Agrande

I haven't been meditating for long, just started a few months ago I'd say. I use a strange method of just consciously releasing tension in my body while focusing on my whole field of vision, not moving my eyes at all and rarely blinking. This helps me get into the ISNESS of the present moments because it just stops all my inner thoughts that distract me from that. While I do this, I automatically start breathing deep from my belly and that also helps me enter into deep meditative states. If I don't use that method, I just focus on the gaps between my breaths while consciously releasing bodily tension which makes me breathe deeply. I do this with eyes open too because my meditations are deeper when I do it like that. Especially when I penetrate into the ISNESS of everything, colours look more vivid and dream like as does everything else I look for example, nature. You'll notice that a busy mind has lots of sporadic eye movements

Yeah true, lots of things can trigger it that are VERY unrelated to meditation it’s an on going process and I’ll see how far I can get in my understanding

Your takes have been pretty insightful, thank you!

Do you still have those experiences?

My mind right now is empty but has that subtle ‘meta’ awareness like I’m always present and a witness to my senses. Sometimes thoughts pop in here and there but that’s a sign my awakenings are incomplete and I have more work to do. I probably need to completely surrender like you said. Really interested in the states of consciousness Leo has experienced (alien consciousness, love, insanity etc.) Hope I can get to that level one day

Bullseye

You're right. I realized most of my life was just escapism from truths.

I don't know of anyone psychotic or schizophrenic in my family. There's only one person that says crazy stuff and is sort of paranoid with everyone but I don't know if that is just a personality problem or a neurological problem

I'm a bit worried that this can be early signs of something major (psychosis and schizophrenia) but if it happens, it is what it is? I'll be open and accept it

It feels like I'm automatically mindful for most of the day It feels like meditation has carried over from my focused sessions into my everyday life experience and there's no way to go back to the state of normalcy

There's spiritual literature but in my opinion, words don't do justice to some experiences. There's works of art with heavy symbolism relating to spirituality which can be helpful to meditate on. There's music that can convey the ecstasy of spiritual experiences too. Which do you think is the most powerful?

Would you call God an infinite process?

Third eye pulsations come and go which makes the numbers come and go

I've noticed that when I can't feel my third eye anymore, I stop seeing the numbers for a while. Anyone else had this experience?

Lol

Godspeed bro

Why does everything seem so random? Does it only seem random to us but not to god? Is everything already pre determined before it ever happens? Is there even such a thing as something being 'free'? (i know these questions might seem stupid but I want someone to enlighten me on these basic questions)

If spirituality is a distraction mechanism, perhaps people are not taking spirituality seriously enough (less talking, more action) Nobody ever got enlightened by unconsciously parroting spiritual ideas and concepts they never had direct experience of

Contemplate why you should contemplate haha

Some people unfortunately suffer from POIS (post orgasmic illness syndrome) and lots of people use PMO as escapism from their current situations and all the BS festering up inside of them. This noFap thing has gotten out of hand and has genuinely sexually healthy people repressing their sexuality for 'super powers'. I only support NoFap as a catalyst for major changes in your life + dealing with POIS and to wean off porn addiction. At some point, people realize that jerking off and porn doesn't satisfy their inner need for intimacy and connection to another woman that's why so many people feel empty after 'doing the deed'.