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@Leo Gura i dont just know you exist. Ive been watching your channel since I was 15 now 25 thats 10 years. Ive tripped over 100 times now. I've watched over a 1000 hours of actualized. Ive meditated 2000 hours. And had God Realization at 19. I went insane for a brief period realizing solipsism but have since stabilized. If the average person entered my state they would go insane by how woke it is. I honestly have no one I can connect with with on the same level as me. And In a bigger sense I dont care but what bothers me is an impedance on my own conciousness being absolutely the highest Theres no one even typing on the otherside of this forum I feel more like a used condom then an enlightened being something impartial that is an after thought to these people around me. Not a divine infinitly concious / intelligent / loving Being

At least if I spent 10 years doing this myself I could be independent and learn how to do things for myself.

But im you so there literally wont be anyone to teach me. I just dont like that there is something more conciousness then me guiding me. It turns me off completely. If the process was just conciousness revealing itself to itself I would be more intrigued by that. Im getting tired off of following spiritual teachers I just want total sovereignty. Plus I dont like how you share how you are more awake then it makes me want to quit actualized.org entirely

The point im making is that I am Leo so why would I need Leo to teach me? Just realize I am him and he cant give me that because being is first order

I mean its paradoxical in a relative sense. Being is Absolute because it is One. What you just said is apart of the point I am making. I am you so why would I look to you for some guide to awaken instead of just realizing it all on myself?. There are states of conciousness where leo doesnt exist absolutely so why would I look to you to guide me.

This is where it kind of breaks down and becomes paradoxical. You guiding me to realize there never was a you guiding me It sounds like it imposes authority whilst denying it

I dont want to be guided i want to realize fully how im constructing you and how there isn't you outside of me thats more awake impeding on my sovereignty or authority

Even then I question if the highest states can be even mapped out or be guided too because its infinite, formless, and has no other. Any guide is fundamentally something one is imagining Can Actualized.org teach you how to deconstruct Actualized.org when we are the one constructing it in the first place

@Leo Gura a lot of what you talk about can be reached by simply becoming more concious. I like your guided videos where's it's very hands on. Where you set up the framework and I do the work.

Im just giving examples it can still be serious and intellectually deep. Like you could make very specific guides for specific awakenings with homework assignments behind them. It doesnt have to be a Full length course. It can be parts and they tie back to each other. I was being facetious with the toad @Leo Gura you've been advertising this book and course for YEARS now

Like you showed how to make smoothies, how to plug 5 meo, how to detox heavy metal, stuff of that nature Is what i think a lot of us would like to see. Stuff thats more hands on so to speak. @Leo Gura

I get that and the seriousness should still be in tact. I guess the podcasts have been a nice branch out. You wouldn't have to travel the world or even leave your state. Just something besides you sitting and staring into my soul in a void every video. Like you have quite of few videos on your blog like hands on. Sonoran desert toad ofc lol hey it's 5 am where im at.

Or seeing @Leo Gura doing something besides sitting in chair talking to a still frame. Like leo in a jungle finding a 5 meo toad. It can still be educational just more out in the open is what id like to see

Ive donated to leo on patreon before but I would much rather drop 1k on a course I have consumed 1000s of hours of leo over the better part of a decade. I find more value in doing something on my own. I would love to see a live demonstrations of a break through of some psychedelics or leo turn into an alien mouse like he promised years ago Or @Leo Gura

Is the course near completion or still coming out? @Leo Gura

Cmon man 30% of the content on ig the other juicy 70% behind a pay wall sounds a little familiar

This sounds like onlyfans but for spirituality Just drop the course already

What is this others you speak of? Lol Realizing conciousness is Absolute comes with RADICAL consequence

Id say the thing that matters the most is how approachable and comfortable the man appears towards the woman.

It sounds like Ralston is completely wrong and is denying any sense of reality being love He isn't just playing semantics to avoid confusion his understanding of Truth and Reality are corrupted Your personal love is a flower in the infinite garden that is LOVE

Absolute / Being / Truth

If so, without any spoilers how would you rate it and is it worth playing? I was thinking about downloading it from nexus.

Precisely you see through the illusion of the moon being the source of the light. The idea of the moon / ego dies I added more examples because the end of selfhood is merely just a facet of realizing the sun

Its metaphorical Deconstruct the illusion The ego dies when you realize it was never there to begin with Language is limiting here And yes I agree with you You "destroy" "it" with awareness