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@ChrisZoZo thanks for the reply! I work out 5 times/week plus 1-2 long distance runs. My diet is clean (organic, whole foods) and I do not take MDMA (only LSD, twice in the last 5 months or so). I'm planning a heavy metal detox soon, so I can't speak on that. Due to the change being quite abrupt I don't think that's it. Meditation is daily in addition to Wim Hof + cold shower in the mornings.

@Baum need to mull it over myself, sorry. @EntheogenTruthSeeker cheers mate, slept 12 hours and feel a lot better! @Juressic showers are amazing on acid haha

Man, that really hurt. Took it upon waking. Then cleaned my apartment to bridge the come up. It came on way too fast and way too strong. 20 minutes to take off at most. I wasn’t able to settle myself. Construction noises all around my room. Had to put on some Beethoven which calmed me down. Killed the vibe though. My heart just wasn’t in it and couldn’t get back on it. My mind wanted this trip bad but my being didn’t seem ready. Ouch. Writing this to get some kind of closure. Probably gonna take a while. Sorry to disappoint if you expected a grand tale. This is how it went.

Check out Mike Chang's flow training. He used to run Sixpack Shortcuts before it fell apart and he had a spiritual awakening (don't know which came first lol). I highly doubt it'll get you enlightened but it integrates mobility, stretching, strength and breathing/meditation. I've been doing it for about two years now instead of going to the gym (though I do the breathing after taking a cold shower and I don't do a lot of stretching). Here is the full routine: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zE0yb5Hot8&ab_channel=MikeChang

Man, I hate LSD. Felt like a four hour come up. Thought about calling it a day and returning next week with a higher dose. Alas, the trip didn’t even start lol. Man, I love LSD. The insights were pure gold. Gotta admit, the last months were pretty bumpy for me. Main thing I struggled with was the notion that I needed to „practice“ so my LP can „make progress“. By this way of living I created two points of myself. Point one is right here struggling and point two is somewhere off in the future. Truth is, there is only one point. I am already where I (don't) want to be. There is no need for practice, purification, hard work or any other form of Tit for Tat. What is needed is the act of creating itself. On and onwards. You could call that practice lol. Though I do not like this phrase anymore. Such a relief. Another thing I did not understand was the World at large. Do I live in a world that rejects me, conspires against me and keeps me down? Or does the world conspire in my favor? The truth of the matter is: I create (and thusly decide) it. Every day and in every single way. I am creating this moment. Right here, right now. Further, this exact moment is perfect. As in *Perfection*. So what is the highest purpose for creation? For the longest time I thought art was a way of communication, that it’s about "the other". To remind someone else of something or to transfer a state of being. All nonsense. The highest form of creation is creation for the sake of creation, created in a completely surrendered state for the Love of Creation itself. That’s what Art is. There is no need for an invented purpose. There is nobody whom I could communicate something to. It is completely „self“-serving. What serves me is what serves others. What serves others is what serves me. Listen to Beethoven. I did so today for the first time (voluntarily). That’s someone creating on the cutting edge of Creation itself. Here a couple reminders I wrote down for myself: Do or don’t but don’t "try" or "wait". What world do I choose to create today? I'm waiting for the perfect idea. The perfect idea is coming. Practice, hard work, purification - create Hope you enjoyed! P.S. Extensive studies have concluded that homemade banana bread is the perfect form of sustenance for extended voyages into the psychedelic realm. Just wanted to let you know.

#1 When I first moved out someone called me and asked if my computer was running slower than usual, said he was from Microsoft. he installed some malware on my laptop via Teamview and made me transfer him a couple hundred bucks. If I had a credit card at that time it would've been much more. #2 Someone from my internet provider called me and said I had a free speed upgrade, he even had my customer ID. I said cool, he proceeded to put a TV cable on my account doubling my monthly bill. Was a pain in the ass to get that money back but I did (unlike #1). Lessons learned: Don't trust anyone on the phone... and when they offer you something free/cheap tell them to fuck right off.

@kinesin That's a good point. Was just wondering if anybody had direct experience regarding this.

Hey guys, have any of you tripped after being vaccinated and/or do you consider it safe to do so? My first shot was two weeks ago, I've had no side effects and feel completely normal. I can't see any reason why it would be dangerous to trip but then again I'm no chemist and I don't have a degree in potentially harmful spike proteins. In case it matters: The vaccine was BionTech and the substance in question is LSD. Thanks!

I got my first BionTech shot on Saturday. Arm was a bit red and sore. And on the day after I felt a bit foggy. Other than that, all good. A colleague of mine said, she became nauseous for a day after getting hers. For anyone who has/had fear of needles (like me) I can only recommend it. Last time I got vaccinated I passed out afterwards lol. This time I almost didn't feel the needle at all.

Great thread idea! I'm always looking for examples along the same lines. Here are some that I found/resonate with. 1. Rashad Evans (ex mma fighter): 2. Paul Stamets: 3. Wim Hof: 4. Bill Hicks (comedian). Video quality is shit but the dude is legit: There are also some movie examples but they're not on top of mind atm.

@The0Self Intense and long lasting for sure.

Past, future and present are one. Trauma is not in the past. Nothing happened to me in the past, where it is hard to reach. It happens right now. Mind and body are one. The body is not fucked up. It is but my mind. This is how I carry trauma - my mind - around. As both these things were realized, mind began to unravel. Body moved in ways unbeknownst to me since childhood. Sounds came to mind that I once made up. Scents came back. Visions. Over and over again. Trying to actively love what arises was not possible. Giving it space - however - brought sacred silence with it. But why am I doing this? But, but, but? Because of Truth. Not to get something „out of it“. Not to „produce“ good art. For Truth. As Truth and Love are indeed one. Silence. --- This is still a developing story.

Aubrey Marcus would be awesome. Pretty much the only one I listen to on the regular. Explores deep topics, the host has a lot of experience with the ol' plant medicines and it's a chill vibe: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pS_0ejRBi4&ab_channel=AubreyMarcus

@BlackMaze It's kinda hard to think back exactly how I felt a year ago. However, I def. have more energy and am more relaxed day to day.

Preface The main reason I got into it was Covid. I've dabbled with breathing quite a lot before (mostly Holotropic) and did a bit of cold exposure (ending a couple showers cold). However the main reason was immune function. Additionally I was also looking for a morning spiritual practice. Before I tried meditation but the grogginess always got in the way. Kriya was better but it just didn't feel right to jump from Kriya right into the hustle and bustle of the work day. Benefits To be frank, I love how the breathing makes me feel. It's a slight high that carries through the day. It's really relaxing. I highly doubt it will make you enlightened but that's not the reason I started it. I wanted a practice that integrates into my morning routine and gets me energized. It's perfect for that. The cold showers are a lot of fun as well (I do full cold showers beginning to end in the morning and then a warm shower in the evenings). They wake you up for sure. Regarding immune function, it's only anecdotal: I usually catch 2-3 colds a year (pretty much have for my whole life). I got none since I started doing the method. The first symptom I always feel is a dry, itchy throat. I had this come on once or twice this year but it went away within hours and I did not get sick. Of course, this is not scientific in any way. And of course it could just have been me washing my hands more often. However I do feel it benefits my immune system substantially. Other than that my muscle recovery and connection to the cold have improved a lot as well. I'm fine without a jacket even in negative degrees and don't need gloves or long clothes for my runs. Downsides None that I have noticed. The quality of your results is of course dependent on the consciousness you bring to the practice. After a while it gets easy to coast through the breathing and not get anything out of it. That's a bit of a trap. There are spiritual benefits (emotional releases and minor no self states when doing more rounds) but they are minor in comparison to a full holotropic session (then again it's 25 mins compared to an hour+). --- That's it. If you have questions, feel free to ask. I will most likely be continuing the method as it plugs so well into my workout and morning routine.

@BlackMaze Yes, they help for sure. I remained in the ice bath for a couple of minutes and submerged my head completely a couple times at the end. I did some breathing (maybe one round of Wim Hof) before and centered myself, that was pretty much all.

@BlackMaze I don't really train it, it's more a part of winter where I live. The cold effects me way less than usual. Other than that I took one ice bath at my parents house (I don't have a bath tub in my apartment). It was an interesting experience. I didn't find it much harder than cold showers, just different.

Here is a great example regarding the topics of diet and health. Notice how much he knows about and understands both "camps" as in Vegan and Keto. He does not take sides even though he has an opinion but focuses on principles and data in a super nuanced way. I also find it fascinating how reflected and nuanced his answers are to seemingly simplistic questions.

"The lengths we go to not think for ourselves are quite extraordinary." - Don’t know This trip had been long overdue. Been microdosing LSD for a while (biweekly mostly) and really enjoying the effects. Wanted to trip again ever since I got that batch but couldn’t. Plus I’m just paranoid when it comes to putting such substances into my body if I don’t know 110% their purity. It came so far that I measured 40 µg (I dissolved the tabs in 50/50 vodka and distilled water) and drank it before measuring the other 60 µg. When I started tripping full on there was a one handed clap of recognition for finally showing some faith. Vodka still tastes horrible though. Why do I need faith? Why do I need to leap before the net can appear? Because without Faith there could not be Grace. And without the duality of the two there could not be “life”. The bigger the leap, the bigger the reward. Though “reward” isn’t the right word, just couldn’t find a better one. Life doesn’t ask for anything. Nothing is hidden or was ever hidden. Though to come home fully there can’t be a body, a mind or a life to come back to. The ultimate leap of Life is death. Suicide. No, I don’t plan on ending my life in the slightest. Just reporting, it’s a trip report after all. Trip got deeper. In the waiting room. Broke through. Don’t like that phrase. Overused it myself lol. Was in this DMT-like dimension. Then in another one. All intertwined and shifting into each other. Intense. Shifted back into 4D then 3D then back to the Godhead. But no big Aha. More of a deep understanding. More Love. Okay. Wait, there was something valuable: Been almost anthropomorphizing substances. Mushrooms are like Lord of the Rings, LSD is more like Star Wars and DMT is the unethical love child of both of them… Doesn’t matter. All goes out the window. Burn it on the same pile as your maps and models. Same place. Know a bit more about creativity as well: All this analyzing and mopping ideas together of other people is whack. True inspiration is taken from Source directly. Though I "knew" that for a while as well. Even blabbed around about it to my friends. But was never really shown it until today. Always been inspired by Van Gogh. Had this instance in the trip where I merged into his consciousness. Couldn’t stay long though. Dude was crazy. Still inspiring. A lot, indeed. Trip showed me the pure magnitude of the creativity possible. With a flick of the imaginary finger, there are hundreds of perfect inspirations. Just need to stay tapped in. No, not the right phrase. Maybe alignment. No, not direct enough. Being. That's the one I've been looking for. Another practical thing I learned was about how I should be eating. Won’t share though. Don’t want to start a war. --- Trip was surprisingly sexual in many unsuspected ways as well. Spring time after all. One last thing about Truth though. Truth always had this kinda harsh, unforgiving vibe to it for me. Only going for that is not enough. Truth is held within Love. Cause who else could bear it? --- Life has an art to it. Tripping has an art to it as well. That wasn’t my best work by far but it felt good to get back in. Felt poetic, might delete later

@Leo Gura On further contemplation, there is still a duality between Truth and Love. I haven't realized their true relationship or oneness yet. Gonna follow up on that.

@Leo Gura Searching for Truth always led me to looking at things I had rather not seen or things I kept under. It's a direct confrontation which is not always pleasant. Though it's always balanced out by Love. Truth as an absolute is another matter. Might have put that a bit odd. Might need to investigate further.

@Myioko Thanks a lot, I'll check those out! Also, I reached out to an artist who is big on YouTube and def. makes good money from his craft. He studied in the same town as I live right now and he said that it was def. not worth it studying there. I'll look at some other schools to see if there are some that could really help.

Hey guys, I'm just gonna describe my situation briefly: I currently work in a job that I like. I've just gotten a promotion. My co-workers and boss are cool. I make my own hours and basically don't have meetings. However it's all gotten too much in the last months. Too many clients. Too many balls to juggle. Way too many demands on my cognitive focus. What I really want to do, is to become an artist. A couple months ago I thought that I could work on that after work and on the weekends. But that's gotten impossible, as I need these times to get my sanity back. I have savings (30k rainy day fund, about 30k in investments and 30k on my regular account plus some Crypto) so I'm not gonna go hungry if I quit. However, I'm still undecided. Usually I would take some Mushrooms and think about it properly but I'm just not in the headspace at all. Maybe this sounds whine-y. I don't know or care. I tried to toughen it out for 3 months now. I know what I want, but I don't know what I should do. Should I go to college to study art (I'm 23)? Should I try to work for an artist or just go for it and paint all day for a year? Or wait till the work gets less again. Of course I gotta figure it out myself but if you have some perspective, please share. Much Love

@UNZARI My job is mainly web design though I can do a bit of graphic design as well. I started as an intern, taught myself and then worked my way up.

@Myioko WOW! Thanks a lot for the in depth answer I've been doing it on and off my whole life. About a year ago I discovered that this is basically what I want to do with my life so I'm pretty clear on that front. Regarding schools: College is free in Germany and there's an art college in my city. I've reached out to someone who studied there (and is successful as an artist) and hope to get a reply. I'll try to find their curriculums... their website is ancient. Spending money on courses or classes outside school is no problem, it's more of a time thing. If you know any courses which are worth both money and time, feel free to share. I'd say that I'm pretty clear on that, however it may change. What I want to do is to combine aspects of nature with a clean, almost technical feeling (basically a form of visionary art). Along the lines of Hannah Yata: That's basically my job at the moment Web design is creative and enjoyable... working with clients... sometimes not so much. Again, thanks a lot for your reply! If you have more resources, please feel free to share