LambdaDelta

Wrong about the fact that I cannot be wrong (I can) Wrong about the value of humility, compassion, and love (autistically dismissed those as 'girly') Wrong about sustainability of psychedelic mystical states ('chasing the dragon' higher and higher, while blind to the divinity of mundane reality) Wrong about books and similar resources (thought I don't need those, that my own insights and Leo's videos are enough. Now I'm consistently blown away by the kind of wisdom and beauty I'm finding in multi-century old texts, from a wide variety of traditions) I'm also considering that I may be wrong about romantic relationships and general interactions with people, but not quite sure about that one yet, it's in the works.

3-HO-PCP is an amazing dissociative. So multifaceted, some of my best trips have been with it. It's also cheap and relatively harmless.

Far from the most extreme thing I ever done, it was actually very manageable. A nice chill awakening to complete solipsism. But I'm wired in strange ways.

The headspace is what's more similar, and visuals too to some extent. It's not easy to put into words, as shrooms are also fairly similar to both of these, but there's subtle distinctions. IMO the 4-subs are less confusing, your chains of thoughts/insights are more coherent, while shrooms kinda throw you all over the place. Visuals are more colorful and 'warped' I guess? Your experience might be different. I believe part of the reason this comparison is not made as often is people treat 4-HO as almost purely recreational/visual substance, never having gone really deep with it. Much like 2C-B. My top 3 trip was with 2C-B, but on 120mg.

Fumarate can be taken orally. Dosages on PsychonautWiki seem accurate for people with normal tolerance. I've taken something like 90mg for a deep trip, don't do that though. It's solid for consciousness work. People say it's a lot like shrooms, but I think it's closer to 4-HO-MET, just more potent.

Indeed, your examples are pretty strange. All that stuff is child's play compared to the individual and collective evils that have been and will be committed. And what's this about data? The data is neutral, it's your interpretation of it that makes it good or bad. This reminds me somewhat of the Cathar belief that the material world was created by a lesser, evil deity, and the true spiritual realm is that of the real all-powerful God, to which the soul can return upon death of the body, while everything earthly is inherently filthy. Might sound good on paper, but that's just more duality, judgment, and separation.

Another great thing about suffering is it brings you closer to unconditional happiness

Have fun, it's a nice topic. I just wanted to write this warning cause I know a few guys that think of everything in terms of serotonin/dopamine, it's a sad sight.

My experience is somewhat different. Some years ago my social anxiety was bad to the point of being afraid to call the ISP and talk to the tech support person. Now it's all fixed and I can socialize really well without any issues, particularly meeting people where they're at. However it's still an activity that gradually drains energy in the process as opposed to increasing it, like a genuinely enjoyable pastime should. What's more, as I get better at understanding psychology, despite improving my interactions at a surface level, it's actually making them more boring. Before at least there was some mystery, but now that I can read most like an open book, there's not much point to it. You make great observations, but I disagree with "it's making you think like most people". If anything I feel more alien than ever, not in any negative sense though.

Is it just me or has the word "like" been used too many times in this one? Perhaps a consequence of speaking more about personal experiences than abstract topics. Anyway, fantastic video as usual.

I wouldn't get too hung up on this receptor/neuroscience stuff. It's good as general information, same as reading trip reports. But then your actual experience with the substance may differ wildly, a complete 180. There's a community on reddit called r/DrugNerds dedicated to this, lots of data there.

Interesting developments https://www.theguardian.com/world/article/2024/may/28/israeli-spy-chief-icc-prosecutor-war-crimes-inquiry

If I'm wrong about being wrong, am I right?

On moderate doses it's pretty fun, especially lighter stuff like molly. Once I had a 'bad' trip on a train, got a little too deep and I saw the ego of everyone around. Quite the unpleasant sight. Barely managed to get home, everything was drowning in warping colors. Must've looked totally wasted but somehow avoided the cops or death. It's one of those experiences that are useful to have once in your lifetime but no more. Doesn't have to be purely recreational, practically it can be very powerful for curing social anxiety or just observing people in action, many patterns are revealed that usually go unnoticed. Good material for psychological understanding. Especially if you combine for instance tryptamines with dissociatives.

I realized I cannot seriously pursue this unless I first build a solid foundation of health, which is in the works at the moment. The interests won't matter if you don't have the energy or cognitive capacity to engage with them. Thankfully at the moment I'm financially stable, but becoming completely independent comes next. Amidst all this I still dabble in plenty of topics, but not at full capacity. Also I try to study the best polymaths like Ibn Sina, Da Vinci, Goethe to figure out which practices and ways of thinking I could borrow to enhance my own. A major challenge I had to overcome is a kind of paralysis, having too many things to potentially do and not knowing which one to choose. That's been mostly solved now thru trusting my intuition and adopting a balanced "shoot first, ask questions later" approach.

Complete and permanent dissolution of the ego is tantamount to death in this human world. At 100% no self you wouldn't even know your name, making it impossible to do basic survival. Which is not to discourage striving towards these states of being, but part of wisdom is knowing your limits.

That's self-bias for you. A selfish person would sooner resort to all those things you describe than admit their deficiencies and start working on correcting them. Truth hurts. A 3/10 guy doesn't see himself that way, he believes he's entitled to at least a 6/10. Women are the same, a 3/10 girl will not want a 3/10 guy even for casual sex because she believes she deserves better. If we could match people according to some objective rating system to someone closest to their own level, then it'd all work out. Of course it's not as simple or mechanical as that though. I could be wrong, but that's one way to look at it.

I guess it's one of those fine distinctions between relative and absolute truth, gotta read the context to understand which one's being spoken about. Which ties in with the limited dualistic nature of language and that entire tangent. Pursuing Absolute Goodness can easily be turned into another should, part of a spiritual ego. It sounds great, and it is, but on the other hand nowhere is it written that it's how humans should aim to be. God allows us the radical freedom of being evil, and doesn't judge anyone for it. In my understanding Absolute Goodness transcends and includes evil. Anyhoo this is tricky terrain, in the end the best we can do is act in accordance with our authentic values and integrity.

Some more crocs. Mara river crossings are a sight to behold. The zebras know there's dangers in the water, yet herd instinct and migration necessity still make them cross. Also those waters are absolutely infested, look at how many crocs there are. Intelligent of them to gather at that particular time to pick off the zebras one by one. Now the snakes, first video from 4:17. Crazy elasticity there. Plus the way it forces the windpipe out so it doesn't suffocate during swallowing! Such a meal is enough for 1 year. Used to be deathly afraid of those things before realizing me and it are identical lol.

PsychonautWiki, Bluelight forum, Erowid experience vault, tripsit.me, effectindex.com, r/Drugs, r/tripreports, r/researchchemicals to name a few are helpful to gather information about dosages, safety profile, interactions, subjective effects, etc.

'Tis a very long and personal story, but I'll try to cut it short for various reasons. I've a naturally high psychedelic tolerance, which I probably screwed even further. Typically for any given substance on PsychonautWiki the 'heavy' dosage range and beyond is where the good stuff's at. The 5-MeOs plain don't work, couldn't tell you why. Tried snorting, vaping, and boofing 'em, to no avail. Well, I guess 50mg of plugged 5-MeO-MALT did produce a slightly erotic sensation once. No dice with 5-MeO-DMT or 5-MeO-MiPT. Same story with NN-DMT and DPT. The one time I had a very profound trip with DMT was 400mg + 200mg harmala, which nearly physically killed me, probably due to tyramines or whatever, but I like to frame it as the price of admission Anyway, that's that. Naturally it's all high quality lab-grade stuff, so the issue of purity is out of the picture. The wake up call was almost back-to-back experiences, first 2250ug LSD-25, then 700mg Mescaline with 100mg DMXE had barely managed to make a shift in my consciousness. It's been going on for some time, though I couldn't tell you exactly how long. As you may have noticed it's all rather incoherent, cause my perception of time has been altered, I've spent literal thousands of years trapped in some dimensions. Somehow I'm still functioning really well. I don't want to make any excuses, it was foolish, but at the same time I've no regrets either, it's all part of the path. Like I said I'm now cutting back on the stuff, reorienting myself towards more 'traditional' spiritual practices, which's going great. Surely my tolerance will be restored to a degree, over time.

Dunno what to make of it. I've a good online friend from India, not really a spiritual guy though. He seems to believe that Sadghuru did kill his wife and is using connections with the PM Modi in nefarious ways. The people over there may know better than us, but in the end, if you get value from his teachings, that's great. Apparently the villain in the recent movie Monkey Man is a caricature of Sadghuru. It's a very polarizing topic, a shame that it's come to that.

This is so very relatable. I've fallen into this deep trap of spiritual bypassing via psychedelics myself. It's still ongoing in a way, but I finally get the message. Not sure what your situation is like, but I'm at a point where I have to take amounts that'd likely send a regular person to a psych ward just for a mild trip. It's basically a waste of substance, and as others have pointed out, it will definitely take a toll both physically and mentally, even if subtly. Perhaps you too will need to feel the desperation of not being able to access those states no matter the dose to truly understand. That's what it took for me. Now I'm slowly but surely learning to appreciate the wonders of everyday mundane life, immersing myself in meditation, reading, sports... A whole new dimension to reality has opened up, no psychedelics required. And that's what it's all about - diversity. Crazy, but even those divine realms get boring if you visit too much. Anyway, I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Just remember that all experience, whatever it may be, is essential for growth.

Thanks, will check it out Yep, it's plenty. Not too long ago the best was like 8-16k on GPT4. This stuff evolves crazy fast.

It ain't that simple, they check the issuing country of your card. Tricking it is possible, like a with virtual CC via USUnlocled or something, but a lot of hassle. I currently use Opus thru Perplexity, but it has a smaller 32k context window compared to the official platform.