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LSD lasts much longer, has a more noticeable body load (there's such a thing as LSD shits, the next day expect to be on the toilet a fair bit), while mushrooms is mostly all mind. I feel like LSD is more versatile and tend to use it when I want to reach some truth, contemplate, or create. It's can also act as a powerful entactogen and has surprised me on one occasion with a release of hidden trauma. The longer duration helps with that, though past, say, 6-7 hours you'll reach a plateau/slow comedown which will mostly just be annoying, so I kill it with benzos after getting what I need from the trip. Mushrooms are not as direct, as if they jump all over the place without really giving you time to fully grasp a given insight. I use them for lighther, more 'recreational' trips of experiencing unity and stuff like that. Still very powerful though. As for taking them together, I wouldn't recommend. It's not harmful or anything, but LSD will most probably simply overpower the shrooms, not create a meaningful synergy.

Seems you already got this down, but essentially go into it with an explorer mindset, treating it a bit like an excursion. Wherever you end up, it's all par for the course. I find this helps with unpredictable ones like salvia. Also be aware that the vapor is absolutely disgusting, but you'll have to bear with it and hold in as long as possible for best effect. If the onset is not too immediate, you might have time to at least eat a piece of fruit or something to offset the aftertaste.

Just had this bizzare experience of accidentally inducing deliriant effects through meditation, completely sober. I don't meditate often nor use a particular technique, this time it was a simple combination of relaxation, breathing and awareness to the best of my ability. Prior state of mind wasn't any different than usual and I didn't set any intentions, but perhaps it manifested subconsciously as I have an interest in experiencing such states. This first taste was really spooky though, totally different from your regular hallucinations, paranoia, and even psychosis, which I have a decent amount of experience of through psychedelics and other substances. It's too realistic, the only vague indication I got that it was going in that direction was an intense ear ringing at the beginning, similar to high doses of dissociatives, but soon after there was no telling what's real or not. Saw things on the ceiling (like a snake crawling through a vent above me, yet I have no vent anywhere near), heard all manner of noises, talked to family members (I'm alone), even appeared in a different room, one I used to live in years ago, which didn't even seem strange, but the door was off the hinges and when I went to open it, there was someone behind with a malicious vibe, which startled me, I fell back and snapped out of it. At this point I'm very comfortable with nightmares, being killed in them and whatnot, thanks to the aforementioned psychedelic experiences. It's not so nice in the moment, but later always recontextualized into an interesting event, with something to learn from. This will too, but it's still a totally different beast from all the prior ones, I was totally taken aback by how utterly the mind's capacity to tell reality from fantasy fell apart. Not in a "I experienced unity with everything and it was the most real thing ever" kind of way, nor like dissos deconstruct all your cognitive filters. Even when you're having a bad trip, as long as you remember you took something that eases things a lot. But if you don't, that's when trouble can happen. In this case I took nothing, so the reaction was a surprise. There were horror elements to it, curious how you basically never hear of positive delirium experiences, like visiting rainbowland with fun talking animals or something. I guess because having an accurate perception of reality (by human standards) is foundational to survival, so at the first sign of that destabilizing the mind spirals into fear, negativity, and such. Anyhoo, just wanted to document this before I forget the details. Peace out.

https://ottawacitizen.com/news/local-news/uottawa-launches-worlds-first-masters-degree-in-psychedelics-and-consciousness-studies That's pretty cool, nice to see these things going more mainstream

Do most American voters even know who the VP is at any time? Publicity wise it's such a disproportionately obscure role, at least that's the impression I get as an outsider. In the 4 years of the admin I've heard her mentioned on international news only a couple times, mostly Ukraine related. I also check USA news sources occasionally, can't recall much about her there either. Same with Pence during Trump. Doesn't help both are totally uncharismatic. As such, the Dems will have to really work hard if they want to push Kamala through. No stalling, endless back and forth, arguments over trivial things, etc. as they like to do. Whether they're able to unite like that in time, who knows. Whatever happens, interesting times ahead. Republicans should start playing this clip as much as they can. They've an undeniable advantage with that stage Red boldness, resorting to smear campaigns and blatant misinformation definitely helps lure in the average uninformed voter. Dems have a bit more integrity which plays against them.

I've understood at the big picture level what I am and what's reality, therefore fulfilling my meta life purpose, one I've been inexplicably drawn to since I was little. That's what I'd call implicit omniscience, having an understanding of the structure and root principles. The explicit omniscience of all the content (every single event, mechanism, manifestation of consciousness) doesn't interest me much, but that doesn't mean I'll stop learning. The exploration of consciousness and refinement of my understanding of it will continue for as long as I live, but now I can allow myself to be biased in that and choose what is it I want to do next. Can be exploring a dimension, having an experience, learning a scientific field, acquiring a new skill, doesn't matter. But that's not enough, I also need to find an earthly life purpose, as without one after my awakening I kinda lost the drive to do most things, except simply enjoying the beauty of existence, but can only do that so much, need to balance it with action. As to why not dissolve back into the undifferentiated goo of Infinity, that option is available at any time, will happen eventually anyway, maybe even tomorrow. I can easily die in peace right now, but staying some more in this domain of duality to continue exploring and experiencing it ain't so bad either. I plan to cut back on spirituality for a time, focus on creating and taking actionable steps towards fulfilling a new life purpose, achieving complete financial independence, and engaging with hobbies. Visiting this forum has been one of the many ways to pass the time during this rut I've been in for a while, let's be honest here, maybe like 5% of posts are of any decent quality and provide value, the rest are arguing semantics, speculating, asking stupid questions... last 2 or so weeks I've been visiting much less frequently as well as cutting out other unconscious activities bit by bit, which I'll be doing even more ruthlessly as my schedule begins filling up with better things. So why am I spending time on this reply? Mainly to gather my thoughts and put them into writing, for future reference and accountability.

MDMA is neurotoxic, no wonder it leaves people with bad comedowns. As such it can (/should) only be used rarely, despite being quite effective for this purpose. You might want to try LSD. Almost nothing that little shit can't do. It's actually also a powerful entactogen, that's rarely mentioned, but I was reminded of this fact just a couple days ago when testing the new sheet I bought. At low-ish doses (100 micrograms or so for a regular person), you won't have many visuals getting in the way, and plenty of time to introspect or whatever else you need. Intention, or at least a correct situation are necessary. I wasn't planning on it, but during the trip I had to talk on the phone to my parents, and each conversation led to a powerful trauma release, I cried intensely twice with joy and bitterness, left me feeling much better afterwards. And that was with trauma I didn't even know I had, if you set a concrete intention and laser in on it, I imagine you'll get good results. 4-AcO-DMT is something you can basically only get from Canada or China as it's illegal in the Netherlands which's the RC capital of Europe. It's a powerful psychedelic, but IME it doesn't quite hit the notes you're looking for.

I always get a little jealous reading that people able to trip on such low doses 😔 20mg should still be fine for you, it's much more of a linear increase compared to, say, some 2C-x And it'll certainly have cross tolerance, just as any tryptamine does with any lysergamide

One of my favorites since a long time. I also like this meme version

It's out now. I'll grab the audiobook to start off

Alone in my own apartment, no relationships. Don't see this ever changing, it's amazingly peaceful

Travel lots, dedicate most of my time to spiritual work, learning in various fields, contemplation. Do some charity work, take good care of my health. Being serious or even half-serious about these would fill up my entire schedule.

This is interesting to think about. If one does manage to get to a state where everything is undifferentiated bliss, then in a way they'd be losing something, which is the ability to see distinctions. Now how you regard that is up to you, but it is a tradeoff to consider.

Continuing on this analogy from your blog post, I'm curious how do you think people that have an inexplicable innate desire to be like werewolf boy, but cannot for whatever reason, reconcile that? To give an example, Salieri from the movie Amadeus who was jelaous of Mozart's talent I wonder if there no hope for such people, are they fated to be stuck in that state for their entire life? And I mean more psychologically, I can't really see a good way of how one would 'practically' get out of a situation like that. More broadly and existentially speaking I understand why this happens and that it has to happen.

Maybe I don't, who knows. Had my fair share of immense pain and suffering, physical and mental. It wouldn't be wise to assume about other people or make comparisons. "Disconnected from God" is a duality, everything you describe is still within God. But that doesn't matter, as long as our perception of the issue remains different it'll all just be semantics. I wish you a speedy recovery.

I understand. It is a valid argument that a highly conscious person would not experience hell as hell, it would all be heaven. On the other hand, if you consciously choose to see hell, nothing will prevent you from that. The trouble is if one stumbles there on accident, which of course the various addictive and unhealthy patterns will reinforce. Getting trapped in a self-feeding nightmarish loop is a real possibility, where all your inner filth is reflected back at you amplified by a hundredfold, with you having no control nor capacity to handle it. I've read dozens of trip reports gone awfully wrong and experienced a good deal of that myself, though I won't make claims whether mine were harder or easier than anyone's.

I don't regard it as "unfortunately". I've experienced being trapped for thousands of years in a dimension alone with no need for food but feeling of hunger didn't go anywhere, among other crazy stuff. Looking back fondly at all those, even though in the moment it sure doesn't feel nice. In the end it's still all about perception. Understandable why most would avoid such things, but for some nutjobs like myself experiencing the full spectrum of existence is a necessity, it's not enough to just intellectually understand that such places exist.

It's totally possible for a psychologically healthy person to experience hellish dimensions, especially if they're interested in all aspects of reality and seek these out. Substance abuse, mental illness, poor setting, etc. will increase the likelihood of it and also color your perceptions negatively, but it doesn't have to be that way.

Doable, but it's like walking on a tightrope. The chances of you falling are extremely high, odds are very much against you. Chances can be improved through various means and efforts, but the truth is sometimes you may fail due to randomness or some predetermined conditions. Thing with Truth is, once you stumble upon it, you intuitively give it priority over everything else, even if rationally you understand there's survival concerns and the like. It's also irreversible, once seen it cannot be unseen. The sacrifices you mention are an undeniable reality though. In the end it's a matter of priority, which's more important, happiness or truth? I believe the two can be squared to a large extent (but not fully) if you're very prudent, careful, and also lucky.

Consider that contradiction/paradox is a crucial feature of reality. It's not an either/or, both can be true at the same time. But one might be more true than the other.

Bit like the Buddha eh. Indeed, as Christians like to say, the Lord works in mysterious ways

This reminded me of a practice I came up with some time ago and wanted to implement, but never did. Every night before sleep taking a good look around, then closing my eyes as if for the last time. A real 'rest in peace'. Did that during a disso trip once, such fucking levels of peace and stillness that it's not possible to put into words. Emotionally I'm also at a point where I'm prepared for death and content with it, though I wouldn't mind living to old age either. As for the actions, who knows, would probably say my goodbyes to family and then perhaps something reckless, YOLO style.

Sounds about right. The PCEs tend to be more manic and cold, especially if it's 3-ME/MeO. The HO balances that a bit. It's not a common substance, so I haven't tried it, but having done 3-MeO-PCE, 3-HO-PCP, and 3-ME-PCPy a bunch gives me a good idea. Some potentially relevant reports (not about it, but still very interesting) https://www.reddit.com/r/researchchemicals/comments/1brxgyo/3meopce_hole_didnt_know_it_wasnt_a_nightmare_5/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/p5rzzl/absolutely_floored_at_the_addictive_power_of_pcp/

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