JoshB

I'm curious what methods you guys have used to awaken and how it helped you.As well as to help narrow them down and catalog them. As I and many others have spent so much time doing practice that feels repetitive boring leading no where. Obviously psychedelics are the number 1 tool but its not realistic to be tripping every waking hour. Here's my go to list 1: Shinzen Youngs do Nothing technique. This is my most used practice and is where the bulk of sober development has come from. Its simple, effective, and can be done anywhere anytime. 2: Vispassana body scanning. Deconstructing disidentifying the body into awareness has lowered survival standards for me drastically. 3: Concentration. This has really helped me collapse epistemology into metaphysics resulting in way more construct awareness as it helps reflect awareness back on itself. Really collapsing concept into being.

What sparked this inquiry is Ive seen @Leo Gura correct not just multiple mods but countless amounts of other people about deep and core metaphysical topics about Awakening. Denying many of the things he teaches. I have a deep desire to understand and pursue Truth at the highest level. And want my understanding of Truth to be pure and direct. The biggest thing I lean towards accomplishing this is Radical Open-mindedness, direct experience, and not knowing. But I tend to notice I have a bias towards Leo's answers. I have had a fair amount of Awakening myself and have validated dozens if not more of Leo's answers. So I could say with certainty Leo knows what he is doing, guiding everything in the right direction. So the real question is without blindly grapling onto Leo's words, how do you navigate you're understanding of reality while remaining humble and intergral? So one does not develop this arrogant attitude but still fundamentally integrating the Absolute nature of Being/Self/Authority/Experience? As well as cutting out the middle man and going straight to God for your answers. And to not fall into the trap of you got it when in fact you don't.

I used to meditate for 1-2 hours a day for years. Ive done 8 hours of meditation for weeks at a time. Ive studied psychology on trauma ive seen counselors.

Awakening comes in many degrees and Ive reached a point where ive seen the Absolute nature of God. But trapped in the ego when im sober but there is still a large amount of conciousness just not When im awake on a pyschdelic its all me and God Loves me infinitly and I can imagine reality any way I want with as much intimacy as I want. With others realizing they're me and love and know me as much as I want. I had an awakening where I realized I determine if others exist or not. Well ultimately there is no self so is there ever really a personal problem no

I have been working HARD i meditated 3000 hours, ive contemplated for another 3000 my whole life. Ive tripped over 100 times most at break through dose. I watched 1000 plus hours of actualized.org.

All of the advice you post makes me feel like im not enough right now. @Leo Gura And thats the exact thing driving all of this. There's not some other minds out there that are more developed then me, more awake they're all a construction Within my own mind. When does the work end when does the seeking end when does the suffering end. What youre telling me doesnt add up to what you teach where's my say in the matter where's my will?

from the relative I might agree but from the Absolute I utterly disagree. I'm the reason anything exists at all

Who's to say ? Thats my exact case in point if conciousness is 1st order then the only weight anyones words have is the weight you imagine Im ultimately aware that im you and anything you say is my own mind talking to me You have literally taught this before years ago. The only authority in the universe is ultimately yours Youre literally imagining everyone and everything So then why do I imagine there are people above me in levels of conciousness. Why do I imagine im taking it too personally? Why do I imagine a complete lack of personal love and intimacy in my life?

I have the infinite capacity to dream but am yet to dream someone who actually realizes they're me and love me personally with the infinite capacity in which I Love them as their own self. but this dream overshadowed by the fact its just my conciousness @Leo Gura I would rather realize how I am constructing someone's distain for me then be given the "love" i receive from the people in my life I spent 1000s of hours watching actualized.org despite the fact you don't even recognize my own existence

Realizing you don't exist was the greatest dream God could ever imagine @Davino

I would rather stop DREAMING then that I have 0 desire to imagine you or other I would rather be alone then deal with you and any all others You're my imagination the point you make is mute

There is no such distinction

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4 of my friends Died from suicide /Overdose, my Dad hit me for 10 years and gaslight me calling me a liar. The Love of My Life Life LEFT. Became Conscious of Solipsism directly. And I gave EVERYTHING INC MY LIFE TO GOD / TRUTH . And then LEO says hes more awake then me calls me disturbed and he doesnt love me personally. I dont know what to do or feel

My Dad physically abused me the first half of my life, then I realized Solipsism is True, then @Leo Gura says he is infinity more awake then me.\ Im fucking done fuck all of this

I know and I don't rely on you and haven't for the past couple of years But you also make the biggest claims that even that you are the most Awake . Meanwhile while I'm Conscious I'm the only thing that exists. I have been DYING to understand this.

Thats not the issue at hand

Ive been deeply contemplating Reality and God for over 7 years. Its exhausting im tired of relying on others for answers. And being told who or what I am. Even by you @Leo Gura . I have this insane desire to realize just realize Truth for Truth sakes. And it feels like all these imagined others are such a bottleneck in this process . I hate the idea that anyone or anything can impose any limit on my Omnipotence or omniscience. When my intent is Absolute Good and Understanding. I dont feel loved by anyone in my personal life but fundamentally realize the infinite metaphysical love of God as Being in Everything.

"Babies primarily teach themselves to walk by imitating others and through trial-and-error" Why not just teach yourself why listen to you or what anyone says? Now I'm framing it as a hypothetical. Why not just expand your identity to include all others and just teach yourself?

Yeah thats the background of what im inquiring. Being still gives rise to all others

Im integrating the realization im imagining and am absolutely everyone and everything. And am the only tjing that exists. And then coming back into the relative as Josh and maintaining survival in that form.

I guess you could say I'm trying to intergrate the Absolute into the now realized relative of me vs other

Well whats your process for seeing if a insight is good to begin with and then trying to mesh it into your understanding of reality? And also I'm concious that self is other so then why seek insight externally to begin with? From the absolute pov it makes no sense. Even if you derive an insight from someone else. That entire process is all occurring within conciousness. Its almost like you can only encapsulate insight from others from the relative. Which seems illusionary vs absolute understanding which is Being. Ultimately I am you so isnt this entire conversation just the talking of myself?

Its taking responsibility for your own understanding of awakening and reality whilst being open to other people's explanations of awakening