LambdaDelta

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  1. A lot of the chemicals being banned right now are actually pretty dangerous. Cathinones, amphs, fentalogs, synthetic cannabinoids. Very addictive and potentially deadly. You can see all the degeneracy people get up to on them on Reddit. The psychedelic part of this current ban is collateral damage, as every phenethylamine under the sun is included. Although even those are more unpredictable compared to other classes due to increased vasoconstriction. This is a blanket ban to avoid analogues popping up. Sets a dangerous precedent though, my best guess is pyros are next. It's not a particularly useful policy, things are just going to move to the darknet. Some politicians are too ignorant to understand this, others simply want to sweep the issue under the rug away from the public eye. Main trouble here is that shops will start to shut down as selling only a couple permitted chemicals isn't very profitable.
  2. Lately each of my nightly dream sessions is a psychedelic trip unto itself. When falling asleep, I get a moderately intense ringing in my ears, and a feeling of sinking into the bed, or more accurately my mind. This began after about a year of daily use of Zolpidem for making the dreams more vivid. At some point I decided to quit, and after a difficult period of re-learning to fall asleep on my own, a new dimension opened up. Chemical-enhanced dreams don't hold a candle to the ones I get now. Whether it's slipping into total delirium, exploring the fluidity of consciousness, using Leo's voice to narrate insights to myself, previewing small snippets of the future, or tapping into bottomless creativity to generate and watch entire YouTube channels filled to the brim with impeccably edited multi-hour essays on topics of interest, there's never a dull time. This last point about creativity is particularly valuable, currently I have little conscious control or understanding of how I'm doing any of this, but if I can get some grasp of the mechanics, great things can come from it. Tonight in my dream I took ketamine, tripped for a bit, woke up, and continued tripping despite being completely sober. That's some freaky stuff, feels beyond lucid dreaming, like the line between several very different states of consciousness is dissolved, creating a unique blend. You spend 1/3 of your day sleeping, so use that time productively
  3. I wouldn't be so sure. The most simple solution can be the best one. The core of the issue has been indecisiveness, the rest should fall into place as I go along. But I'm open to being wrong, it's an experiment. For sure. Some people don't fit into that system, but God has larger concerns. I've even found some ways this force gets co-opted by the ego for its avoidance mechanisms. Tricky stuff.
  4. My 2¢ as one of those hermit-like people that resonate with the post: I had to work very hard for 8 years since age 15 to get over major social anxiety (like being scared of calling the ISP to ask a question bad). This culminated in being able to now talk to absolutely anyone, everything nice and cordial. Basically spiral wizardry. Possibly some genetic component got activated in the process, as my dad made tens of millions brokering deals, one of the best negotiators you could find anywhere, but I digress. This was undoubtedly vital, an investment that will pay off for the remainder of my life. But now there's no point in taking it further, only maintenance. The more I develop, the larger the rift between me and others, and it's up to me to bridge that gap, since it's like a one-way street, doesn't work from the other end. That appears effortless in the moment, but it takes its toll later on. Occasionally interacting with 'child of man' can be refreshing, fun, and enjoyable, especially after long periods of isolation. But 'fun' and 'enjoyable' are much weaker words than 'bliss', 'Love', 'joy', which I get when being with God. I've had deeper connections to inanimate objects than to people. This is utterly inconceivable to anyone I tell it to, so they attempt to rationalize it somehow by projecting onto me (i.e. I have a fear of connecting with humans, so have to delude myself into making do with 'things'), when in fact it is they who are afraid of letting go of their human identity. So I don't bother anymore, and adapt to whatever they need, playing along in their games. I pretty much only talk to family, acquaintances from class, and random strangers, and it's going great. One with God is the majority. Another fat limiting factor is the need for use of language to communicate, this one thing already disables so much potential. Within one's own mind that can be transcended, but with others it's tricky to say the least. For women it might be a bit easier since they're more sensitive to nonverbal cues, I wouldn't know, either way it's only a marginal improvement. All that said, I still love human beings, for all their shenanigans and evils. Making and seeing them happy is the bedrock of my life purpose. But it's more of a subtle relationship than something direct. The post was very nuanced and covered all the bases, so I'm not sure what people are finding fault with.
  5. This is great. Maybe post a text version. Luhmann has some interesting things about systems. In short, every system is a self-referential and autopoietic mechanism of simplifying its environment, but as it gets more complex, a need arises for an internal system that coordinates and manages all the other subsystems. A complex system also makes its environment more complex, so the process of simplification is now more involved. The controller system and other subsystems also start treating each other as the environment, which quickly creates a massive mess. No wonder effective systems management is so hard. https://medium.com/deterritorialization/social-systems-and-autopoiesis-a34f52fe9da1 Complimentary to big-picture thinking I also like to contemplate micro aspects of system dynamics. For example, some time ago I made an observation: Initially it's very cognitively taxing to ponder every little thing, but gets easier with time as it's fully internalized and automated, bringing enormous payoffs.
  6. For those topics I prefer to study individual cases rather than comprehensive docs. So I'll supplement with some videos and articles that are particularly memorable to me. I created a playlist and tried to more or less organize it by category (rape, torture, serial killers, genocides, disasters, etc.). Channels that appear repeatedly are dedicated to such cases and are worth digging through, there's too many for me to list. Sensitive people beware, you ain't seen nothing yet. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOc_5z8jQfWGyqfbCiu0m4iv Some other playlists: Cases Almost Too Gruesome to Mention https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=PL62b-VBLkIjOFCO7kz2050-wHzgNvRLvy One of The Worst Humans To Ever Exist https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLd5nujujnZnCIo2BEfJ0FzoHbv636_VLH Chinese dog meat https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgxl6SHyOsiKdydO9JVvSCnkC20wTHkgX Ruined lives & psychosis (from drug/psychedelic use) https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIh2dcBajGr6f51ID_M7IV52 https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLoYgEguf1BIjgsOWfl4s0DNj5jHstQ63j I'm also currently making a playlist about severe mental illness - schizophrenia simulations, interviews and such. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIEFsHjIryOepjLZKhIoFeLZVUmScGyaA + an addendum to the Dirlewanger Brigade (Come and See was based on them) - an eyewitness account https://www.warsawuprising.org/witness/schenk.htm I'll update the playlist and make new posts if I stumble on or remember more stuff. If you study all this, integrate and learn to love it, then you'll be quite awake.
  7. What I did is take each plastic zip baggie with the powder in it, empty it of air as best as I could, put that into a labeled mylar bag, stack multiple of those, and place them in airtight glass containers (with rubber gasket on edges). That is placed in my freezer at -18°C. It's by no means a perfect process, but you needn't be too worried about that. Sure, it would be preferable to have oxygen absorbers, or true vacuum seals, at -20°C and below. At a certain point you'll be dealing with diminishing marginal returns as you improve the process further. You would need loads of dessicant for it to have significant effects inside the freezer, cold on its own does that very well. Glass vials are nice, but you'd still need to block out the light, and it is not a very convenient access method, nor space efficient. If you have some rare substance under 100mg, it makes sense to store that in a vial. Same for when preparing volumetrically dosed solutions, but I keep those in the refrigerator. You're correct about thawing, so it's best to keep small amounts of things you use on a regular basis inside your room. For instance, I have 80 tabs of LSD freezed, and 8 in my room inside a carton box. Same principles apply here, the main dangers to chemicals are humidity, light, oxygen, and heat. Minimize those, and even at room temperature they will last very, very long. I believe the only substance of mine so far to have suffered any damage is harmala, after a year it's partly oxidized, perhaps because I didn't properly zip it up. Even then that does not necessarily imply loss of potency, people have consumed 10 year old oxidized drugs and didn't notice significant differences.
  8. Well it is possible to know looking at the chemistry. But to account for all shenanigans will require some experimentation. Germans are just shit out of luck, all they have is trash like this. Have you tried it IM/IV?
  9. N-BOC can be deprotected either through heating, which is what's happening during vaping, it is destroyed at a lower temperature than the DMT is vaporized, or through chemical reactions (with acids, e.g. TFA), which is quite involved. Either way, you'll need to do plenty of research, gather data. After deprotection you'll be left with the freebase, which's not suitable for rectal or injections. Either take it orally with harmala extract, or do an additional step of converting to a salt like fumarate or citrate. It would probably be easier for your friend to get accustomed to vaping or find another substance.
  10. It might not even be the vendor's fault, there was an instance where a smalltime vendor got a batch from China that was mislabeled, supposed to be 2C-B-FLY, but actually was Bromo-DragonFLY, which's ~20x as potent. People took their normal 2C-B-FLY doses and died horribly painful deaths, all the while tripping, including the vendor himself. Wouldn't happen with a reputable clearnet vendor as they test whatever they get from labs with a third party via GC/MS to ensure everything's in order.
  11. That's not feasible. You'd need tons of capital, a degree in neuropharmacology or some adjacent fields, and government permits to be taken seriously and not run into legal issues. You'd have to make this your life purpose, otherwise you'd just be another crackpot. Serious studies with MRI machines, complex administration procedures, extremely pure substances, multiple participants, double-blind controls and all that nonsense are a must to do good research. The best outsiders like us can do is finance such studies, advocate for them politically, or participate as subjects.
  12. Thing with darknet is you can't be as certain you're getting the pure chemical. Even if it's mostly pure, there's incentive to cut corners, introduce some adulterants which most people wouldn't notice. Testing is a pain in the ass, plus all those at-home kits are not fully reliable either, for proper results you'd need a lab to do a GC/MS on it. If your order happens to be laced with something serious, you might be too dead to worry about leaving a negative review or getting your money back. Paradoxically, reputation is of more concern on the darknet than clearnet, as that's really the only incentive to play ball there. RC vendors exit scam all the time, but that ends at taking your money. They know they can get away with it since nobody will sue, going to court is much more expensive than whatever order value you lost, plus fear of some legal and social repercussions. The chemicals they sell though are much purer, typically coming from a single lab that has appropriate government permits and such. Any RC vendor accepting bank transfers is also a legal entity that can be found in the country's company register, the names of the owners are all traceable. So if customers were to kick the bucket from a contaminated batch, they'd be in real trouble, and the 'not for human consumption' label wouldn't save them.
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  15. Congratulations! You remember your good buddy Lambda, right? Now, please pin all my topics and ban the people that annoy me
  16. Setting a prompt with clear instructions really helps get the most out of the conversation. If we assemble a multitude here, we could borrow useful elements from each other, creating a synergy and improving our own prompts. I'll start:
  17. I've noticed an interesting pattern. Almost every one of the best experiences of my life has been some form of death. There's good reason for that, death is nothing other than dissolution into Love and Unity. A true state of Being. I compiled a list of examples: 1. Dying as Mozart while writing the last bars of Lacrimosa. Hauntingly beautiful. 2. Having an actual NDE from harmala poisoning after taking a large DMT dose. In my estimation I was pretty close to kicking the bucket, pain and sweating so immense I blacked out several times. After some time of that I experienced an hour of intense bliss, joy, and marvel, rolling around on the floor laughing. 3. Reaching out to my teacup amidst a hard trip and feeling a deep connection, Love. Fusing our essences that have been temporarily separated by the illusion or forms. We're made of the same substance, that realization got me incredibly emotional. 4. Suffering a psychotic break where my identity was completely deconstructed, and then living as several distinct identities, those of people I know or fictional characters, it did not matter. Their thoughts, memories, experiences, beliefs became my own. The idea of my old self was not present at all. 5. Lying on the bathroom floor, turning over to my back, accepting the real possibility I could choke to death on vomit, and choosing to experience merging with the floor, the sewage system, the surface of the planet, the space around, the sun, all of it. 6. Being in such Stillness that all sensory perceptions and thoughts cease, it wouldn't be inaccurate to say I was dead in that moment. Now, if I were to die a violent death, I probably wouldn't like it very much in the moment. Then again, it depends on the state of consciousness and perception. Another related example is inducing a delirious state to overcome my deep childhood fear of being eaten alive by giant snakes, surrendering completely to that and ultimately becoming the snake; although there's no 'physical' danger, it's indistinguishable from reality. That went well and the fear is no more. It's a recurring theme that Love is concealed behind a thick wall of fear. What you fear is yourself, the magnitude of it is terrifying. Surrender, surrender, surrender! Remove the reverse gear and move forward with a smile, excited at what lies ahead. [Not medical advice, don't put yourself in unnecessary danger and so on. Use intelligence.] It doesn't need to be so drastic either, there's hundreds of micro-deaths one can experience every day. While quitting a bad habit, each time you say no to it, that part of your identity slowly dies by starving to death. Letting go of needing to be right, facing embarrassment, changing your mind, saying goodbye, leaning into discomfort, apologizing, staying humble, living in the present moment; it's all the same.
  18. I have a bit, also with mediocre results. Even very concrete stuff like keeping track of the riddles already asked in my logic puzzle chat doesn't really work. 'Learn from your chats' does seem useful however.
  19. I'm glad it's working out for you. Do you use it as a prompt in regular chats, or a custom GPT instruction? I find the latter to be more powerful and convenient.
  20. It is too large to be seriously concerned about that for the next 5-7 years. Where there's a will there's a way. I can keep stocking up a select few substances with spare change over time, depending on how the situation evolves. Also there's always darknet markets; I have my preferences, but in the end there's almost nothing that can't be done with the classics like mushrooms and LSD, those will always be available. Lastly by the time I do run out, I plan to be financially comfortable enough to afford a custom synthesis. I may also die long before that or quit psychedelics.
  21. Here's a comprehensive list of everything falling under the ban: https://www.changingperspective.info/nieuws/lijst-stoffen-verboden/ Not a lot of worthwhile stuff, even less of it you can actually buy, so right now isn't yet time for panic, but as explained in the OP there's trickle down consequences of this even if our favorite substances aren't currently affected.
  22. Repetition is now inevitable, I also noticed lots of overlap in the high/low perspectives video with old content, especially in the examples. Initially it drove me nuts, but it's hard to come up with fresh poignant examples every time. I've reframed it as driving home important points so that they stick nice and hard. That's pretty much the point of the shift to epistemology foundations, it's no use teaching more advanced stuff till proper sense-making is internalized completely. It's a sort of prelude to the subconscious reprogramming course (whatever happened to that btw?)
  23. This seems useful in its own way, I'll give it a shot. But it's no substitute for psychedelics.
  24. Of course it's bad. Basically everything he does lacks empathy and sets terrible precedents. I'm just saying purely by the volume of people this is going to negatively impact, it's relatively minor. Even another trans-related policy of only putting the birth sex in IDs may have broader consequences for the future.