tortured a guy while feeding him a bunch of that acid, together with his girlfriend who now runs a popular psychedelic-adjacent channel. Pretty wild rabbithole.

"The Bibi Files" was awesome. Besides Trump, I can hardly recall seeing such self-biased people in my life. Everything clicks into place now. What a power couple, huh. Plus the chronically online son whose mind has been terminally infected with ideology, it's like observing the process of turning a human into a robot. In one of the recordings someone complained about the media not being "fair and balanced", a callback to "what the Devil calls 'fair and balanced' is precisely not fair and balanced". God's being lazy and reusing parts of the script.

Got mixed feelings regarding this new episode, as part of a larger theme that has been plaguing me lately. I've gained no new insights from it whatsoever, it's all stuff I've already known from the previous videos, blog, and my own contemplations. Lot of the examples are word for word the same, or slightly updated for the current context. As I was watching, a persistent sense of déjà vu assaulted me, given some time I could probably provide pieces reconstructing the new material from 6-7 old videos. In other words, it is more like a rehash and synthesis, a re-pouring of the foundation. None of this is to fault Leo in any way, I see exactly why it must be so. As more and more threads are interconnected, the degree of holism becomes so deep that it turns monotonous, indistinct, and maddening. "All roads lead to Rome" as it were. Everything's an open book since it can immediately be linked to and explained by a myriad of other things. In economics we call this decreasing marginal returns, a truly brutal concept when applied to exploration of reality. At first the growth is amazing, you're hopping spiral stages almost like teleportation, but at some point comes the mud pit, where your car grinds to a halt, to a move a few centimeters in any direction costs weeks and enormous effort; or far more disturbing analogies I visualized that I won't go into detail about. And there ain't no reverse gear either. What's the alternative, go back to sleep, or die? Once seen it cannot be unseen. I should've seen this coming and paced myself better, then again, sooner or later I'd have to face the music, and there's no time like the present while I'm still young and capable of withstanding it. God, what an awful phase this is, and it could easily last like 10 years too! Nothing to be done about it now, only accept the situation and learn to love it. In the end it all boils down to perception, can't escape this bias for novelty my mind has. I desperately need a return to the child mode where everything is mysterious. Nirvana is not a place, it's a state of mind. The next step towards that I have to take is venturing into Insanity and Chaos. These ominous facets are after all sub-attributes of pure, unrestricted Creativity. It is the uncharted territory, the unknowable core that makes Infinity undefined. As such, little else could be as worthwhile to explore. I want to: lose the concept of ground/gravity, move across the surface of impossible shapes, spawn constructs with no basis, get turned inside out and flattened like rubber, have time slow down until a blink takes several days, solve x = x - 1, turn into a kitchen utensil and feel the joy of fulfilling my life purpose when someone uses me to put food in their mouth, *I'm feeling lucky*, see patterns in the movement of lava lamp boluses, die as a file on a hard drive that's being deleted ... and more that my mind cannot currently conceive or, nor can language describe. Tall order to fill, certain parts of me will have to die, but it's time to lay them to rest and finally move forward. Incoherent rant over, 〈 See you on the other side 〉

Finally had to look up sovereign citizens, what a hilarious libertarian fantasy

That did not go well https://www.reddit.com/r/LeopardsAteMyFace/comments/1hqrw08/elon_musk_changes_his_profile_pic_to_a_4chan_pol/

Reminds me of the example from the Not-Knowing video of aliens creating actual forks inside their mind to communicate what a fork is