Asia P

U have my heart 🙏 God bless u

@OBEler 5 meo dmt tried once, but on a lower dose. This time with malt i didnt feel any fear, but a lot of visuals, very similar to acid.

25/30mg of 5meomalt sent me to another universe for almost 2 hours ! Its so absurd that all the wisdom that u gain from this substance you cannot describe it with words, it is impossible. I had the gift to admire the structure of reality for 2 hours. And i can remember that i was feeling love everywhere, in every place, cause i was expanding into the room and inside of my mind, a sense of bliss, and an ridicoulous sense of astonishment, and surprise. Love occurs suddently after the ego dies. It is immediate. Life is absurd. Reality is a perfect structure. And the ego is the most crazy invention that god ever made. Life is not about the ego. Life is about god creating art. Ego is just an actor of the show. The body and the brain are the machines that god uses to play. I used to be scared of getting old and living a boring life. Unable to do the thing that i like. But i cannot be scared anymore, because when i ll die, it ll be like waking up from a dream. I cannot be scared of a dream. Of course i will still feel fear and negative emotions, but because i m not allowed to decide what will happen to my ego. (Ego is here to experience duality, it will feel both love and fear, hot and cold and so on.) I can only think that this is just a dream, also if it feels real.... I wonder if is possible to control the dream, in theory anything is possible, but in practice i feel that my ego is the hands of god.

Wow 😍

Exactly what i feel

It is so simple yet so difficuilt to find beauty and love in ordinary life, it is a daily exercise...

This is exaclty what i feel, cause i see my consciousness expanding sometimes to higher levels, but i keep falling down into normal human consciousness.

Isnt this just conceptual? Or from you point of view is actual?

In the past i used to think that i can learn how to have insights and spiritual awakenings to increase happiness and consciousness in my own life. And now i can actually see that my life and my level of happiness improved from the past. The problem is that i ve realized that it wasnt my decision to awake my consciousness a little bit, it happened miracolously. I think that im forced to live in this state of consciousness until the next awakening, if there is one...or until death, if there is one. I only know that i dont know anything and something higher than me is moving reality for me, while giving me the illusion that i am changing things around me. Can i increase my level of consciousness somwhow? Or am i forced to live in this limited consciousness? In comparison to higher states that i reached with 5 meo dmt, life is so limited! This is honestly sad from my point of view

This is actually true Thank you.

- feeling the heat of the sun while laid on the grass - animals - i dont know - go sea the oacen if i have the time, while tripping on mescaline, and then do dmt - no - yes, maybe it would a little bit early, but i think i am

I want to become an ascetic monk because my ego suffers to much and i think i d rather prefere change my life rarically, and leave my home and my friends, rather than feeling a little bit good when life goes the way i want, and suffer the rest of the time. (I usually feel happy, but when i do feel bad it really sucks) If i do become a monk i ll have less distractions and less ways to be attached to my ego and to the people around me. (When i know someone that wants to build a solid relationship with me i might become attached to that deep friendship that i ve made with them, and it is not easy to let go for me) Is there a way to become an ascetic monk inside my mind, while continue living this life that i have? At the moment i m actually trying to become like that. I only eat raw and healty food, i dont use social media to distract myself, i spend most of my time reading books, painting, listening to music and being outside in nature. I want to find joy in simple things like eating almonds and watching the sunrise. But i feel like i have to go a step forward to find real peace. Am i deluding myself? Maybe. I have friends that i love, but i cant manage to be with them without being attached to them. Because i really do enjoy sharing my day, and the things that i like to do with someone, sometimes. (Like chris mcandless said "happiness is real only when it is shared")

I think the point and also the beauty of being a human is experiencing being weak and limited. With spiritual awakenings the only thing a human can do is doing the same stuff but consciously rather than unconsciously. And it feels like a cheat code in the matrix: cause you see other ppl believing that suffering and pleasure are real, while you see your life from an higher point of view and you know nothing exists, neither your ego.

I cant talk or understand too on a high dose. Especially during the peak.

@Leo Gura Really? How does pure lsd feels like?