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@Davino I've done salvia a bunch. I very rarely feel the call towards it. Never mixed with marijuana. nn-DMT plus weed makes the experience quite different, almost demonic. But marijuana and LSD always mixed really well and intensified the experience in a way I really enjoyed. Helpful on the comedown too. I always felt marijuana was very psychedelic but this increased after LSD trips. Then there are 5meo reactivations which felt like I literally just smoked 5meo again. I probably have brain damage from constant weed smoking throughout my teenage years. Marijuana plus caffeine consumption made me into quite an anxious and neurotic individual. Now smoking weed feels childish, but really nostalgic.

@Joshe @Scholar Good replies. Yes Elon is primarily self-serving. I agree about Elon trying to dismantle the federal government and instill a tech-oligarchy. It's less about a need to balance my perspective and more about setting my bias aside and acknowledge we don't know what is a whisper or a thunderstorm in Elon's head. It's not a "need to balance perspective"- a balanced perspective is important. It's not fanboying- Elon could care little about humanity and just acts selfishly, but we don't know that. I'm the last thing from an Elon fanboy, that's just a silly assumption you are making. Just like other world leaders, spiritual gurus, genocidal maniacs throughout history, he most likely thinks what he's doing is best for humanity. I agree that he's selfishly trying to gain power, but he most likely believes this sort of restructuring is better than our current structure. I'm not saying he's right, I obviously don't agree, but acknowledging this does not mean I am biased or some Elon fanboy. In fact this is not a defense of Elon at all, actually more of a criticism of Elon, the rich, and other narcissistic leaders who justify their selfishness. It's simply acknowledging the way the mind works, and how most people can justify their actions from a warped perspective.

How is your sleep? Do you have a sleep schedule? How many hours of sleep do you get each night? Do you stay up late or wake up early? Does anyone here have a less conventional sleeping pattern like biphasic (siesta), everyman, or uberman? Do you feel well rested when you wake up? Do you build up sleep debt? Do you sleep with the TV or lights on, or listening to podcasts? I typically try to get a solid 8 hours, but that doesn't always work because my cat wakes me up in the middle of the night. He can be a bastard. Then I go back to sleep after a short period of being awake. Sometimes I can't get back to sleep right away, and I sleep longer into the next day. Sometimes I listen to a sleep hypnosis/talkdown (by Michael Sealey or Jason Stephenson, or others) to get back to sleep. I need to work towards waking up earlier, as I have a new work opportunity starting soon, and I will need to wake up around 4am each day. I will have time for a nap for a few hours in the middle of the day at my new job if needed. To fix my sleep schedule I will force myself awake an hour earlier each day until I am at my target goal of 4am, and will take melatonin at night to signal to my body its time to rest. I will try not to nap, to make sure I can get to sleep earlier at night. I'd love to hear how everyone here approaches their sleep and how your sleep is

What lacks nuance is the getting rid of entire agencies. See my other comments. I am well aware of what he's doing. Elon can think what he's doing is right for society while still being self-serving. That's usually how it goes. The Pentagon cannot account for trillions of dollars. Two things can be true at once. Elon wouldn't do it if it stood in his way- that's obvious. Adjust this comically evil understanding you have and acknowledge that these individuals might actually think they are doing the right thing for society.

@DavinoI miss marijuana. If I didn't have so many responsibilities, and had more money, I think I'd indulge more often. People definitely underestimate its potential and write it off. It can a great creative and spiritual tool. Of course anything too much can be harmful. How often do you do Salvia? I find that marijuana has a unique relationship with other psychedelics. It has definitely sent me back to LSD, 5meo trips, etc.

That's a bit silly.

It's not extreme or radical. It's hard to date someone you disagree with politically. Your job is not to convert your partner. If they cannot meet your level of understanding or if they don't live in the same reality as you then it might not work. It all depends on how much you value being politically aligned with your partner.. some people simply do not have that as part of their relationship criteria.

Looks like some of the DMT entities working behind the scenes

From my understanding, nature is unfolding, things are happening, but the mind copes. Biology is playing itself out. The ego tries to take credit for outcomes through the illusion of decision-making. Their is an illusion of self and illusion of choice. When you live from a delusional place of ego, these choices, opinions, decisions, etc feel so important. It is true that everything that has happened needed to happen to get you to where you are now. But did you will yourself there? These "choices" are really just some expression of consciousness so to speak. There are many things that can wake you up to the lack of control you as a self hold, as life is rather unpredictable. You are the entire experience of what is happening. Are you deciding this? There is also a paradox here.. as you relax and live from a less egoic place and let go of certain desires your outcomes become much "better" so to speak and you actually seem to get more "choices" because you are undoing your conditioning and healing the subconscious mind which affects your outcomes more than your day to day decisions. We feel that we are deciding because we made a decision but we don't consider that it could be already decided from a higher place or a deeper place in you.

100 percent. Genuine neighborliness is truly a virtue. I like the enemy turned to bestie idea, which I've seen played out in my life after resolving conflicts. This could blossom into an authentic relationship for OP

I agree with this advice. Sometimes you don't need to consume anything and just need healthier practices and learning through self-inquiry. My advice would be to relax. Stop trying to become actualized, or enlightened, etc. Love yourself how you are. Sometimes we develop an unhealthy obsession with getting somewhere with self-help and that gets in the way. Have a healthy practice like gettoefl said but don't beat yourself up. I might avoid Leo's content if you aren't in the best headspace. Maybe watch his video on Self-Love. You could also dive deep into Adyashanti's work or Eckharte Tolle.

Fair. There surely is something to learn here. My take is that whether "real or not real" the right thing was done in apologizing. But I have to say that apologizing just for the sake of making things better and potentially get the charges dropped is just self-preservation, and little growth is made unless truly sorry, which let's be honest, remorse should probably be felt and internalized. It's not just about being neighborly. It's an empty gesture if not truly sorry, seeing the wrong in what was done, or if behavior stays the same moving forward and nothing is truly acknowledged. Everybody makes mistakes. I cannot fairly assume their is no true sorrow being felt. I encourage growth from this. I would advise seeking help for this type of outburst. If I go to court for a speeding ticket, and the judge agrees to not add any points to my license and give me a warning, but I speed out of the courthouse parking lot and blow the stop sign, then I simply got lucky. The lesson is deep contemplation, healing and learning not being so reactive. There is also a lesson in the utility of apologizing, and also forgiving despite it being incredibly difficult for them to have done that. Nobody should be applauded for simply apologizing to neighbors unless it's authentic. That's a lesson too. I interpreted much of this as inauthentic, as the original thread is riddled with defensive justifications for the outburst. It was not "woah I did something horrible how could I possibly have done this, I love animals" it was "welp looks like I'm going to jail for something I did that was justified, not like I woke up and chose violence or anything guys so go easy on me!" In this thread I sense gratefulness for them showing mercy and being nice, but less genuine thought being put into how the situation could've been avoided, what will be done moving forward to be better, etc. Obviously I am judging words on a forum post, interpreting them, and giving my two cents.

I don't think this actually happened. This reads like fiction. If it did happen, you are lucky they let it go. It seems like they could tell you don't feel remorseful from your conversation with them.

To judge your decision we would have to know you as a person, what type of person you are, and know what you were studying and determine whether school/your major actually aligns with you. Sometimes the best option is to just pursue your highest value and what you're passionate about while holding down a steady job, saving money. It would also depend where OP lives, because in America, you have to go into incredible debt for a college degree. It's not necessarily best for everyone to have a college degree if they are just going to school for the sake of it, without having a clear vision of their career post education. You can find yourself massively in debt, unable to get a job in your field, or could realize you are not even interested in the day to day of having a career in what you studied. This happens to more people than you'd think. Best to nip that sorta shit in the bud earlier on if that's the case for you.

I've had many experiences where I know I've read a post before word for word in the past, or have been to the place I am despite rationally knowing I have never been there before, or met someone that feels familiar yet I know I've never met them, etc. I have also had experiences when half asleep or meditating when I am sort of transported to another life and am fully there, living that life, and interacting with another person from that perspective... I don't think I'm seeing a vision of the future necessarily, but it feels like a glimpse into another person's perspective. This feels very different than a dream also. I can never remember specific details about these visions afterwards, and when I realize I am doing it and am jolted back to my "normal" state. It's rare but happens when I'm super relaxed and I let my mind wander freely. Not sure if this is quite the same thing but I've never been able to figure this out.

I'm glad you have been feeling better

I was curious if anyone has ever tripped on dimenydrinate (Dramamine). I did this as a teenager many times and had some of the most horrifying psychedelic experiences of my life. I watched bugs crawl under my skin, watched people fighting, murdering each other, animals getting skinned alive, etc.... truly the stuff of nightmares. Please never mess around with this stuff. If you need more convincing, go listen to other peoples experiences. You will black out, wander around, break into other people's houses, injure yourself or others, etc. I was a very self destructive teenager. Most people here do psychedelics for mystical experiences, insights, to achieve a non-dual state, etc. This is the opposite of that. Only do this if you intend on going to hell and ruining your life. Basically, you would get a small tube of Dramamine (motion sickness medication available at the gas station), and instead of taking one or two, you just take the entire tube. The scariest part about these experiences are that the hallucinations are like no other- you will have full blown conversations with people that are not there. I was tripping at a friends house, and went outside to smoke a cigarette in the middle of the night. While I was outside, I looked over to the house next to us. It looked like they were having a party. You could hear faint music, their deck had some people smoking and drinking on it, the lights were on and you could see many people inside. A friend from school come down from the deck stairs and approached me. He said "Dude I'm so happy to see you! You should come to the party man!" I remember saying "Right now I'm hanging inside with some friends, but it looks like fun... I might come by in a little!". He said "Alright man, just come through the door on the deck whenever you feel like it". He walked back to the party holding his beer. I looked down, then looked back up... when I looked at the house, there was no party. There were no lights on in the house, it was the middle of the night, and it was dead silent outside. I had been talking to myself. I had seriously been considering wandering into a strangers house in the middle of the night. This really freaked me out. I went back inside and laid down. I remember sitting with my friends watching some show on TV and falling asleep. Apparently I wandered around my friends basement for hours speaking nonsense about everyone "seeing what is inside my magic box". Another time I did Dramamine, I was hanging out with my group of friends. When the night ended, I walked with a friend towards my house. Her house was a couple blocks from mine, and we had to pass her house to get to mine. She asked me "Are you sure you're gunna get home okay?" I said yeah I'm good. From my memory, I simply went home and went to sleep. The next day she told me she had come outside a half an hour later to have a cigarette and saw me in the distance wandering around. She said it really scared her. I was really scared by this because I didn't remember this. Another time, I was in the passenger seat while my friend was driving. I told him to stop the car and screamed in horror. I saw a woman holding her own head in her hands. I barely remember this, but my friend thought it was hilarious. I had another friend who would take it. One time I convinced him I was outside his window as we talked over the phone. At the time I thought it was funny but I would never mess with someone tripping like that now. He said "Is that you running around out there back and forth trying to scare me?" I don't know what propelled me to keep doing this drug. It was like I loved the experience of being in a horror movie. I was really young, like 15-16 years old. I probably really fucked up my brain. Anyway I hope this was entertaining.

There is no such thing as a mild psychedelic as they affect everyone differently and there are too many factors to the psychedelic experience to make any generalizations about a certain compound. For example people say 2c-b is mild but I disagree.

I'm confused. Is the dog okay or not? First it seemed like the dog died, then you said it "stopped moving", then you said it just backed away. But it also seems like the dog could be dead. Why would they think you killed their dog if you didn't? If you kicked their dog, and now its dead, you did in fact kill their dog. You are just being defensive of your actions instead of taking responsibility. We are still unsure whether the dog actually bit you, or if it just lunged in your general direction and you got scared and started kicking. This is so odd and confusing, and it's hard to help or parse the situation when you are this unclear. Personally, I would not talk to your neighbors to avoid further incrimination.

I snore sometimes, and my father has sleep apnea, so I think I might have it... I used to smoke too. Do you feel like you are ever not well rested despite getting enough sleep? What determines your sleep score? I'm curious what stimulants you are on besides nicotine as well. When I did adderall, my sleep was heavily disrupted. I'm happy your sleeping is better now.