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My friend Gaige overdosed on fentanyl. He tried calling me 4 hours before. I have his ashes next to my bedside. He said he loved me and I a was true friend. At his celebration of life gathering his girlfriend told me how he would talk about me and only say nice things. You don't process it, it processes you.

There's too many posts riding Leos dick instead of realzing they are the only concious sovereign mind and that they made actualized.org. Just my 2 cents

How could you be Everything and not be Alone lol Alone = All one

I think you need new mods lol @Leo Gura

This forum will never cease to amaze me.

I'm immature for being conscious enough to see everyone and everything as Love. Lmao

This is one of best posts I've ever seen.

There is no evil, plain and simple. Any evil is love being disguised by the projections of your mind.

I completely agree but I wouldn't try talking about here. Most people here (%90+) are in denial of solipsism, even mods and people with 10 years of experience in the spiritual domain. I've had extremely radical and profound solipsistic awakenings. Feel free to message me if you wanna talk 1 on 1.

Hey guys just wanted to drop in and ask some questions. As a intro to me I've been awakening going on 6 years now. I'm 23 and started watching leo mid highschool then started awakening shortly after. I've awoken to God, that I am God, No Self, Solipsism, Truth, Love, Infinity, Conciousness, Nothing, Eternity, Etc And by no means done awakening but I'm really struggling to integrate all of this into my everyday life. I feel handicapped in the sense that it feels incredibly hard to relate and interact with people at a relative level. As much as I've been concious and it's amazing what I've awoken to. I feel incredibly isolated (not lonely) and have trouble accepting the boundaries of every day life. I'm just curious how after having RADICAL realizations how you fit that into everyday life and fully / properly intergrate into your everyday life. And engage properly with people who don't understand what awakening is.

It's a pretty simple insight it's just too radical to really except. The ONLY thing that exists is YOUR OWN MIND. That's what existence is, existence IS your own conciousness

You don't drop the illusions, you see them for what they are and learn to live with them. Spot on

Exactly, even though it's a movie the actor still has to "act"

My issue isn't having others relate to me or my awakenings , it's me relating to others

What? If someones definition of awakening is getting hit in the face with a football they're a fucking moron

It doesn't matter if you realize no self and nothingness you still need to survive as the human you are dreaming yourself to be. That's if you care about survival at least. If you go without food for days your stomach isn't going to care if you're enlightened.

The issue is I'm not a separate individual and integrating that into life where I need to act and survive as a separate individual is the issue.

Yes no self no problem no limit It's not fear, I don't think I'm properly communicating the point across. Even if you realize no self you still have to survive and it's managing said survival while being awake to the aftermentioned realizations. You could be headless but if someone throws a football at your face you still duck.

@Yimpa that's not what I'm saying. Its just effecting me personally as in adjusting to these insights in everyday life. There is no one else to awaken so it's not about i have to awaken everybody

There is only 1 mind

I would say I'm having the most trouble integrating solipsism. Not because it's bad or I don't like being alone. But it's just such a radical paradigm shift and I'm still having trouble adjusting. @UnbornTao

I don't speak about awakening to 99.99% of people. It's personally coming to except some of these realizations. And still function in every day life.

That seems like a poor epistemological stand point

Last step out of what? And what are the previous steps?