LambdaDelta

One of these people. Or all of of them. Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit

It's quite unique in that regard. Most psychs like I said aren't really worth it, but the catch is you have to try them to know what works for you and find hidden gems. 4-AcO-DMT + DMXE puts me in a very unique state I call tube consciousness, at high doses it's superior to whatever I described about O-PCE, it's a different plane of existence that gives the highest level overview of one's life and everything about this world across all dimensions. 3-HO-PCP is another favorite of mine, the best for everything concerning Identity, whether that's switching avatars, talking to yourself through other people, adopting memories and beliefs of fictional characters, etc. It's the most confusing thing ever and highly amnesiac. Once I used it to perform a miracle and forgot how I did it.

I know exactly what you mean, I have the same thing, prophetic dreams of the future, always short and insignificant, but 100% accurate. These days the frequency has also lowered, dreams are now crazy in other ways. Pretty sure this was God dropping subtle hints, these experiences were an integral part of what eventually led me to spirituality and questioning reality. Now it's completely obvious that time is not at all linear, I've seen past, present, and future as a single stream or a twisted loop, which sort of makes these dreams redundant. But they're a great reassurance mechanism, as long as you keep having them you can at least be certain that whatever you do, there is a future for you to experience. The precise workings of it are still a mystery, some degree of determinism is at play here. Definitely worth investigating further.

The absolute best way to consume DPT (and most other substances for that matter) is intramuscularly. It's a completely different beast.

Doing this for 3 years, until I'm 27. Nothing will change per se, I wasn't doing any of that to begin with, except masturbation, which I'm attempting to eliminate. However this decision brings the needed clarity. I'm blessed with a much lower sex drive than most men, honestly I don't even know how guys with regular libido manage to do any serious spiritual work, that's such a major distraction. Even greatly toned down, it's an immensely powerful force, which occasionally serves to annoy me, like a pebble in my shoe. I'm stuck between wanting some action, but not enough to actually commit any resources or time to pursuing it. Maybe once a month or so I'll have thoughts about how it would be nice to get a girlfriend, fantasize a little, but that's a highly idealized version, the real relationship would be quite different, if it's anything like the ones I see around I'm not interested. Now I'm making things very simple. I'll focus on material success, sports, academics, and spirituality, and in 3 years revisit the matter. Depending on my situation and level of desire then, I can consider actually investing the time in dating and such. If not, postpone again. This is one of the things I feel like I'd be comfortable to have regrets about missing out on. Life is so vast you can't realistically do everything you want, so there's a need to prioritize. If I don't achieve certain mystical milestones or travel across multiple countries on my list, those will be far more significant than not having sex or relationships. I guess the key takeaway here is that there's a sneaky difference between keeping your options open and indecision. In some situations it's actually better to be close-minded if done consciously.

There's no problem with it, as long as you don't make this your identity, a 'traveler' or 'instagram influencer', or as you said constant escapism. It can be very fulfilling, fun, a learning opportunity to understand very different cultures, in some places it's almost like you're on another planet. There's time for solitary introspection, and time to explore the world. And ultimately, when the distinction between you and other collapses, outwards will become inwards and vice-versa. Looking at all the mountains and jungles and oceans you'll be seeing the beauty of your own Self.

The 5-MeO baggie must make your gf jealous

Being conscious of how you Will every single of those air molecules you're breathing into being is a good start.

That's a very common effect, it's the same for me. About the only thing 5-MeO did for me, but very important.

If you're as bad as I was, you don't even have to start in-person. Call businesses and such, ask about whatever - opening hours, pricing, stock, how to get there... That's a bit less taxing, you can always hang up and go to the next, going through dozens of calls in a day. Say hello to bus drivers, make some small talk with cashiers, at the bank, etc. Then approach random strangers on the street, nothing emotionally charged yet, just asking directions or something. After you get very comfortable in that (it's like a snowball effect, starts slow and then one day you suddenly break through to zero anxiety), maybe join a club/group of some hobby, like chess or hiking, there you can get to know people and already have some common ground, from which you can move on to talking about other things. Speak up at family gatherings, in class, whatever situation you're in. Lastly if you care to take it further, do pickup or talk up people out of the blue. But just doing all of the above en masse for 7-8 years has taken me from crippling social anxiety to being able to talk to anyone with complete confidence. Can be done much faster too, depends on your current level and the time you can commit.

Because their 'aura' is so intense it penetrates through the fat devil that everyone is straight to the God within, making a temporary divine connection, which is transformative, even if you later slip back into ego dynamics. Leo says about the same thing in What is Integrity. The geniuses and rulers invent and enable material prosperity, which's great, but not what people truly want, so it ends up being taken for granted. Also they build on top of one another, while awakening only requires one's own mind. It's not that people don't care about awakening and God per se, it just seems so outlandish, difficult, and scary, that most take the more 'reasonable/grounded' path of attaining happiness through material pursuits, which counter-intuitively gets them nowhere. To care about Truth requires a certain degree of innate intuition, wisdom, and also faith. Or a radical experience that transforms you and sets you on the path.

Come over and I'll share some. Got 5g last month.

There's really nothing to compare it to like that, that's why it's so unique. Simply by virtue of structural similarity there's some aspects like hole doses of ketamine, it's not even body relaxation, the notion of a body is removed. 5-MeO doesn't really work on me, but I can surmise it's a very different kind of consciousness, not a unitive infinity. No geometric visuals and such. What I put in the post is about the best descriptions I'm able to give. Combining it with other substances seems counterproductive. Physically there's no bodyload, just progressively louder tinnitus on the comeup as all dissos have, which then fades perfectly into the background. Vapor isn't harsh at all, has a unique smell/taste that I've learned to appreciate. Afterglow is a bit of a downside, there's a degree of residual stimulation, some confusion, mania, similar to PCP/PCE analogues . Best is either doing it during the day with all blinds shut, or if you can power through a few hours of comedown trying to sleep, you'll get the craziest dreams, basically a continuation of the trip. Haha, that was a good one!

Not really, unless they have connections to the marketplace admins. It's much more complicated to create fake reviews on those platforms than Trustpilot and similar. Reddit and forums prohibit all sourcing related discussions, so you don't have much to go off on. But on Dread there's no such limitations, exit scams, fake reviews, data leaks, etc. are quickly detected and reported.

https://www.rijksoverheid.nl/actueel/nieuws/2025/01/28/eerste-kamer-stemt-voor-designerdrugsverbod Effective on July 1, 2025. 6 months remain. Netherlands is the largest, for all intents and purposes only producer of research chemicals and even many classic already illegal psychedelics in the EU. While at the moment this amendment largely targets trashy substances (stimulants, synthetic cannabinoids) for junkies, some good phenethylamines such as the 2C-x class are also affected. The law also allows for expedited banning of entire substance groups in the future, no more year-long debates. Last but not least, a lot of vendors are expected to shut down, as said trashy substances make up a large portion of their revenue. The most prominent lab in the EU, Lizard Labs, responsible for producing pretty much all tryptamines and dissociatives on the market has closed last month. The US will also be affected, even though Canada has its own largely independent RC market, it's not as diverse, so expect even less variety and higher prices. I expect plenty of analogues to pop up regardless, but they're getting progressively worse as legal options run out. I've stocked up on pretty much everything I could want and put it into deep freeze, that way I can't be caught off guard. If you care and can afford it, consider doing the same, especially if liquidation discounts come up.

@Schizophonia did you end up trying it? To me it's basically the same as 3-MeO-PCE. There's like 6 substances in this subclass with nearly identical names. O-PCE interestingly enough is more similar to the legendary MXE (3-MeO-2'-Oxo-PCE). O-PCE is that without the 3-MeO part.

A lot of the chemicals being banned right now are actually pretty dangerous. Cathinones, amphs, fentalogs, synthetic cannabinoids. Very addictive and potentially deadly. You can see all the degeneracy people get up to on them on Reddit. The psychedelic part of this current ban is collateral damage, as every phenethylamine under the sun is included. Although even those are more unpredictable compared to other classes due to increased vasoconstriction. This is a blanket ban to avoid analogues popping up. Sets a dangerous precedent though, my best guess is pyros are next. It's not a particularly useful policy, things are just going to move to the darknet. Some politicians are too ignorant to understand this, others simply want to sweep the issue under the rug away from the public eye. Main trouble here is that shops will start to shut down as selling only a couple permitted chemicals isn't very profitable.

Lately each of my nightly dream sessions is a psychedelic trip unto itself. When falling asleep, I get a moderately intense ringing in my ears, and a feeling of sinking into the bed, or more accurately my mind. This began after about a year of daily use of Zolpidem for making the dreams more vivid. At some point I decided to quit, and after a difficult period of re-learning to fall asleep on my own, a new dimension opened up. Chemical-enhanced dreams don't hold a candle to the ones I get now. Whether it's slipping into total delirium, exploring the fluidity of consciousness, using Leo's voice to narrate insights to myself, previewing small snippets of the future, or tapping into bottomless creativity to generate and watch entire YouTube channels filled to the brim with impeccably edited multi-hour essays on topics of interest, there's never a dull time. This last point about creativity is particularly valuable, currently I have little conscious control or understanding of how I'm doing any of this, but if I can get some grasp of the mechanics, great things can come from it. Tonight in my dream I took ketamine, tripped for a bit, woke up, and continued tripping despite being completely sober. That's some freaky stuff, feels beyond lucid dreaming, like the line between several very different states of consciousness is dissolved, creating a unique blend. You spend 1/3 of your day sleeping, so use that time productively

I wouldn't be so sure. The most simple solution can be the best one. The core of the issue has been indecisiveness, the rest should fall into place as I go along. But I'm open to being wrong, it's an experiment. For sure. Some people don't fit into that system, but God has larger concerns. I've even found some ways this force gets co-opted by the ego for its avoidance mechanisms. Tricky stuff.

My 2¢ as one of those hermit-like people that resonate with the post: I had to work very hard for 8 years since age 15 to get over major social anxiety (like being scared of calling the ISP to ask a question bad). This culminated in being able to now talk to absolutely anyone, everything nice and cordial. Basically spiral wizardry. Possibly some genetic component got activated in the process, as my dad made tens of millions brokering deals, one of the best negotiators you could find anywhere, but I digress. This was undoubtedly vital, an investment that will pay off for the remainder of my life. But now there's no point in taking it further, only maintenance. The more I develop, the larger the rift between me and others, and it's up to me to bridge that gap, since it's like a one-way street, doesn't work from the other end. That appears effortless in the moment, but it takes its toll later on. Occasionally interacting with 'child of man' can be refreshing, fun, and enjoyable, especially after long periods of isolation. But 'fun' and 'enjoyable' are much weaker words than 'bliss', 'Love', 'joy', which I get when being with God. I've had deeper connections to inanimate objects than to people. This is utterly inconceivable to anyone I tell it to, so they attempt to rationalize it somehow by projecting onto me (i.e. I have a fear of connecting with humans, so have to delude myself into making do with 'things'), when in fact it is they who are afraid of letting go of their human identity. So I don't bother anymore, and adapt to whatever they need, playing along in their games. I pretty much only talk to family, acquaintances from class, and random strangers, and it's going great. One with God is the majority. Another fat limiting factor is the need for use of language to communicate, this one thing already disables so much potential. Within one's own mind that can be transcended, but with others it's tricky to say the least. For women it might be a bit easier since they're more sensitive to nonverbal cues, I wouldn't know, either way it's only a marginal improvement. All that said, I still love human beings, for all their shenanigans and evils. Making and seeing them happy is the bedrock of my life purpose. But it's more of a subtle relationship than something direct. The post was very nuanced and covered all the bases, so I'm not sure what people are finding fault with.

This is great. Maybe post a text version. Luhmann has some interesting things about systems. In short, every system is a self-referential and autopoietic mechanism of simplifying its environment, but as it gets more complex, a need arises for an internal system that coordinates and manages all the other subsystems. A complex system also makes its environment more complex, so the process of simplification is now more involved. The controller system and other subsystems also start treating each other as the environment, which quickly creates a massive mess. No wonder effective systems management is so hard. https://medium.com/deterritorialization/social-systems-and-autopoiesis-a34f52fe9da1 Complimentary to big-picture thinking I also like to contemplate micro aspects of system dynamics. For example, some time ago I made an observation: Initially it's very cognitively taxing to ponder every little thing, but gets easier with time as it's fully internalized and automated, bringing enormous payoffs.

For those topics I prefer to study individual cases rather than comprehensive docs. So I'll supplement with some videos and articles that are particularly memorable to me. I created a playlist and tried to more or less organize it by category (rape, torture, serial killers, genocides, disasters, etc.). Channels that appear repeatedly are dedicated to such cases and are worth digging through, there's too many for me to list. Sensitive people beware, you ain't seen nothing yet. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOc_5z8jQfWGyqfbCiu0m4iv Some other playlists: Cases Almost Too Gruesome to Mention https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=PL62b-VBLkIjOFCO7kz2050-wHzgNvRLvy One of The Worst Humans To Ever Exist https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLd5nujujnZnCIo2BEfJ0FzoHbv636_VLH Chinese dog meat https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgxl6SHyOsiKdydO9JVvSCnkC20wTHkgX Ruined lives & psychosis (from drug/psychedelic use) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIh2dcBajGr6f51ID_M7IV52 https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIjgsOWfl4s0DNj5jHstQ63j I'm also currently making a playlist about severe mental illness - schizophrenia simulations, interviews and such. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOepjLZKhIoFeLZVUmScGyaA + an addendum to the Dirlewanger Brigade (Come and See was based on them) - an eyewitness account https://www.warsawuprising.org/witness/schenk.htm I'll update the playlist and make new posts if I stumble on or remember more stuff. If you study all this, integrate and learn to love it, then you'll be quite awake.

What I did is take each plastic zip baggie with the powder in it, empty it of air as best as I could, put that into a labeled mylar bag, stack multiple of those, and place them in airtight glass containers (with rubber gasket on edges). That is placed in my freezer at -18°C. It's by no means a perfect process, but you needn't be too worried about that. Sure, it would be preferable to have oxygen absorbers, or true vacuum seals, at -20°C and below. At a certain point you'll be dealing with diminishing marginal returns as you improve the process further. You would need loads of dessicant for it to have significant effects inside the freezer, cold on its own does that very well. Glass vials are nice, but you'd still need to block out the light, and it is not a very convenient access method, nor space efficient. If you have some rare substance under 100mg, it makes sense to store that in a vial. Same for when preparing volumetrically dosed solutions, but I keep those in the refrigerator. You're correct about thawing, so it's best to keep small amounts of things you use on a regular basis inside your room. For instance, I have 80 tabs of LSD freezed, and 8 in my room inside a carton box. Same principles apply here, the main dangers to chemicals are humidity, light, oxygen, and heat. Minimize those, and even at room temperature they will last very, very long. I believe the only substance of mine so far to have suffered any damage is harmala, after a year it's partly oxidized, perhaps because I didn't properly zip it up. Even then that does not necessarily imply loss of potency, people have consumed 10 year old oxidized drugs and didn't notice significant differences.

Well it is possible to know looking at the chemistry. But to account for all shenanigans will require some experimentation. Germans are just shit out of luck, all they have is trash like this. Have you tried it IM/IV?