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I would take a step back from both options and really assess what you can imagine yourself doing, then see what degree you'd want in order to facilitate that. This "If I can't become an engineer I'm going to kill myself" thing doesn't make any sense. If it was right for you, you would be able to pass that class, especially if you took it 3 times. And it doesn't get easier after passing calculus I I'm sure. After 10 years of having a pretty successful career, I decided to ditch it and go to school to become a medical laboratory technologist. It's a two year program. I see myself working in labs, I find that environment interesting, so I worked backwards from that. "What would I need to make that happen?" was a question I asked myself. I can see building a bigger career after getting some lab experience and finishing out a BS if I choose to. But I'm not putting extra pressure on myself. You need to stop freaking out and just take a second to figure out what life wants for you. You will change your path in life many times. When you think about your path and it gives you anxiety and you feel like a failure it's probably because you are forcing something or lying to yourself. When things don't seem stressful and you are not forcing that's probably a good sign. Also, just because you can't pass a class doesn't mean you will never understand high level math/science, you can study on your own and prove to yourself you can learn it. Sometimes the rigid fast paced schedule of school is what does your head in. So there is no need to feel like such a failure. Please don't kill yourself.

True, even if it feels like you would stop breathing you probably wouldn't.

I think this is common with 5meo, I would say you could stop breathing potentially. People do go blue and stop breathing and facilitators remind people to breathe so just be aware it can happen. You also hear about yogis not breathing for long periods of time, like with Kriya yoga.

Those things are only upsetting from your selfish biased human perspective. I have lost loved ones, some of them to cancer. You are framing these situations as negative because you view death as this horrible thing. Do you know it's a bad thing? No, but still you fear it because it is unknown to you. When an animal dies in the forest, is that upsetting? It's not upsetting to you because you're not that animal and don't identify with it. How about a bug getting stepped on? If you weren't a human, you wouldn't be conceptualizing reality to the degree you are, and none of this would be bothering you. Maybe suffering is a gift that will lead you somewhere if you don't fight it. Everybody and everything suffers. You just don't see the utility in it.

That's where you are but you can't realize it from your perspective.

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You should try regular DMT, there are many insights to have there, and you would like it. I like "dissodelics" but you should be careful with too much ketamine, it is very bad on your bladder. Go on the ketamine addiction subreddit to see for yourself. ketamine is like my favorite drug, but there is too much risk involved with prolonged use. I'm sure you are aware of this but if you aren't just be careful. People have to use urostomy pouches (bladder bags) because of damage from ket (look up bristol bladder). Ket feels so loving that it tricks you into thinking you are doing serious work on yourself while destroying your body.

Fair to who? You or me? Who decides what is fair?

5meo is really uncomfortable when you don't breakthrough. I would be careful doubling the dose, just work your way to higher doses. I've experienced the same thing with the chest, heart and throat. That may be the chakras you need to open to be able to fully let go? You may be clinging, and surrendering on other drugs is much much easier. It's hard to say, but if you do breakthrough you will feel like you are actually dying, physically and psychologically, then love and gratitude as you return. You don't need intense breakthrough doses though, and if you do be careful and work up to it. I stopped doing 5meo for now because there is too much body load and risk. Have you tried n,n-DMT?

The self prioritizes survival

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Leo was actually a pregnant woman this entire time. Now imagine if we could take Leo's voice and make pregnant Leo speak. "And you might say "But Leo, you couldn't just become a woman and get pregnant out of nowhere" But that's EXACTLY what I'm saying. Tadaaa" Here's how you could turn Leo into an AI avatar: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJ6JGrIPVH8

I have heard others say that first timers sometimes have to "get over the hump", but once you do it becomes easier to trip. I personally didn't have that problem as the first time I ever took salvia I had my shit rocked. You probably just need a stronger extract or to take more. I believe in you Salvia can be pretty insane. You will probably be very surprised, and it will probably be unlike anything you could possibly imagine. But that's what is so interesting about it. The first time's I did it were pretty unpleasant and scary, but I was a dumb teenager who didn't know what I was getting myself into or how to surrender. I would say it's important to accept whatever is happening during the experience good or bad. Mentally tell yourself beforehand that you are welcoming whatever happens. Sometimes when you come back, you question reality (it's fine, more people should be doing this anyway), but it might take a second for you to ground yourself. I actually find going deep with n,n-DMT or 5meo to be much scarier.

If you do a real dose you'll completely forget you smoked anything, you'll forget who you are. Slowly you will realize you are coming back to your body. Although it is uncomfortable it's not quite as uncomfortable and scary as people make it out to be because you disassociate entirely. There was barely any fear involved for me. I did it a couple days ago, I became what I can only describe as a thread. I was working alongside all of the other threads, and there was a sense of comradery with my team. It felt like when I worked in a restaurant many years ago. We were all on an abstract assembly line. It was actually a kind of pleasant experience- I felt proud to be working on this project with my team, although I didn't know what we were working on exactly. But I could tell there were hundreds of us working alongside each other. There was a leader commanding our team of threads giving us orders. There was a distinct moment when I realized what we were working on.. we were forming the present moment of me laying on my couch- it was the same moment I "found" my body and started remembering I smoked Salvia. So in that brief moment it was as if I was still a thread but was aware of myself as both a thread and the body. It wasn't really that these threads were forming a body, but forming the exact moment of me laying on my couch. The threads were creating my perception. Notes from my trip: -Teams of people creating my perception -Many threads together working, all individuals -Sense of safety and familiarity -Lines of people like waiting for a roller coaster -I am an employee -Forgot I smoked anything -"Darden restaurant type energy" -"Ah I get it, I'm laying on my couch, and this is how I'm forming" Oh, and I just smoked it in a pipe, basically filled the pipe like a bowl of weed. It was just the salvia extract. I used a torched lighter to burn it all quickly. After taking the hit I set the bowl down immediately, holding in the hit. After 15-20 seconds I exhaled. By the time you exhale you're in it.

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KEEP GOING KERYO! DON'T LISTEN TO THEM!

I don't think you really stop thinking fully, but instead thinking can subside, and you can live from a place of observing your thoughts without over identifying with them.

I don't find any problem with adderall and shrooms. I think adderall and LSD would too much for my body to handle. I usually don't take adderall if I'm tripping just because I like to keep a trip feeling pure, but if you take adderall regularly and have a tolerance it will most likely make little difference. Just remember many psychedelics have similar effects to stimulants like increased heart rate, sweating, etc. I guess it just depends on the person and the psychedelic you are looking to do.

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I have been contemplating the safety of 5meo-DMT. I only have a bit of experience with the substance, and have only "crossed the threshold" once, experiencing a deep fear, a scary body response, followed by an eternal nothingness. Then, I was overcome with the deepest gratitude I have ever felt to be alive coming back, and deep appreciation for the dream we call life. I could tell that I was "creating reality", and that I loved dreaming, and that I chose to "go back to sleep". I knew I was alone. Fully alone. I now know without a question of a doubt I am God, and that reality is entirely mental projection. This has required much integration and understanding. Since then, I have used the drug in much smaller doses, usually as a meditative tool. My ROA was always vaping, or I would sprinkle some freebase 5meo with marijuana. I can not bring myself to try for a full-release again for multiple reasons. Every single time I do 5meo, I have a very similar response. An increase in heart rate, very shallow breathing, then what feels like very low blood pressure and a slowed heart rate. I always just convinced myself this drug is generally safe, especially in small doses. And these effects are no big deal. This seems to be the consensus on this forum. But recently, I experienced something very scary. On a very small dose, I experienced a distinct heart palpitation. My heart was already beating very slowly. It felt almost like my heart was remembering to beat. I felt intense fear. Like I could kill myself by going any deeper or letting go. In that moment an intuitive voice notioned to me, almost like a sort of divine intervention. "This drug will actually kill you, for real, not just psychological death, but real death. Cardiac arrest." I have experienced ego-death on other psychedelics before, and have had horrible trips, but I have never felt something like that. This was real, and there is no convincing me otherwise. In that moment I knew how deeply dangerous this drug could be. I still feel this, and in a sense, am looking to others to convince me I am wrong or just overreacting. I will preface this by saying I have not had any tests done on my heart before experimenting with this substance. I could have some problem. Also, I realize heart palpitations can be normal, and are not always a sign for alarm, but this intuitive voice needed to be heard. I truly believe this drug can cause serious problems with your cardiac or respiratory system. Right now I plan on never touching 5meo again. I know what most here will say including what Leo has said before- "You would not have actually died etc, nobody has died off that low of a dose" People will also say "low doses are harder on the body- you didn't do enough". In this thread, the user puporing claims to having almost died from boofing 15mg of 5meo. Leo responded: I can't help but feel like Leo was wrong. Without a proper facilitator, @puporing could have died. They could have passed out, vomited and choked, could've stopped breathing, could've had a seizure, could've tried to get up and fallen and hit his head. I feel they could've also gone into cardiac arrest. Puporing was also experimenting without a facilitator. I would go so far as to say you could die for real, even with an experienced facilitator, and they may not be able to save you. In the thread, people argue with puporing, saying that he/she would've been fine, that his/her former experiences of ego death were not ego death, and this was real ego death, etc. Puporing insists it was not just "struggling to breathe" but that he/she was suffocating. Puporing claims commenters were gaslighting their former trips and experiences of ego death in the past to claim "you were just experiencing ego death for the first time, you only thought you had experienced it before." I know ego death comes with a physical feeling of dying. This usually happens with ego-death. But part of the problem with 5meo-dmt is that the entire point of the drug is to "die". So in a sense, people will downplay the reports from people claiming to have "almost died". But I am trying to parse how much of this experience is actually BECAUSE you are dying physically, or are coming close enough to physical death that you are experiencing the ego dissolution, then as the drug wears off, you survive, and feel this "gratitude for life and appreciation for the dream" simply because you survived. Psychologically there are obviously dangers, but I'm more focused on real dangers to the body. A part of me wants to go back and explore this substance on a deeper level. There is some calling to try this again, or 5meo-MALT or DiPT if those are somehow safer. But this has freaked me the fuck out and I can't help but make this post. In Leo's video introduction of 5meo, he recommends snorting about 20mgs of 5meo for your first experience. I can't help but feel that this is incredibly dangerous, especially for a "normie" who might stumble across his video. Here is a link to the health problems reported from people on Erowid: https://www.erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_5MeODMT_Health_Problems.shtml Seizure and convulsions from insufflation (15-25mg doses), Blacking out, flailing limbs, falling, Short term breathing problems during the experience, Long term breathing problems, Memory loss- short-term and long-term (think alzheimer's), Cardiovascular effects ( rapid heartbeat, slow heart beat, heart palpitations), Muscle spasms, Nausea are all reported. I will say most of these reports are from incorrect dosages or mixing with other drugs. DO NOT TAKE 5MEO WITH AN MAOI! DO NOT DO 5meo IF YOU HAVEN'T HAD PROPER SLEEP! There have been reported deaths from 5meo. Most people explain these away by saying it was in combination with other stuff, like ibogaine and MAOI's. Does anyone have an idea of the total number of deaths associated with this drug? There is at least one user on reddit I saw who claimed he died (for real) on 5meo. His heart stopped and he was resuscitated. I worry that there are many more associated deaths with 5meo that we simply are not aware of, and many more incidences of cardiac arrest and seizures that we aren't aware of. I don't know if there are other deaths going unreported? It seems very possible. When someone dies from a drug OD, do they always autopsy? This is a genuine question. I don't know why it feels like most people think this drug is generally safe. They preface this by saying "If you don't have heart problems or epilepsy you will be fine." But do you really know how healthy you are? Do you know if you have a heart complication? I understand that most people understand the risks but I can't help but feel like it is downplayed a lot, when we really don't know how dangerous this stuff would be if it were more popular, if there were more clinical studies, how many people would be admitted for seizures or cardiac arrest, how many people would be dead. If you search online, it's almost all positives of this drug, cures depression, anxiety, PTSD, alcoholism, etc. I feel like some of these sites or publications are biased, present all the studies showing the benefits of the drug, without mentioning potential death/danger. This that what worries me about Leo: -Leo has also said things like "You can't throw up when you haven't eaten anything for 4 hours in advance" seemingly trying to convince people not to worry about doing 5meo alone. But others here have claimed that they didn't eat in advance, and still ended up throwing up. This is concerning to suggest people are generally safe to do this drug alone without a facilitator if they don't eat in advance. -There is a video somewhere of Leo talking about doing 5meo while in his bathtub (incredibly dangerous behavior and irresponsible). -Leo did 5meo-DMT every day for 30 days (that's his choice but people look up to him and replicate his actions. To many people he is their spiritual guru) -Leo has health problems he is not disclosing to his audience after a long history with this substance. He has not discussed whether his health problems have anything to do with his 5meo use or drug use. If it is regarding his drug use he needs to disclose more information as he has many people following him thinking 5meo is safe. ---------------------------------------------------------- Random links: This article lists the effects of 5meo dmt, on sheep, cats, mice, and monkeys. Effects include lethal effects- staggers, ataxia, mydriasis, head nodding, sham rage, stringy salivation, tremors, convulsions, hypothermia, tachycardia, and respitory failure. It's safe to assume all these symptoms are possible for humans: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3028383/ Seizure after 10mg dose- https://www.reddit.com/r/5MeODMT/comments/owsol7/looking_for_insight_on_first_5meo_experience/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button Neurological Damage/Epilepsy- https://www.reddit.com/r/5MeODMT/comments/s2e6o6/can_5meodmt_cause_neurological_damage_or_epilepsy/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button (This person claims 5meo is a poison, and caused neurological damage and epilepsy. He is wrong about the poison thing. I don't really believe his claims but don't want to dismiss his xperience either) Death from 5meo-DMT: https://academic.oup.com/jat/article-abstract/29/8/838/716730?redirectedFrom=PDF Death from 5meo-DiPT: https://www.researchgate.net/publication/7366431_A_fatal_poisoning_with_5-methoxy-NN-diisopropyltryptamine_Foxy Rhabdomyolysis After Ingestion of 5meo-DiPT: https://www.mayoclinicproceedings.org/article/S0025-6196(11)61905-8/fulltext Here's an article going in depth on Octavius Rettig, a gentleman responsible for deaths related to 5meo (he's a total psychopath). Be incredibly careful with facilitators who claim to know what they are doing. You may be going to a facilitator charging you thousands of dollars who could overdose you. They may not even know CPR. They could ruin your entire life: https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2022/03/28/the-pied-piper-of-psychedelic-toads Dangers Of Excessive 5-MeO-DMT and How to Protect Yourself and Loved Ones From Harm | Chad Charles- Here is that same podcast criticizing Leo and his irresponsible approach. They mention a friend that died from doing 5meo- Any more useful links? ---------------------------------------------------------- I am trying to address this without fear-mongering. If it wasn't for this intuition I would just think 5meo is generally safe. But any drug that is playing with your heart, giving you difficulty breathing, and induces seizures is NOT SAFE! Does anyone have an idea of how many people have died from 5meo-DMT? I heard somewhere between 10-15 reported deaths. It seems incredibly difficult to get an accurate number. If I changed ROA would it be less intense and safer on the body? I thought this, and considered boofing or snorting, until I read puporing's report after boofing, and the report of the seizure after a 10mg insufflated dose. I am not a doctor or scientist. I am just some dude that likes psychedelics, so don't jump down my throat. But I feel completely insane when I see people talking about doing 5meo the way they do. Doing it very regularly at high doses or mixing with other drugs. Or doing it alone. People also like combining 5meo with MDMA. Seems incredibly dangerous. 5meo is addressed so casually here on this forum. I feel like we should stop acting like this is some magic drug for enlightenment that is "generally safe". I can't help but feel like this sentiment comes with a large amount of hubris. Most other psychedelics are safer than 5meo. I have experienced ego death on mushrooms and regular n,n-DMT. People sell 5meo as a magical "enlightenment drug" that will surely help your life and awaken you for good. This is not even true. I worry very strongly for the safety surrounding 5meo as this gets popular. P.S. I don't want to give Leo too hard of a time and had to edit to give Leo some love. Responsibility falls on the user, and Leo is navigating uncharted territory a lot of the time with these substances. He is a huge advocate for psychedelics, and he does an amazing job parsing this stuff. His intention is not to lead you into danger. It is your responsibility to be safe and have a proper foundation yourself. And if Leo is doing this drug alone, it is because he is particularly familiar with the drug. So as a listener or follower of Leo, don't just follow in Leo's footsteps, listen to your body and make sure you are doing it safely. You have to start at incredibly low doses and work up to a bigger dose. Get a mg scale, don't mix compounds, no MAOI's, and have a facilitator.

I sometimes think I experience nausea because my stomach is completely empty too. It's a weird thing. If you don't eat for a long period of time, the hydrochloric acid in your stomach which is meant to break down food can build up, causing acid reflux/nausea.

He's also a dumbass. An amazing inspiring dumbass.

That's Chris McCandless. Look up his story. Beautiful and tragic.

The deliberate killing of a large number of people from a particular nation or ethnic group is a genocide, in whole or in part. Consider the civilian casualties (90 percent women and children). About 10% of the Gaza Strip's population has been killed, injured, or is missing. That percentage is only going to rise. Keep pretending you are nuanced and more adult than me.

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