LambdaDelta

Depends highly on the workload demands of your degree, extracurriculars, other career-related things you do. There's no need to go all in with psychedelics if it's not feasible at this stage, even if you're very busy it should be quite simple to set aside a weekend once a month or so for a serious, productive trip. That will be plenty, you'll still grow a lot. And contemplation/introspection you can do anywhere, anytime. I contemplate while cooking, on the toilet, on the bus, in bed before sleep... basically every waking moment that's not high-focus chores or distracting myself with entertainment. With such a structure you'll actually harvest much more of the trip during the integration break before jumping to the next one.

I've been lucky to not need a job, yet. When I need to set up something serious in my life, I grind at it tirelessly till completion, then coast off the results for many months; normal but consistent schedule is hell for me. I'm also still in university, which I don't dedicate a lot of attention to, leaving plenty of free time. Being low-maintenance helps too, I live comfortably on less than 1k a month with ease, only travel is missing of the things I care about. Lastly, I seem to have some uncommon genetic advantages for this work, like fluidity of mind of a schizophrenic, risk tolerance of a psychopath, fixation on a special interest of an autist, etc. all working together in harmony, highly functionally, with only minor side effects. Save for one special occasion I've never been destabilized by mystical experiences; I've had psychotic episodes on bad trips, slept it off and back to business as usual. Realizing my mom is imaginary didn't complicate calling and talking to her the next day one bit. Call it natural detachment. In the next couple years I'll probably need to focus on the material more, so it's a good thing I did a lot of this work seriously while young. There's downsides too, like loss of ambition, but otherwise overwhelmingly positive. Having to undo all the biases, beliefs, attachments, etc. gets exponentially harder with age. Plus I now have the tools to avoid most corruption, traps, and such. A solid foundation to build something upon. Without finding God I'd have been lost/depressed/drug addicted/dead by this point.

No, I was doing no spirituality before psychedelics. All I had was a persistent sense that there's more to reality than everyone seems to see and dreams that accurately showed the future. There were no intentions besides curiosity, thanks to an internet friend who was into mushrooms. On the first trip I experienced God and here we are. I've always done independent thinking, but because I lacked consciousness of infinite intelligence and such things, I assumed I wouldn't get far with just my human mind. Naturally everything then shifted and had to be reconsidered from the ground up. I'm regularly finding new aspects to things I thought I already grasped entirely and some that I was totally wrong about, with an ever increasing complexity.

Haven't kept count, definitely over 100 considering I've tried 60-ish substances. But fewer than 200. Only about 10-15% are truly groundbreaking however. Now I do it far less frequently but almost every new experience is next level.

You'll develop a sense for it. Health, logistical considerations, and such are factors, but secondary. It is a feeling that now's not the right time. I haven't tripped in nearly 3 months, unusually long for me. There has been a primal instinct beyond any reason that right now I don't want or need to see what God will show me. Several times I was about to inject myself and withdrew at the last second. This shit is so tricky, supposedly I pursue understanding no matter the cost, so such a situation can generate doubt and self-gaslighting. Gotta remember it's a long game, a timely strategic retreat is the wisest move. Then again some instances require ignoring every alarm bell and flooring the gas, no reverse gear. Right-o, in fact make it a priority. Get to the bottom of why you're on this path in the first place, without a concrete answer you won't be able to endure its hardest moments. Perfectly self-consistent logical chains can come from just thinking through it, i.e. interconnecting Truth, Love, Nothingness, Goodness, Will, Infinity. Huge advantages on a practical level too.

This is fine. But you need to deeply internalize that Truth is the highest value. Not based on Leo's video, but very clearly and immutably within your own mind. Then intuitive recognizance of your wrongness will eventually overwhelm whatever perceived benefits you get from self-deceptions, prompting change from genuine not-knowing. Will be very painful regardless though. Anyhoo there's too much to expand on this, but you get the idea. No need to stop entirely, just that extended breaks will occasionally be required.

It's all par for the course. Believe it or not, after you've done enough trips, especially at high frequency and intensity, those states will start to feel mundane too. Infinite consciousness can get bored of its own infinitude, it's so intelligent and holistic no content (state) is distinctive. That's why God incarnates as all these stupid limited forms, at a sufficiently low level of intelligence a toddler can be endlessly excited from playing peek-a-boo since they aren't even aware of object permanence. That's only the beginning, a necessary stage to pass. What you're doing now is a hike to the base camp and acclimatization, then serious mountaineering can really begin. Your baseline consciousness will get recalibrated such that immense insights will drop spontaneously during simple contemplation or even on a bus ride, with the benefit of time and articulation rarely available during peak psychedelic states. There starts the real work of parsing the entire structure of reality, how God functions on a technical level. Things like understanding how time is a logical necessity for maximization of Love & Perfection, perhaps even the exact mechanism of how Consciousness quickly raises itself to infinity and always adjusts back down despite brains, chemicals, and time having no meaning in those states. There's also a specific kind of awakening that gives a profound appreciation for being human, for the first time in your life – having a body, able to enjoy tasty food, have biases and vices, make mistakes... God himself doesn't have such liberties. Currently you're too starry-eyed about these new incredible realizations and experiences, but also unconsciously fearful of going deeper, rightfully so. Nothing to be done about that, attempting to skip will corrupt true understanding, if not do more damage elsewhere. Learn to enjoy the downs by properly contextualizing. But you'll most likely have to suffer greatly before getting to that point.

Only oral cause pellets, otherwise just about any works.

Of ones still available, DMXE, MXPCP, O-PCE, 3-HO-PCP. Latter 2 are strong and unpredictable, perhaps not an optimal intro to the class. MXPCP is very recent but promising. Which leaves DMXE, it's soft and warm, fantastic synergy with 4-HO-MiPT. Only pellets around now, seems that's what you prefer anyhow.

Worth it to get a reference if nothing else. DMT, 4-subs, LSD are more like flavors of the same thing. This is another entirely, as are Salvinorin & 5MD.

Sure does, it mattered for me. Won't for the majority, not everyone.

Even with harmala making the freebase orally active requires lots of substance. I believe fumarate needs less, either way more flexible options with it besides vaping. FASA method from Nexus is simple and yields well with DMT, unlike 5MD. Highly suggest trying at least one dissociative while you're at it. They're hardly even a thing in North America, EU is the golden opportunity, maybe not for much longer. There's lots and not all are any good, but ones that are give a qualitatively different experience either standalone or in amazing synergy with 4-subs.

Not particularly, 5-MeOs are another matter. Though I have almost died from doing that combo (high doses but still). Most likely hypertensive crisis, to be on the safe side avoid foods high in tyramines for a few days in case you happen to be sensitive to that.

Couldn't tell you. If they do, they have no right to open the package, therefore what's inside is irrelevant. I wouldn't trust a hotel to properly receive it nor for something to be delivered to their addresses. Better to arrange delivery to a DHL/DPD pickup point, most vendors will oblige if you talk to them and give necessary details.

None or very minimal. No cross-tolerance either, if only mental.

Right, it's something you work up to. First rodeo with a substance ought to be more grounded. My intro to IM was DPT, to this day probably my most powerful trip in terms of sheer intensity, it was then I learned my usual nonchalant dosing ain't gonna fly there. Here there be monsters. Just how it works. As is the case for most tryptamines, especially base (i.e. DMT, MET). You need something ridiculous like 200mg to get an effect. 4-subs are actually more of an outlier within the class with how they're orally active and salts can be passably vapeable.

I'm sure people get crazy experiences on DMT too. Wouldn't know, I'm immune to it, but overwhelmingly the reports point to a particular palette of consciousness. Same with DPT, it is by default quite conducive to things like insanity and reality violently tearing apart. A darker, more serious tone if you will. Ultimately it's all the same Love, but for certain twisted minds like mine it is more intuitive and logical to realize it from that angle. Well, everyone would benefit from such integration, if they dare. Intramuscular is by far and away the definitive route, provided you study up and have pure stuff. It's frowned upon, but that's the truth. Otherwise rectal I suppose, tends to work for most. 50mg would be somewhere around moderate. Smoking the salt is a waste, so is oral. Insufflation is painful and you need a good bit from what I hear.

@Nemra take caution with Salvia. DPT is incredible, perhaps the most alien there is; it's like an adult version of DMT, if the former is rainbows and sunshine, DPT is epilepsy warning glitch art. In the 5-MeOs apart from 5MD there's not much else, maybe MiPT if that works for you. No more MALT on the EU market, besides Canadian is better again. There's a magical 5MD HCl batch currently in circulation but only at one place, freebase is more or less the same across the board. If you can't get pure LSD-25, go for 1P-, and this should be the last chem you do. LSD tolerance is the longest and affects nearly everything, it's much more significant than 4-subs. The acetoxys get metabolized into hydroxy via hydrolysis, like 4-AcO-DMT to psilocin (4-HO-DMT). Hence 4-AcO-MET is rather unremarkable next to 4-HO-MET, same likely to follow with MiPT. Just get hydroxy and skip the middleman. Have fun.

Naturally, you can get just about anything with some effort. It is as you see, illegal and takes a while. Not ideal for a tourist but you can make it happen. Know that they carry Chinese 4-AcO which is not as good as the Canadian.

Cause only 4-HO-MET, 4-HO-MiPT, and 4-AcO-DMT are worthwhile and you won't get the 4-AcO. In any case doing a 4-sub when you already have N,N-DMT is fairly redundant, if it's such a rare opportunity get some 5-MeO-DMT, an LSD analogue, or a dissociative.

That's just a conceptual understanding of suffering though, isn't it? I've been reading and watching similar things almost on the daily for the past 10 years, to the point nothing elicits more than a raised eyebrow anymore. In the end it's not that different from reading a story, particularly when there's no visuals and such. One time I had What is the Devil in the background on a trip and towards the end experienced the examples that were given, like getting stepped on as an ant or gassed in a gas chamber; palpable as it was, that still didn't feel quite complete. I basically downloaded the feelings of fear and anguish + memories from God's mind and replayed them. But there were no changes to things like time or the visual field, hence incomplete. Can't beat direct experience. Though excessive suffering lowers consciousness, and so is counterproductive.

It's not the ultimate solution, nor a permanent one, but something potentially very useful regardless. Be more accurate to say psychedelics open you up to radical new possibilities and set your life on a different trajectory; it's an ongoing, unending process though. Speaking from personal experience, not even 100+ serious trips made the anhedonia go away entirely. In a way, it has actually worsened, because I now have utterly alien reference experiences of possible states of consciousness that nothing on this planet will ever come close to. Don't let that discourage you, I regret nothing and wouldn't have it any other way. It's an issue of perception — as though living in a perpetually thick fog, which means an abnormally intense light is required to shine through it. And the truth is we're still bound by constraints of physical reality, including brain chemistry, no matter how imaginary it all is nor how conscious you are of the fact. One cannot meditate, enlighten, or psychedelic out of a mental illness like ADHD or schizophrenia, but what you can do is temporarily awaken many times over and use those pieces to practically change your life at some level. Learning to work with whatever you're given is as important as striving to improve. I'm gradually coming to terms with the fact life is boring, much like with meaninglessness it's not reasonable to color that negatively. And none of it can diminish the pure magnificence of the fact that I'm conscious, so all is well. That's the sort of truth working with psychedelics can help you see in all its glory, which then becomes a saving grance and guiding principle, allowing to withstand whatever challenges life has in store. Without it I may have already been dead. Now, having Asperger's in the mix complicates things, although it doesn't seem as inherently risky as some other conditions. At the very least be prepared to have your analytical mind completely turned to mush, particularly on something as twisted as psilocybin. There's no safeguards, only the mindset to enjoy or at least go along with whatever comes up. If you're fine with a slightly higher degree of experimentation, look into research chemicals, way more options there while still legal. Truffles are a decent start, they were my first time too. A powerful but smooth trip with 15g, a standard pack. Lower dose works as well, but below 7g is probably a waste. Beware, they taste absolutely awful. Alone is best, not away from civilization though. Ideally have a trip killer like a benzo around, mostly for peace of mind. Ones offered in smoke shops are duds. Up to you what to do, you can set a specific intention for the trip or let the psychedelic fully take the driver's seat, both work where appropriate. Good luck.

Many a time, with overwhelmingly positive results. The most distinguishing quality is the utter ineffability of the experience, Truth is becoming conscious of itself and ontologically no higher authority exists. But there's also an uncompromising aspect to it, when truly facing God you face all of yourself, which sometimes proves too much to bear at once. That leads to a rabbithole of sovereignty, insanity, the paradox of finitude, and other entangled things that I'm not fully prepared to discuss, in part due to not yet having a clear enough understanding myself. Soon I'll publish a few trip reports from this summer, my most intense and dense yet. However I'm already intuiting levels to God deeper still, which frankly terrify me at present and will need to be worked up to with utmost care. But more importantly, once dealt with, I want to share a personal cautionary tale of how the tiniest oversight with psychedelics can have immense yet sneaky trickle down effects on one's life that might take years to even become aware of.

Couple preliminary thoughts before watching: Truth is the highest value because every other value is its byproduct. Even our ability to place value on anything is contingent on Truth aka Reality, and of course whatever it is you value, whether material, conceptual, ideals... also exist by virtue of Truth, or rather are Truth itself. So technically you cannot not value Truth, you can only be confused about the true nature of what you value. The default is to value (love) some particular instantiation(s) of Truth in a crippled semi-functional way, then many intermediate steps later one might come to realize Truth/Love/Infinity fully, dropping biased distinctions, as everything is seen to have identical & infinite value. All the while Truth has remained immutable, though seen another way it also changed in the process of having those insights into itself, since you are Truth; neither is entirely correct. Consciousness is simply too paradoxical precisely because it's all that there is, so there's no means to untangle the endless self-reference, not even using its own infinite intelligence. That's the ontological level anyhow, epistemologically it's fairly obvious that succeeding in any domain requires a truthful perception of reality, even if it's limited to that particular field, nor does it mean that the realities themselves will be truthful, they might well be full of devilry and corruption, hence having a very clear, yet nonjudgmental view there is crucial.

How about you also die IRL when you die in-game?