MattHulmes

I can't sleep because I keep thinking about this situation. I met this beautiful girl in the park today, I approached her, asked her if she had any new years plans for tonight, she told me about something she had heard going on. I talked about how I'm trying to meet new people and she asked me why I moved to Nashville and how I liked it so far - so it felt like a good conversation. I asked her about hanging out sometime and she asked if I was on Instagram. We exchanged that information and I moved on. And- so I realize I must be needy, desperate, some subconscious issue I'll at some point address in therapy - but I checked instagram a few hours later and she unfollowed me. And I've taken this as a sign that she's uninterested. So I feel like there is a bunch of issues here - How do I let go of being so crazy or insecure that I had to check if she was following me or not on the same day? How do I figure out what I need to improve on? Or maybe I really do know, it's just generally improving myself and my situation and who I am as a person, so maybe the question is... do I accept being alone for awhile until I am at a point where I could date? Like I said, I couldn't sleep because I keep thinking about her and what happened and I want it to stop happening, I really want to date someone, I feel like I'm at some point in my life where I could date, I feel like I'm good enough to be dating so I don't understand why it's not happening. It's been incredibly frustrating. I just really want to change all this.

Hey, everyone. This is my first time posting in here. I recently came to the conclusion that I'm lying to myself. I use to believe I would do anything to change my life, but I'm not. I'm not doing the work I think I have to do to achieve the goals I want. Really, all I want is to date someone. Someone beautiful that I care about and if I expect so much from someone, I need to also put in my own work. But how do I let go of the negative emotions I feel, the enormous resistance to putting in consistent work that will eventually get me to the point that I want to date someone I care about? The two main goals I feel I really want to accomplish is bettering my income and bettering my physical appearance. I think I feel angry because I have to let go of the idea or goal of attaining a girlfriend very quickly and it's painful. I think there are a lot of complicated emotions I have to let go. Is it just a matter of doing the Sedona method each day? There's also this nagging feeling of, am I doing the right things everyday or not? How do I let go of that voice and just trust that as long as I'm doing something productive, reading, creating, lifting weight, eating right, that's good as opposed to bad habits, playing video games, watching tv, watching porn?