LambdaDelta

Obligation is low consciousness. It's about voluntarily taking on more responsibility, simply out of love for reality. 'you' still hold some very limited control, and You are the entire force. Just a matter of aligning the two. Well, depending on how you look at it there's indeed no free will whatsoever, so I'm not denying that either.

For me it was when I stopped seeing any divinity and wonder in everyday life and it turned into a tedious layover between trips. It's still a struggle, but a clear sign is when I'd ceased even attempts at contemplation/integration going to straight dismissal. Eventually even the peaks became more of the same, because my consciousness wasn't advancing to receive new ones. If you don't get qualitatively different insights for a while it is a telltale sign to take a break, unless your intention is to re-verify or deepen what you already got. Also tolerance kicking in was a factor, at one point I was doing so much so often that a 15-tab strip of LSD barely brightened the colors; it was getting unsustainable even simply from a financial standpoint. These days I don't trip very often, on average once a month, but each one is incredibly powerful. I rarely try new substances anymore as I've settled on a few that work the best after a long period of experimentation. I've also really attuned my intuition to when I truly should trip such that I'll withdraw or postpone as many times as necessary. Developing a communication with God helps with that, which won't work nearly as well if you don't see God all around. When the sober avenues have been exhausted is a good time to trip. While my human life isn't particularly important to me, my levels of contentment with it, especially the increase in capacity to love and provide value to others while remaining at peace, as well as consistently seeing and appreciating the divine intelligence animating everything around, are good indicators of growth I use. When I am fully ready to step onto the next level, which necessarily entails assuming more responsibility, God accommodates. I've learned not to force it and go at the pace reality sets. Trust the process.

@Psychonaut I know what shop that is. Not my go-to. If you're still struggling with that 5-MeO-DMT vinegar stuff, it's worth getting the HCl from another place. The methyl/methoxy variants in the PCP/PCE 3-subs tend to be similar in that they're rather manic and stimulating. I've done a few of them and it seems to track with the online consensus. Not sure what piqued your interest in 3-MeO-PCE except that one trip report where the person and their partner got sent into nightmareland after an accidental OD. But we may just have completely different tastes when it comes to dissos since MXPCP worked well and you like 2F-DCK, to me it's just a dirtier Ketamine. Asking AI about psychedelics, especially RCs isn't the best idea. In this case it happened to pick the same two I would, more of a coincidence though. That about 3-HO-PCP is a confirmation bias hallucination based on partial truths. Lord have mercy on your soul if you take 3-HO expecting it to be safe and trauma-healing. O-PCE description is closer to reality, but ultimately the primary function of both is obliterating the human self in a different way than other psychedelics. I have a post about it: For advanced spiritual work those two are the apex of the disso gamut. Most similar to how MXPCP works for you would still be DMXE & MXiPr, which are gone but it is fine, one you already have is sufficient. By extrapolation it should pair really well with a lot of tryptamines, I recommend trying that sometime. As an example:

Spot on. And as a result, it is unfalsifiable, since there's nothing to falsify Truth with. Ironically enough, understanding the mechanics of finitude is a far, far more complex matter than grasping this, which is literally a tautology and self-evident. Yet it still takes years and has to come first, as without the necessary context all the other sense-making will be partial at best, or just plain wrong. Lovely summary you got there. Welcome!

Hi, It will be laid out in more detail in a future guide, I currently don't have the time, but here's a duplicate of what I wrote elsewhere, it's sufficient for an overview:

Interesting, I've heard similar things about it, at least that it's pretty light, social, and mood-lifting. Wasn't so great for me, it's confusing but in a lukewarm kind of way, not the total divorce from reality and journey to Wonderland characteristic of stronger stuff. It's also the most impure RC I've seen so far, Chinese lab standards leave a lot to be desired. Either the molecule itself has some weird properties, or they need to make a cleaner batch. Have you tried DMXE? It's not as widely available these days, but is the closest structurally to MXE, the disso golden standard. PCP backbone instead of PCE makes a much more significant difference than methyl vs. methoxy. DMXE is noticeably warm, gentle, and synergetic, matched perhaps only by MXiPr. Is MDMA really that long? Never lasts more than 4 hours for me. Maybe it's just genetic quirks, I also barely register the comedowns that people paint as horrible no matter how much I take, guess daily headaches have created an immunity over time.

The forum is probably the least important of the Actualized resources in regard to the actual work. Virtually all it is is a collection of "Yeah, well, you know, that's just, like, your opinion, man", although there's some useful ones here and there. Leo himself said he views it as a testing ground for new ideas and shitposts a lot. In the recent videos what you speak of has toned down significantly, there's an appreciable difference to how it used to be. Not that it matters too much since the message has always been to take the useful stuff as food for thought and discard the noise. It's healthy and inevitable to disagree with your teacher on some content, the important thing is structure. If you're in perfect agreement all the time, might as well become them, and then there's no autonomy of mind, which is really what this whole thing is about. Having strong opinions very much fits the bell curve meme. It's up to you to discern which side the person is on, and it varies from topic to topic, but there's also a general pattern. And yeah, he still has biases remaining. There's sort of 3 major categories to those: unconscious ones, ones you're aware of but are very difficult to drop for one reason or the other – working through it may take decades, and those you deliberately opt to keep because they're practical or you just like them and they're generally harmless. A highly conscious person may have very few of the first sort, but the rest are here to stay. Seeing through them in oneself and others is your job. Hell would sooner freeze over before people quit their biases. What's off-putting is the egoic footprint oozing through the cracks, but it is only repulsive to you the ego. Part of the intuition is correct, relativity and nuance are indeed very important, good on you for keeping that in mind. Beyond that it's just overlays that weigh you down. It might be useful to frame communication as a kind of quadrant. truth-truth: the truth in you recognizes the truth in Leo | truth-falsehood: truth in you recognizes falsehood in Leo, doesn't judge, appreciates the intelligence behind it | falsehood-truth: falsehood in you fails to recognize truth in Leo, warps or misses it. Truth in you should be on the lookout for that to catch and eventually correct it | falsehood-falsehood: your ego judges Leo's ego due to some meaningless bias misalignment. This is just to be ignored, or rather not given any significance to, and it'll die out soon enough. Going into detail on those examples would be unproductive as it's content and highly prone to subjectivity. I can't be certain what you mean in that last one about 'epistemology', but it's worth pointing out that it'll take a while to appreciate just how crucial and vast it is. It's been 1.5 years since the trajectory shift and I'm only now starting to truly dial in on the full scope.

It's so fascinating. You moved on from mushrooms to 4-AcO-DMT. From insufflation to rectal. From pipes to e-mesh. From Salvia to Salvinorin A. In the conformity video you have a full section on psychedelic conformity and how you were able to get qualitatively different results by being open to new technology, with the example of Ayahuasca vs. synthetic N,N-DMT. We're on the same page regarding how weed is pure stupidity next to THCA. Yet there's a few areas where you still insist on using the same techniques you were back in 2018, maybe with a few tweaks. Like microscoops instead of volumetric dosing, or plugging instead of IM. Or this vinegar stuff. It's all good if you've tested every method and settled on the ones that are most effective and convenient for you, perhaps that is the case. But you speak as though no alternatives exist and these are the definitive methods, when in fact they may not necessarily be so for others, nor are they the most precise and rigorous. I know there's not enough time in the world to give every fine detail, especially many times over, but more nuance would be nice since most people take everything at face value. It appears that conformity is not purely a collective phenomenon, it also exists as attachment to ideas and methods one has personally derived, and it is especially difficult to notice and escape when those actually work and are superior to whatever was out there at the time.

Agree to disagree, I'll just present an alternative viewpoint. This on its own is myopic. Sure, going by straight molar mass freebase is 17% more potent and therefore cost-effective. But what about loss during vaping? It decreases with refined technique and better equipment, but present nonetheless. A person just starting out is guaranteed to waste a bunch. There's degradation too, even though 5MD isn't nearly as bad as N,N-DMT in this aspect, it's still a factor, while any salt will outlive you with half-decent storage. And when making it available for rectal, especially with a kitchen tier tek like vinegar, you simply cannot guarantee that every molecule of 5MD will bond to an acetic acid one, so some are left out. 'Dissolve' isn't even the right term here unless you massively oversimplify. You are forming 5MD acetate, which then becomes water soluble, but with a bunch of excess acid, hence the sting. Converting from salt to freebase is both less technically involved, and far more forgiving if done lousily. Lastly, salts tend to carry less impurities. You won't see this on a regular NMR, something more detailed like LCMS + GC is required. In the end, why not get half-half of each, or whatever other ratio you think will suit your use. Works both ways, if you want the option to vape, you also want the option to IM/IV. It ain't 'every use case' when 2/4 of potential ROAs are left out. What's even the reason to 'suck it up' when you're about to enter a powerful trip, besides saving a few bucks and acting tough? You want as few distractions as possible. Similarly you wouldn't want to taste Salvia's awful harshness right before getting blasted into insanity consciousness.

Not illicit, it's a legit lab and company, otherwise they wouldn't be able to sell it as an RC to clearnet vendors. Tracking down the source isn't that difficult, just a matter of some looking and networking, and there's no reason they wouldn't do business with you the same way as long as the product is unscheduled.

I know a guy that synths a few kilos of 5MD at a time, 25g is the minimum they sell. Bulk turns out ridiculously cheap per gram, 4-5 times less than with vendors, who are just resellers. Trouble is being able to afford this much at once. Lesson is, being poor costs more in the long run.

Guilty as charged

That's also what I'm finding out. Quite amazing how simple decarboxylation bypasses the regulation. Just what kind of morons write these laws? It's stranger than with RCs because of the massive consumption scale. Seems even cheaper than synthetics like JWH. Weed is aboriginal muck with an obscene smell, truly we're still in the dark ages. I'll get a gram even though I'm not good friends with cannabinoids, at worst it can just be shared with others.

I'll listen to any kind of funky shit, but also plenty of vanilla

Well, despite promising visual aspects and NMR spectra, the in-vivo could still turn out faulty somehow, so I prefer not going overboard on first orders. I'll assay 5mg soon, day after same dose HCl for a fair comparison. If it performs as expected I'll get another 1-2g. After unpacking & weighing losses + gifts I'll have 900mg remaining. Trips range from 3-10mg, beyond that only on special occasions. That's via IM of course, with the other inefficient routes a gram is only good for maybe 50 mediocre trips. So just the current amount is over 100 trips easily, which I won't be doing more than once per week due to having plenty of other chemicals to work with and in general having switched to a less frequent but more potent schedule. A second buy then guarantees stock for a few years at least, the rest are similarly secure already. Studying the effect of daily sub-1mg injections on baseline consciousness & prolonged exposure would be interesting. Transitioning to alien with 5MM 👽 Next comes time to lay off spending money on chems, talking on forums, etc. to concentrate on building wealth that will allow buying the kind of bulk you're proposing. Or better yet, ordering custom synths 😎

Fumarate ist here. A pastel cream sort of color, plus the nice fluffy texture common for this salt. Definite improvement over the brown and chunky EU HCl version. It's a better suited format for tryptamines anyhow, which may prove more effective despite lower potency by weight. A bare minimum of 100 breakthrough trips, at less than a euro per. What a time to be alive.

Extracting Salvinorin A is a start. From there one could, for instance, dissolve in acetone and vape it off an e-mesh. Like inhaling air. Salvia is disgusting sludge that absolutely cannot be trusted to be dosed with any reasonable accuracy, no plant material can, and it's nowhere near as forgiving as weed. It's akin to chopping up a toad and eating it to consume 5-MeO-DMT. I'd bet good money well over half of bad trips happen due to such factors. It's such a capricious molecule, there's not even a feasible way to make a synthetic version or convert it to salt.

But Leo how will listening to music deconstruct my rationality (it's actually very simple, just have one track play on repeat until literally starting to go insane. I once got stuck in a children's song 'Haenschen klein'. What a curious state of consciousness that was. For best results have the whole thing memorized, you'll smash your phone soon enough, but think twice about the head)

In the middle of rewatching this one, seems like a fantastic appetizer for the upcoming series.

It's superior for pretty much every chemical except a few where it is not logistically practical, i.e. LSD, Salvinorin A. Works just as well for 5-MeO-DMT, similar dosage range. For me 3.5mg MALT was significantly stronger than 5mg 5MD, though that's more of an individual sensitivity thing, generally assume they're equipotent. A friend has done up to 18mg, but says it almost gets too much past 10. There's great study comparing 5MD IM vs. vaporized: https://akjournals.com/view/journals/2054/4/2/article-p104.xml?body=pdf-28657

I just got done experiencing part 3 of the 'Infinite Mind' saga. Now there's enough juice for a self-contained story. I'd like to compile everything and present it in the proper manner, within the week. That might provide some useful frames of reference to people, and particularly to you re: what's to expect from the LSD I shared.

We can do it by 30 unless we seriously slack off, with so much of the groundwork already laid out. That's my vision anyhow. Tag, you're it.

Thanks guys. I'm currently ordering a new fumarate batch from Canada, looks promising. Till then with the little bit remaining I'll work up to 6mg in 3 increments.

It's an uncertain matter. You can somewhat generalize by receptor types targeted, i.e. if one's less/more sensitive to a serotonergic like DMT/LSD, a similar situation can be expected across the others. But there's always potential exceptions lurking around. Some substances past a certain point mutate their dose response curve from linear-ish to almost exponential. Nominal potency is hardly the decisive factor. A person may be regular with serotonergics, super sensitive to GABA, and barely receptive to NMDA for instance. I can eat a strip of LSD and be fine, but baby doses of any opioid or cannabinoid make me awfully sick. If in doubt, assume increased sensitivity and start lower. Far be it from me to preach safety practices, but that's the wisest way to go about it.

Using scoops has to be the worst advice Leo has ever given. This could harm somebody. Aside from the obvious inconsistencies in technique, even with uniformly finely ground powder it will not be fully accurate. On a few occasions I've overestimated the dosage by nearly double with scoops; negligence, yes, but the method itself is just faulty. Both are 1g DMT. Nuff said. And that's not even considering other factors that affect volume further, like vacuum distillation. Such a range within just one compound, now imagine across multiple. The correct way is volumetric dosing. Starting from 100mg, which scales can measure accurately, dissolve the substance in an appropriate amount of solution to achieve desired concentration, e.g. 100mg in 10ml for 10mg/ml. Store in a glass vial in refrigerator. To boof 5mg, you'd draw 0.5ml in a syringe, and so on. Compounds will be stable almost indefinitely in aqueous solution using distilled/saline water. Also saves a bunch of time on preparation for subsequent uses. For some stubborn salts apply a little heat to the vial to achieve full dissolution. I've seen several instances of people leaving a chunk of the chem in the syringe cause it just won't dissolve through any amount of stirring, giving a mistaken impression of how much they took. It is a similar principle for freebase, but with e-liquid for vape pen or tank, some amount of DMT in whatever ratio PG/VG that works for you, find some presets or experiment. Added benefit of conveniently and safely doing continuous puffs without need to reload pipe. @Davino can advise on all that. Virtually everything pharmaceutical from nasal sprays to creams to IV ampoules uses concentration, typically W/V or W/W. They sure don't use Chinese plastic scoops.