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Having tried too many of them to count, 3-HO-PCP takes the cake for me. Whatever aspect of reality I want to explore, it can take me there. Not even acid is this versatile. It's not a psychedelic in the strictest sense, rather a dissociative. It is however too potent for most to handle. But in general, combining tryptamines with dissociatives yields very good results, the substances don't matter all that much, they'll synergize reliably. The former will expand your consciousness, and the latter make it fluid. 2C-E is a good close second, it's about to go extinct though Recently I finally had very promising results with 5-MeO-DMT, so perhaps I'll be joining that cult in the near future (that's all personal opinion from tons of experience, your mileage may vary greatly) I mean, actual LSD-25 is as hard (or easy) to get in the Netherlands as any other place. Thankfully there's a large market of analogues that are nearly identical or even speculated to be prodrugs. 1P, 1cP, 1Bz, 1D, 1V-LSD... the entire fucken alphabet. Still, there's subtle but important differences that make the original the best. Plus the research chemical market is likely to take a big hit tomorrow. There's replacements in the making, but the chemists tell me they'll become crappier as the pool of legal options shrinks.

The immediate solution, just distract yourself with anything when the urges are getting to close for comfort. To actually get results, you need a concrete motivation, some higher purpose. The benefits proposed by nofap are too abstract, and framing it as a challenge is nonsense. I tried that on and off for years, doesn't work, eventually you get bored and fall back. The mind is incredibly sneaky especially when it comes to stuff like this. It will absolutely trick you in devilishly elaborate ways. What you could do is replace masturbation with meditation, they even sound alike. If you're like me, you're probably not meditating enough anyway. Install a cognitive filter that will preemptively force you into a mediative state when you start getting lost in sexual fantasies. The 'why' of nofap must be stronger than any desire, otherwise it'll fail. I've searched long and hard for that and got it at last, it's simply incompatible with and harmful to the direction I'm taking in life. Granted, I still relapse occasionally as it's only the beginning, but maintaining streaks has become almost effortless. Similar example, 8 months ago I quit a smoking habit of 10 years in a single day to pursue my love for hiking and mountaineering. The health they demand can't be had when you're putting shit in your lungs. Got zero cravings, such is the power of passion. Lastly, you can use the technique Leo proposed in one of the videos - rewire your mind such that you derive more satisfaction from not doing a harmful activity than you would from engaging in it. It is hard and painful at first, but really does work, I've successfully applied it in several areas. Good luck

Depends, if we count the thousands of years I spent in other dimensions, then absolutely, it's been going slow. Otherwise the opposite, time's moving faster, apparently that happens to most people with age.

Self-deception on psychedelics – Pseudo God-consciousness A few days ago I had a trip on 5g of GT mushrooms after an uncharacteristically long break. The experience was polarizing to say the least, but in the end I'm glad I had it. Prior to that I vaped some O-PCE, and didn't have a particular direction or intention, just wished to see what arises. Well, perhaps I was a little curious as to why I'd never encountered any entities. Knowing they're simply projections of my mind has made the entire concept redundant, but still. Sure enough, I'd soon meet some. From the beginning the vibes were a little off. I was feeling a surge of energy within me, like I imagine a sudden Kundalini awakening would feel. I had no control of this, which is fine, but I brought a bucket for vomiting just in case. Gradually the trip ramped up and I was transported to some looney-land in the 6th dimension. It was all very bizzare, the entities were doll-like. From the way they interacted, their day to day lives were fairly similar to humans. I was taken through hospital machines on a rollercoaster, it seemed as though the purity of my soul was being tested. Fail, and the trip turns nightmarish. That lasted for some amount of time and I passed in the end, but was somewhat shaken. In the background I was conscious that I was doing this to myself, but through the entire ordeal I was paralyzed, so it didn't feel like that. Now the fun part starts. With the peak approaching, the holistic perception also got maxxed out. Only in this case it was a fake holism, taking dozens of relative truths I encountered during the last few months and synthesizing them into a grand narrative, seeing patterns where there are none. Everything clicked and it made so much sense. In fact it was so obvious I thought myself a fool for not seeing it sooner, and questioned whether everyone else on the path was already aware of it, with only me left in the dark till now. That was accompanied by a strong sense of deja vu, as if I'd grasped it all before but chose to forget because of how immense it was. I don't recall many elements right now, nor are they particularly relevant since it all turned out to be a dud, but in essence I thought I had discovered a human God mode, a cheat code to life that'd let me make money out of nothing, learn everything I wanted to in a matter of weeks, achieve near-impossible things with little effort, and so on. Plus some rather ridiculous bits of conspiratorial thinking. In retrospect, the issue was that I forgot to remove the ego from the equation, so the perception was warped, but not badly enough for me to notice right away, before it was too late. The best lies have a sliver of truth in them though, so there was also an ineffable experience of absolute beauty and divine creativity. Just amazing, no words for how inspiring it was. From that lens, it was my best trip yet. With that accompaniment, it shifted into a higher gear. Now I was dealing with the very laws of physics, time, creating human consciousness out of nothing, etc. I had a feeling it could go to an entirely new dimension of awakening if I only just looked at myself in the mirror and accepted the entirety of the universe, yet I was stalling on that, wanting to experience the creative mode some more, which was gradually beginning to weigh down on me, literally my legs got so weak I had to support myself on the bathroom sink to not fall down. Time started to loop. As I was reconfiguring the universe in my mind, there was always this or that that I wanted to adjust, never settling on a single design, as I knew whatever I chose, there'd be no changing that later and nobody to blame but myself should something be lacking, so I'd reset it every time. It felt like I spent a very, very long time in that headspace. Seemingly settling on something at last, the last change took place, a complete 180, towards what you might call a bad trip. I was locked into a mode of perception so neutral and bland it was sickening. Nothing alike the peaceful 'reality as it is' meditative state. It's difficult to describe, just that it was utterly devoid of creativity, imagination, individuality, artistry, and other such qualities, as though they were permanently stripped away. So static, so boring, so deterministic, so hollow. Whatever I did, clearly some wires got crossed wrong. I felt that I doomed myself and everyone else to this monstrous mode of being, and started to apologize repeatedly. This wouldn't subside for hours, I couldn't shake it off or fall asleep. The only available option now was death, to wipe it all away and return to a void of nothingness. For some reason I thought a medium dose of etizolam would kill me, so I took that, and eventually blacked out, taking a long nap. To conclude, that was a multi-faceted, powerful, and humbling experience. Just what I needed after an extended break before diving even deeper. A reminder to not let the ego interfere, else you risk messing with things beyond your comprehension and ability. Had I possesed infinite intelligence then, I wouldn't have wanted to change anything, but that's not what happened. If you think ordinary self-deception is bad, wait till you're self-deceived on a psychedelic Well, that was fun!

As I seem to be rather forgetful lately, it feels appropriate to redirect the ever increasing flood of semi-refined insights and observations from my mind to a more reliable container. Aside from those, I'll post questions for contemplation, random trivia and similar content of interest, my ongoing experiments with research chemicals/psychedelics, changes/commitments I'm making, techniques I'm trying out or discovering, and so on. Basically, a blend between a journal and a blog, with no sugarcoating — however embarrassing or controversial things may turn out to be. Should anyone feels inclined to interact, that's welcome! Let the curtains rise...

If you buy/convert it to HCL or fumarate, yes. Otherwise that's inadvisable with freebase, it's very poorly water soluble and will burn. You could take it orally with a harmala extract.

What if reality is a manifestation of the Self?

Possible. A full glass shouldn't be that bitter with only 20mg.

It's certainly a less mind heavy psychedelic than those two. There's some empathogen properties and lots of visuals. No body load, uncharacteristically so for the class. Though it's certainly possible to go deep with it. One of my most major awakenings was with 2C-B, though on 120mg. You'll want to do something like 15-20 first time and see how's that. Pills/presses are fine, but they could be underdosed (most are said to be 20mg I believe), and contain potentially harmful adulterants. If possible, always get powder. You can put it in a capsule and swallow. The pure taste is awful.

I wonder how effective most of those would actually be in aerosol form... some vaporize well, but that's not quite the same. Should the ethics not be so much of a concern, there already exist fitting substances: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/EA-3167 https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/3-Quinuclidinyl_benzilate EA-3167, the anticholinergic deliriant, effective at 200μg and lasting up to 10 days, and a less potent but more researched and versatile BZ/QNB. I'm sure you wanted to explore a more compassionate way for warfare, but who said devilry isn't fun. With such dirty souls, even the 'good' psychedelics are bound to mostly produce bad trips, especially if administered suddenly. There's also the age-old idea to use psychedelics in capital punishment, to not actually send people to prison for 20 years, but make it be perceived as such. Though it's quite fantastical, the most reliable class for time distortion is the salvinorins, and even that is nothing close to consistent.

Sounds awesome, that's what it's all about! Interesting how it happened sober, I've had similarly crazy and unexpected experiences lately, I believe some neuroplasticity is involved there.

Ah, halt thy stride and flee me not, O fair Moon!

No, although granted it's always better to use water where possible. The real issue is alot of DMSO on the market is not up to spec and can therefore be dangerous.

Happy to help! I myself was quite resistant to the volumetric dosing before, but now after powering through the initial confusion it's simplified stuff for me a lot, so I totally get you. Especially for stuff like long term storage, I now prepare a vial and that's at least 10 doses right there, plug and play, before I'd do a procedure like in Leo's video every time I wanted to dose, so inconvenient looking back. Not to mention when the significance of imprecision is in micrograms, not milligrams, there's really no other choice Good luck with your tripping

I believe 5-MeO-DMT isn't active orally, so no. But you could plug it. Either way you'd want to use a syringe for delivery, squishing inside your mouth or rectum The math is really hard to get wrong, say you want a 10mg/ml concentration, and store in a 10ml vial. You'd dissolve 100mg of substance in 10ml of water or whatever, stir, and done. Can be stored in the fridge for better preservation. When plugging, if you need 5mg, take 0.5ml with your 1ml syringe. The entire 1ml for 10mg dose, and so on. If you want to go the insufflation route just be extra careful with measurements, achieving accurate 5mg lines is damn near impossible

I don't have experience with the natural vasodilators, but it makes sense they work, akin to ginger powder before a mushroom/truffle trip to help with the nausea. There's a pharmaceutical vasodilator called Clonidine, and others, that can do the same job. I hear it also helps to reduce the anxiety, though the primary function is eliminating physical discomfort. Personally I don't really notice the vasoconstriction that much during the actual trip, too busy with insights and all that other crap. It's the comedown that becomes annoying. LSD, DOx, 2C-E are all pretty heavy bodyloads. My method is to kill the trip at that point with benzos, the muscle tension relief is pleasurable on its own. Though that might not work so well if you need to function after the trip.

Yes you can do that, for a first time allergy test. I expect 10mg to be rather mild, but who knows. As for powders, there's really nothing scary about them, they're cheaper and more versatile, plus you can properly test them if you wanted. I often use microscoops to dose my powders, it's not wholly accurate, but close enough, especially given I don't care that much about ± a few mg with my low sensitivity. You can prep multiple capsules from a baggie of powder in 15 minutes of work that'll last you months. Or if you really want accuracy, volumetric dosing. Bit more tedious, but it's rather simple actually. Weigh out a decent amount of powder that'll reflect accurately on a scale, 100mg+, then dissolve in a set amount of solvent, with good stirring you'll achieve a precise concentration of X mg/ml, then use a syringe to measure whatever you need and consume orally or boof. Oftentimes water is fine, for most tryptamines HCL it is, except the base ones. Otherwise DMSO, it's suitable for both oral and rectal, or if you're willing to expand to vaping PG/VG, acetone, and so on. I do the volumetric dosage for the super potent ones that are impossible for the scoops or scales, MK-801, or 5-MeO-DMT in your case. Personally I hate insufflation, even if in such tiny amounts it won't harm your nasal passages it still burns and drips.

But you can cause a buffer overflow by sending a payload of psychedelics

Said the Sufi Mansur Al-Hallaj and was promptly executed for heresy. How lucky we are to live in the the modern times, even if it's still the dark ages in many ways Thankfully Truth is a much larger notion, containing all of those and then some, so you "only" need to break your perception insofar as to seize separating everything in your mind, just leave a tiny space for survival Basically how ego death works, you contract to zero which expands you to infinity

Quite well so far. Guess I'm like that monk Leo mentioned

There's subtle differences between the 4-sub tryptamines. Even 4-AcO-DMT, which's said to metabolize into 4-HO-DMT (psilocin) isn't quite the same as doing shrooms. I've used a lot of 4-HO-MET, it is fit for spiritual work, but you'll need to take more than an average dose. My range is 80-100mg, but that's too far for someone with standard sensitivity. 30-35mg or thereabouts should be good for a solid trip. If dosed high enough, the headspace will absolutely be there. It is pretty visual, and since few people tend to go beyond 25mg, that's about all they'll get from it. 4-HO-MiPT is very similar, but it is more potent, so I prefer it now. 4-AcO-DMT is good as well if you can score that. Combining a tryptamine with a dissociative is almost always good synergy, my favorite combo used to be 4-HO-MET with DMXE, with Ket it'll also work, though imo some dissos are cleaner than others. Pellets may or may not be underdosed, it's always best to get powder, but work with what you have.

Heh, nope, no such thing for me, though I'm very glad it's working out for you, sounds lovely. I generate the love required within myself, skipping the middleman so to speak. There's tradeoffs either way

I agree, also sometimes keeping the truth hidden is the most loving course, but on the other hand getting it out of the way once, even if painful, is more freeing. I see, thanks for sharing. For me I believe discovering solipsism has been the final nail on the coffin of romantic relationships. I'd really like to discover an actual reason for those kinds of innate biases, or why for instance wasn't I born an animal or alien. In other words, see the process which infinite intelligence used to determined all that. Of course trouble is once you're in the appropriate state, such trivial questions seize to hold any meaning nor enter your mind. No need for that, it ain't unlucky, they're exactly how I imagined them

In all honesty, your plan was poorly made to begin with. It should have been apparent since high school that you do not have an aptitude for mathematics and such, so why go to Physics? A dream job sure sounds nice, but it's an idea in your head, the reality may differ significantly. For a brief period my dream job was to become an accountant, then first semester of college after a few classes I realized how immensely boring it actually is, nothing like the picture I envisioned. The fact that you're now going to remain a loser after failing the degree is also something your mind has constructed. Are you a prophet? The future is fluid, and can change a lot in unexpected ways. Maybe when (IF) you're 35 and working at McDonald's barely able to afford rent in some shithole, revisit the suicide route. But right now your situation is not a dead end at all, in fact it's likely going to feel liberating once the initial depression wave passes. Hold tight and try ro recontextualize it into a positive. Few other things, there's no need to beat yourself up for repeating the same mistakes, in fact that's the best way to deeply learn a lesson for many people, you step into the same pile of shit over and over, and finally decide enough is enough, that determination will be so strong it'll hold for life. Also, practically speaking, an average sociologist has better employability prospects than an average physicist. You'd have to really excel to achieve the prestige you wanted, so simply passing a class wouldn't have made a difference in the end.

Have you perchance explored the reasons for that? I ask cause for me it's the exact opposite, holds zero value. My inquiries as to the cause have been unfruitful thus far. Could just say it's my bias/I'm born different, but I'd like to be more rigorous than that. Said the same to my parents, and that I'd also choose it over my life. Weren't fine with that, still love them though