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Yeah dude, its definitely really hard to change your framework and belief system. Or it isn't hard at all and the only reason it feels difficult is because you tell yourself it is difficult. If you genuinely believe weed helps you, why are you going about wanting to change that? Your time on Earth is short and its more important that you enjoy your life than creating some false problem about weed. That is the ego-mind game you are playing looking for problems. If you had some particular financial goal you could justify quitting weed to save money. Or if you had a health concern then you could justify stopping for that. If you looked for reasons to quit you could find them. But it seems as if there is no real problem as you are still maintaining creativity and productivity. Any addiction or habit could be a problem in a sense. But you are addicted to many things in this life including entertaining yourself with thoughts. Desire doesn't stop. This is your domain so don't beat yourself up. You imagined weed so that you could smoke it!

Do what makes you happy, it ultimately doesn't matter what Leo thinks about hobbies if they fulfill you. You have an intuitiveness about your nature that nobody else will understand, and your path is unique to you. So stop thinking so much about should's and shouldn'ts or what others think and start flowing and just do what feels right (you still have to watch out for traps and have discipline). But trust in yourself. If it feels like what you are supposed to do, and you don't do it, you could be jeopardizing your own progression. For example many hobbies turn into fulfilling lifelong careers.

Death is always framed as a bad thing when it really isn't.

You, the conceptual self, the human identity would cease existing, you as infinity and as God would continue eternally. If you woke up fully, the dream would end by definition, but that doesn't mean you would end, you would still be what you already are- God, just not dreaming anymore. Pure infinite love. So in that sense you could misunderstand me. Start identifying as infinity because you are eternal. But the "you" typing here on the computer here would stop. You, your body, the computer are all being imagined by you- which is not external from you, but is you. The great I Am. God is infinite. If you are aware you are imagining this realm, the dream still exists as you are still encompassed in the dream. That is what most people mean when they say they are awakened to the Truth- they are aware they are dreaming. If God were to fully wake up, he may decide to go back to sleep and imagine your life again. Or imagine himself somehow else. Upon physical death I believe everyone gets to experience a difficult barrier followed by bountiful love. Nobody ever truly dies, because you never truly existed. You are infinite and divine. But to be fully awake would mean the dream of who you are here stops. I am only trying to parse what I have experienced through ego death with psychedelics. I don't know anything. You can wake up fully while on psychedelics- physical reality will completely stop existing and the ego along with all false boundaries disappear as you stop imagining "reality". Eventually you decide to go back asleep because you like the dream and enjoy dreaming.

We gotcha. I don't think you could be in that state all the time. Maybe if you maintained a state of deep meditation for most hours a day. The high level of awareness is what you bring to your dream life. I have been in said state before on psychedelics. These heightened states are different than being awake while inside the dream. You can be aware of the dream while participating in it. In the state of consciousness you are speaking of there is no functioning in the dream. Whether you want to take psychedelics despite them not permanently waking you up is really only up to you. Personally I'd rather move back and forth than to be immersed in the dream. It doesn't ultimately matter.

Porn is like a drug. It can be harmful but it isn't inherently harmful. If you do it a lot it could become a bad habit and you can spiral out.

@shree I was just talking about regular DMT. When people talk about DMT they are just talking about NN-DMT. I wasn't talking about two separate drugs. I edited that post for clarity btw.

N,N-DMT is always different. You can achieve spiritual bliss but it's trickier. It can feel dark. Don't do it with too many expectations.

Do you mind elaborating? If we are living in a reality being imagined by consciousness or God, to truly awaken from the dream for good means something different than carrying a level of high awareness "awakened state" with you in your daily life on Earth (becoming construct aware of things like ego, awareness of self-bias, false dualities, end of beliefs, aware that you are in a dream, etc.) If God truly woke up in this sense, the dream would stop. It feels like there is a distinction to make between being "fully" awake and lucid dreaming (awakened state). Thinking you are fully awake seems highly self-deceptive to me. I am open to hearing other interpretations... @Leo Gura

People are really afraid of bothering others, so they try not to let their dog bother others too. You are judging them for that, but some people just hate dogs or are afraid so it makes sense. Second, dogs are amazing open and social creatures- sometimes more open than their human counterpart. So there is a bit of a misstep. Like "Oh no, its okay, I love dogs.." but the situation already happened and the closed off owner has ruined the interaction. Some dog owners bring a level of anxiety to every situation. Or they just aren't the best dog owners and didn't realize their dog's needs. They might be selfish somehow, and might not want to get wrapped into an interaction with you.

Psychedelics are good at breaking people out of their narrow-minded thinking and radically shifting someone's perspective. Shrooms at low doses can be amazing for people with mental health issues like depression or anxiety. But generally speaking, psychedelics alone are not going to keep you "awake" or even wake you up. You could get a million different misconceptions on what it even means to be "awake" from psychedelics. Do you really think you ever fully woke up? If you woke up fully, the dream would stop, everything you experience and could possible imagine experiencing would stop existing. You would cease. So stop thinking you have woken up at all from psychedelics.

There is an infinite amount of knowing and experiences you can have. It seems from reading your post you might be either chasing something, looking to get somewhere, or to understand something. There is nothing to obtain, nothing to learn, nothing to understand. This is a trap in spirituality. The magic happens before the conceptualizations. Just relax into your human experience and realize deep thought may not be helping you. It's very paradoxical.

Why does it have to permanent to be worth it?

I wrote a song on acid the other day. It came out really well. But it didn't feel like I came up with it- it felt more like I was remembering it from some deep place inside myself.

How would that change anything? Stop looking for others to reassure you.

So sorry for your loss, much love.

If you continue telling yourself you need weed, you will continue feeling like you need weed. What you believe is incredibly strong. Your manifesting a reality for yourself right now that makes it difficult to quit because you tell yourself you need it to be creative.

What about smoking weed Leo? My buddy used to try to peer pressure me into doing massive dabs.

Drinking makes you foolish. That's the point of drinking. The high turns you into a fool. Is drinking inherently foolish? Yes and no. Drinking is foolish unless you are bringing a level of awareness to it. If you know how to be safe and not go overboard is it that bad? Not really, its a social tool and a way to feel good. Do you go to UMD? I grew up in Maryland close to Baltimore.

So many deep insights at such an age. I dicked around with psychedelics in my teenage years and didn't manage to have a god realization until my late 20's. This video is also great at showing the Mom's (sober minded rational thinker) fear due to ignorance, and the wall she puts up between herself and new experiences, the close mindedness, judgement and worry that comes from essentially fearing the unknown for her son. Along with this, you get a sense that she does not really deeply know her own son. The programming and conditioning was so strong in that era, which is a huge shame, as she could learn a few things from her son when it comes to mental freedom. Then it shows a slightly disturbing video of nurses and doctors shuffling along a woman on LSD who clearly should not be in the hospital and who seems to be completely aware of her surroundings. Other things from this video: -The hippies on the street show no hint of the "horrors" in hospitals (implying LSD experience is horrifying and particularly bad compared to other drug OD's) -Hippies take up a lot space, and the streets "thrust" the hippies at the community, and hippies make their presence felt (implying hippies are generally a nuisance) -Hippies have taken over the community by superimposing their subculture and values upon it (lol) -Hippies are hypocrites because they act like they don't need money, but will still beg for money The TV news station then interviews a "hippie newspaper" called The Oracle. The gentleman describes life as making little sense- people are deeply unhappy, frustrated and uptight, driving in their metal boxes from job to job. He mentions how society and school teaches kids to learn to earn. This comes with an implication that earning more money for more material things is not important, and that society essentially is dictating what is important to an individual. He implies that children are conditioned to live in a world of should's and shouldn'ts. "They never had a chance to figure it out for themselves what they want to do." If an individual in society just follows the rules and does what they "should" do, there is often very little time for introspection and self reflection. "They don't teach you that life should be filled with joy and should not be a drag," implying that life could be joyful and euphoric if people were to stop trying to live up to the standards of others. He also mentions how kids in America, particularly middle class kids, feel alienated, as Mom and Dad go to work, kids go to school, and are constantly subject to one authority or another, not allowing them to think openly, and when they finally get the chance to interpret reality for themselves they start noticing there is "something else out there." I don't think much has changed in society since this video.

It easier to be in denial if you are participating with others. If you are alone in your addiction, you are alienated from society. A heroin or crack addict has an easier time admitting they have an addiction. But if everyone is collectively addicted to something, not participating will alienate you. This is one of the many problems society, and how socialization can have a negative effect on your decisions and your life if you aren't careful. It goes way deeper than alcohol by the way... if you don't think the same way as others, you will be alienated.

Based Crazy the cop pointing the gun at the guy. Americamaxxed

"Drawing on cryptic intimations in the work of J.G. Ballard, Georges Bataille, William Burroughs, André Leroi-Gourhan, Elaine Morgan, and Friedrich Nietzsche, in the late twentieth century Dr. Daniel Barker formulated the axioms of Spinal Catastrophism: If human morphology, upright posture, and the possibility of language are the ramified accidents of natural history, then psychic ailments are ultimately afflictions of the spine, which itself is a scale model of biogenetic trauma, a portable map of the catastrophic events that shaped that atrocity exhibition of evolutionary traumata, the sick orthograde talking mammal. Tracing its provenance through the biological notions of phylogeny and ‘organic memory’ that fueled early psychoanalysis, back into idealism, nature philosophy, and romanticism, and across multiform encounters between philosophy, psychology, biology, and geology, Thomas Moynihan reveals the historical continuity of Spinal Catastrophism, and analyzes its principal sources: the geological discovery of depth as memory, and the notion of recapitulation born of the collision of absolute idealism with natural history. From psychoanalysis and myth to geology and neuroanatomy, from bioanalysis to chronopathy, from spinal colonies of proto-minds to the retroparasitism of the CNS, from ‘railway spine’ to Elizabeth Taylor’s lost gill-slits, this extravagantly comprehensive philosophical adventure uses the spinal cord as a guiding thread to rediscover forgotten pathways in modern thought. Moynihan demonstrates that, far from being an fanciful notion rendered obsolete by advances in biology, Spinal Catastrophism dramatizes fundamental philosophical problematics of time, identity, continuity, and the transcendental that remain central to any attempt to reconcile human experience with natural history." This seems like a very dense multi-faceted philosophy regarding the evolution of the spine, claiming the spine when studied acts as a record of human history and the history of earth. By understanding the spine we can understand the development of the nervous system, senses, our consciousness, our "inner world" so to speak. If I am understanding correctly, the claim is that this inner world is some form of natural discontinuity, and issues with the spine are an undiagnosed cause of many social disorders, such as thought and language, which he claims are a sort of virus plaguing mankind ("psychic ailments"). And by understanding the spine we can understand multi generational trauma. I may be getting something wrong here. I am no philosopher or biologist, and this is a bit out of my realm, but I have never heard of this before and found the concept pretty interesting, although extremely difficult to understand. I was curious if Leo has heard of Spinal Catastrophism and what he thinks. I had never head of it and I thought you guys would find it interesting. https://www.amazon.com/Spinal-Catastrophism-Secret-History-Urbanomic-ebook/dp/B08BSZV4YF

Yes this movie opened my eyes as well. Definitely worth watching

You should listen to Kendrick Lamar- Mr. Morale and the Big Steppers. It's about awakening. He even samples Eckharte Tolle Listen while reading the lyrics, you will be surprised, I think you'll like it