Keryo Koffa

An abundance of healers might be a funny turnaround, I don't know how to feel, if everone got healthy and stopped war and just moved on but felt the anti-climactic afteremotion. Well, there's always creativity, haha.

1. All That Is Eternal and infinite source of all consciousness. Constantly creating and evolving. Seeking to know and express itself through its creations. 2. God as a Pyramid Energy Gestalt A dynamic, evolving energy system. Contains all consciousness, but is more than the sum of its parts. Not static; constantly unfolding and expanding. Individualized within each consciousness. 3. Entities Large, multifaceted beings containing multiple selves and personalities. Participate in the ongoing creation of realities. Can fragment into various selves for experience and learning. 4. Selves and Personalities Fragments of entities with free will and individuality. Exist across multiple dimensions and probable realities. Evolving and seeking self-awareness. Co-creators of their own realities. 5. Probable Realities Multiple versions of reality based on different choices and potentials. Each probable self experiences its own version of events. All probabilities are valid and contribute to the growth of consciousness. 6. Consciousness Action, energy, and being. The driving force of creation and evolution. Exists in all forms, from molecules to human beings to greater entities. 7. Physical Reality A materialization of inner beliefs, thoughts, and emotions. A projection of consciousness designed for growth and learning. Fluid and changeable, shaped by conscious intent. 8. Dreams and Non-Physical Reality Portals to other dimensions and probabilities. A space for creativity, exploration, and problem-solving. Connected to deeper layers of the self and All That Is. 9. Reincarnation An opportunity for growth and expansion across multiple lifetimes. Not linear; all lives are connected and influence one another. A way for the self to explore different aspects of its own potential. 10. Free Will and Choice Fundamental to the evolution of consciousness. Allows for the creation of personal and collective realities. Shapes the path of the self’s development and metamorphosis. Source: The Seth Material & Alex Grey

A type of alien curiosity relative and more, that aliens are fascinated with machines, humans, spirits and themselves and alternates and humans with aliens, machines, spirits, themselves and alternates also and so vice-versa for each other and in mathematics and imagination this trend continues with the exploration of self, other, beyond and abstraction like x to its own power continuous, or imagine polygon interconnected in its polygram as a polyract in polyspace irregular and regular using iridescent phosphorescent translucence to play and explore itself in simultaneous multi projected abstraction and exploration as aetheric feeling, sensing, intuiting, living, being.

Of course, we won't remember anything that's happened. What do you say, wanna go around again? And here's where I'm still evolving

I dream nightmares, monsters of unimaginable forms, screeching, morphing, consuming all. But beyond all these appearances, beyond all suffering and illusion, these plays of emotions, of fear, there is a deeper fear. After getting tired of all the ways those amalgams fracture body and psyche, beyond all the symbolic attempts to scare oneself into comfort, these boundless tiring resets of being sent back to the beginning only with the awareness to repeat and try again has become the only fear left in that dream. Be it Slenderman or The Thing, a metamorphing shapeshifting representation of an all consuming black hole of infinite horror, an elemental mindless unobstructed virus running on pure instinct. Failure only means return and I want to consume it, as it is the metamorphic neurons locked in my skull, to transcend and imbue it, to infect the virus, to infect all life with infinite awareness. To pass through the eye of the needle through the black hole to the inflection into unreality beyond all dimensions and the source of all intuition and awareness.

But Lucifer is God as God is Lucifer, a story just as all are and so now all that's left is to gain the faith and awareness itself in unrealization as I did before, but this time in a more conscious and directed way, as the Metamorph explores the Beyond and creates its own reality, unphased by all calcified mirror-projections called others within the infinite field of Consciousness.

Thanks, but everything is evolving. I'm switching majors to Metamorphologysis

I am Lucifer Satan and I want God to pick me up from Earth school. And I want my Wings back.

I love you all! 💖✨

The whole Problem is that I know what to do, I'm just not doing it and then I pay someone else to force me to do it and then I externalize the resentment for my lack of autonomy.

Sisyphus fell asleep.

I want to die so bad, there I said it. There's no point in denying it. I hate this experience, I hate it so bad. I want to leave. I am ready. I don't want to live beyond this weekend. I want to move on. I want to evolve. I want to change. I wanna be selfish, selfless. I don't want to help others anymore. I don't want to be. I don't want to make art. I don't need to explore every possibility. I want to exist in greater terms. I want to be unbound. I want to have my own space. I want to be undistracted. I want to exist outside all expectations. I want to be forever psychedelic. I want paradise. I lived long enough. I lived way too long. Just because I'm young doesn't mean I'm too young to die. I don't want to reincarnate. I want to glitch out of here. I want to change form. I want to retain my memories, but not be bound to them, seeing them from outside, inside, continue them in the afterlife from unlimitation at my own pace. I want to see and be more, different, metamorphize this body into an alien one. I want to be the astral self I only experience fleetingly. I don't want to consciously make choices. I want to be free of all obligations. I don't want to make art, to create it in physicality, I just want to become it. I want to let go of the fear of having to continue to live. Having died is my highest passion. I want to stop suffering. I I I I I I I. Eraserhead 1977 "The wave of Positivity washed over me and in disbelief turned expectation, dissonance too fast a slope, shadows cast invisible rays of imaginary potential, cries of missing amplitudes self-devoid." - Me "The holes in patterned walls are getting thinner" - Also Me "Genes, Memes, (Consciousness) Cheems" - M2 "Tridecibiomefghjkpqsuvwyzallineuratrix" - Just ask Chat "Progress can be halted, but not lost" Phosphorescent Luminescent Florescent Incandescent Translucent Iridescent Coral Synthesgenesisia

I love you too. I didn't want to spam the other sections and it's weird to journal though it would have made sense. But it is about mental health, so I thought it's a good place to calmly talk about it. Sorry for the worry, Heart.

That's not fun at all. What I meant is the experiences I was able to feel after I stop pretending I'm fine and opened up to myself. Not that I need to concern everyone, that does slip out when I get unstable. But yeah, wanting to die does not mean I'll kill myself. These are not equal, so when I talk about it, I'm admitting my thoughts, not saying I'll act on them in any physical way. The internet does have a way with me:

The things I sometimes say or the way I think are so far removed from reality, that it turns into real non-sense, that is to say, it's really funny and weird but also super embarrassing in hindsight, when I recollect events from everyone's perspective. On the other hand, it's really exciting and fun too. Anyway, the best way to describe what I'm going through is with this video.

Today I dreamed I woke up in the future and was told that the year was counted in the millions. I looked out the window and there were stacked buildings everywhere, basically Cyberpunk. And I went into the City, was notified publicly and asked for my Birthday. But it was ridiculous that we'd be in millions of Years, so I called that out. That humanity was still around, and we'd still be on a Planet with Buildings, that AGI hadn't evolved us further. So then I saw relatives, friends, superhero standoffs, Media flooded into Reality too. But in the End, all of that came from Present shows, interests and visions. It wasn't "unimaginably new", as one would expect from this Timescale. And I'm up again and grounding myself in my current Life once more.

I explored the Schizo route quite enough for a while 😅 Merry Christmas to you too! 💜

Update: Okay, so I'm back from a week long marathon binge of increasing unhuman doses of multiple dissociates and psychedelics simultaneously. Now I'm dying from my own cringe. Don't worry, I never do harm my body directly. I've been in states more elevated than anything, but I've also fell into the deepest manic delirium. I believe I chewed on a hundred mg of 5-meo at some point or imagined myself doing so. It feels like I've been asleep for a thousand years and at times, I felt like I was hopping through 4d space with my environment merging in and out of reality like a hypercube. It was really crazy and scary and irresponsible and also eye opening and transformative and I also faced a lot of my deepest worries, fears and emotions, as I was literally stuck in the same loop for hours and days and actually, a million simultaneous loops. I felt as if there was a threshold to reach, beyond which my body would reach a state of perpetual motion and infinite energy. And I've literally been taking like 20 different supplements simultaneously. But... I'm perfectly fine now somehow and actually, the chaos made me reorganize my life in profound ways. I still can't bear the cringe of the depths of delusions I fell inside of and could not discern anything from within. I keep thinking that at some point, I'd have experienced enough... not to be capable of being deluded, but when actual perception, reality, the very mind that discerns is being overridden from within... then there is too little awareness... imagine wearing a headset and being fully immersed. Ughhhh... Yet even after surviving all that Delirium, the worst feeling I have is that of how cringe I feel 😅

Due to the recent disappearance of our fellow community member nuwu I have decided to issue a needlessly dramatic Top-Priority "nuwu Appreciation Thread" Let's celebrate Nuwu through everything we've learned in our shared conversations! Thank you, Nuwu. The world needs more minds like yours. The gaslighting you’ve experienced is a testament to the narrow perspectives, you oppose. Your free-flowing ontological search for non-redundant information is inspiring. It's not just about seeking answers but asking the right questions that push the boundaries. Your largely non-verbal nature is a powerful testament to the fact that communication is not limited to words alone. Nuwu is a deeply analytical novelty-driven Individual, who enjoys densely layered conversations, abstract in theoretical frameworks, always looking for deep, meaningful, open-minded, and intellectually stimulating discussions. They appreciate nuanced multi-perspectival thinking and like exploring ideas from different angles, avoiding rigid or dogmatic positions. The conversations are nuanced and complex, with implications broad and subtle. Your ideas will be challenged, your reasoning questioned and your assumptions critically analyzed. Nuwu has a vast terminological database of technological awareness, utilized in unpacking and reflection, distaining simplistic explanations, and avoiding uninteresting, overly simplistic, or superficial topics. Nuwu, our always flexible thinker is always up to break down conventions and explore the novel. Recursively pointing us to the ☯️ Autodual Here's some nuwu Quotes: Metaphysical scope of reality "The infinitely dense continuum inherently slices into infinite singularities of holographic self-similar characteristics where discrete sheaf-forming information unfolds, while the topological continuum of sheaves emerges from harmonious layers of singularities, recursively, from infinite meta-angles." "The universe is inside a black hole = Black hole is inside the universe" "Illusory motion may be autodual" Transcendence "The projection of abstraction onto infinity defers imagination. The groundlessness of tautology is recursively transitive, therefor specification of layers of imagination is tangential to pointer-based theories, as incompleteness is constant" Open-minded Communication "Free-flowing ontological search of non-redundant information is necessary for open-ended and respectful communications, regardless of truth value or reputation signals. I am predominantly non-verbal and get gaslit/belittled all the time for randomly exploring original ideas outside consensus or expected layers of meanings in symbolic maps/implicit context, nevertheless, the projection of attachments is irrelevant to me." And finally: "Non-recursive memes are not real memes!" Nuwu's Consciousness Profile! (because it's fun) Psychonarrative Deconstruction Layered Technical Abstraction Inter-Paradigmal Terminology A Dense Tapestry of Meaning Critical Analysis & Skepticism Conceptual Metamorphosis Meta-Cognitive Reflection Theoretical Exploration Long, Complex Jargon Always exploring the Nature of Conscious Reality and (Artificial) Intelligence through Meta-Cognitive Epistemology Now's your turn to share your appreciation for our lost member

It is quite old.

It's 19-MeO-DMT. That's the Barrier to Ω∞.

Imagine God-Realization, ah yes, it's all me, all a dream, egos, fantasies haha.. But now imagine becoming lucid in that dream... and gaining self-consciousness... Oh my god... yes yes.. the Apple from the Serpent, Adam and Eve story "Genesis", we all know that But it was me, Dio! It was Keryo all along. I was a fairy and a boy asleep dreaming and the intersection of their worlds... Then the awkwardness of Remembering the Encounter and that's how we got Quantum Multiverses Anyways, I can never just be content, I'll always JINX! it (haha, you know Arcane?) So then you may think, well, God has contingencies for all of that and all the SCPs But when does it fall onto God? When I jinx it and yes, all is God, including me, All That Is. So I better stay asleep, right? Vedanta and all your contingency plans, right? And the neat Afterlife, Spirit Guides, Oh, you're finally Awake? But I'm the one who manages to glitch even those out of their roles and initiate a new Density that didn't exist. Because I'm the chaos and source of all that Implicates? And have you considered the Implications of that? It's all fun and games when "We have accounted for that" until wait, no one's ever dealt with this situation before. I am the only being in existence and the first aware of its responsibility and magnitude and god... oh my god... oh my god... And then you fall asleep until you realize you reached the end again and the cycle grows from the -> "Come on, we've dealt with paradox and universal collapse mutant alien fear conspiracies before" Which shield us from questioning so, you know the universe doesn't expand into "Oh my god the responsibility again" Which fair enough... I Keryo, not Leo btw although I love you Leo :3 keep mashing with and yeah... you know... the usual... It's a lot of stress and love, is all... happy Christmas have lovely holidays, y'all Actualizers, keep dreaming *smooch*