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That’s what interests me the most! What’s next after one has deconstructed the ego? Does it all start again or is that it?

I actually find the construct/ego aware stage extremely relevant to my own experiences. There are only a few small parts of the unitive stage which resonate with me. Based on that, I believe I can fairly deduce my own centre of gravity within the model. What is also fantastic about the model is that I’m able to use it to contemplate what aspects of my life are trapped in the lower stages. This has given me some great insight into where to focus my contemplation in order to grow as a person. I do agree with @Carl-Richard that the model itself is very limited when considering it outside of the western world. As a white male based in the UK, I have found it frighteningly accurate to my own life experiences, and that of others around me.

Was looking for some insights from anyone who has used LSD in low doses to supercharge learning and development within their career? My current protocol plan is a low dose trip every Saturday for the purpose of contemplation and learning for areas which would greatly benefit my career; creativity, out of the box thinking, paradoxical overture, and an on-going low to moderate increase in baseline consciousness. The run time would be 52 weeks, with breaks where necessary. Lifestyle support would be regular resistance and cardiovascular exercise, a consistent healthy diet, and robust sleep hygiene. Thoughts?

You haven’t awoken to anything until all that has been in your life collapses. Come back and share the real truth of life when the house of cards has tumbled down

Sounds like you need a good dose of humility @Davino. Are you truly being open minded when you participate in this forum? I think if we were all more honest with ourselves then the realisation of the immeasurable depth that which we are lacking in love would become revealing.

What do you wish to pick, love or lust? Best of luck!

Having had high and low libido, I can say with certainty that high libido is fantastic. The challenge is finding a way to channel the high libido energy into meaningful pursuits and purposes. When you lack these things, the sexual energy can feel unbearable.

Social calibration is culture. Culture defines what is socially acceptable and what is not. Different cultures have different social calibration, therefore different social rules exist depending upon the culture you are immersed in. In terms of authority, you are. You are the one experiencing social calibration, and thus you have the capacity to conform or not to conform to the social normative of that culture. The feature, and not the bug, is that social calibration is real in the sense that it exists via interactions with others. You can’t get rid of it, but you can decide if you wish to follow the defined social rules of the culture. @mr_engineer; I hope that was more useful than other posts. If you want more clarity then just @ me.

Congratulations @retroAA!

My personal advice would be not to date, you’re clearly not in a fit place and it would be unfair on your partner to nurse you through your problems. I do think you should find a social activity that you enjoy doing. This may lead to addressing some of your issues by experiencing life as opposed to being stuck in a mental maelstrom. Regular social interaction through an activity that you enjoy doing will lead to exposure to dating in a more gentle and accessible way without placing pressure on you to act. Unfortunately, you will have to leap from the nest and fly at some point; in reference to dating and sex. It will be uncomfortable but also liberating. TLDR; find a weekly social activity you enjoy doing which exposes you to new people, new ideas, and new experiences. Best of luck

Well done @Espaim, very inspiring! I had previously quit alcohol for just over a year after my grandad died. It sparked the much needed realisation of what a terrible person I was. Ironically I have had that same realisation again on my 32nd birthday. Since then it’s been almost a month without drinking and I don’t plan to go back anytime soon. What’s quite extraordinary is how alcohol, and any addiction in general, suppresses the deep suffering inside oneself. The hardest days are always the first few when one has to adjust to having to sit alone in silence with that suffering. After that, the suffering becomes the way and the light at the end of the tunnel reveals itself. Godspeed to all those who are on the path to overcoming their addictions.

Lots of deep wisdom in this particular quoted post, thanks for sharing @Carl-Richard

Stay strong Brother @Husseinisdoingfine.

Well done @retroAA!! As an alcoholic, by my own definition of someone who can’t control when to drink, I’ve been alcohol free for 15 days which is been the the longest period of time by a significant amount in the last 3 years. Addiction to any substance is a horrible way to exist. Keep up the fight!

I am now going to have to watch this based on @Tenebroso feedback

Apologies all, I should of provided more information and clarity in my original post. I have already undertaken a significant spiritual journey into the absolute two years ago. This was through 30 trips of breakthrough doses of DMT where I finally experienced both physical and metaphysical death. The cost was complete dissociation from everyday life and borderline insanity. The experience and outcome, for those who have undergone such a journey, is forever life changing. As it currently stands in this period of my life, after two years of significant suffering and integration back to the present moment, is one of interest in the relative social construct that exists. In particular, exploration of consciousness within everyday life as opposed to bathing in the absolute. As I have mentioned, the protocol is a low dose trip on weekly basis, which can be adjusted as necessary, to promote a small sustainable increase in baseline consciousness; no reference has been made to microdosing. The aim is to explore my current career path, and become more open minded in other avenues of careers which are available. I respect that many forum users are going through the experience that I have had, and the integration process that follows, but after one has undertaken that journey the need to extend it becomes, for the moment, obsolete. What more is there to experience of the absolute if one has experienced the absolute? For those have experienced the absolute and have returned to the day to day experience of life, I would appreciate your insights.

I have been experiencing this same problem for quite some time. Having spent the last two years grounding myself from intense psychedelic experiences with DMT, I have come to the position of feeling unfulfilled with life; quite specifically my career and personal hobbies. Frustratingly, I can see, feel, and directly experience all the traps that I’m stuck in and unfortunately have been unable to pick myself completely free. My only progress has been accepting and transcending previous beliefs in a very slow, inefficient, and painful way. I clearly have developed this phenomenal breadth and depth of being compared to everyone I’ve ever met in person, yet I’m not able to translate this into anything meaningful. I’ve experienced the absolute and have seen through the mundane, yet am unable to integrate the two into a coherent and meaningful way of living that brings deep peace, satisfaction, and purpose. To have a teacher or mentor who has been through this themselves seem to be the only rational way of expediting this process so that I can reach beyond that which is in its current state. It would be interesting to hear from others as well as to whether they have had any significant breakthrough.

@Emerald Bravo! I enjoyed that very much, thank you for sharing. As a male who has spent his younger years being drenched with masculine energy, and the last few years melting into my feminine energy, I can wholly resonate with what you’ve said. In fact, I have a significant preference to the experience you’ve described in how I’m looking for a partner nowadays. I’d like to think I have significant integration between the masculine and feminine, and thus I can appreciate both perspectives on both a theoretical and practical level. My key personal experience is that testosterone is a massive driver in objective qualities. When I was younger and full of testosterone I had no desire nor drive for the subjective aspect of attraction. I simply valued objective attraction and how I could have sex with beautiful women. As my testosterone has decreased over time, and thus my increased desire to explore the feminine aspects of my being, so has my desire and drive for subjective attraction increased significantly. On a scientific level, I’m convinced that hormones play the key role in influencing how one thinks and feels. Thus, trying to fight against your body is itself a trap. Acceptance of one’s own biological system is the gateway to deeper levels of consciousness and exploration of the desire for sex, love, and meaning.

I can understand and appreciate this approach. I work for a leading global organisation and it is scary how many managers have dire spelling and grammar. In fact, it’s extremely embarrassing to see grown adults in positions of significant responsibility to be unable to communicate simple ideas and instructions through basic English. If you are serious about a career in a large organisation then I would advise you to take the English language seriously. I wouldn’t hire anyone who couldn’t clearly articulate themselves in written English.

If you have other things you wish to experience then my advice would be to put your soulmate on hold and explore those. If manifesting your soulmate is a true mechanism then you have the freedom to explore everything else at your leisure. Who knows, you may even meet your soulmate on your exploration of your other desires and purpose.

It can be very difficult, and also a very long process with coming to terms with how you were conditioned in your younger years; especially when that conditioning has come from those who you loved most but yet still seek to oppress you. Having experienced a similar situation to you, I approached it from a number of difficult and emotionally charged conversations with my mother. The aim was to express my thoughts and feelings while listening to hers. It was extremely difficult but I’ve now been able to set an interim healthy boundary where we only speak every couple of months. Obviously we will need to work towards repairing our relationship, if possible, but also accepting this may be as good as it gets. If you would like to explore some of your thoughts and feelings then just @ me on this thread or message me privately. My key piece of advice would be to understand what you’re really looking for in terms of your relationship with each other. It doesn’t have to be healthy in other people’s views, but it can be healthy within the sphere of your relationship.

The only one who can become master of the simps, is the master simp.

This whole section of the forum is descending into cringe..

It’s almost like people with dominant feminine energy can’t see it

You can’t move past the ego until the ego has been seen, understood, and accepted. People don’t chase ego, they simply experience it without seeing or understanding it. Until such a point that the ego is seen and understood, then acceptance cannot take place. One thing that is clear on this forum is that many of us have a nasty habit of subtly judging others on expressing any opinion that does not align with ‘high’ consciousness. Remember that you didn’t get to your level of consciousness today by any other means than traversing through low conscious experiences; and thus the duality of high consciousness can be unveiled. The classic phrase, “there has to be something more than this”. Subtly demonising individuals and groups of people, such as calling them weak and insecure, often only highlights the egoic nature of oneself. A fool never hesitates to speak, and we have many people here in this community that lust for conversation.