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I feel like it's difficult to evalutate fully, since i in the analytical thinking sense seems to be turquise. Whlie in a interpersonal or emotional setting quickly fall to a lower stage, which one is hard to decode. I don't really want to call myself turquise, since it's such a late stage for a young person to call themself, so i vote yellow.

@Buck Edwards Interessting take. Makes sense with the teasing and such, which country are you from? It sounds over the top rude from my culture to "tease" as you said with calling you a pig, guilting or nagging you. My question was more so how i find out who i would like to be with, lots of girls seem nice. I don't really want to go around and flirt with almost every girl i get to know, i dislike the idea of men and women can't just be normal and friends with each other. I somewhat don't want to make it to direct mechanic and just ask "what do you think of phil" While i know it sounds like i am putting a lot of limitations on myself, and thats why i'm unsure about what to do. The ideal would be to just meet a miss loving, so i would not have to be unsure about any of this. But thats not how it is

I often experience meeting women I think are both nice, pretty and can hold a nice conversation with, nothing is wrong and so on. But while this is so, I often wait a bit for prince charming, or miss loving in my case to come and say hello. I can both ask, when do you move on from having friendly interest to something more. Or how do I know if there is potential for something more? The more actual interest doesn't come by itself, it's something that is created together over time

can you go into more detail with the schizophrenia? I have aspergers, so it might be simmilar to your experience. When i slowly started accepting my intuition i also had some experiences i before felt, or rationally could interpret as "corrupt" or in the ego rational sense as wrong. But this i belive it becouse of the prior surpression of youself. Give it some time and i belive it will become much better. It is probaly, depending on the state of "schizophrenia", just because you are diffent that you belive is to. I belive this is harder for autistic people because of the genereal lack and disaprovement in social setting, it makes it harder to be who you are. I now often meditate where i have something bothering me, and i let my intuition, my sub cons lose, and while nut surpressing any thoughts, just let be, and observe what come up. I also experience myself as very analytical, and my analytical side really like to take over my emotions and morals. But then i just turn into a ultiliterian machine with no or little pupose. Another explenation of intuition for me is morals, the over ego. And i would describe it as like feeling, but diffrent from feelings in the way that if i feel sad, angry, hungry or horny, then i cannot supress it, it will just quickly come back. But with my intuition i can suppress it, at least in the moment, and then nothing happens, but this is also the problem. It's just quickly written, i can respond futher later, but have to get going now

I was thinking a less direct interpretation. Not what babay steps are, but what your baby steps are?

No, since it's not true. It is true, at least in the west, that people become more right when older, or at least are young people more left. It could just be that people hold about the same opinion over time, what i considdered left and right slowly changes over time

What is the baby steps?

ha ha, i suppose hell has shown itself early!

i would largely say to reject yourself, reject your morals, and you will quickly wake up in hell. It's not about an objective evil, but what you concern youself with. I have before tried being evil for some time when i was about 16-17 i suppose. It wasent nice at all.

For the time being i feel liked i have largely rejected myself in especially the fast couple of years, but at the same time in a way of a medium to find out who i really am. From this i at the moment dream of -Living true to myself, true to my morals. -Having an occupation where i can contribute to society, with the skills i have been naturally given -Become a father, hopefully within 10 years, a lot has to be done before tho. Hope your ideals turn out to be meaningfull

What specs do you have? My Zenbook duo is fast enough to not notice any slowing on win 11 vs win 10

I've only been with one women, my now ex girlfriend, our sex was always better than masturbation. Mush more intimate with cuddling before and after. It's also much hotter to actually be with a woman

If you could stop racism, sexism or simmilarly with a snap of your fingers, but no one other than youself would know about it, then how long would you think it would take before people discovered? If ever. Lets say with sexism, if people have a strong enough preconception that there is sexism against them, then the attitude can be kept existing for a long time, even though it is for example continuously discovered statistically that it no longer exists. Or perhaps just new points of "sexism" would be made up, to make it continue to "exist"

Please move if in the wrong category. I understand from leo that phychodelics is to be taken to speed up or make personal development easier. I more and more notice and accept the experience of my thoughts of what i think i want, and what i actually want is diverging. I feel that it is the socialized me and the sincere moral me that clash with each other. Where the socialized me is my rational ego, where my sincere me is my inner morality, my superego that is in contact with the truth, and would almost say God. This distinction is very interesting to experience. But also in practice, when i have to decide for something it's quite difficult, since i in the big and the small dismiss things i deffinetly would find important, as non important It would be nice to, just for a moment, be much more in contact with the moral me, where i activly acknowledge therms such as sustainability, ethics, harmony and interpretation. Rather than it being a second thought, and my alsmost pre ontological state of dismiss. I suppose i have always had the other thoughts, i just rejected my morals and myself at some point, and now trying to integrate it again. I suppose it is never directly recommended to take anything. But i am curious if what i am experiencing is a suitable problem for Psychedelics? While if so, i would not try any, any time soon.

It's not only impossible to predict the future, it's also completely meaningless. Since the future is not about what there is to come, but what you perform it to be. I am very free to belive in false things, and let my thoughts and ego control my being and life. But i have to get more in touch with my morals, and belive in it. Where i get a moral insight of truth, the second i start to discuss it with myself, and the rational ego takes over, then i can just dimiss it. From this nothing happens, which is what i belive to be the major problem, since also nothing good happens. I have been rejecting myself for many years, and followed my toxic rationallity, with all the caviats. something I'm glad to be conscious of today, and whish to continue to work on in 2025