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Yes I had sth. similar happen as well. That ended up in a kind of astral projection but only for a couple seconds. P.S. The shroom god was just a joke (although it would be kind of awesome if there if he were out there haha Yes, however it happened laying on my back. I think glitches probably hits the nail on the head. No idea if it's true but it seems plausible that the brain is just an antenna for consciousness or whatever. And on a trip it's like someone giving it a wack. And then suddenly there are interferences and you can see new TV channels.

Haha, I'm not afraid that he's gonna come down to earth and punish me for my misbehavior, it catches you off guard when it happens without psychedelics. And yes, I should probably do what he said I sleep on my side, however when it happened I layed on my back.

Hi there, from my last mushroom trip I got the pretty clear message that I should focus more on enlightenment and I've been consistent with my inquiry ever since. However I've got the feeling that my "orientation" is not yet in line with what's most effective... Let me explain: I heard both Adyashanti and Leo talk about that in order to get your ass enlightened you have to come at it because you want Truth. Not just the "most happiness" stuff. Adya wrote in "Way of liberation" about how you really have to know WHY you're in this business. However if I ask myself this question, I really am in it to derive max. happiness. To be 100% honest, I don't REALLY give a fuck about Truth (most times). It seems to simple. I mean Truth is just what is. At least I think that on an conceptual level. Nevertheless I have periods in my inquiry and meditation when I really want to know. Especially when I remember my last trip, where I had a glimpse into the nature of creation and reality. Then I have a desire to grasp and understand it (good luck with that one). So if I had to sum up my question in simple terms, it would be: "How can I develop a desire for Truth and tap into the adequate motivation to get enlightened?" Side note: I've been meditating for about 2 years (average of one 1 hour/day), had one minor enlightenment experience just after I started and had 4 mushroom trips. Any thoughts are welcomed. - Cheers

@Kserkkj Thanks alot. Yes, the conceptual "understanding" I got is quite a bitch haha. Gotta keep up with the mindfulness. @Leo Gura Thanks, that's encouraging.

@LaucherJunge Yes, I'm pretty happy as well, but I guess that's part of the issue (or could be, not trying to get into a self fullfilling prophecy). When you look at how ppl. like Tolle, Adyashanti, Byron Katie got enlightened it was a full surrender out of suffering/disassociation from the self. Quite tricky...

Yes, that's me most of the time. I think I have to grow some more or have some kind of shift in order to pursue Truth for truth's sake. The question is only how...

@LaucherJunge Yes, my primary commitment is my happiness and well being, not yet Truth. I can feel it shifting from time to time when inquiry is deep, but it's not yet nearly strong enough (I would think). How would you go about changing and shifting?

@Nahm Yes, of course it's a belief prison. But currently I haven't really gotten into how I can get my ass out of there. Truth seems to simple, so I overlook it and mentally masturbate. And therefore I am stuck and don't take inquiry serious enough. What would you suggest?

@BjarkeT Got that booking sitting on my desk... thanks for your suggestion, it's definetely on the reading list.

Hi there, I have gone through the LP course until the definition of your purpose statement and I'm stuck... because I have multiple zones of genius (or so it seems) and I can't really decide on which one I'd like to commit to. Here is a quick overview: 1. Zone one: Drawing My whole life I drew. Sometimes liking it, sometimes only when my parents sent me to a art course. I have definetely talent here, as I won competitions as a kid and as a teenager. I still draw but it's more like I see something that inspires me and then I go full force until the picture is done (I mostly finish artwork in one sitting). It's quite like Leo describes in the "What is art?" video. It feels like Maya just uses my body as a medium to express itself and then leaves me behind with no inspiration at all after the picture is done. Then I can go months without drawing at all. 2. Cooking I love cooking and do it everyday. I'm good at it. Especially when making healthy, mostly vegan meals. My top value is health. And I'm interested in sustainability, what's the perfect diet and the craft of cooking (no big natural talent here, I just picked it up because I wanted to eat healthy as started lifting weights as a teenager). 3. Personal development: I love that stuff. I am passionate about psychedelics, meditation, enlightenment, yoga, astral projection, life mastery, ... Top values Health Self actualization (as meaning: making everything you do as art, especially your life) Spirituality (as meaning self realization and mindfullness) Honesty Focus Creativity Freedom Nature Calmness Contribution Strengths Caution and descretion Critical thinking Hard work and perseverance Self control and regulation Wisdom I feel like the most meaningful thing I can give/do is raise the consciousness of humanity (impact). And I feel that when I go with art this is not the most direct and impactful thing I could do (could be a limiting belief as well). With the cooking I could see myself doing videos, courses and workshops on the art of the craft and being mindful with what you eat, the effect it has on your body, sustainability, ... I can see how that could raise consciousness, but I can also see that it could be limiting, as I think the most direct way to raise consciousness is through spirituality. Personal development and "life mastery" could be with videos as well, as I see that in my country there is no such thing as "no B.S. spirituality" yet. And I think it's the most direct way to raise consciousness. As a side note: I have a background in online marketing, so I know quite some stuff on positioning and marketing which should come in handy and which is why I want to focus on bringing my purpose "online". Further: I thought about doing experiments. Like doing one piece of art or one video in a given week and then posting it online/... just to see if I like it. I also tried it but to be honest I always half-assed it as my job and spiritual practise takes up the majority of my time and energy. Do you think that this is the way to go? What would be some questions to get me going in the right direction? Any help and thoughts are much appreciated!

@BjarkeT Could do that, that would be art. However not 100% comfortable with that yet. @mathieu Haha, yeah a psychedelic cooking show would be interesting to say the least... That's the thing with the strengths: I can't really see yet how they fit together.

@BjarkeT That's what I'm trying to do here @Slade Yes, that's definetely in consideration. Gotta put a twist on it though. Thanks for your suggestion

@sleeperstakes Thanks, the vision is pretty much there, even as the 3 things seem rather different, they all point to the same thing.

@Toby Of course it's an ego trip. It's probably the ultimate distraction from enlightenment as you can delude yourself into thinking it's really meaningful. However, even if there's no meaning at all in the world, I can still create it. Furthermore, I don't want to live in a cave and do nothing after I'm enlightened. Your point is definetely valid that one should bring happiness into everything he/she does however I think one can do more with his life than working happily at Mc Donalds

@The Monk Thanks. Easier said than done Don't want a "kinda nice job" but rather something I'm passionate about and that contributes in a meaningful way.

Hi there, I wanted to share some of the weird shit that happened to me in the last months whilst sleeping/waking up in the middle of the night. If anyone can relate, I'd love to hear your comments... 1. Accidental astral projection So a couple of days ago I became conscious of one of my dreams. Then I suddenly thought to myself (half awake) "What if I let go like I've never done before?" So relaxed so hard that it felt like I was free falling. Then I awoke completely as my brain kicked into a minor panic, just to recognize that I'm lavitating a couple inches above ground... By then I was quite alarmed and my heart rate started ramping up. After a couple seconds I "fell down" into the shell of my body (that's what the sensation felt like). I think this might have been the beginning of an astral projection, however if one of you has further knowledge, please let me know. 2. Waking up from dreams That's just a minor one but whenever I have nightmares I can just recognize that "I don't want that to happen" and then I immediately wake up. 3. "The matrix" I had that a couple of times, when I woke up from a dream or a nightmare. When I open my eyes the whole scenery is overlayed with some kind of computer code looking stuff... It's like a transparent curtan with numbers and symbols running from top to bottom, just like the attached image. 4. Knocking That just happened once but freaked me out quite a bit. I awoke in the middle of the night just to hear a sound right next to my ear. It seemed like somebody was pounding his palm on the matrace a couple of times. That was freaky as fuck. I turned on the light but nothing was there... couldn't sleep very well that night to say the least. That were some of the things happening lately. I'm midly freaked out when they occur, but it's also an fascinating topic. If any of you had similar experiences or know what those phenomena are, please let me know (I wouldn't believe some that shit if it didn't happen to me). Cheers

@Nahm Yeah, I hear some devices when they charge up pretty intensely as well. No patterns ins the atmosphere though.

Oh thanks, now I can relax Just kidding, I heard that there are other "beings" in different dimensions, e.g. the astral realms... quite interesting, yet a little disturbing at first glimpse haha.

Unfortunately not, sounds like Samadhi. I'll let ya'll know when the "code" shows up more frequently haha.

@Hero in progress Hahaha, thanks. Yeah, I think it just catches you off guard the first couple of times it happens.

What if one has multiple potential zones of genius? How do I find the "true" one when I'm young and haven't had loads of experience (20 years old) - what would be a clarifiying question to ask here? Cheers.

Hi there, to put it bluntly: I don't know how to deal with anger properly. My whole life I was always chilled and calm and that deepened further because of meditation/breath work. However: Sometimes I still get pissed off. Example: I'm meditating and my roommate starts singing under the shower (he ain't no good singer...). Here it gets interesting: I notice that I'm getting a little pissed off (not angry but a tiny bit annoyed) and I realize clearly that it's because my ego wants some special treatment. It wants everything to go MY way. Nevertheless I (of course) can't control that I get a little annoyed and when I talk to him afterwards I can feel that it's effecting how I talk to him. Furthermore I read the book "radical honesty" (great book) which suggests that I tell him bluntly "Man, I got pissed off because you sang under the fucking shower whilst I was meditating". Here is my dilemma: I know that it is my ego and that it's "stupid" for me to get angry at him but I feel it still effects me when I don't tell him, or even IF I tell him... So what is the "proper" way to deal with anger? I know I used a really minor example, but the problem remains the same with bigger annoyances. I appreciate your thoughts!

@Ry4n Yes, it only lasts for a few seconds most of the time. The issue is that the memory of the emotion creeps up when I'm near the person again. Again it's very subtle but I can feel it.

@Arkandeus Thanks, that was helpful. So you mean that I should just feel it flowing through me and stay conscious, or would it be helpful to try to find the root cause of the anger, the unfulfillment?

Preface: I don't want any "life advice" but I would really appreciate some of your thoughts as I found the feedback in this forum always as tremendously helpful. Here is my current situation: 19 years old (soon to be 20) Technically a college student, but hating it Living in Germany (college is free, but nope this post won't be about dropping out) Working full time in an online marketing agency and loving the work My question: I am now working for the agency for one year and I really love what I do. It's fun. I'm doing copywriting, conversion optimization and pay-per-click advertising for our agency but also our clients (ecommerce stores e.g.). In addition to that we're teaching this stuff to another set of clients... And here it begins... A large chunk of the revenue we bring in comes from teaching other ppl. how to make money. On the one hand I think that many ppl. can benefit greatly from the advice and knowledge we provide on topics like online marketing but it still leaves a really bad aftertaste. Furthermore there is the "boss situation" I got into the job because I wanted to be the mentee of my current boss. And I am. And I benefit greatly from it. I'm not in this for the money (as I get paid minimum wage). I'm in it to learn. But I can't help but notice that he is not really living up to his talk. He talks about topics like self-actualization and I really think that he is more self-developed than 99.9% of humanity. Nevertheless he is deeply caught up in consumerism which he claims to be avoiding... The core of the issue: As I see it online marketing is a great way to make money and if done right it can benefit alot of ppl. but the methods used are not always ethical (my opinion). One of the issues I'm dealing with for example: If we're using Facebook ads to get ppl. to buy our course/coaching/whatever but I still think that Facebook is a cocaine dispenser for humanity... is it an ethical tool? One could argue that we have to meet ppl. where they are in order to get them to higher paradigm (which would be to use facebook ads again on other ppl. - that irony). Man that shit is twisted... As it is now I see the last year I worked for the company as the greatest time of learning in my life. Especially compared to college. But I'm struggling to define what an ethical way of doing business is and how to make the most out of this situation or even if it's time to move on... I'm taking on alot of responsibility in the company and I think I could "mold" it into something more ethical and great, but that's also just an assumption (especially when your survival depends on ppl. to give you their money in order for you to teach them how to make money). I already checked out the life purpose course but it couldn't really help me move along (yet). I love what I do, I want to keep learning, but I'm questioning my current path. Any thoughts are deeply welcomed. If I have to rephrase something in order for you to understand it better - let me know.