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@Leo Gura Thanks alot for the answer. Do you consider Online Marketing as an industry that is doomed? There a multiple tasks/work that I really enjoy: Designing websites and landing pages The numbers game of advertising and the immediate feedback it gives Truely helping a customer with his business I am really thinking about it... wouldn't it be possible to make it ethical? And what about ethical marketing...

@Leo Gura Thank you!

@Leo Gura Thanks alot. And well... fuck. Those beliefs (I'm something inside the body or the body itself) are so deep. As I see it now I am pretty much spinning my wheels. Trying to figure stuff out and thinking I already know I am not the body. Whereas this is the assumption I have to undermine first. It seems like I cannot really get myself to doubt it deeply enough. Do you have any suggestions to really get into doubting and get that first glimpse? Maybe some higher dose mushrooms (last trip was 2.2g).

@Reality Thank you! I will give it a shot to inquire after work instead. And I will think about where I can fit in some self observation excercises.

Hey there, I would really appreciate some feedback: to this day I have 2 mushroom trips and about 1.5 years of meditation under my belt (8 months of 1 hour self inquiry daily). Lately I'm really struggling with my enlightenment practise. I get up early before work to meditate... groggy and tired I sit down and go into it (mostly Neti Neti). But my mind just comes up with excuses: After 30 minutes I go kind of deep but I always have this sense of "Yeah so what you cannot find yourself... you knew that this would happen anyway... no surprises here." And it goes on and on. Day by day. I just struggle with my motivation. I tried to switch up some questions... some perceived process (more wondering) and then stagnation again. I you have any suggestions I'd appreciate it deeply. Cheers.

Hey there, as it is now I am doing at least one hour of meditation a day. Most times I am attempting to do self-inquiry. Here is my usual process: 1. become aware of my body and breathing 2. get a sense of myself 3. locate "myself" as a point in my head behind my eyes 4. ask "who perceives this point" or "who is aware of this feeling" until I get stuck My struggle is that even though I can "locate myself" it is hard to open up my mind and get a true sense of "wondering". When I ask these questions nothing happens and if ask them over and over I get lost in thoughts because there is just no answer. What I found pretty helpful is imagining that I have no head. This kind of opens up my mind but not enough... Do you have any suggestions? Any feedback is much appriciated! Cheers!

@charlie2dogs Thank you for the reply. I do/did it because it was one of the instructions in the "how to become enlightened" video by Leo. Maybe I got it wrong but I am pretty sure. Regarding your advice: how would "you should begin to experience the whole of consciousness that created your physical body" look in practise? Thanks

I can recall Leo talking about that there is much we do not know. This brought up the question for me: "Where does our knowledge end?" and "What is some of the stuff we do not know?". These questions answered from an "enlightened view point" would really interest me. And is there a way to find out more? Would there be something like "enlightened science" to enhance our understanding? Just an idea...

Hey all, I wanted to share some of my questions concerning self-inquiry. Currently I am meditating for one hour every morning, normally as a "stong determination sitting". Here is my usual process: 1. doing a body scan and becoming aware of my breathing 2. doing self-inquiry (mostly something similar to the Neti Neti method) 3. go into "do nothing" until the hour is over I do not really struggle to "get through" the hour although I doubt that that is the purpose of this meditation (Eckhart Tolle). My "problem" is that I cannot really maintain doing self-inquiriy for more than 20 minutes. It just feels like my mind is completely closed. At the end of my inquiry I ask "who am I?" over and over. When I get silence I try to "bask" in it and enjoy it but then my mind jumps in with thoughts. Every couple weeks there seems to be a "crack" and I get to a really profound "wondering stage" but for the most time I am just banging my head against the wall and waiting for the hour to go by. Should I attempt to ask myself the "who am I/who is aware/...?" questions for the full remainder of the hour even when my mind goes berserk again? Or should I rather go into "do nothing" when my mind seems shut? Any feedback is deeply appreciated. If need to clarify some points let me know. Cheers!

Hey guys, I have now been on this enlightenment journey for about a month (meditating for a year, seriously meditating for three month). As I found the feedback you guys give really helpful I wanted to share my current progress with you. Currently I meditate twice a day. 30 minutes in the morning (do nothing) and one hour in the evening (self-inquiry). Now here is my typical process (self-inquiry): I sit down and close my eyes. I take a couple minutes to calm down and relax. I then try to focus my mind which mostly works quite well. After that my inquiry begins. I start by asking myself: Who is sitting here? Me. Who is me? Well I am. The whole of it. The body. Am I the body? Well I have no control over most stuff that goes on so... no not really (shortened answer) Ok, am I these thoughts? Hell no I have no control over them at all but I perceive them. Am I this constantly talking voice? No, but I perceive it and hear it. Interesting. Who is perceiving it? Well, me of course. So, who am I then? Am I the brain? Maybe. But definetely not the whole of it. Am I the mind? That could be. But who is perceiving this reality? The mind feels like a tool. And sometimes it just runs wild. No, I am not the mind. But maybe I am this "perceiving thing". Where is it, where am I? Hmm, it feels like I am somewhere in my head. But who is perceiving this answer? -Silence- at this point I try to feel into the silence but it feels like I get stuck. As I hear closer I can perceive a kind of sough. It kinda sounds like a old TV but not so intruding. Interesting. Nothing happens. Nothing changes. I then loose focus. I try again. Over and over for one hour (and a couple weeks in total). So what do you guys think? Can you spot any traps I ran into? Any mistakes I am making? Next steps? ANY feedback is much appreciated. Thanks

Hey all, So I have been doing mindfulness meditation for over a month (now switching over to "do nothing") and I wanted to share with you my findings. It really benefited my life in many ways. Although I still struggle I get much more joy out of the simplest things. If anyone of you has any other techniques or practises I would be very interesting to hear them. Here they are: Stopping multitasking completely. This might have been the biggest one. I found that I naturally stopped doing multiple things simultaneously. I realized that I was not only slower and less effective when multitasking but also was not enjoying what I was doing. Eating mindfully. Probably my favourite one. Up to that point I always did something else whilst eating and then I was not satisfied by my food and wanted more. Chewing each bite, giving thanks and savouring food revolutionized my relationship to it. I now eat less and more slowly. I chew each bite 20 times and listen to my body for what it really needs. It is also interesting to observe how your body reacts to certain foods. For example observing how cravings arise when you only had "simple carbs" for breakfast. Walking more slowly. Observing and perceiving your walk. Do not see it as a necessity to get where you want to go but rather as an experience itself. Curating what you consume. That does not only go for food but especially for media. I now curate what self-improvement videos or podcasts I consume and then focus on them completely taking notes and trying to understand everything that is said. That way I get so much more out of the content I choose to watch. Enjoying each moment and accepting what is. I am still struggling here but I begin to experience time spans where I am just present observing what I see or just observing my mind. That alone made some of the monotenous tasks and sequences in my life enjoyable and interesting. Being comfortable alone. I now enjoy silence. Realizing that there is so much noise in the world silence is an experience on its own. So thank you Leo for sharing this mindfulness practise with us. If there are other ways you made your life more enjoyable through meditation and/or mindfulness please share

Hey guys, As I am progressing in my self-inquiry I stumble upon more and more questions I am not able to answer. Maybe some of you can help. In general I really struggle with the topic of reality. Leo says that reality is everything within our perception. But what if we take an optical illusion or the case when our brain fills in the blanks we are not able to fill out. Is this false perception of what really is reality? Where do thoughts come from? Who makes them? How do they come into our perception? What the heck are they on a physical level? What is empty space? We are only one third or less made of matter. What is the rest? Why are we "confined" to the perception of humans? And why is this reality if it is not all that is (infrared/...)? Feel free to share your thoughts.

@Nameless Interesting. Usually when I come to the point where I ask myself "who am I?" I try to feel into myself as there is no answer coming up but to this point I was not able to perceive any difference at all. Subsequently my mind kicks back in and I get lost for a moment. After that I start all over again.

@Arik Thank you for your answer it sounds quite challenging (to me) but I will give it a go!

@Huz88 Thanks alot for your answer! Could you elaborate on what you mean by "...using the aid of thought and rationality to create a genuine sense of wonder. After you get that conscious traction of not knowing"?

Hey all So for the last week I have been meditating 20 minutes twice a day. In the morning I did "mindfullness" and in the evening "letting thoughts go". On monday I bumped that up to 30 minutes and I started self-inquiry. I asked myself the following questions: "Who is aware?" "Who is perceiving?" "Who am I?" just like Leo suggested. What I found as I started this inquiry was that I really could not get a sense of what the answer was. I asked myself these questions over and over but there was no answer at all. My mind was shut or quiet. Sometimes the voice would come up with a timid "I" or with my name but I really could not pinpoint it and when I asked "who is aware of I?"-complete silence. Suddenly after about 10-15 minutes as I was already frustrated there was this awesome sensation. I just felt it coming on. It was like a shower of bliss and awesomeness. Unfortunately it only lasted about 20 seconds hence it was one of the most awesome sensations I have ever felt. Nonetheless I really struggled with getting my mind to come up with answers at all. In addition to that I did a "strong determination sit" of 1 hour this morning. I tried to do self-inquiry whilst at it but there were no real answers to my questions, yet again. What was really interesting was that after about 45 minutes as I sat through pure pain and discomfort I just let go. Up to that I point I was just frustrated, in pain, bored out of my mind,... but then it almost became pleasurable. I just existed and there was no more resistance. Really interesting experience. I would really appreciate some feedback from you guys. Especially regarding my self inquiry. How would you rate my progress? Any feedback, tips or suggestions are much appreciated! Thanks!

@Leo Gura Ok, I just wanted to take a minute and give an update. Again, every input is much appreciated! So I started to ask your recommended question alot and what came up was that I believe I am kind of this CEO in my head. I delegate the "lower tasks" like breathing to my body but I can stil use my body and kind of control it (walk right or point a finger but not how I digest food,... ). In addition I am not the mind but I can choose to use it. What is interesting here is that I cannot really control it because sometimes it just runs wild... In the same manner I am definetely not my thoughts as I cannot control them to any extent. In addition to that I am not "the voice" as I can perceive it. It is kind of an echo of my thoughts. Finally I feel like I am perceiving this world through "my" body and I am judging and labeling it. So who dies? I feel like "I am going to die". Who is "I" ? The whole of it. The body is going to die. The voice will stop. And so on. But all of that is not me. I am the CEO, the perceiver. This is what came up during self-inquiry. What was really helpful were two things: the free will vs determinism video and taking some extended contemplative walks tp ask this question in addition to self-inquiry. Now what also came up due to my logical contemplation where a couple questions: If what I call "I" is an illusion and I am "reality" why can "I" only perceive what this body perceives (is that reality?). And why can you only perceive what your body perceives? Which of the two is the "real" reality? Are there multiple realities? I know that the question makes no real sense as there is no "I" but it really breaks my fucking mind. What the hell is reality? And where do these thoughts come from? Who makes them? Is it this body (the trillions of cells)? What is this "nothingness"? Lastly, what really fascinated me was that the human body on a atomic level is much more empty space than matter. So if we touch something it is really the repulsion of different atoms against each other (from our hand against the atoms of the wall/...). Furthermore it is kind of freaky that everything (waves,...) moves through us. But what about thoughts? Are they energy? Is that how they arise ?! Just an idea... I have much more mindbreaking questions but I do not want to hold you off to long. What would be some suitable questions at this point to get through this "CEO perception" ? Thanks so much!

Thanks alot! This was really insightful.

Thank you.

Thank you. It did.

Ok, interesting. Could you explain why that is ?

Ahh, that makes sense. I got that wrong. Thanks alot for the clarification!

Hey guys, I have been watching Leo's content for a long time now. I started as a standard guy looking for some quick fix solutions and improvements for my dating life and business. The last month I really got into his enlightenment content. I have been meditating for about a year. Just spinning my wheels. 10 to 20 minutes each night before going to sleep. Although I made some progress this was not getting me anywhere. The last weeks I really emphasized my meditation as I have a break from school. I finally understood how crucial it really is for my life. Currently I am doing two sessions a day 20 minutes each with my eyes open. One in the morning one at night. In the morning I am doing mindfullness meditation, in the evening Leo's "phase 2" meditation (actively letting thoughts go). I am really beginning to see practical results in my life and although I sometimes do not like to meditate I always do it and the results are kind of addicting. I know I am just at the very beginning of my journey but I would love to have some input on what I could do to improve my practises and shorten my path to my ultimate goal. Any feedback is appriciated! Thanks!

Thanks alot. I just made this mistake yesterday. I was so eager to be free from outcome that I ended up accomplishing the opposite. It's all a learning experience for me.

Oh, I actually had a similar experience a couple month ago. I had my eyes closed and I just disappeared. It was a kind of awesome experience. Unfortunately I haven't been able to replicate it. I will try to implement your pointer "freedom from outcome and achievement while meditating". Thanks alot!