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When I realized there was nothing outside of conciousness / no outside world that was insanity. Because i also in that moment realized there were no others mind. It literally felt like I had lost any and all sanity. It felt absolutely traumatizing. I then went on to have insane peaks because of being able to deconstruct materialism. I was just curious if anyone else had traumatic experience from awakening and what it was and how you handle and intergrated it.

I was pointing to the fact that Being is Absolute.

On dmt I realized that all substances including 5 meo are imaginary. All feelings ever are absolute truth You realize you are imagining reality by realizing conciousness is absolute

Leo said he had a traumatic experience when realized he imagined his mom The initial realization is jarring but after integration and realizing it at a deeper level it becomes beautiful thing

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There are infinite degrees of awakening, why do you think so many people agree and disagree on what awakening is? If it was just a binary switch there would be a lot more agreement on what awakening is. Conciousness is Absolute and can become concious of absolutely every part of itself. I would also say that there are thresholds to awakening, you can awaken to life is a dream, self is other, nothing outside concious. And still not have the direct Conciousness you are God. Another one of those thresholds is realizing conciousness is absolute. Also you have never done pyschdelics let alone tryptimines. So how would you know that ? All of this is coming from your current state of conciousness that could change any moment with just a little alteration in your imaginary brain chemistry.

this one good

It would also be nice if they were bookmarked together in groups like metaphysics, epistemology, etc

@Leo Gura Looking at the list makes me want to purchase it. Are the videos indexed like I can search through the list? Also that list is that everything thats posted or what will be posted?

When you realize you aren't there YOU realize YOU are here

All though this is true that doesnt mean from absolute pov of conciousness there are other minds. Others will always be quasi separate.

Im curious for those who have realized these directly what the awakening to them was like and how they have altered your direct experience. Your Will as Reality itself

I apologize totally got off topic

@Leo Gura I feel like a victim to my own imagination which is reality itself.

I also had an awakening that the entire internet is my imagination. I was so concious that anything I wanted to appear on my monitor would literally appear as Truth. I could open youtube and every video is exactly as Imagined in real time. ive had states where literally anything i imagined becomes Absolute Truth. But i cant sustain it and come back down to my everyday state. And its like im locked out of my own mind.

I was abused for years, told it was my fault, and my anger was shamed and met with more physical punishment and negative reception. Im emotionally exhausted just thinking about it

I worded that wrong I meant you are You absolutely are responsible for any and all of your anger and emotion. Its just hard to realize it when youre abused and I see it as justified There exists nothing but you so ultimately all anger must come from you

We're on the exact page, im saying see through the victim hood to your reaction is the challenge. Im not saying you are the source of the reaction or emotion.

Yes i can allude to what you guys are getting at im just trying to give the most radical example where anger would be justified

But maintaining the disillusionment of self while being abused isn't easy.

If you want to get technical there isn't anyone to get upset.

@No1Here2c @Natasha Tori Maru try getting abused for years yourself and when you start to get upset think to yourself oh yes I must be selfless this is all coming from ego This is easier to claim in theory not practice If I abuse you for years beating you and tell you hey mans its all just ego I would love to see that response

Even if you're abused physically for years?

Ofc that much is obvious and being painfully aware of the limits of what you know God is Life with a capital L that doesnt mean there are things as a human that can make that cant make it hell I dont want to improve my life its too exhausting i just want to stop dreaming entirely like none of this ever happened If I go all of this comes with me

@Leo Gura