ExploringReality

Man would love to connect with you on person. You are Gold

No, no steroids needed. Just a good nutrition, adaptagens, clean fuel, hard work and dedication to the grind baby 💪🏽

Leo, you've been using that creatine and putting in serious work ahah

@LambdaDelta That's a very mature way of dealing with this discussion. I strive to be this patient and cool 😎

@Yimpa That's a serious acid trip.

@Leo Gura I tend to imagine in my minds eye scenarios, people talking and just thinking generally and specifically, but I do tend to talk aloud. Not loudly but I start talking to my self, but it's the people and situations in my mind that I am being and it's like I'm playing chess with myself imagining vividly other people and worlds. What is this? I don't weird people out and I let this happen when no one is around. I don't mind being alone because I can hallucinate other people and talk.

@Yeah Yeah You are God dreaming all dreams. You will continue to do this because you are God. You always are. I've just managed to trick myself into forgetting who I Am. There is only dreams within dreams within dreams. There is no physical reality. There is only Consciousness. There is no beginning and there is no end. Reality is the biggest mind fuck. Your searching for answers not realizing that that's within the dream. Even a dream is a dream. The distinction between dreams and reality is one that God is holding and rotating precisely to keep us locked into an experience of self and world.

@Yimpa That's an important insight into sanity.

@LambdaDelta Hey man your style is smooth, very educated and very sharp. Looking forward to following your shared resources, Im personally fascinated with learning about mycology and the role fungi play in the ecosystem and how tryptamines work chemically and phenomenologically

@Leo Gura No it is not the same apple. This takes incredible power. If I'm something I'm imagining from the absolute perspective, then Mind is Infinite Insanity. Then there is no real sanity other than God's imagination of sanity. Sanity is like a wall built in the ocean to keep from being torn by a whirlpool of imagination. Why is God stabilizing my sanity? How does it do this? This is Madness.

I did slap on that label because I went through that, it burned the ego, there was suffering because I realized what I am not, but hadn't yet realized what I am in that moment of eternity. But that was only the first slice of an even larger experience. Ultimately my thoughts became indistinguishable from physicality. The mind is all there is, and I had no control over what reality I am in, but there was a higher mind and beyond. Objectively it was like looking at someone who is reacting from gun shots, having a gnarly panic attack, feinting and coming back to consciousness. My eyes were completely black and dialated. The body was not needed but I had to keep checking on the body for about 6 hours. I begged for my sanity and for the first time actually prayed in reverence and terror

I am God rotating my mind. Would you say the dark night of the soul is a form of insanity Leo? As my feelings and thoughts became indistinguishable from reality, I couldn't recognize the faces of my family pictures on the wall. All is Mind. I was watching myself from an invisible point of view outside of time. I couldn't take it anymore, I had to cry and keep my mouth shut, to not go crazy and scream for help. I trusted the process to unfold and letting my intuition guide my surrender to this complete reversal, expansion and explosion of infinity. I seen black and white colored pigeons flutter forming a non-duality symbol. I seen the entire universe from the top down. I became cosmic events. I felt the weight of the worlds suffering. I went through the birth canal and was reborn as a baby is born, full of blood and feces. This was the experience that got me serious with my life and quenched a transcendental thirst. If everything is an experience, then where is experience happening? is it inside or outside? You can't have an inside without an outside. If everything is an experience, and I'm trying to look for the one who is experiencing experience, then anything I point to in regards to me trying to look for myself, is an experience and therefore by definition cannot be me. My mind is breaking down, what the fuck am I, hello?????? Anyone out there???? Hello??? Reminds me of when darry from Jeepers creepers 1 went down the pipe.

William James passage on the variety of religious experiences. "Our normal waking consciousness is but one special type of consciousness, whilst all about it, parted from it by the filmiest of screens, there lie potential forms of consciousness entirely different. We may go through life without suspecting their existence; but apply the requisite stimulus, and at a touch they are there in all their completeness."

The greatest adventure still lays ahead. Death is not a bad thing.

You are where you are in life. Are you going to resist the inevitable? Or flow with it? Dude you are going to fucking die! Embrace this life as it is, and make the most of it as well paradoxically. Your ideas about death are just ideas. What the moderator is saying isn't anything Alan or osho doesn't say. Maybe a moderator can't fix your issues either. Maybe only you can figure out your dilemma. How about learning what emotions are, why your feeling this existential dread and what the root solution is for you personally. Your going to die regardless, but set yourself free, don't shoot the messenger.