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@Nahm Yeah, I hear some devices when they charge up pretty intensely as well. No patterns ins the atmosphere though.

Oh thanks, now I can relax Just kidding, I heard that there are other "beings" in different dimensions, e.g. the astral realms... quite interesting, yet a little disturbing at first glimpse haha.

Unfortunately not, sounds like Samadhi. I'll let ya'll know when the "code" shows up more frequently haha.

@Hero in progress Hahaha, thanks. Yeah, I think it just catches you off guard the first couple of times it happens.

What if one has multiple potential zones of genius? How do I find the "true" one when I'm young and haven't had loads of experience (20 years old) - what would be a clarifiying question to ask here? Cheers.

Hi there, to put it bluntly: I don't know how to deal with anger properly. My whole life I was always chilled and calm and that deepened further because of meditation/breath work. However: Sometimes I still get pissed off. Example: I'm meditating and my roommate starts singing under the shower (he ain't no good singer...). Here it gets interesting: I notice that I'm getting a little pissed off (not angry but a tiny bit annoyed) and I realize clearly that it's because my ego wants some special treatment. It wants everything to go MY way. Nevertheless I (of course) can't control that I get a little annoyed and when I talk to him afterwards I can feel that it's effecting how I talk to him. Furthermore I read the book "radical honesty" (great book) which suggests that I tell him bluntly "Man, I got pissed off because you sang under the fucking shower whilst I was meditating". Here is my dilemma: I know that it is my ego and that it's "stupid" for me to get angry at him but I feel it still effects me when I don't tell him, or even IF I tell him... So what is the "proper" way to deal with anger? I know I used a really minor example, but the problem remains the same with bigger annoyances. I appreciate your thoughts!

@Ry4n Yes, it only lasts for a few seconds most of the time. The issue is that the memory of the emotion creeps up when I'm near the person again. Again it's very subtle but I can feel it.

@Arkandeus Thanks, that was helpful. So you mean that I should just feel it flowing through me and stay conscious, or would it be helpful to try to find the root cause of the anger, the unfulfillment?

Preface: I don't want any "life advice" but I would really appreciate some of your thoughts as I found the feedback in this forum always as tremendously helpful. Here is my current situation: 19 years old (soon to be 20) Technically a college student, but hating it Living in Germany (college is free, but nope this post won't be about dropping out) Working full time in an online marketing agency and loving the work My question: I am now working for the agency for one year and I really love what I do. It's fun. I'm doing copywriting, conversion optimization and pay-per-click advertising for our agency but also our clients (ecommerce stores e.g.). In addition to that we're teaching this stuff to another set of clients... And here it begins... A large chunk of the revenue we bring in comes from teaching other ppl. how to make money. On the one hand I think that many ppl. can benefit greatly from the advice and knowledge we provide on topics like online marketing but it still leaves a really bad aftertaste. Furthermore there is the "boss situation" I got into the job because I wanted to be the mentee of my current boss. And I am. And I benefit greatly from it. I'm not in this for the money (as I get paid minimum wage). I'm in it to learn. But I can't help but notice that he is not really living up to his talk. He talks about topics like self-actualization and I really think that he is more self-developed than 99.9% of humanity. Nevertheless he is deeply caught up in consumerism which he claims to be avoiding... The core of the issue: As I see it online marketing is a great way to make money and if done right it can benefit alot of ppl. but the methods used are not always ethical (my opinion). One of the issues I'm dealing with for example: If we're using Facebook ads to get ppl. to buy our course/coaching/whatever but I still think that Facebook is a cocaine dispenser for humanity... is it an ethical tool? One could argue that we have to meet ppl. where they are in order to get them to higher paradigm (which would be to use facebook ads again on other ppl. - that irony). Man that shit is twisted... As it is now I see the last year I worked for the company as the greatest time of learning in my life. Especially compared to college. But I'm struggling to define what an ethical way of doing business is and how to make the most out of this situation or even if it's time to move on... I'm taking on alot of responsibility in the company and I think I could "mold" it into something more ethical and great, but that's also just an assumption (especially when your survival depends on ppl. to give you their money in order for you to teach them how to make money). I already checked out the life purpose course but it couldn't really help me move along (yet). I love what I do, I want to keep learning, but I'm questioning my current path. Any thoughts are deeply welcomed. If I have to rephrase something in order for you to understand it better - let me know.

@TJ Reeves Interesting thought. I don't regard ads as "cheap tricks" as they are not lying to ppl. you can use them to amplify great content (e.g.). I was rather talking about the fact that it is rather questionable to use platforms I wouldn't promote myself. Regarding your thoughts on helping other causes with marketing: sounds very good, but I don't know if that would change anything about the "issue".

@Leo Gura That's definetely food for thought and on point. Thank you. Nevertheless: Couldn't it be a starting point for a deeper purpose? Design, writing and (ethical) marketing?

@unknownworld Tough call. That was the other option I was considering. Taking everything that I can and then build an ethical business from scratch. But not sure if that's the right way to approach it (not sure at all).

@Shiva Thanks!! Man that really sounds similar... and thanks alot for the advice. I think a smart thing to do would be to make small bets and try other stuff. And then use the Online Marketing knowledge as a tool if it comes handy (in an ethical way). Gotta be honest though it still seems scary to drop the "mentorship" as it seems like "one time oppertunity". Man that's tricky... Cheers!

@Hungry_Duck Thanks alot! At the moment I am not thinking about college cause I saw it as a waste of time (going to college for business is a joke). But I might consider it once I find sth. that is in line with my passions, values and interests.

@Leo Gura Thanks alot for the answer. Do you consider Online Marketing as an industry that is doomed? There a multiple tasks/work that I really enjoy: Designing websites and landing pages The numbers game of advertising and the immediate feedback it gives Truely helping a customer with his business I am really thinking about it... wouldn't it be possible to make it ethical? And what about ethical marketing...

@Leo Gura Thank you!

@Leo Gura Thanks alot. And well... fuck. Those beliefs (I'm something inside the body or the body itself) are so deep. As I see it now I am pretty much spinning my wheels. Trying to figure stuff out and thinking I already know I am not the body. Whereas this is the assumption I have to undermine first. It seems like I cannot really get myself to doubt it deeply enough. Do you have any suggestions to really get into doubting and get that first glimpse? Maybe some higher dose mushrooms (last trip was 2.2g).

@Reality Thank you! I will give it a shot to inquire after work instead. And I will think about where I can fit in some self observation excercises.

Hey there, I would really appreciate some feedback: to this day I have 2 mushroom trips and about 1.5 years of meditation under my belt (8 months of 1 hour self inquiry daily). Lately I'm really struggling with my enlightenment practise. I get up early before work to meditate... groggy and tired I sit down and go into it (mostly Neti Neti). But my mind just comes up with excuses: After 30 minutes I go kind of deep but I always have this sense of "Yeah so what you cannot find yourself... you knew that this would happen anyway... no surprises here." And it goes on and on. Day by day. I just struggle with my motivation. I tried to switch up some questions... some perceived process (more wondering) and then stagnation again. I you have any suggestions I'd appreciate it deeply. Cheers.

Hey there, as it is now I am doing at least one hour of meditation a day. Most times I am attempting to do self-inquiry. Here is my usual process: 1. become aware of my body and breathing 2. get a sense of myself 3. locate "myself" as a point in my head behind my eyes 4. ask "who perceives this point" or "who is aware of this feeling" until I get stuck My struggle is that even though I can "locate myself" it is hard to open up my mind and get a true sense of "wondering". When I ask these questions nothing happens and if ask them over and over I get lost in thoughts because there is just no answer. What I found pretty helpful is imagining that I have no head. This kind of opens up my mind but not enough... Do you have any suggestions? Any feedback is much appriciated! Cheers!

@charlie2dogs Thank you for the reply. I do/did it because it was one of the instructions in the "how to become enlightened" video by Leo. Maybe I got it wrong but I am pretty sure. Regarding your advice: how would "you should begin to experience the whole of consciousness that created your physical body" look in practise? Thanks

I can recall Leo talking about that there is much we do not know. This brought up the question for me: "Where does our knowledge end?" and "What is some of the stuff we do not know?". These questions answered from an "enlightened view point" would really interest me. And is there a way to find out more? Would there be something like "enlightened science" to enhance our understanding? Just an idea...

Hey all, I wanted to share some of my questions concerning self-inquiry. Currently I am meditating for one hour every morning, normally as a "stong determination sitting". Here is my usual process: 1. doing a body scan and becoming aware of my breathing 2. doing self-inquiry (mostly something similar to the Neti Neti method) 3. go into "do nothing" until the hour is over I do not really struggle to "get through" the hour although I doubt that that is the purpose of this meditation (Eckhart Tolle). My "problem" is that I cannot really maintain doing self-inquiriy for more than 20 minutes. It just feels like my mind is completely closed. At the end of my inquiry I ask "who am I?" over and over. When I get silence I try to "bask" in it and enjoy it but then my mind jumps in with thoughts. Every couple weeks there seems to be a "crack" and I get to a really profound "wondering stage" but for the most time I am just banging my head against the wall and waiting for the hour to go by. Should I attempt to ask myself the "who am I/who is aware/...?" questions for the full remainder of the hour even when my mind goes berserk again? Or should I rather go into "do nothing" when my mind seems shut? Any feedback is deeply appreciated. If need to clarify some points let me know. Cheers!

Hey guys, I have now been on this enlightenment journey for about a month (meditating for a year, seriously meditating for three month). As I found the feedback you guys give really helpful I wanted to share my current progress with you. Currently I meditate twice a day. 30 minutes in the morning (do nothing) and one hour in the evening (self-inquiry). Now here is my typical process (self-inquiry): I sit down and close my eyes. I take a couple minutes to calm down and relax. I then try to focus my mind which mostly works quite well. After that my inquiry begins. I start by asking myself: Who is sitting here? Me. Who is me? Well I am. The whole of it. The body. Am I the body? Well I have no control over most stuff that goes on so... no not really (shortened answer) Ok, am I these thoughts? Hell no I have no control over them at all but I perceive them. Am I this constantly talking voice? No, but I perceive it and hear it. Interesting. Who is perceiving it? Well, me of course. So, who am I then? Am I the brain? Maybe. But definetely not the whole of it. Am I the mind? That could be. But who is perceiving this reality? The mind feels like a tool. And sometimes it just runs wild. No, I am not the mind. But maybe I am this "perceiving thing". Where is it, where am I? Hmm, it feels like I am somewhere in my head. But who is perceiving this answer? -Silence- at this point I try to feel into the silence but it feels like I get stuck. As I hear closer I can perceive a kind of sough. It kinda sounds like a old TV but not so intruding. Interesting. Nothing happens. Nothing changes. I then loose focus. I try again. Over and over for one hour (and a couple weeks in total). So what do you guys think? Can you spot any traps I ran into? Any mistakes I am making? Next steps? ANY feedback is much appreciated. Thanks

Hey all, So I have been doing mindfulness meditation for over a month (now switching over to "do nothing") and I wanted to share with you my findings. It really benefited my life in many ways. Although I still struggle I get much more joy out of the simplest things. If anyone of you has any other techniques or practises I would be very interesting to hear them. Here they are: Stopping multitasking completely. This might have been the biggest one. I found that I naturally stopped doing multiple things simultaneously. I realized that I was not only slower and less effective when multitasking but also was not enjoying what I was doing. Eating mindfully. Probably my favourite one. Up to that point I always did something else whilst eating and then I was not satisfied by my food and wanted more. Chewing each bite, giving thanks and savouring food revolutionized my relationship to it. I now eat less and more slowly. I chew each bite 20 times and listen to my body for what it really needs. It is also interesting to observe how your body reacts to certain foods. For example observing how cravings arise when you only had "simple carbs" for breakfast. Walking more slowly. Observing and perceiving your walk. Do not see it as a necessity to get where you want to go but rather as an experience itself. Curating what you consume. That does not only go for food but especially for media. I now curate what self-improvement videos or podcasts I consume and then focus on them completely taking notes and trying to understand everything that is said. That way I get so much more out of the content I choose to watch. Enjoying each moment and accepting what is. I am still struggling here but I begin to experience time spans where I am just present observing what I see or just observing my mind. That alone made some of the monotenous tasks and sequences in my life enjoyable and interesting. Being comfortable alone. I now enjoy silence. Realizing that there is so much noise in the world silence is an experience on its own. So thank you Leo for sharing this mindfulness practise with us. If there are other ways you made your life more enjoyable through meditation and/or mindfulness please share