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Psychedelics are good at breaking people out of their narrow-minded thinking and radically shifting someone's perspective. Shrooms at low doses can be amazing for people with mental health issues like depression or anxiety. But generally speaking, psychedelics alone are not going to keep you "awake" or even wake you up. You could get a million different misconceptions on what it even means to be "awake" from psychedelics. Do you really think you ever fully woke up? If you woke up fully, the dream would stop, everything you experience and could possible imagine experiencing would stop existing. You would cease. So stop thinking you have woken up at all from psychedelics.

There is an infinite amount of knowing and experiences you can have. It seems from reading your post you might be either chasing something, looking to get somewhere, or to understand something. There is nothing to obtain, nothing to learn, nothing to understand. This is a trap in spirituality. The magic happens before the conceptualizations. Just relax into your human experience and realize deep thought may not be helping you. It's very paradoxical.

Why does it have to permanent to be worth it?

I wrote a song on acid the other day. It came out really well. But it didn't feel like I came up with it- it felt more like I was remembering it from some deep place inside myself.

How would that change anything? Stop looking for others to reassure you.

So sorry for your loss, much love.

If you continue telling yourself you need weed, you will continue feeling like you need weed. What you believe is incredibly strong. Your manifesting a reality for yourself right now that makes it difficult to quit because you tell yourself you need it to be creative.

What about smoking weed Leo? My buddy used to try to peer pressure me into doing massive dabs.

Drinking makes you foolish. That's the point of drinking. The high turns you into a fool. Is drinking inherently foolish? Yes and no. Drinking is foolish unless you are bringing a level of awareness to it. If you know how to be safe and not go overboard is it that bad? Not really, its a social tool and a way to feel good. Do you go to UMD? I grew up in Maryland close to Baltimore.

So many deep insights at such an age. I dicked around with psychedelics in my teenage years and didn't manage to have a god realization until my late 20's. This video is also great at showing the Mom's (sober minded rational thinker) fear due to ignorance, and the wall she puts up between herself and new experiences, the close mindedness, judgement and worry that comes from essentially fearing the unknown for her son. Along with this, you get a sense that she does not really deeply know her own son. The programming and conditioning was so strong in that era, which is a huge shame, as she could learn a few things from her son when it comes to mental freedom. Then it shows a slightly disturbing video of nurses and doctors shuffling along a woman on LSD who clearly should not be in the hospital and who seems to be completely aware of her surroundings. Other things from this video: -The hippies on the street show no hint of the "horrors" in hospitals (implying LSD experience is horrifying and particularly bad compared to other drug OD's) -Hippies take up a lot space, and the streets "thrust" the hippies at the community, and hippies make their presence felt (implying hippies are generally a nuisance) -Hippies have taken over the community by superimposing their subculture and values upon it (lol) -Hippies are hypocrites because they act like they don't need money, but will still beg for money The TV news station then interviews a "hippie newspaper" called The Oracle. The gentleman describes life as making little sense- people are deeply unhappy, frustrated and uptight, driving in their metal boxes from job to job. He mentions how society and school teaches kids to learn to earn. This comes with an implication that earning more money for more material things is not important, and that society essentially is dictating what is important to an individual. He implies that children are conditioned to live in a world of should's and shouldn'ts. "They never had a chance to figure it out for themselves what they want to do." If an individual in society just follows the rules and does what they "should" do, there is often very little time for introspection and self reflection. "They don't teach you that life should be filled with joy and should not be a drag," implying that life could be joyful and euphoric if people were to stop trying to live up to the standards of others. He also mentions how kids in America, particularly middle class kids, feel alienated, as Mom and Dad go to work, kids go to school, and are constantly subject to one authority or another, not allowing them to think openly, and when they finally get the chance to interpret reality for themselves they start noticing there is "something else out there." I don't think much has changed in society since this video.

It easier to be in denial if you are participating with others. If you are alone in your addiction, you are alienated from society. A heroin or crack addict has an easier time admitting they have an addiction. But if everyone is collectively addicted to something, not participating will alienate you. This is one of the many problems society, and how socialization can have a negative effect on your decisions and your life if you aren't careful. It goes way deeper than alcohol by the way... if you don't think the same way as others, you will be alienated.

Based Crazy the cop pointing the gun at the guy. Americamaxxed

"Drawing on cryptic intimations in the work of J.G. Ballard, Georges Bataille, William Burroughs, André Leroi-Gourhan, Elaine Morgan, and Friedrich Nietzsche, in the late twentieth century Dr. Daniel Barker formulated the axioms of Spinal Catastrophism: If human morphology, upright posture, and the possibility of language are the ramified accidents of natural history, then psychic ailments are ultimately afflictions of the spine, which itself is a scale model of biogenetic trauma, a portable map of the catastrophic events that shaped that atrocity exhibition of evolutionary traumata, the sick orthograde talking mammal. Tracing its provenance through the biological notions of phylogeny and ‘organic memory’ that fueled early psychoanalysis, back into idealism, nature philosophy, and romanticism, and across multiform encounters between philosophy, psychology, biology, and geology, Thomas Moynihan reveals the historical continuity of Spinal Catastrophism, and analyzes its principal sources: the geological discovery of depth as memory, and the notion of recapitulation born of the collision of absolute idealism with natural history. From psychoanalysis and myth to geology and neuroanatomy, from bioanalysis to chronopathy, from spinal colonies of proto-minds to the retroparasitism of the CNS, from ‘railway spine’ to Elizabeth Taylor’s lost gill-slits, this extravagantly comprehensive philosophical adventure uses the spinal cord as a guiding thread to rediscover forgotten pathways in modern thought. Moynihan demonstrates that, far from being an fanciful notion rendered obsolete by advances in biology, Spinal Catastrophism dramatizes fundamental philosophical problematics of time, identity, continuity, and the transcendental that remain central to any attempt to reconcile human experience with natural history." This seems like a very dense multi-faceted philosophy regarding the evolution of the spine, claiming the spine when studied acts as a record of human history and the history of earth. By understanding the spine we can understand the development of the nervous system, senses, our consciousness, our "inner world" so to speak. If I am understanding correctly, the claim is that this inner world is some form of natural discontinuity, and issues with the spine are an undiagnosed cause of many social disorders, such as thought and language, which he claims are a sort of virus plaguing mankind ("psychic ailments"). And by understanding the spine we can understand multi generational trauma. I may be getting something wrong here. I am no philosopher or biologist, and this is a bit out of my realm, but I have never heard of this before and found the concept pretty interesting, although extremely difficult to understand. I was curious if Leo has heard of Spinal Catastrophism and what he thinks. I had never head of it and I thought you guys would find it interesting. https://www.amazon.com/Spinal-Catastrophism-Secret-History-Urbanomic-ebook/dp/B08BSZV4YF

Yes this movie opened my eyes as well. Definitely worth watching

You should listen to Kendrick Lamar- Mr. Morale and the Big Steppers. It's about awakening. He even samples Eckharte Tolle Listen while reading the lyrics, you will be surprised, I think you'll like it

Who are your favorite rappers Leo, the world must know

300ug will do the trick, trust me

You need to get out of your head and do something that you enjoy, something that is almost guaranteed to make you feel good, like going out into nature on a walk. Doing exercise wilI help you feel happy. Is there something you want deep down that you are not addressing or doesn't feel possible for you? If you aren't taking steps in the right direction towards a life goal things will become increasingly difficult. It is hard to diagnose your situation based off very little info. But sorry to hear you are going through this.

Good point.

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Some coping mechanisms are better for you than others.

How could one argue that sex work should be illegal? If one person wants to have sex for money and the other wants to purchase why is that illegal? And with legalization could come better safety and other oversight. It's crazy you could be put in jail for having sex with someone for money

Porn is not inherently wrong. It could be an unhealthy addiction for some people. There are some problems with the industry of porn and how it treats women. But that's not inherently true of all porn. I just think it's funny you keep posting about how much you love porn, it seemed a little unhealthy to people, that's all. Nobody is triggered

You can assume I have a fragile ego and that I think highly of myself (after calling me mr assumption maker). I'm simply going off what you've said in other threads trying to decipher your broken english about being a wanker. You are also assuming I'm not a mentalist and that I can't understand you

Don't waste your time on this guy. He has also advocated we should let kids younger than 18 do porn in a different thread. His brain is rotting from all the "shake shake". He doesn't care about benefits of not watching porn or the ethical issues and predatory nature of the porn industry. He's just obsessed. @Creatorbeing I'm curious as to how you think porn relates to your grades, lmao. "See guys! Porn isn't bad! I got good grades jerking off constantly!"