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The trick is, you never know what you're going to get. As you cast your net in the ocean of consciousness, you may wait for days on end and only get a couple small fries, or reel in a giant bluefin tuna that will feed you for weeks to come. But perhaps a shark will pull on your net, take you overboard, and rip you to shreds. Or a whale passing by will accidentally entangle the net on its fin and drag you into the abyss. That's a gamble you take, and you have to love taking it, that's what it means to be a mystic. If that's not for you, stay on land and live a nice life, maybe someone will bring over a gift of some canned meat every once in a while.

You issue is likely you're trying to reconcile paradox through logic and reason alone, that is doomed to fail. The interface you're using is too limited, it's like trying to divide by zero on a calculator. Any number times zero yields zero, so the result is undefined, it is infinity that can't be displayed on a finite instrument. Fundamentally paradox is rooted in duality – "this thing contradicts that thing". There's different kinds of paradoxes (more simplistic/linguistic ones like Theseus's ship or the heap, through even those have a deep meaning), and the existential ones that you solve by becoming directly conscious of God. How can God be everything and nothing at the same time? How come an omnipotent God can't stop being itself? How are stupidity and laziness actually manifestations of an infinite intelligence? When it all collapses into One, there's no more conflict, nothing to resolve, though not in a simplistic nondual way where it's just an infinite indistinct field, you can hold both in your consciousness and see how they're two sides of the same coin, which is oh so very beautiful. Paradox must exist because reality is Infinite, as per Russell's paradox it's a set of all sets that contains itself. I feel you on the need to understand reality. Sometimes you get lost and frustrated and self-deceived, but the call is still there. If the current approaches aren't working, try changing them. Hope that helped a bit and good luck.

My newfound combo of 30mg 4-HO-MET + 100mg S-isomer Ketamine was injected intramuscularly. Intentions were: Access and better explore the vial consciousness dimension, property register of consciousness Get absorbed into Hole Consciousness Make my hand morph into different shapes, animal body parts, metals, through willing it with imagination Look deep inside myself to observe DNA replication and heavy metal chelation in real time Comprehend orders of Infinity better Instead I got something quite different, but ripe with insight nonetheless. It was chaotic from the get-go, mostly due to my own fault – the BT headphones wouldn't connect properly, the poor thing didn't know which of the devices to choose, and my music queue just didn't want to go. But I rolled with it anyway, very much in an off-hands rave style. The trip took me for a brief ride through a wormhole, almost in a teasing fashion. That confirmed my intuition of God always being there in every moment, all of it, we just don't see it or see very partially even during awakening. Then a sudden stop. At first there was annoyance at that buzzkill, but I searched for a deeper meaning and found it. See, at this point I have such an intimate relationship with God that there's no need for words, there's mutual trust in that the other will get the message. I was being told, gently, to back off, that it's not time yet. One could draw many parallels there – summiting a mountain, taming a horse, sexual intercourse... and they'd all be true. Save for very exceptional circumstances, or unless it's self-induced, bad trips aren't a thing for me, I'm always wanting more because I know it's all Love. So that was God's way of keeping me at bay. A short chaotic ride that leaves one questioning, and in the pause of that longing many unexpected answers came. Though there was a part of me that wanted to press on no matter what, that's an inalienable part of a man's passion, one that could make many things go south if not subdued... As we were already on a somewhat romantic motif, my mind veered in that direction, even though I'd never given it much thought. One could say I'm too deeply in love with God to have space for anyone else. But I contemplated a couple pick up scenarios anyhow. What does a woman want in a man? A balance between calculated and passionate, just the right kind of spicy. Firstly, it's very important to be well-educated and at least somewhat informed in all manner of fields, that's just a natural consequence of being a serious philosopher of any kind. Don't talk about yourself, talk about the world. You get to show off your vast array of knowledge while coming off as humble and mysterious. If it comes to talking about oneself, be reserved, let the other party do the inquiry. Your attitude should be "I haven't made much of myself, yet". Humility together with ambition. Works better if you're already impressive in many regards, just reveal it slowly and not as a humble brag. Another great one is to somewhere at the beginning of conversation say "be at ease, I'm not looking for anything romantic/sexual, just quality dialogue." This is very multilayered. It disarms the most obvious safeguards, communicates refusal to chase, and places the ball on the other side. If the girl gets attracted to you over the course of that conversation, that will be a genuine desire in her, with you free to act on it or not. If not, everybody still wins. All these work because there's deeper truths behind them (i.e. talk about the world because it's all God, there's also your selflessness practice). But one could pretty much psychopathically pull them off based on structure alone. "How you say it, not what you say" is true, but subtle language use is still important. "Maybe someday" presents the possibility, but leaves the choice entirely to the other party, instead of a more straightforwardly suggestive tone most men use. If you're an introvert and somebody compliments you for being a natural at socialization, play it off with a "What, me? No, the real naturals could probably spot it from a mile away. What you're seeing is just the training", which you could then spin into a backstory of being shy, but overcoming obstacles and all that. Are these insights true? I don't know, you tell me. I've never been in a relationship, dated, or kissed, and literally got all this from staring at a graph. This graph. As preparation for my trip I had this plotted in a graphing calculator. f(x) = 1/x. f(0) is a hole, an undefined point on an otherwise infinitely continuous graph that literally bends about the origin, creating a discontinuity where there should be perfect continuity, the line teleports and becomes two. Not dissimilar to how 24:00 and 0:00 mark the end and beginning of a day in the same instant. But where does the hole lead? What is there? Maybe it reappears in 3D space, one dimension above, as 2D is unable to contain that order, that density of infinity. Those alien green hues of the lines bending about the origin against a pitch black background, beckoning me... 👽 But we've gone a little off-topic. It's quite remarkable how the extremes of masculinity and femininity loop into each other. A woman can read a guy just from the way he enters the room. And a very autistic guy can get mathematical insights from looking at an equation for hours on end. No words required in either case. It's very rare to see such traits combined into a single person; what would that look like? Maybe that's why I don't crave a partner so much, the internal balance is already quite in order. There is one thing women aren't very good at though. Compartmentalizing. If she sees you go from having fun to dead serious in an instant, she'll have a hard time processing that, perhaps thinking that one of those was fake. Women don't really understand a rough brake into a sudden stop, what they need is a gentle, smooth transition. Again, I haven't field tested any of this, that's just intuition, but if it is accurate, that shows the power of observation, some things can only truly be grasped from a distance. Not the kind of sad, biased distance where you're just jealous of other people hooking up and draw all the wrong conclusions about women only wanting Chads and such. No, the real, detached distance, that most scientists could only dream of having in their lab experiments. Which leads me into how several of my very slight psychopathic tendencies have served me well on the spiritual path. In particular the very abrupt perspectival or tonal shift. It makes no real difference to me to imagine myself in the shoes of a serial killer, or his victim's parents. To most, that's inconceivable, you're either one or the other. Good or bad. Yet that's precisely how God – Teōtl – works, an unattached shapeshifter. I remember staring at the elegantly duplicated sub-grids of the graph and thinking "If this is a hint, I'm afraid I'm too stupid to get it". What I had in mind was a new scientific discovery, something to solve the Collatz conjecture perhaps, but in the end I got all this. A different kind of intelligence. My only thought at that time, was "What are you trying to say?" It's duality in the purest sense, where nothing outside of me and God exists, we're too engrossed in each other, yet separated. It's a mirror, naturally, but I like to conceive of God as an other anyway. It's a beautiful relationship. You can say curse God and praise him in the next sentence, it won't be blasphemy or falsehood – you've been talking to yourself this whole time. Blasphemy and prayer are made of the same syllables. It’s all one sentence, just said from different angles to the mirror. I'd forgotten until writing it all out, but this whole thing was a lesson for me to practice what I just recently preached – to be as grateful for what you're denied as for what you're given. 'Twas God's shit test, to see whether I actually understand and mean the words I say. God and his games, huh. No wonder it's so tricky to understand. Anyhoo, I hope you too one day develop such a relationship with God, it's the best feeling ever, even in frustration and suffering.

It's called PsychedeliCare More info here: https://eci.ec.europa.eu/050/public/#/screen/home I'm cautiously optimistic about this one, collecting a million signatures in the remaining 8 months or so, plus actually changing legislation is a thorny path, but the effort still counts and people should express their opinion.

It was the grandest party one could ever hold, with vibrant colors dancing around, shapes morphing delightfully, divine music reverberating throughout, and pleasant aromas lingering in the air. The birth of the Universe, a true celebration of Being. But the real gold came afterwards. As a mystic you have to love not just attending the festivities, but also cleaning up. There was silence, and in that silence Truth revealed itself, like Yahweh to Moses. 'To be' is the only verb that does not require duality, I AM is the bedrock beyond which you cannot go, try as you might. The intensity has left me bedridden for a day and severely debilitated for another few. First, a few words about Will. The Will of God is for all its parts to be sovereign unto themselves. The Will is completely surrendered to that end. God is entirely selfless because it is every self. Want to know God's Will? Look around and look at yourself. Together with Truth and Love it forms the Holy Trinity. Nothing can ever go against God's Will, doing so would be impeding God's self-expression. Will is so absolute that God itself can't alter it, even if it breaks God's heart sometimes. It's a Love so complete that even though it accepts itself fully, there are parts that do not, there's hate and there's desire for things to happen differently, aka bias, but the larger Love includes all that. God is such a being that by virtue of existing it casts this shadow upon itself. In a Newtonian sort of way it creates an opposite reaction to itself, some might call that the Devil. Hence nihilism, suicide, suffering. Still, a call for true Goodness is within everything, just that if you don't recognize it you'll be like a compass that doesn't understand why it's pointing north. Can't spell compassion without compass by the way. Another implication is that relative things are also absolutes. Violence is an absolute, because it Is. To ask God for there to not be violence is to ask God to not be itself. Absolute Bad is not a thing, there's only Absolute Good, existence itself. Absolute Bad would be the absence of anything; no God, not even the possibility for there to be good or bad or an experience for you to judge things as such. How come nothing in the world changed even though I went through the creation of the Universe? Because it wasn't a new event per se, I simply became conscious of what already Is. Consciousness has a bottomless capacity for self-obfuscation, that's really all that's happening here. How God inquires into and inscribes itself into Being is the mystery of mysteries. One could conceive of it as a very high level bureaucracy, where the inefficiencies are not flaws, they're tools to set the rhythm. With each awakening you're getting infinity, but only the part of Infinity that you can presently handle. The rest remains obscured. Your understanding may be infinite yet still partial. Think of it like zooming into a Mandelbrot set, frame by frame. You think you have the whole picture, and in a way you do, but you haven't yet put together that the frames are part of a larger thing. When you do, maybe you start perceiving it as a continuous video stream, but of limited duration, because perhaps the software you're playing it with can't display infinity, it only deals with unsigned integer values and then cuts off or loops. This is in equal part a warning and inspiration. Know that there's ever greater depths, but don't overreach. Ignorance is God’s gift and God’s mercy. If you knew the fullness of what you are, you’d die on the spot. Be as grateful for what you're denied as for what you're given. If you told me just a week ago such an experience was possible I wouldn't have believed it, despite a vast array of prior ones. As it turns out, not even intuition combined with experience can correctly grasp true Infinity. How does one go deeper? Up to you, but if I may give a tip, learn to get very comfortable with paradox, in particular the identity of Multiplicity and Unity. This was an exploration of Multiplicity so full it looped around on itself into the Oneness of I AM, as it always beautifully does. Relative and provisional human knowledge is crucial. Study natural sciences, sociology, politics, programming, geography, mathematics, laws, psychology, languages, economics... if nothing else they'll be useful anyhow, but seeing God in all of it is what will enable the most intuitive understanding and unending passion. For instance, I've had brushes with dimensions where consciousness is cultivated and traded as liquid in vials, a property register of consciousness, an inverse of consciousness, something I call hole consciousness, and many more. It's topology of Consciousness. These are inaccessible with your regular nonduality or even God Realization. They're utterly alien, but counterintuitively reaching them has its roots in human knowledge. Know that frustrations, misunderstandings, periods where you seem lost and unable to get through to anyone are the laying of the foundation that will allow moving to the next level. I've gone through a rough few weeks that culminated in this, and I wouldn't have been able to take it without that. The slow erosion of ego prepares you for a smoother ego death. It may look like the effort isn't amounting to anything, but that is not the case. You are being observed. Think about that. Being is observing itself. God—you as a sovereign—is the only witness that matters. I've also gained a new perspective on stage Blue values like law and order. In the legal system, the most sacred principle is public faith. Nihil prius fide. Without this common consensus, not much of anything could be achieved, people delegate their authority and put their trust in a certain institution, such as notariate. Similarly, in sworn testimonies, God is often invoked as the witness and guarantor of truth. It is also said in certain interpretations of law that silence is acceptance. Qui tacet consentire videtur. And so it is with God. God's silence is the acceptance of whatever is occurring. Reality is here, as it is willed. If it were not willed, it wouldn’t be. It's the supreme consent of Love. There is Law to the workings of God, one that is currently beyond anyone's grasp. Models like Spiral Dynamics reflect certain aspects of God in their limited capacity. Beige survival. Red power. Blue law. Orange reason. Green love. Which is why you can't build your tower to heaven without a solid foundation of all those stages. If you're stuck, there's most likely a shadow of one or more stages, however faint, that blocks upward movement. God halts the process out of care, to prevent the collapse of the entire structure. Meditation is torture because you can't handle the silence, it becomes a mirror in which you start seeing all of yourself and that's terrifying. Or it's simply terribly boring. But once you know what that silence is, how it's a quiet gift from God, sustaining all of reality while asking for nothing in return, enabling you to think your silly thoughts and do your selfish deeds, you'll appreciate it. I can finally rest in peace in that silence. Had to seriously consider for a time whether I should ever speak at all after this, because in a way anything I could say or do would just be a distraction that would diminish my consciousness of God. But alas my work is not done yet so I remain. However I now understand some of those sages that just go live out the rest of their days meditating in a cave. It's a life changing experience like no other, a milestone on the spiritual path that splits it into a before and after. These are few and far between. I've also had to rethink how I speak, the weight of the words I use, the consequences of my actions. Still figuring that out. Whatever you do, stay aware that all roads lead to God, that is the ontological fact of I AM and the highest joy. That is all.

Deliriants are far more physically dangerous, they mess with the cholinergic system, the most fundamental in the body. Hence if you're going to try them, don't ever do that more than once or twice. The future health consequences can be very serious. Salvia is physically safe, but mind-wise it's the exact opposite. Deliriants are still within the realm of human insanity, you talk to people who aren't there, maybe your food turns to rotten human flesh, voices telling you to kill yourself... Salvia can get inconceivably more insane, with you turning into inanimate objects, living whole lifetimes, getting stretched and torn apart like a rubber sheet, etc. It acts on the kappa-opioid receptors, which are very understudied currently.

Thanks man. It's a work in progress, ain't always easy, but there's certain benefits and principles you can derive from mystical experiences for such situations. 1. Everyone is free to have their own perspective and opinion on God, and none of them diminish or contradict God in the slightest, it's all TRUE, no matter what it is, how relatively wrong it is, absolute wrong is just not a thing. 2. Those in possession of truth do not need to debate or prove it, you may engage in some good faith discussions to a certain point, but if the signal isn't getting through save your energy and leave it be. Conceding defeat is liberating. 3. Due to the infinite capacity of Consciousness for denial and obfuscation, if someone's unwilling to accept what you're communicating, there's nothing to be done about it, it's a hermetic seal on the mind. 4. Your automatic egoic reaction to disagreement and conflict is still present, but over time it grows weaker and weaker till you're completely detached and are just having fun. And look, there's no such thing as bad publicity. Usually my threads get like 2-3 replies tops, most often none, but look how this here has sprawled That reminded me of multiple perspectives on the same mundane event. People often kill insects like woodlouses in their homes as they find them repulsive. But there's many ways to recontextualize this. a) Realizing yourself in that insect, through the lived experience of being stepped on as bug crawling on the ground, remembered via 'database' in God Consciousness. Then you start to tread much more carefully in the world, although you still move forward, because you're also conscious of the cycle of life. b) Noticing the divine intelligence in that tiny thing, how the neurons synchronize the movements of its many legs perfectly, how its caloric intake is so miniscule it could probably live a year off a single breadcrumb, and so on. This is the miracle of existence in action. Just the fact that you find some things repulsive and others beautiful is a deliberate creation within consciousness, an intangible distinction is being made in real time. c) Even if we forgo all the above, assume it's a discrete being, and that it is ugly, simply find it in yourself to have mercy and Goodness, and spare it all the same, no matter your feelings about it. I noticed that the last lens is the most emotionally moving for me. The existential identity perspective is, in a certain sense, fear based. In truth, so what if you're stepped on and die, is that so bad? Who said so? The reason you can empathize is because there's a pre-existing bias of wanting to live and not wanting to suffer. Although you could take this one deeper and connect to ultimate love all the same. The beauty lens is gorgeous, but it's more about aesthetics, of marveling, at something other than yourself, though again, you could deepen it by realizing you're marveling at yourself. But the Love just penetrates right through, it needs no lofty elaboration or poetic descriptions. That's why I love to yap about Multiplicity so much these days, it enriches life and generates insights like tree branches.

@UnbornTao nah, I think we're done here. Metaphors and general stylistic choice don't resonate with you, that's fine. Simple armchair speculation doesn't leave one unable to move or eat for a day though. But sure, all this is fanfiction that I wrote because I was bored, let's leave it at that. That's also a truth of sorts.

I do, relatively speaking they've done a great job at parenting. I see how insanely difficult it is to be a good parent, it's one of the 'storylines' one can pick in this love simulator of a life, a route underappreciated in many spiritual circles. But precisely I set the standards for myself so high, I won't ever be a parent. Even slight missteps can traumatize the child in very subtle ways, I've accidentally done trauma release work on trauma I never thought I had as I'm very psychologically stable. What worries me though is their growing dependence on me. Sometimes it's an annoyance but it's a burden I'm comfortable bearing. But if something were to happen to me they'd be basically helpless. Mom wouldn't know any of her login credentials or IDs for govt. administrations, dad wouldn't get any help with documents, my brother wouldn't have anyone to borrow money from... So I always try to promote independent thinking and action, teaching to fish basically, but most times it falls on deaf ears. Quite the dillema to navigate.

That assumes Absolute Truth can be communicated in such a direct way using the conceptual overlay of language, like capturing infinity in a bottle. The most this writeup can do is inspire someone to explore consciousness themselves. Taking my stories at face values would be a mistake. I did my best to provide fresh perspectives and some advice, most people don't even bother doing that, they spend half the piece describing set & setting and what they were doing throughout, with a few vague "OMG I'm God!", "It's all perfect, it's all Love" sprinkled in. By your definition of direct encounter there'd be no communication at all, instead a vow of silence or a mahasamadhi, which was a real possibility. If you want some dry lab notes on God, like a transcript of what it told me or how it looked like, this discussion serves no purpose. You are always in that "place", all that shifts is the state of consciousness.

God has many names, I think I'm allowed some creative freedom. Even the title is a wordplay, 'peaking' relative to my prior experiences, yet only 'peeking' in the big picture. If you think that style is confusing, wait till you see how Sufi mystics write, or Zen Koans.

You wouldn't have known it was "drug induced" if I hadn't mentioned that in another reply. Stories are direct consciousness. Everything that's happening is a story within I AM. And of course it's coming from intellect, God is Intelligence. Insight isn't some instantaneous event of a light bulb illuminating in your head, I have in-sight (seeing) how the letters I'm typing this response with and the phone this page is rendered on are God. As a start. Deeper than ever before. But that's not some ultimate awakening, I never claimed it was, quite the contrary perhaps, it has humbled me and so it should all of you. Develop your consciousness however you like, I don't want to debate, truth isn't found that way. Go become Truth, and then all I said along with the entire universe will actually be a story.

Depends on the depth of their research, that may have been an exaggeration but the vast majority surely don't, I only recently discovered some goldmines. People researching in clinical settings probably know most of it; still, some tips only come with in-vivo experience.

End of 2022, a friend from an unrelated forum convinced me to try mushrooms, I got some truffles, saw God, and the rest is history. It hasn't been long, but seems like centuries, my experience is very densely packed, I tried 60+ psychoactives, some very obscure, and even got to know a guy that manufactures a lot of the chems sold by the EU vendors, 5-MeO-DMT included. These days my "research" (consumption) is largely over, I'm working with maybe 5-6 substances that get me the best results, and the rest I experiment with, running novel extraction, purification, and conversion techniques. An interesting one in the works is Salvia blotters. Though the guide may not come to pass, as I wish to write it exactly as designed, omission and censoring aren't my cup of tea. It's for Leo to decide what to allow on his platform.

That's a part of it. It's structured such that before mastering the prior parts one shouldn't even thinking about moving onto the next ones. I'll link to tons of resources nobody has ever heard of, teach some basic chemistry, differences between substance classes and their effects, proper storage techniques, testing, equipment, and also how to purify and extract the chemicals, which's necessary even when you're buying from a legit RC shop. Even though IM is my ROA of choice, I understand it's not for everyone, but with good precautions it's no different in sterility from a hospital. I've also designed an entirely novel IV procedure, but that's like alien level advanced and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. Still, I want to lay out everything and let people decide. It is my opinion that such info should be available as those who're going to do it will do it anyway, but likely learn from poor quality sources.

Though I'm guessing this particular definition is more about pseudo-rationalists and propagandists, few better examples than Roy Cohn come to mind when it came to twisting truth. (Awesome movie by the way)

Thanks! Working on it everyday. By the way, somewhat off-topic, I plan to write an exhaustive guide to psychedelics since most people here are very ignorant, but it will inevitably contain some dangerous parts. Would that be fine to post with proper disclaimers and such? I'd like to know before spending hours on it. That's up to your interpretation, it may all be nonsense or contain great wisdom, both are valid. More than an experience report this was written as a description of what's possible in Consciousness.

Doesn't have to be. There's boofing, which I don't like put people here do. Or better yet, IM. There's a study showing the many advantages of IM over vaporizing. https://akjournals.com/view/journals/2054/4/2/article-p104.xml The only trouble is the lack of salts on the market currently, but they'll be restocked very soon. Have you tried DPT or the 4-subs? If you want long lasting, go for lysergamides or psychedelic amphetamines.

Read some trip reports and find out, deliriants are completely different, they act on the cholinergic system, the most fundamental in the body. Similar mechanism of action is used in chemical weapons like Sarin.

I don't think there's a concrete answer to this, as usually is with God it's both simultaneously, a paradox. All of reality rests on God's Being, which maintains everything, from coherent to chaotic. It's not that God protects one from horrors like some guardian angel, more like for God to effectively manifest as a human, a lot of obfuscation in consciousness has to happen - hide the knowledge that you're God, not perceive paranormal phenomena, certain light frequencies, be sensitive to a limited range of temperatures... That you could say is all actively maintained. But it could be un-imagined. Buyer beware, you may think you do, but it's actually quite terrifying. Conceptual and intellectual understanding won't cut it. Try taking a deliriant like diphenhydramine, scopolamine, or benzydamine, that'll give a taste of insanity on par or worse than schizophrenia. Don't recommend it, dangerous psychologically and bad for the body. I plan to at some point, but I'm reckless. That would still be scratching the surface though, enormous doses of Salvia will do the job much better, and yet there's really no limit. Past the point where you permanently stop realizing yourself as anything (not death), there's no way to quantify it.

Sanity is a much broader concept than just coherence of perception. There is insanity far beyond your run of the mill schizophrenia and such that cannot ever be put into words, it's too undefined and chaotic, virtually zero order to its workings. It also doesn't have to refer to just psychology. Sane means healthy. Sanidad is health in Spanish. A well-functioning body where all organs work together and there's no cancer is sane. A solar system where planets orbit the star properly without colliding into each other is sane. This kind of order applies to all of God, except the Insane parts, but even those follow the law of Being.

❤️ This in particular was 27mg 4-HO-MET + 110mg S-isomer Ketamine intramuscularly. But I specifically didn't post it as a trip report as I no longer want to give limiting ideas how certain states can or can't be reached, especially this sort of state I believe is more common through very intense meditation, prayer or whatever, many accounts of mystics having similar experiences. I'd noticed unitive states come much easier with meditation, while the crazy alien ones are hardly accessible w/o psychedelics. Depends on what one wants and needs. To me the whole thing is about exploring the whole diversity of Consciousness. Ah, a fellow language connoisseur. I love them too. Language is a complex, subtle, and beautiful thing. I try to learn as many as I can, plus the etymology behind words. Beyond that, all symbolic representations of things are sublime, the conceptual overlays (maps, fantasy, etc.) are divinity and partly what make Infinity truly infinite through this endless generative process. Even though me and God no longer need any words to communicate at all, we still use them because it adds richness. Quite the takeaway, haha. The Balance of God is indeed so, an eternal engine of division and reunification, a self-adjusting system, an infinite Indra's Net.

All the better, probably tartrate then

N-bombs aren't that common anymore. The effects described could be indicative of many substances, LSD-25 included, nobody could say for sure. NBMOes are essentially the same but with more body load, especially vasoconstriction. "If it's bitter it's a spitter" is a stupid indicator, legit LSD tabs could be bitter due to being laid poorly. Most likely you had real LSD, if you want to be sure use a reagent test as per this or better yet get analogues like 1P-LSD, these will metabolize into 25 anyway and the dose is far more precise, LSD tabs are typically underdosed.

Careful with assuming that. An extreme state can blindside you in a dangerous way irrespective of precautions taken.