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@Leo Gura I'll check out the different curriculums! Though I've been more of an oil/acrylic painter as of right now.

@Leo Gura Understood. I think, here's what I will do: 1. Keep working for another month and see how it develops. If the work keeps piling, I'll talk to my boss about solutions whilst looking for another job. 2. The real question that comes from that is, if I should go to college for art. It's free but I don't want to waste 3 years. I'll message some people that went to these schools if it's worth it. If not I'll enroll in some online classes whilst working. 3. I'll also reach out to some artists who actually make money about that.

@Leo Gura I made one sale in the past when I was 18 where I sold some stuff on eBay lol. And some relatives ask for comissions from time to time, but that's not an income stream. In current time I haven't tried to sell anything. I know how tough marketing and sales are, that's been my working environment for over three years.

@Leo Gura Got it! Tbh. I don't see how I could build another income stream through art whilst at this job. That would mean getting another one that is hopefully less demanding (or waiting for 5-6 months for the work to potentially slow down). Would you try fish for an easier job or stay where the money currently is? @Hello from Russia Interesting! That sounds good and congrats on that! I don't think I could go back to the same company as I would leave a pretty big hole as of right now haha. I'd have to search for another position which could take some time and may require relocation. Realistically speaking, I'd first need to develop my skillset further before making money through that means.

@Average Investor Thanks! Coaching would be an idea. Need to find someone who actually knows his shit and doesn't cost the world though. Will think about that. Regarding part time: I don't think that this would be possible in my current job at the current company. I don't know if any company offers my type of work part time (haven't seen it at least). But yes, that would be an idea.

@aurum Thanks for the reply! Last year I spent about 1.350 euros per month on average (I track my finances down to the euro). If I wanted, I could get that down to about 1.000-1.100. That would basically be rent, organic food and Leos Patreon lol Is it realistic that the work slows down? To be honest, I don't know. I worked about 6 hours per day in the summer but now is a different story. It fluctuates as is usual in an agency type setting. If had to guess, I'd say it gets worse before it gets better. And better might be in 5-6 months. I have a fair bit of natural talent but the talent isn't developed in a great way (due to time... it's a circle). I could also take online courses on bettering my art, but I don't know how that stacks up against in person mentorship/schooling.

@Girzo Thanks, that makes sense! Nothing sweeter than being NBOMed, Jeez. @Adodd Sure, that would be ideal (easier with Shrooms though). Hold my beer whilst go out and fetch me some fancy looking toads

@Leo Gura Got it! Do you recommend testing for anything else in general (beyond the substance specific tests like Ehrlich or Hofmann)?

Man, that's rough. Question for @Leo Gura and/or @Girzo: Do you guys test your substances specifically for Fentanyl? I've read it (or Carfentanil) can show up in LSD and powdered substances as well and that would be devastating.

Post mushroom headaches can suck but usually they pass after a day (at least for me). I'd bet it's similar with truffles. How did you consume them? If you get fresh product and make tea instead of eating them, it should be better next time, though headaches can still happen in my experience. Regarding remedies, I'd just give it time. Drink some lemon water and get a good nights sleep. That should do the trick.

@Javfly33 You can dissolve LSD in distilled water/alcohol that would make it "even" and easy to measure. Then you could plug it as well. But I don't know if either procedure works with 1cP LSD. Other than that they sell it in pill form but I'm sceptical about the purity, personally. @Loving Radiance Believe me, I was crying as well haha

Not what I expected but exactly what was needed. Last time I took LSD it was really powerful which was why I decided to go with the same "low dose" again. This time it was super mild. I have a question about this as well but let's get to the trip: Come up took very long and the whole peak was maybe 20 minutes after which the trip concluded. To be honest, I wanted to call it a day, when a final wave of trippy-ness hit me and I lied back down. I was reminded of my intentions/questions for the trip: What do I really want? What is life? Why does it happen the way it happens? It started with the first one: I thought about my dating life and my career. Is that what I really want? No. I want to be able to see the magic in every moment. Is that what I really want? Maybe. So, what do I really want? Love, mate! Simple. Then my visual field melted away into pure white and golden light. None of my previous breakthroughs were like this. It felt like floating in white, warm clouds of light with Love directly pouring into you. Intense. Unadulterated. Love. I am not worthy of this. I fucked up. I always get into my own way. I always fuck up. Then a voice spoke in a thousand voices at once but quietly: I love you. That's it. Pure. It was like a light beam hitting me right in the heart. I wanted to stay longer but the world came back. Then I thought about it. Why all this shit? Why not start at Love and stay there? Why all this suffering? Well, that is what "life" is. It only exists because because "I" am not aware of Infinite Love (yet). If I was, there would be no "life". No "reality". I am coming back to myself. Learning to love in order to do that. That is "life". The dream of two coming back together. So hard to put into the right words but it makes so much sense. Life is like the differential area under a graph where all the above space is infinite Love. I don't think that made much sense. But it made sense to me when I was peaking lol. After that the trip was done. 4 hours in total. The rest of the day was spent looking at art. Question: I had multiple trips which were varying wildly in their intensity whilst the dosages were identical. I remember taking 2g's of Shrooms and barely tripping. Thought the batch was too old. Then took 2g's again a month later and tripped balls. Only one example. I thought only mushrooms were swingy. But with LSD it should be more reliable... though, same deal. These 100 µg were super mild and quick compared to the last trip. I'm not complaining, it was perfect. But I wonder why it happens and if it only happens to me. Maybe it's the moon? Just kidding. Maybe not? I have no idea. Maybe you have one. - Much Love

Makes sense. All my trips are on an empty stomach and take place roughly at the same time (mid-morning). The tab that I took today was the one next to the one I took last time. It really seemed like a lot less substance but it was still deep (though brief). Looking back at it, all the questions I had were answered in like 20 minutes of tripping. Maybe that's all I needed for today. Probably.

@bazera That's above my pay-grade as well haha. I always feel that the deep sessions not only purify you but also open you up more. This makes one (me at least) more susceptible to more subtle and fringe energies. Or the forces are truly inside you and just "comes out"... hard to judge. Don't know how much Stan Grof has written about the paranormal stuff but it might be worth checking out. Regarding the exorcisms, I also got a lot of them in my early trips (on mushrooms in particular). Mostly body stuff, bending backwards, feeling completely possessed but not in a bad way. Over the last year or two it got much less though. Now my experiences are much more clear (in breathwork as well).

Yes, yes, don't worry about stuff like that. I've had similar things happening. Even paranormal stuff like demonic entities leaving my psyche through dreams after holotropic breathing. It can be pretty scary in the moment but usually it's done after it's done if you know what I mean.

@AcaciaConfusa I was surprised as well lol. Either I have a low Acid tolerance or it's just high quality. Though I've done 25+ mushroom trips prior, that will have played into this trip as well. @Ry4n Thanks!

For the kids at home 1cP becomes regular LSD once absorbed. Main reason I used it is that it’s legal where I live. --- Well, that was my second ever LSD experience. I tried it first a couple weeks ago at a rave. I only took about 20-30 µg and was surprised how strong it hit. That’s why I decided to be on the safe side with only 100 µg. Well, it still hit me harder than I expected. I was prepared to trip longer than on shrooms but I didn’t expect a full 10-12 hours. My ass and lower back are still sore from all the rolling around on the floor. I also prepared some fruit but wasn’t prepared for wanting something hearty half way through. But let’s get to that later. The come up took a long while. Probably 50 minutes. Then it hit quickly. I felt surprisingly high, lightweight and a strong sense of fidgeting and vibrating. Quite pleasant, even euphoric... Hit the peak about 1:30 in and stayed there for 4 hours. Was thinking about myself and about how little I know. Was shown myself looking outside a window. Then the vision zoomed out. It zoomed out and out and hit a limit. This was the level which was comprehensible by a human mind (quite a lot actually). Then it zoomed out further and further. It got more and more abstract and complex beyond belief. I became a sort of super AI and looked at the world from that POV. At that point life is so utterly complex that it becomes simple again. I realized what consciousness is doing via the means of evolution. It builds on top of itself to understand itself more fully. It will come to such an advanced stage that it’s just one touch from understanding itself fully. At which it will destroy itself as the only way out. Because it cannot understand itself. It can only be itself. At which point there was only a morphing singularity left. Then there was the question: What is the room which in this singularity takes place? It’s God’s mind. It’s all in God’s mind. What’s on God’s mind? Love. That’s the thing God is “thinking” about. So simple. So astonishing. Beyond tears. Love asking you to hold within it the crippled and ugly. Even the evil and demonic. Who could ever hold that? Well, that is what it takes to be God. Though it doesn't "take" anything. It's ultimate willingness. Ultimate Love. --- The way to get there was kinda ugly though. So simple to write about the big insights. I think a lot of people don’t talk about how the sausage gets made these days. Like looking at all the nasty bits of yourself and the world. Within these hours I lived life from the POV of a woman, a transgender, a sadist, a psychopath and an insane person who cut off his hand just for the fuck of it. Encountering my fear of needles over and over again. It was quite a trip in the truest sense of the word. And it went on and on and on. Was looking at the clock whilst I was peaking. Time seemed like 30-60 minutes... turned out to be only 2 lol. I thought a lot about art and love with a lower and upper case. Way too much to comprehend at this point. I will include some worldly learnings. Notes to myself (not polished, might still be interesting for some): Be aware of what you’re putting in your mind. Your mind is your number one tool. It needs to be sharp. A true artist is conscious of what he puts there. The food you eat, the amount of social media you consume, even the quality of porn you watch. Live as the person you’d want to become. Regarding work flow and the simplicity of life. To become a great artist you need to be clear on what you want to do. What do I want to do? I want to bring magic. This spark of Divinity which finalizes in a single stroke of the brush. To become a truly great artist there is a need of focused, deep practice AND a spark of the divine. The truest, deepest form of healing is to realize nothing was ever broken or hurt. This may or may not entail grieving and hurting in the short term to realize this final insight.

@cetus Haha, I'll think about it Is that sculpt yours?

@cetus I certainly hope so More focused practice and painting first though.

@Leo Gura It was indeed. Amazing to peak that long, though quite taxing as well.

@electroBeam Damn, 90% seems alot. I know where you're coming from though. I lived in Berlin for three years and went to all kinds of clubs. In my experience it depends alot on the venue and style of music. If it plays chart music the girls are mainstream and pretty boring. Hip Hop can get a bit more interesting though there are alot of douches as well. Best thing I've found club wise are dingy techno clubs. Alot of girls go there to dance but in my experience they are also open to be talked to unless you dress like a business man. There you'll find the most open and cool girls in my experience. On the other end of the spectrum, high end venues plainly suck. Unless you're into superficial girls, champagne and snorting lines of Blow off your 3.000$ table.

Have you thought about going to some raves? I'm an introvert as well but I love raves. It's open air, the music is great and you can meet people kinda easily. Sure, some of them hippies smell a little funny but other than that it's great! Compared to clubs it's much more chill in my experience. Less drunk people, more people on Acid. Then again, you can find some awesome clubs depending on what you're into. I know one club in the neighbor city which is perfect for game (quiet areas, sofas, 2 dance floors), though I don't usually game when clubbing. It's a different skill set for sure (handling logistics, her friends, the randomness of the night). Daytime is much more straight forward in a sense.

Hey guys, I got some 1cp LSD at home (it's legal where I live #freedom) and I want to test it for pureness. I usually use Ehrlich & Hofmann reagents, however they do not seem to react. I've searched the internet but there isn't a lot of info out there. Some ppl. say you just have to wait up to 24h's which I'm going to do. However I still wanted to ask you guys if you have experience with testing analogues. The source should be legit (friends tried it, it's a big vendor, ...) but I want to be safe. Especially as most NBOMes don't trigger the reagents (they just show IF LSD/... is present). Thanks guys/gals!

@outlandish Agreed Just wanted to be extra safe (plus there isn't alot of info on 1 cp LSD testing it out there).

Update: Hofmann test went blue af after 6 or 7 hours so it's definitely LSD. Ehrlich didn't react at all but that was to be expected from what I could find out. I will report back once I trip.