LambdaDelta

It's nice seeing some Christians see through Trump https://www.reddit.com/r/Christianity/comments/1gkwofo/trump_is_not_the_antichrist_but_he_taught_me_a/ That thread was an interesting read, similar to some of Leo's blog posts

Apparently I've already seen it some years ago. Not a bad idea to get a refresher. There's also another docu 'Lucent' from the same people that focuses solely on pigs. Out of all the farm animals, they're probably treated the worst. And interestingly it's still the most consumed meat in the world despite excluding all the Muslims. Watching this on a psychedelic would be wild. Your love would grow so much. But it might also traumatize you.

Oh my, that's eerily similar to the experiences I've been having in the past few weeks and months. Not all at once, but bits and pieces through various mediums; psychedelics, meditation, contemplation, and dreams. Feels like an entirely new dimension has opened up, everything prior has been a hike to the base camp, and now I can start summiting the peaks. Thanks for the titanic work putting this all together, surely it's taken loads of time to articulate. I'm currently too lazy to do that, it's scattered across various notes and conversations with AI.

You should be concerned with degradation. It can last a couple years, but beyond that it will almost surely start losing potency. Proper storage practice can extend that a good deal. No air (vacuum sealed), no sunlight, and freezed. For long term I put my chemicals in 2 layers of zipper bags, carefully squeezed to let the air out, placed in the freezer at -18°C. I've gotten MXE stored in a similar way since around 2013 and still active. As for the amount, that will depend on the frequency of tripping. Assuming a trip every 2 weeks at 30mg, 10 grams will last you like 13 years.

Grade 4 (some classification systems don't even go that high and stop at 3) is pretty serious, you're very lucky to not have pain or discomfort. I've had grade 3 on left lateral for many years, did an embolization for that 2 years ago, which helped, but only in that area, and it gradually shifted to bottom left, perhaps due to not blocking enough veins or bad technique. Nasty pains and overall feeling. Had a repeat surgery a little over a month ago and it's going much better. I find that some of the main things to avoid/limit with varicocele is heat exposure and sexual activity, that strains the veins further. With cold showers and abstinence I have a much easier time managing and healing it. Unsure about testicular hypotrophy, likely that was part of the diagnosis and I forgot, that didn't concern me, just wanted to get rid of the pain. You'll probably want to have some intervention done, embolization is one of the least intrusive, but that's something the doctor will have to select based on severity and whatnot. Ideally insurance would cover it as it did for me.

I've recently committed to making some important changes in my life, mostly related to more basic personal development, but also holistically intertwined with the larger picture of how I approach spirituality. Will soon put those to writing for better accountability and progress tracking. The shifts are already noticeable after a short amount of time, largely in that the level of satisfaction and purpose is on a steady rise. Gratitude and emotions too. But that's the good stuff, not quite what this topic is about. Par for the course, these last two days I've been having rather intense ego backlashes. These mainly manifested physically as unbearable itchiness all over the body, both in public and at home, red rashes appearing on the skin, I believe that's called hives. From past experiences I know that's a telltale sign of shame, embarrassment, and just general discomfort with the present situation. The ego doesn't like this new direction, and is trying to get its way though force. Today, during a particularly agonizing episode, I'm talking writhing on the floor for minutes on end, I've turned inwards and started a conversation with myself. I said to the ego "Look, as much as you try to separate yourself from me and the rest of reality, that's ultimately futile, we're all in the same boat here. So if you want to make me suffer, so be it, but you'll suffer right with me. We'll do this as long as required. Also, reflect on the past. All the doomscrolling, jerking off, rewatching the same crap, sleeping 12 hours a day, doing drugs, being lazy, unmotivated, and undisciplined doesn't really work. A lot of the time we're bored out of our mind, jumping from one thing to the next. Instead, from now on, you take the backseat, and I'll get us to where we need to go, a place of subtle, but consistent fulfillment. I'll allow some room for your devilry and bias, but in a healthy way, such that it contributes to the higher purpose in the grand scheme. What say you?" And what do you know, the attack quickly subsided. Surrender strikes again. Basically the "Dormammu, I've come to bargain!" scene from Dr. Strange: Now, that surely doesn't mean it's over, the Devil will play ball for now, but in the background devise new, ever more elaborate schemes to fall back into old habits, and make me believe that's what I actually want. With this new technique in the arsenal, it'll be a bit easier to counteract that though. Well, that does it, perhaps will be of help to someone.

That's right, Love is Truth, a 1:1 correspondence of reality to itself, without any rejections, denials, or omissions. YHWH's 'I AM that I AM' is Love.

That's the bulk of it, though there's also extremes that I like to venture into, which sometimes backfire. I posted recently about getting stuck in a state of consciousness so bland I tried to off myself after mere hours of it. Gets me thinking about personalized hells. To imagine God loves even that is both moving and terrifying. Yeah, that's cool for a change! There's a good deal of supernatural powers in those fields that can be cultivated. That ties in nicely with the topics of authority, social matrix, limiting beliefs, and such. Lots of holism

Just remove the forum already, that's so primitive. Everyone here should learn to communicate telepathically, synchronizing knowledge, insights, and experiences, transcending language and other material means of communication.

Don't think so, it would get old fast, and I'd much more likely be driven mad by all the foreknowledge. An occasional trip down the memory lane aided by psychedelics is another matter though, sign me up. The nostalgia is so great precisely because of how melancholic and bittersweet it is, the memories are hazy like images in Plato's cave, yet we cherish them nonetheless, the fleeting nature is a major part of the value. They say hindsight is 20/20, but that could also work in the other direction, if you study and understand enough domains of human life through the past and present, a prediction ability almost akin to clairvoyance could be developed. That IMO is much cooler and more rewarding, plus the mystery aspect remains to some extent. I've been observing this larger theme of limitation lately, as limited beings the grass sure seems greener on the other side, but most satisfaction is derived from constraints, like a perpetual motion machine, always reaching for something, but never quite getting there. Living life as the limit approaching infinity, however far you manage to get, and then in death you become infinity at last. On this topic, I've always had dreams that show the future. Nothing meaningful, so I'm not a millionaire from betting on sports, but they're 100% accurate down to the minute details. These grant me the ability to act with more freedom, as the fact that I keep having them means whatever I do next, it will turn out fine, as the future has already taken place. Time is one hell of a strange loop. Fascinating thought experiment, if one were to gather every person in the world and have them continuously and unanimously deny one's existence, how many would fall prey to that gaslighting? Would being aware of cogito ergo sum be of any help? What about different methods of denial, could be active, straight up proclaiming you don't exist, or passive, whereby everyone simply refuses to acknowledge your presence no matter what you try. There's sure to be lots of dissonance either way, but the former is likely to be less taxing on the mind. Could this actually lead to developing a stronger sense of self/autonomy, as you directly experience your independence of the others' perspectives? Or, if driven to suicide from despair, in a twisted way it could be said the denial worked, you removed yourself from existence. Creates a bit of a paradox, gotta love the mind's games. Testing could be performed in a Truman Show-esque fashion, but that'd be highly unethical and logistically challenging. Oh well, theory's plenty.

Right, had a similar experience some time ago, the intention was to achieve complete omniscience. The requisites were simple (for that state of consciousnes) – infinite explication and transcendence of time. But joke's on me, that only applies to static infinity. In the dynamic ever-generating context, time or speed aren't the constraint, infinity itself is. There's an asymptotic quality to it, the omniscience is paradoxically complete and incomplete simultaneously, it's only complete relative to the present state. Plus that infinity must also include the unknown/unknowable. Since then I've geared more towards exploring rather than understanding, like a consciousness tourist

Rewatched Amadeus for who knows what time, at least 10th, so damn good! If that doesn't count, started Barry Lyndon, need to finish

Having tried too many of them to count, 3-HO-PCP takes the cake for me. Whatever aspect of reality I want to explore, it can take me there. Not even acid is this versatile. It's not a psychedelic in the strictest sense, rather a dissociative. It is however too potent for most to handle. But in general, combining tryptamines with dissociatives yields very good results, the substances don't matter all that much, they'll synergize reliably. The former will expand your consciousness, and the latter make it fluid. 2C-E is a good close second, it's about to go extinct though Recently I finally had very promising results with 5-MeO-DMT, so perhaps I'll be joining that cult in the near future (that's all personal opinion from tons of experience, your mileage may vary greatly) I mean, actual LSD-25 is as hard (or easy) to get in the Netherlands as any other place. Thankfully there's a large market of analogues that are nearly identical or even speculated to be prodrugs. 1P, 1cP, 1Bz, 1D, 1V-LSD... the entire fucken alphabet. Still, there's subtle but important differences that make the original the best. Plus the research chemical market is likely to take a big hit tomorrow. There's replacements in the making, but the chemists tell me they'll become crappier as the pool of legal options shrinks.

The immediate solution, just distract yourself with anything when the urges are getting to close for comfort. To actually get results, you need a concrete motivation, some higher purpose. The benefits proposed by nofap are too abstract, and framing it as a challenge is nonsense. I tried that on and off for years, doesn't work, eventually you get bored and fall back. The mind is incredibly sneaky especially when it comes to stuff like this. It will absolutely trick you in devilishly elaborate ways. What you could do is replace masturbation with meditation, they even sound alike. If you're like me, you're probably not meditating enough anyway. Install a cognitive filter that will preemptively force you into a mediative state when you start getting lost in sexual fantasies. The 'why' of nofap must be stronger than any desire, otherwise it'll fail. I've searched long and hard for that and got it at last, it's simply incompatible with and harmful to the direction I'm taking in life. Granted, I still relapse occasionally as it's only the beginning, but maintaining streaks has become almost effortless. Similar example, 8 months ago I quit a smoking habit of 10 years in a single day to pursue my love for hiking and mountaineering. The health they demand can't be had when you're putting shit in your lungs. Got zero cravings, such is the power of passion. Lastly, you can use the technique Leo proposed in one of the videos - rewire your mind such that you derive more satisfaction from not doing a harmful activity than you would from engaging in it. It is hard and painful at first, but really does work, I've successfully applied it in several areas. Good luck