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Really excited about this Religious Studies class I just started this semester. It’s an elective for me and not apart of my major, so I’m taking it for fun. Studying what various religions say about what exists after death. What consciousness even is brought up a lot so far. Here’s a pic of one of my homework questions :))

Personally, being a server/waiter years ago at a restaurant has changed my personality a ton. I used to be very shy and nervous in front of strangers. I developed lots of soft skills with people and completely removed all the social anxiety problems I had most of my life. Just learning to attend to others needs in an appropriate, timely manner helped a lot with basic work skills. It also made me enough money to buy my first car…

@leebus99 My personal end-goal is to become a psychedelic-assisted therapist. I’m 27. Three months ago, I became a clinic coordinator/medical assistant for a psychiatrist. It’s just the psychiatrist, her physician assistant, and me. I’ve been trained to work as a TMS technician and run those treatments on my own, as well as start and monitor esketamine (Spravato) sessions. I’m graduating with my two degrees in Psychology and Human Services this May. I plan to eventually get into a Counseling Masters program to become a MFT/LPCC. From there, become a psychedelic-assisted therapist, in whatever legitimate way that looks like down the road and research changes things. I saw something today that said Colorado can now issue licenses to psychedelic mushroom therapy facilitators . So hopefully something like that here in California one day for me…as “official” as possible. I just started therapy again myself (like last week lol) with a Jungian/Depth psychologist. Hoping to learn a lot from that perspective…especially how to appropriately integrate spirituality in sessions. Honestly I’m just happy to see another person here on this career path and to share experiences on it. I’ll add more thoughts to this thread later!

It means that supposedly a lot of women are reading a lot of books. So much so that it’s like we’re trying to qualify to win a pizza party like we used to in elementary school. There were contests where if a whole class read the most books compared to other classes, we’d win a pizza party for the class lol. Meaning we’re supposedly spending our time doing personal growth vs supposedly males just gambling lol. Again, all relative to personal experience though, it’s pretty generalized. Personally I know lots of men who are in debt for gambling….not really any of my women friends.

From my office on Thursday, 50 miles away from it all. The smoke cloud only got bigger and taller throughout the day. Even though I wasn’t directly affected, indirectly we had patients cancel appointments to help family evacuate, my ex-roommate had her high school burn down, and many in my area are volunteering/donating in some way. An old close friend I’ve cut contact with, but I know she lives one block away from the Sunset fire evacuation range. I have a best friend whose brother lives in Pasadena and he went to high school in Malibu. Haven’t had updates on how his circle is, he might be busy figuring it all out… Watching the smoke on the drive to work has turned me into not wanting to eat red meat again….(once went 4yrs without due to environmental reasons). Gonna pick that up again and slowly cut out meat altogether when feasible for me…just too silly not to when the disasters are visibly nearing your doorstep. Wind is still very strong right now, off and on.

Aww you’re very sweet with your compliments! Thank you. I’m somewhat new here(not to Leo’s vids), but I’ve already noted your comments throughout the forum and always look forward to your well thought out perspectives. I’ll watch your video before bed tonight, thanks for the share.

My first boyfriend in high school dumped me for similar reason. He dumped his previous girlfriend because he thought she was too much drama. I was the opposite, and very conflict avoidant. This stems from childhood, where I saw that my mother was extremely argumentative and I felt it led to my father to separate from her for a few years, which was painful for me. At a young age, I internalized this and vowed to be the opposite of my mother in my future relationships. So when I started dating my boyfriend, I felt pretty proud that in 6 months, we had zero fights. He initially said it felt so good to be with me because I was not drama-filled like his ex. Towards the end, for a week he didn't text me at all...and even though this stressed me out, I suppressed that and never once brought it up. Thinking I was being a good girl for not being combative even in the slightest. Turns out, that was not the best thing to do! He broke up with me after that week, and shocker, he said "I was too nice".... it completely baffled me. I even remember feeling like throwing up cause it was such a whirlwind and not what I expected at all. My whole life up until that point, I thought being the nice complaisant girl is what would save me from heartbreak...turns out no. It was only like 6 months after the break up that it finally clicked with me one morning, and I was like omg! I let the pendulum swing too far in the other extreme! It is extreme and generally unattractive to most to be too drama-filled. It is also extreme and generally unattractive to be way too nice and doormat-like. In hindsight, you bet I should have texted him at least 1 day after he hadn't, not one week! Today, I'm still definitely working on my conflict-avoidance issues, but I'm definitely much more balanced and willing to have an constructive argument at the least. Especially with my current boyfriend who encourages the communication and seeks to get to the root of the problem with me.

Similarly, my most spiritual experience so far came from a dream I had 7 years ago or so... In my dream, I was sitting on a couch with friends in a living room, when my friend next to me wanted to show me a video on his phone. The video was of an industrial factory farm for cows. It immediately zoned in on this calf, and immediately after that my consciousness was transported completely into the calf. I suddenly was the calf in this industrial factory farm...and all I felt was the most pure and intense fear I have ever felt. I was essentially a confused, terrified, and lone calf not understanding the horrors of what a factory farm is, just feeling the pure and utter lonesome fear of it. I was only this calf for what felt like a split second, when rapidly my conscious awareness snapped back into my human body on the living room couch. I essentially started having what felt like a seizure, my arms were shaking held up in front of me, and my awareness was becoming clouded in a pure white. My friends started freaking out around me and one of them even started doing these strange hand/arm movements in front of my field of vision...whatever she was doing it felt like she was trying to get me to calm down. The bright whiteness became stronger until it was all my consciousness was, and the words "All is One, All is One, All is One," kept chanting from somewhere...I don't know where. My head quite actually felt physical piercing pain from the intensity of the experience, the whiteness was so painful that I finally woke up and started to feel around my head, to which the pain stopped. --- To me, everything being "one" can be the same as there also being "nothing" I suppose. The fear the calf experiences in a factory farm is the same fear I can experience in a similarly unknown and morbid place. There is no difference. Yes, I stopped eating beef for 4 years after that (not that chickens don't experience the same fear, I'm sure). Not that being vegan felt like the main theme of the experience either. Rather that what separates our conscious awareness from everything else around us is artificial. In reality, there is no boundary. Reminds of a video where Leo said we can think of consciousness and oneness like a house...what separates the bedroom from the living room is made up, in reality it's all connected. Is reality "zero", or is it "one"?

Interesting. What does your dating life look like?

The poll won't let me answer because question #2 is mandatory to answer. I do not have any children, so 0. Or maybe it did go through for #1 lol idk. But it does warn me to answer #2 if I try to submit.

Threads like these make me wonder how many men have just platonic female friends…cause it sounds like many don’t even have that. I feel as though if you can’t even make a simple female friend, it’d be more difficult to actually understand females more in a dating sense…lots of misunderstandings between the sexes by being too far removed from each other in a personal way.

If they didn't go to your elementary school, does that mean it gave you a better chance to join them? Meaning that, in your elementary school, it wouldn't have been possible to join the popular girls group who knew who you were? I say that because I also briefly joined the popular girl group in 5th grade out of necessity, when the majority we were all friends with left for a new elementary school after 4th grade. If it wasn't for that circumstance, I would have never been considered to join due to what they probably knew of me (which was just a typical playground/tetherball loving kid, not too hyper girly like them ) I felt really cool for a second and I was essentially tested for a bit in similarly peculiar ways... I did not last long and just could never click with them as much as I really wanted to though. Definitely intimidated haha. But in general I didn't really associate getting a period with getting more male romantic attention, though I am sure I would have if I had viewed that same Girl Scout manual your read, I definitely had a similar line of thinking back then. I viewed periods pretty neutrally. It was definitely more the boobs thing for me at the time... I definitely wore slightly lower cut shirts in 7th grade cause I was proud when they finally come in...oh gosh. My whole friend group did really, we constantly compared boob growth. Funny cause I rarely show cleavage nowadays and it doesn't cross my my mind to use them to "gain" male romantic attention bahahaha.

I was very similar at a young age...I remember passing by the bra section and just wishing for the day I would finally get to buy one because it would mean more attention from the boys. I lied to some boys before and said I finally got a bra lol.... one of them called me out and said "wtf you definitely don't have boobs wdym???". Oh youth.

@Davino To be fair, now that I’m more mentally healthy and mature enough to take it everyday, I have no side effects personally from the birth control pill! Again..personally though.

Yeah I’m pretty sure my 2 best friends who have it would laugh at me if I said this to them…especially since one of them isn’t spiritually-oriented. One of them got tinnitus from going to lots of loud concerts, one of them got it supposedly from covid…and she has numerous other complications from that covid experience like only being able to sleep a few hours at most each night…sounds like brain inflammation? Wondering how those different methods of getting it would affect the outcome of trying Leo’s method.

At the time in my early 20s, I was much more depressed and not good at remembering to take a pill everyday. The shot only required you to show up once every 3 months, so I just thought it would be easier. A friend later told me there are scientific studies were the Depo-Provera shot was used on pedophiles/rapists/sexual offenders to supposedly subdue their sexual urges… sucks that I didn’t know before. https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/1421556/

Up until the age of 20, when I got the Depovera shot (birth control shot), I had basically zero problems with my period. Growing up with my friends in high school, I would get confused when most of them complained of cramps. Sometimes it was so bad they would cry during dance practice and sit it out. Another friend had to take birth control pills early on to manage the pain from cramps. I was very lucky and really never experienced cramping. Then at the age of 20 when I got the Depovera shot, everything changed, even 7 years later I still deal with it. The first few months I was bleeding everyday for 3 months…so I didn’t go back to get the second shot. To this day, I still have random spotting throughout the month every so often, and I now have the WORST cramps a few times a year. Like the pain is so bad that I throw up and deliriously think I might be giving birth… I now feel bad for questioning my friends in high school who were going through it….

My thumbnail is art from this artist too I saw her live earlier this year as well!

Very good idea to ask this..one of the few things I don’t test for fentanyl in the U.S. is shrooms… cause I assume whatever I am given is fine. Not worried about it being fake or poisonous either, that has never even crossed my mind. Hopefully someone who knows better comments on here for you and your region of the world!

Yes, hanging out with the banned door-dash guy I was into involved lots of drinking…occasional drug use, going to concerts and dancing…very humorous and adventurous. We were exploring all over LA basically. I wouldn’t agree with vampire/criminal thing Kairos mentioned though…I wouldn’t be into him if he felt the need to be manipulative and harmful towards others. He was generally kind.

I agree. I actually found it more attractive when my boyfriend backed off from a group of dudes trying to instigate with us while passing by in narrow alley downtown… I would have been so pissed at him and stressed out if he escalated in that situation.

@Kairos As someone who has dated an amateur MMA fighter/trainer…definitely not important. My boyfriend now is a supervisor at a hospital though, so I guess I am attracted to leadership in some sense…more so anyone who has a dedicated passion of any sort. Though I was also once deeply in love with a guy who had zero going on for him(besides being really good looking ofc), even getting banned from DoorDash…but he was amazing at being himself. He was passionate about life itself and highly contemplative. We could talk for days on end, barely sleeping. He turned me down though lmao.

I had a younger 20’s female roommate once. She donated eggs at least 2x while living with me, and even though the money seemed worth it, the process looked difficult. She had to do hormone injections in the lower abdomen everyday…personally I don’t mind getting tattoos, but for some reason needle injections freak me out. She injected them herself too…definitely couldn’t do that to myself. She also had pretty severe emotinal breakdowns from the hormones. Once she came home crying because she thought her boyfriend died in a car accident…only because he didn’t text her back for a few hours. She completely fabricated that in her mind, nothing connected to reality. She was not like that normally without the hormones. The egg extraction process is another story that is a nope from me too.. Too many downsides for me as a female personally.

Just watched the video....don't know anything about mrgirl but it doesn't look good... tbf the video made on Leo didn't make him look good either, but I've watched the majority of Leo's vids beforehand so his view of him didn't phase or make me question anything about Leo. Idk what I would think if I didn't know anything of Leo beforehand though.

So... after this getting drowned by celery juice in the comments, has anyone tried this yet? I have 2 best friends that I'd love to share this with.