JoshB

I have the infinite capacity to dream but am yet to dream someone who actually realizes they're me and love me personally with the infinite capacity in which I Love them as their own self. but this dream overshadowed by the fact its just my conciousness @Leo Gura I would rather realize how I am constructing someone's distain for me then be given the "love" i receive from the people in my life I spent 1000s of hours watching actualized.org despite the fact you don't even recognize my own existence

Realizing you don't exist was the greatest dream God could ever imagine @Davino

I would rather stop DREAMING then that I have 0 desire to imagine you or other I would rather be alone then deal with you and any all others You're my imagination the point you make is mute

There is no such distinction

ofc

4 of my friends Died from suicide /Overdose, my Dad hit me for 10 years and gaslight me calling me a liar. The Love of My Life Life LEFT. Became Conscious of Solipsism directly. And I gave EVERYTHING INC MY LIFE TO GOD / TRUTH . And then LEO says hes more awake then me calls me disturbed and he doesnt love me personally. I dont know what to do or feel

My Dad physically abused me the first half of my life, then I realized Solipsism is True, then @Leo Gura says he is infinity more awake then me.\ Im fucking done fuck all of this

I know and I don't rely on you and haven't for the past couple of years But you also make the biggest claims that even that you are the most Awake . Meanwhile while I'm Conscious I'm the only thing that exists. I have been DYING to understand this.

Thats not the issue at hand

Ive been deeply contemplating Reality and God for over 7 years. Its exhausting im tired of relying on others for answers. And being told who or what I am. Even by you @Leo Gura . I have this insane desire to realize just realize Truth for Truth sakes. And it feels like all these imagined others are such a bottleneck in this process . I hate the idea that anyone or anything can impose any limit on my Omnipotence or omniscience. When my intent is Absolute Good and Understanding. I dont feel loved by anyone in my personal life but fundamentally realize the infinite metaphysical love of God as Being in Everything.

"Babies primarily teach themselves to walk by imitating others and through trial-and-error" Why not just teach yourself why listen to you or what anyone says? Now I'm framing it as a hypothetical. Why not just expand your identity to include all others and just teach yourself?

Yeah thats the background of what im inquiring. Being still gives rise to all others

Im integrating the realization im imagining and am absolutely everyone and everything. And am the only tjing that exists. And then coming back into the relative as Josh and maintaining survival in that form.

I guess you could say I'm trying to intergrate the Absolute into the now realized relative of me vs other

Well whats your process for seeing if a insight is good to begin with and then trying to mesh it into your understanding of reality? And also I'm concious that self is other so then why seek insight externally to begin with? From the absolute pov it makes no sense. Even if you derive an insight from someone else. That entire process is all occurring within conciousness. Its almost like you can only encapsulate insight from others from the relative. Which seems illusionary vs absolute understanding which is Being. Ultimately I am you so isnt this entire conversation just the talking of myself?

Its taking responsibility for your own understanding of awakening and reality whilst being open to other people's explanations of awakening

I got you @Leo Gura I have realized the Absolute nature of Being/Self as God and that Mind/Conciousness is Absolute. As well as Imagination/ Authority as Absolute. So ultimately only I can realize what God is because I am God. So really the deepest understanding of reality comes from within. Because to Be is to Understand. But then from the relative level of things, you for example share some new profound insight. How do I mesh that with the absolute nature of mind? Its like being open to new things while fundamentally recognizing the sovereignty of conciousness. Hopefully this makes sense

Ofc this is what I was getting at and is where my focus is at, the question was more so of how? How can I do a better job of it? How does one listen to the new radical things you teach whilst maintaining what you shared just now?

Social anxiety is terrified of this man This had me genuinely dying laughing

Do you have any links or resources to this?

Sesshin retreat sounds neat. What do you do on that retreat specifically? Also what did you awaken to or realize on 5 meo ? And how did it help you pursue practice further?

I would call this the fruit of practice.

You (God) are dreaming every person. So no People are finite , God is Infinite

Becoming concious of what Conciousness / Absolute Truth, is the only Awakening im concerned with