LambdaDelta

I've been lucky to not need a job, yet. When I need to set up something serious in my life, I grind at it tirelessly till completion, then coast off the results for many months; normal but consistent schedule is hell for me. I'm also still in university, which I don't dedicate a lot of attention to, leaving plenty of free time. Being low-maintenance helps too, I live comfortably on less than 1k a month with ease, only travel is missing of the things I care about. Lastly, I seem to have some uncommon genetic advantages for this work, like fluidity of mind of a schizophrenic, risk tolerance of a psychopath, fixation on a special interest of an autist, etc. all working together in harmony, highly functionally, with only minor side effects. Save for one special occasion I've never been destabilized by mystical experiences; I've had psychotic episodes on bad trips, slept it off and back to business as usual. Realizing my mom is imaginary didn't complicate calling and talking to her the next day one bit. Call it natural detachment. In the next couple years I'll probably need to focus on the material more, so it's a good thing I did a lot of this work seriously while young. There's downsides too, like loss of ambition, but otherwise overwhelmingly positive. Having to undo all the biases, beliefs, attachments, etc. gets exponentially harder with age. Plus I now have the tools to avoid most corruption, traps, and such. A solid foundation to build something upon. Without finding God I'd have been lost/depressed/drug addicted/dead by this point.

No, I was doing no spirituality before psychedelics. All I had was a persistent sense that there's more to reality than everyone seems to see and dreams that accurately showed the future. There were no intentions besides curiosity, thanks to an internet friend who was into mushrooms. On the first trip I experienced God and here we are. I've always done independent thinking, but because I lacked consciousness of infinite intelligence and such things, I assumed I wouldn't get far with just my human mind. Naturally everything then shifted and had to be reconsidered from the ground up. I'm regularly finding new aspects to things I thought I already grasped entirely and some that I was totally wrong about, with an ever increasing complexity.

Haven't kept count, definitely over 100 considering I've tried 60-ish substances. But fewer than 200. Only about 10-15% are truly groundbreaking however. Now I do it far less frequently but almost every new experience is next level.

You'll develop a sense for it. Health, logistical considerations, and such are factors, but secondary. It is a feeling that now's not the right time. I haven't tripped in nearly 3 months, unusually long for me. There has been a primal instinct beyond any reason that right now I don't want or need to see what God will show me. Several times I was about to inject myself and withdrew at the last second. This shit is so tricky, supposedly I pursue understanding no matter the cost, so such a situation can generate doubt and self-gaslighting. Gotta remember it's a long game, a timely strategic retreat is the wisest move. Then again some instances require ignoring every alarm bell and flooring the gas, no reverse gear. Right-o, in fact make it a priority. Get to the bottom of why you're on this path in the first place, without a concrete answer you won't be able to endure its hardest moments. Perfectly self-consistent logical chains can come from just thinking through it, i.e. interconnecting Truth, Love, Nothingness, Goodness, Will, Infinity. Huge advantages on a practical level too.

This is fine. But you need to deeply internalize that Truth is the highest value. Not based on Leo's video, but very clearly and immutably within your own mind. Then intuitive recognizance of your wrongness will eventually overwhelm whatever perceived benefits you get from self-deceptions, prompting change from genuine not-knowing. Will be very painful regardless though. Anyhoo there's too much to expand on this, but you get the idea. No need to stop entirely, just that extended breaks will occasionally be required.

It's all par for the course. Believe it or not, after you've done enough trips, especially at high frequency and intensity, those states will start to feel mundane too. Infinite consciousness can get bored of its own infinitude, it's so intelligent and holistic no content (state) is distinctive. That's why God incarnates as all these stupid limited forms, at a sufficiently low level of intelligence a toddler can be endlessly excited from playing peek-a-boo since they aren't even aware of object permanence. That's only the beginning, a necessary stage to pass. What you're doing now is a hike to the base camp and acclimatization, then serious mountaineering can really begin. Your baseline consciousness will get recalibrated such that immense insights will drop spontaneously during simple contemplation or even on a bus ride, with the benefit of time and articulation rarely available during peak psychedelic states. There starts the real work of parsing the entire structure of reality, how God functions on a technical level. Things like understanding how time is a logical necessity for maximization of Love & Perfection, perhaps even the exact mechanism of how Consciousness quickly raises itself to infinity and always adjusts back down despite brains, chemicals, and time having no meaning in those states. There's also a specific kind of awakening that gives a profound appreciation for being human, for the first time in your life – having a body, able to enjoy tasty food, have biases and vices, make mistakes... God himself doesn't have such liberties. Currently you're too starry-eyed about these new incredible realizations and experiences, but also unconsciously fearful of going deeper, rightfully so. Nothing to be done about that, attempting to skip will corrupt true understanding, if not do more damage elsewhere. Learn to enjoy the downs by properly contextualizing. But you'll most likely have to suffer greatly before getting to that point.

Only oral cause pellets, otherwise just about any works.

Of ones still available, DMXE, MXPCP, O-PCE, 3-HO-PCP. Latter 2 are strong and unpredictable, perhaps not an optimal intro to the class. MXPCP is very recent but promising. Which leaves DMXE, it's soft and warm, fantastic synergy with 4-HO-MiPT. Only pellets around now, seems that's what you prefer anyhow.

Worth it to get a reference if nothing else. DMT, 4-subs, LSD are more like flavors of the same thing. This is another entirely, as are Salvinorin & 5MD.

Sure does, it mattered for me. Won't for the majority, not everyone.

Even with harmala making the freebase orally active requires lots of substance. I believe fumarate needs less, either way more flexible options with it besides vaping. FASA method from Nexus is simple and yields well with DMT, unlike 5MD. Highly suggest trying at least one dissociative while you're at it. They're hardly even a thing in North America, EU is the golden opportunity, maybe not for much longer. There's lots and not all are any good, but ones that are give a qualitatively different experience either standalone or in amazing synergy with 4-subs.

Not particularly, 5-MeOs are another matter. Though I have almost died from doing that combo (high doses but still). Most likely hypertensive crisis, to be on the safe side avoid foods high in tyramines for a few days in case you happen to be sensitive to that.

Couldn't tell you. If they do, they have no right to open the package, therefore what's inside is irrelevant. I wouldn't trust a hotel to properly receive it nor for something to be delivered to their addresses. Better to arrange delivery to a DHL/DPD pickup point, most vendors will oblige if you talk to them and give necessary details.

None or very minimal. No cross-tolerance either, if only mental.

Right, it's something you work up to. First rodeo with a substance ought to be more grounded. My intro to IM was DPT, to this day probably my most powerful trip in terms of sheer intensity, it was then I learned my usual nonchalant dosing ain't gonna fly there. Here there be monsters. Just how it works. As is the case for most tryptamines, especially base (i.e. DMT, MET). You need something ridiculous like 200mg to get an effect. 4-subs are actually more of an outlier within the class with how they're orally active and salts can be passably vapeable.