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@Cred this was very useful thank you

@Natasha Tori Maru thank youuuu ♡♡♡♡♡♡

@Julian gabriel thank you julian<3

I admit that it crossed my mind that could be this , but i didnt check my health in the past, because im only 20. I ll check my blood. Thank you.

I feel exhausted, always sad, i cant stop crying. Whithout a specific reason. I cant see the beauty and the love in life again. I ve lived trying to solve this problem for 3 years. Now i cant see a way to solve my infinite sadness. I cant appreciate what i already have, nor i have any specific ambition or desire. I have difficulty find my purpose in life. I really dont know what i want, i always change my mind and my direction. I feel lost. Living is being very very difficult for me this last months. I cant even do simple things with a normal sense of happiness. I feel extremely tired

I d take a fly to las vegas from italy to see this group.

Thank you

I understand you

I was thinking about leo gura during my trip, and i started crying tears of joy, because i understood for the first time really why he does all this work in his life. He loves life SO much! What he does is a way to express to life itself how much he loves it. Have you ever heard the phrase that chris mcandless said about life? "Happiness is only true when is shared." Not in the sense that you need other people to feel happy, but in the sense that god needs to divide itself into parts to give himself the opportunity to be the giver and the reciever of something. Expression is the highest form of love. Existence is the highest form of love. And to exist, something must have a form. God himself, in order to have a form, must pass from the phase of formless to the form by giving a shape to himself by dividing himself. I hope this is understandable

I did 5meo and then after this, shrooms that seemed to extend and clarify my 5meo trip that was very intense and confusing. I literally realized that i already have infinite love inside myself, and i can enjoy this love in solitude or rather trying to share it to others by dividing myself into parts and dreaming my incompleteness. Solipsism is the peak of happiness and sadness, where those two merge together. Because reality starts to become non dual and it becomes impossible categorize emotions and things by good and evil. I felt like going mad by realizing this, my ego could not hold the intensity, the absurdity and the power of this insight.

Yes i had lot of incredible experiences with that

Thank you, what was the dose you tried?

Does anyone of you tried this one?

Is like i have difficulty in falling in love again, even more i feel like i cant find someone i truly like. I also dont know where to find. But i also feel like i shouldnt go looking for someone, and i just have to wait. Its quite frustrating, also because i want to share myself to other beings, and i dont have the right person to express myself and my love

I ve read a lot of trip reports of people that did ketamine for spiritual work. And i ve also watched leo gura's video about ketamine, which seems quite complete about the substabce, its effects, and how is compatibe with inner work. That video is actually very convincing for me to try ketamine at least once. But, the people that i know that has and uses, ketamine doesnt seem very healthy. And they dont use this substance in a healty way at all. Moreover because ketamine causes actual addiction. I ll be very blunt in termis, but Chronic use of ketamine seems like trasforming people into beasts. And trust me, i ve been with A LOT people high on ketamine for long times, i know them. Now my question is, how a substance that transforms people like that, can be useful in spiritual work? Also chronical users that i know that also tried other psychedelics like lsd and dmt, said that yes, ketamine is highly psychedelic, and makes the mind travel on higher dimensions, but nothing like lsd and dmt, that feels so much more pure, and helps so much more with psychology, problems etc...