Paradoxed

Where did you go? Good on you for leaving

I have heard of folks watching themselves from above the operating table, and told the nurses exactly what tools they were using post surgery How are you feeling without your wisdom teeth?

I regret using the word idiotic. But you make a claim of knowing the truth and called people on this forum stupid for their sense of knowing. So I pushed back. Nobody knows. You actually look very good in your profile picture. Also, your posts are pretty good and insightful. But you are purposefully trolling and being inflammatory, running around calling people names. Notice I never insulted you, only your post. I regret this interaction. <3

Damn, I should've followed my own advice

I think you mean put me up for adoption.

Let me help you insult me. The word is abortion not adoption. There, now you can properly hurl insults

I said you don't know English- "you're mother did not choose to adopt you?" Idiotic I actually thought this post was interesting. But you are claiming it to be truth and getting butt hurt by people challenging you. This is your truth. Good for you. Why do you want to share your truths here if we are all are joke? Don't make Leo lock the thread and post a dancing cat meme

I don't think you know the English language.

And can you provide evidence for your claims? I didn't make a claim, the burden of proof falls on you who is making the claim. Did you think that far ahead? "humble yourself or you can take a big fat cock straight up your ass" what does this say about you spiritually? I didn't say you were wrong or right. Irony

Yes of course, that would be a great convo.

Rage bait. You're the one who is claiming you know the truth, not me. Are you being serious right now?

Oh dang! They need more controlled studies, for a longer duration of time for definitive proof. But it's probably safe to assume that it's not safe to overdo it. I read a study somewhere awhile back that says LSD prevents heart disease long term (mostly due to improved mental health conditions associated with cardio-metabolic diseases)- https://www.nature.com/articles/s41598-021-93787-4

They may have been shooting a bb gun from the balcony, or they may have just been seen with it. But he really didn't do anything

Are you worried about the bufo venom being cardio toxic? I've heard this before.

Don't stop doing the work. Just stop engaging with idiotic posts.

Cops almost always get off without much trouble in self defense situations if the cop can claim he feared for his life. So it has to be discussed whether she intentionally threw the water or not. Because if she did, the cop could be let off the hook. It has happened many times. Only recently are cops actually facing repercussions for their actions. Usually they just pay the victim and the cops get a slap on the wrist. So despite it being very obviously wrong to shoot someone in the face over something like this, it has to be brought up. I will admit that when I first watched it, not understanding the lingo, I got it completely wrong. Part of the reason I thought she was acting odd was that when she walks over to the water and takes the pot off the stove, the cop steps away naturally, and she goes "where are you going?" like.... he's obviously stepping away from the hot water. He says "Away from the hot steaming water." Then she says, "Away from the hot steaming water?" with sort of an odd tone. In my brain, I found this really odd. Like sort of an "It's okay, come closer" sort of thing. Cops are very on their guard. I'm not defending the cop, I'm putting myself in his mind. Then, not knowing what "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus" meant, I assumed (I was wrong) that it was some verbal threat, like she was about to perform some exorcism. I believe the cop thought the same thing. Look at this clip- Despite everything being said here, she did throw the pot. You can see it clear as day on the body cam of the cop. He approaches her, not being able to see her well from behind the counter. She then springs up and throws the pot at him right before he shoots. She was clearly not in her right mind, and you could've seen that from a mile away from the start of the interaction.They shouldn't have let her walk towards the water. They could tell something was up with her, and they let her approach the boiling hot water anyway. But the fact that she had mental health issues and wasn't in her right mind could actually be used to help get this officer out of trouble. So I do think there is some chance this cop gets away with it, or gets a lesser sentence than he should. Her throwing the pot is not a justification of him shooting her in the face, it's just true that she did it, and its going to change how sentencing happens. I hope it doesn't, because the cop didn't even try to assess the situation and deescalate. I'm just saying they can make a case for self-defense. Cops have gotten away with this many times. And I'm not defending them getting away with it. This is the shooting of Daniel Shaver. Watch him beg for his life, then get shot for misunderstanding directions and adjusting his shorts without thinking. This cop was looking for a reason to shoot. He got off without any real punishment. The victims family was paid, but the cop never got in any trouble. He was cleared of any wrongdoing. They were called there because one of there friends was seen with a rifle BB gun on the balcony. The cop, Philip Brailsford, was charged with second degree murder, but was found not guilty by a jury. The rifle he shot Daniel with had the words "You're Fucked" engraved on it. They same police department hired him again many years later and put him back on the payroll. They actually gave him a bunch of money for "medical expenses due to post traumatic stress disorder" from the shooting/trial. Then, they gave him a pension of 2500 a month and "medically retired" him due to "accidental disability experienced during the course of work" due to claims of PTSD. Daniel Shaver's widow sued the city and received 8 million dollars. So you must think what cops have gotten away with prior and consider how it will all play out in court. All that being said, this cop caused the scenario. He told her to go over to the water. He told her to pick it up. Then, as she is doing it, he pulls out his weapon and says "I'll shoot you in the fucking face" after what he misunderstands as a verbal threat. Then, he moves forward, putting himself closer to to the person holding the "weapon". Even when a crazy person is wielding a weapon in public, you do not just close distance and immediately shoot them. If they are a threat to other civilians, maybe. But this was a woman in her own home, and she didn't have a weapon, she had a pot of water.

It's like the people on that subreddit hate children. This kid rocks!

He called Palestinians "drugged cockroaches in a bottle". He doesn't want peace.

Weird how everyone just accepts his takes as reasonable and nuanced when they are completely one sided and biased Go to the spirituality sub-forum with that sort of rhetoric

Are children as stupid as r/teachers makes them out to be?

Even if she did, it wouldn't matter, and wouldn't justify the cops actions

Curiosity and exploration. I just don't have much experience with them.

I will probably give that a shot sooner or later. I have had some scary physical effects on 5meo. I'm hanging up the phone for the time being.

I just wanted to share a picture of this nn-DMT pen that I bought from a shop in Washington DC a few weeks ago. I was very pleasantly surprised to see a DC shop with DMT pens from two different companies each priced at $150 per 1/2g. The branding on the box for this one had no name and no indication it contained DMT or anything, just an interesting design. I lost the box before thinking to take a picture. But I really like the design of the pen itself. Although the design is interesting, this device is incredibly overpriced. You can purchase pure DMT for much cheaper, and make your own vape juice and put it in your own device with a tank. Better yet you can extract the DMT yourself then mix the juice at whatever ratio you want. You are paying for the convenience of not having to either extract the DMT yourself or source it yourself. And in the DC market, all of these drugs are overpriced (and also illegal). When you are buying a product like this, you do not know the ratio they are mixing- they are ripping you off. They can say they are giving you 1ml and 800mg of DMT in the cartridge, but that's not necessarily the case. You really have no way of knowing. That being said, without knowing the ratio whatsoever on this pen, it hit very nicely. The pen didn't last long at all, as I shared it with a friend and my girlfriend. First I was with my buddy. He loves shrooms, but never had access to the DMT experience. He loved it. I also shared it with my girlfriend later who liked it as well. Both of them hit it very cautiously at their own pace and were not looking to breakthrough or blast off. They would hit the pen, chill out, then awhile later hit it again, taking in the experience at their own pace. When I was with my girlfriend, I wanted to go for a breakthrough. I only ended up taking two big hits and couldn't go for a third. I had a very intense trip. I became hyper aware of myself as God imagining my life. God felt distinct from me, but also I knew I was him, and "me" was my imagination, along with my entire life. I was shown a couple people in my life that God told me he loved- including my grandmother, who God said appreciates her service and dedication to understanding him. It was like God was pointing out who in my life is dedicated to a spiritual pursuit. He appreciated the pursuit to know him, even though he felt she was misguided in her pursuit in many ways. He still appreciated it and forgave her. But, I was also simultaneously aware that I was God, and that I was imagining my entire life and and this entire reality, and my Grandmother was just being imagined by me. I was also shown how I was imagining another friend of mine, and how he is imagining me. I was shown that we are both like-minded and interested in understanding the true nature of consciousness, and that we are imagining each other in order to help each other awaken to ourselves as God. I had one foot in the human material realm and the other in the eternal- I was still distantly aware of my physical surroundings. Id say I was in 85 percent eternal bliss, and 15 percent the material realm. I felt such amazing love and amazement for the genius of this dream I'm dreaming call life. And as God knowing that I was imagining this life and everything in it, I oddly didn't feel alone at all even though I knew I was alone. I just felt endless love. So you really don't need much DMT. Just two hits took me on a profound journey. I think it will be interesting to see DMT pens popularized in the same way as weed and shrooms. For most people on the streets, DMT is just something that Joe Rogan always keeps yappin about. Imagine going in to buy some weed for a blunt and you see a DMT pen and just buy it cause you heard about it on JRE or something. Then you accidentally realize you are imagining your entire life off two big hits. I have also been considering extracting DMT, making my own vape juice, and manufacturing pens at a fair price to compete with these rip off pens. I do think the DMT experience is one that should be more accessible to people, but not so overpriced. I've seen companies and people online selling other .5ml carts more than I bought mine for. You could probably do a full gram pen and sell it for cheaper. I don't like how expensive shrooms or weed are in places where they are legal or there are loopholes to buy them. It's a bit ridiculous. Some of the prices you see the general population spending their money on for this stuff is just insane. You are getting ripped off. I would love to be able to offer an equal or superior product for much cheaper in these markets. That goes for shroom chocolate bars as well. Many of those "shroom chocolates" are actually 4-aco dmt or 4-ho-met or another research chemical structurally related to psilocin usually acting as some analog or prodrug to psilocin. These RC's are safe, but with shroom chocolates and other things on the market you are not always getting what you think you are getting. And the prices are usually far too high. I noticed Canada has a lot of companies selling these overpriced carts. For an idea on prices of nn-DMT carts in Canada where it's legal, I compiled a list of prices from Nupepshrooms.cc. This is one of the first websites the popped up on Google for me. I hope this is not considered sourcing, as I would recommend NOT buying any of these products. I don't even know if you can trust that website. Just source your DMT elsewhere. You could get pure DMT for much cheaper and just make your own juice. If you were to extract DMT yourself you would yield many grams of DMT. When you make your own juice you can mix it to whatever ratio you want. Why buy a 250 dollar vape containing 800mg of dmt when you could get 1g of DMT for 60-80 bucks, or get multiple grams of DMT from 60 dollars of mimosa hostilis root bark after an extraction. nn-DMT Carts Price List from Nupepshrooms: -Deadhead Chemist (400mg of DMT in a .5ml cart with a battery) for $140 -Deadhead Chemist (400mg of DMT in a .5ml cart, no battery) for $125 -Deadhead Chemist (800mg of DMT in a 1ml cart with a battery) for $250 -Deadhead Chemist (800 mg of DMT in a 1ml cart, no battery) for $230 -Deadhead Chemist (3x .5ml carts, 400mg of DMT each, no batteries) for $400 -Deadhead Chemist (3x 1ml carts, 800mg of DMT each, no batteries) for $649 -Purecybin (300mg of juice in a .5ml cart, battery) for $110. -Purecybin (700mg of DMT in a 1ml cart, no battery) for $190 -Mushroom Canada (800mg of DMT in a 1ml cart) for $190. -Magic Mushroom Dispensary (800mg of DMT in a 1ml cart, no battery) for $183 -Swifty Labs (350mg of juice in a .5ml cart, no battery) for $118 - stealing Rick and Morty IP for branding -Puff Boys (400 mg of juice in a .5ml cart, no battery) for $125 I may expand this list later. As you can see, these vapes are overpriced. Some of them have really cool branding, like Mushrooms Canada shown below. I have not tried any of them. If it didn't feel like a waste of money when I can make the juice myself, I would love to try these different brands. But you just never know the quality of extraction process, the actual ratio of juice to DMT, etc. You have to think, the actual mechanical hardware of the vape cartridge is incredibly cheap, and most of these products are not providing you with a battery, just the cartridge itself, with a small amount of DMT mixed with juice for hundreds of dollars. If anything, you are paying mostly for packaging. These cartridges feel like scams. I haven't done the math on manufacturing and packaging costs, but I bet these companies are making a killing off your unwillingness to extract or source DMT. Here's some others: I am curious as to what a flavored DMT vape mix might taste like. The brand Puff Boyz has Pear, Vanilla, Grape, Very Berry, Wild Apple, and Cavendish flavors for their DMT carts. I plan to begin extracting DMT myself one day, and would love to blog about the process. I think it'd be cool to move to a country where psychedelics are legal and sell a good product in a legal market, or get into a market as it become legalized. The goal might look like: -Move to area with current legal market. -Purchase all equipment and ingredients to build a lab for Extraction Process. -Refine your method of extraction to yield the most DMT at the highest quality. -Mix DMT yield with vape juice. Experiment with different ratios for different experiences and perfect take off. -Professional branding for vape pen and its packaging (work with a good artist) -Increase the standard (dmt:vape juice ratio should always be explicitly stated on the package, along with ingredients used, such as VG/PG levels of the juice itself and juice being used, type of bark used in extraction, etc) Many of these DMT carts you see on the market have little to no information on the packaging about ratios. Some list the size of the cart and how many milligrams of DMT are in the cartridge. Some, like Deadhead Chemist, don't seem to have DMT milligram listed on the packing, but when you buy it online it tells you how many milligrams of DMT are in the cart in the description of the product on the website. You also want to make sure you have a small description of what happens when ingesting the product, a few warnings- do not drive, etc. And make sure you have instructions for how many pulls for each level of experience. -Work with manufacturer- give design for packaging and pen to manufacturer for mass production. -Fill product with vape juice once packaging and product is received -Enter legal markets with an equal or superior product to pen shown in picture (rechargeable 1ml pen instead of .5ml pen. I may begin with just CCELL cartridges) -Make prices more fair (DMT 1ml vape pen, 800mg of DMT for the same price as the .5ml vape pen in the picture- which probably only had 300mg of DMT) You could do it for even cheaper. There is no reason a DMT vape cartridge with 800mg of DMT (800/200 ratio) should cost $250 dollars. -As legalization happens slowly in US markets, be ready with a plan for a solid, safe product. There is similar progression happening with 5meo carts. They are overpriced and marketed in a similar way on Canadian websites. They are more expensive, probably because the drug is harder to synthesize and overall considered more rare. There is at least one place in Washington DC advertising have "5meo raw extract 250mg" for $175, and a 5meo DMT cart (.5ml cart unspecified ratio of dmt:juice). They are advertising this openly on their website for their shop. This is very surprising to see in Washington DC, considering regular nn-DMT and 5meo-DMT are both schedule-I controlled substances federally and illegal in every state in America. So to have shops openly selling and advertising DMT/5meo pens is crazy. I plan to also do market research on 5meo pens as they become more popularized in the US and worldwide. The brands Deadhead Chemist, Purecybin, Swifty Labs, Top Tier, Magic Mushroom Dispensary, and Mushrooms Canada also make 5meo carts. I may make another list just for 5meo pens and their current pricing between some websites. Other interesting things I have seen from Canadian suppliers: Deadhead Chemist sells liquid 4-aco DMT in a 100ml bottle for $225 bucks. They also sell DMT pre-roll joints. They also sell LSD tea (mint flavor, 100ug) and LSD edibles like gummies of many flavors. If you are in Canada you can legally buy ketamine, cocaine (tuci), LSD, mushrooms, mdma (they have it in four different colors- whatever that means) from Deadhead Chemist. They also sell a product called "Trip Stopper" containing 6 capsules (valerian root mixed with vitamin C) for $3 dollars. Seeing all that makes me want to move to Canada. So to conclude for now, if you have never experienced DMT and are in an area where it is legal, these vape pens/carts are a convenient way to have the experience, even if you may know deep down they are overpriced. If you have no other options, buy yourself a cart and go for the ride. But if you are going to smoke DMT regularly these carts are a ripoff and you should either source DMT and mix your own juice, or extract DMT yourself.

I did about 6g's of shrooms yesterday. As I was peaking, I meditated deeply. As I focused inward, I was able to go very deep in meditation. Thoughts would come, I would acknowledge them, and let them go easily. Much more easily than my sober mind is usually capable. I have been listening to Shunyamurti a lot recently, who has helped me in that practice of not clinging. I entered into an incredibly blissful state. I forgot who I was in this state, and where I was physically. No ego death, maybe a sort of ego dissolution. Ego-death I have experienced in the past was much more intense, scary, and challenging, truly dying. In those states, there was no sense of ego or self whatsoever, complete non-duality. This wasn't quite that. It wasn't like 5meo-Dmt. It was more like I could bring myself in and out of this state. In this deep place of surrender, my mind would take me places, and I allowed it to go where it wanted. I just watched where my mind would go. It felt as if I was being shown certain things, and certain stuff was being communicated to me through a deep intuitive sense. This happens during regular meditation for me, but it felt so much easier now. For example, I felt intuitively that I could astral project very easily from this state. Then, I remembered my physical body sitting cross-legged in meditation in my living room. I got up from this position and walk around my living room. Then, I remembered I didn't actually get up, and found myself back in the nothingness of my mind, astonished and slightly scared that I was able to do this so easily. Again, same thing, I would convince myself I had gotten up, but then I would feel a sort of fear of this exploration, and return to my body. Like "Did I just get up? I'm supposed to be meditating cross-legged, not getting up. Oh wait, I didn't get up, I'm still sitting cross-legged." I have practiced a bit of astral projection before, but was never able to do it so easily. Also, I was able to explore other realms similar to n,n-DMT. I could enter this place upon surrender. Then, some thought would bring me back to my body. There was a bit of internal resistance and fear in letting go of course. As I would try to conceptualize the realm I was in, or even think about the realm, I was brought out of the realm. There were many patterns and there was an entity, but this realm is now hard to recall, sort of like a dream. I had been there before. I was aware that if I were to take higher doses, and do the same practice, I could explore these other realms very easily. Lastly, I felt intuitively that I could manifest objects into reality. Not just manifest good outcomes for myself in this material life, but literally manifest objects out of thin air, and will them into existence. That's where the strawberry came into my mind. For about an hour, I kept getting visions of a single strawberry intermittently. In my blissful state, I would leave my body through astral projection, have a thought which brought me back, dismiss the thought, drift away to some other realm for some amount of time, have a thought bringing me back, dismiss it, etc. Sometimes when I came back, there was a strawberry in my mind's eye. I dismissed it. Again, I drifted away, and back again I came, just to visualize a strawberry in my mind. This went on for quite some time. I wondered if I could will a strawberry into existence, right then and there. I knew I could wake up from this meditation with a strawberry in my hand. Intuitively, I knew this was possible. If only I could master this state of mind, this deep place, I could manifest a strawberry. After awhile, I felt like the effects were starting to wear off just a bit. Unfortunately, I didn't have a strawberry in my hand after coming out of the trance. I got up and looked around the living room. No sign of a strawberry. I checked my fridge for any strawberries. There were no strawberries, but there was an Arizona Iced Tea strawberry lemonade. I thought "Not good enough." I walked into the other room where my girlfriend was. She had taken a baby dose of the shrooms. She was having fun, but wasn't as high as me. I asked her what fruit I'm thinking of. I told her "Do not guess, think about it for a second. But don't think about it, just intuitively say what fruit I'm thinking of." She sat for about 30 seconds, smiled at me, and confidently said "a strawberry". Did she guess correctly? She said she kept thinking about different fruits, but kept coming back to the strawberry. She knew.