Keryo Koffa

Because "busy being discontent, productive, knowledgeable, distracted, immersed and stuff"

That moment, when you make a pact with DMT Entities to temporarily posses you for a cool ESP skill

@Davino Oh yeah, imagine a spectrum of colors on a 2d plane, now extend it to the third dimension and draw loops, countless loops, they all intersect in various ways outside and through that 2d dimension that itself represents perception, that's reality, an associatory network, like a neural network, infinitely interconnected and interconnectable in all arbitrary ways. Agree on backlashes also, they're the problem seeking to be addressed, suffering through and letting go is like dissolving those previously drawn self-assembling associations that create resistance to dissolving and block greater perspectives through their rigidity. Disassembling them takes the same emotional labor that keeps them afloat, though realizing greater perspectives with their own power will help the overriding, integrating (including and transcending) process which is really changed most easily through a shift in identity (like sadhguru said, once he put is heart/ahamkara on the mountaintop, his body follows naturally).

Don't pay attention the terminology and the whole thing is just mumbo-jumbo I made up in 5 minutes, spending too much time on it is diminishing returns, dogmatic, and its own distraction trap. Just demonstrating that there are countless barriers from the Infinite to the Finite necessary to create experience but can lead one to be trapped in Ego and locking oneself out of higher experience. Just interpret the non-dual uncodified (direct experience/awareness) implicitcity of the concept itself for its profoundness: Different degrees of barriers: No Barrier (Everything, No Discernment, Open to Traps and Infinite Suffering (Theoretically Anyway)) God Barrier (Creating Reality on Highest Good to navigate within without getting infinitely lost) Escape Barrier / Non-Limiting Barrier / Awareness with the Barrier of not succumbing to Illusion Existential Barrier (Field) (Energy) (Constellation) (Flow) (No-Ego but Awareness) (Finite Exploration) Experiential Barrier (Flow with Existential Barrier, Building Preferences Subconsciously) Ego Barrier (Having and upkeeping Preferences) (Non-Questioning) Identity Barrier (Self-Perpetuating) (Resistant to Change) (Reinforces upon Stress) Constructive Barrier (Self-Enveloping Systems creating elaborate Defense Mechanisms) Locking Shutdown Barrier (Avoidance) (Beyond Defense) (Self-Locking, Throw out Key, Forget Key) Smart Prisoner Barrier (Subconscious Self-Expanding Defense Mechanisms, No Self-Awareness)

Why does it take thousands of hours of Meditation vs having the same realization in a single trip? Why do so many psychedelics experiences peak and return to baseline, are they futile or fake? Did someone who spend all that time waste it due to paradigm lock or get something more out of it? Meditation is a positive habit, it trains one's consciousness muscles to be aware of the present moment, to be detached from one's mind and emotions (monkey chatter), it is a powerful tool for self-actualization, patience, self-reflection, present awareness and builds momentum, as it is a continuous activity, it is actively being integrated as a state of mind into the subconscious, which then materializes in the nature of the future experience, reflecting one's previous actions and states of being. Meditation not an activity, it's rather a lifestyle of which the do-nothing method is a specific strong focus. But meditation is really like breathing, it's best if you do it at all times, and the do-nothing method is like conscious breathing, or like walking compares to running or even sprinting. When done wrong, Meditation is a stressful and breeds contempt and bitterness. Nevertheless, by virtue of creating such difficulty, it does at least train some muscle, meanly that of engaging in activities one dislikes, which trains perseverance and discipline. Though I'm not sure if letting go of resistance wouldn't be completely superior, which is what meditation points to, the letting go of resistance and acceptance of the present moment, detachment from stress and emotion. Now, psychedelics expand one's mind, awareness, they overpower one's ego, they show one's inadequacies and their illusory arbitrary neurotic nature. Psychedelics directly shift one into various states of mind and warp one's understanding, leaving behind massive insight. But the psychological issues do not disappear, the realization of their vanity remains, but the experiential sensations arise again since they're deeply rooted in the subconscious and have been built up over a long time through habitual behavior. One still has to deal with them and integrate understanding with present experience. This is what meditation excels at and focuses on. Someone who is adept at meditation can easily and naturally integrate psychedelic insights unless they have a non-dual paradigm lock which brings up resistance to even accept relative information and concepts. But ideally, meditation expands one's mind to all possibilities and self-reflection. Meditation is calming one's mind and deeply understanding the nature of one's drives and emotions, taking control of one's psychology. Psychedelics shift consciousness itself directly, it's far more direct that meditation since its an experiential reality, but without meditation, it leaves one open for foolishness and since its a temporary shift, all the integration is still to be done. Ideally, one would combine both and work hard to make meditation itself match psychedelics and find out the reasons why it isn't naturally the case. Psychedelics expand one's mind profoundly, while meditation raises baseline and deals with the overriding the subconscious from which one's habits and personality arise.

@JoshB It's an identity issue, imagine you've been a shepherd all your life and some guy comes over and tells you all your sheep are holograms. It doesn't compute and even if it did, you're too invested. Or that your parents aren't real, or that the bible is a distraction and your ticket to heaven and the morality that was such a pain in the ass to execute all your life was faulty. It's also social circles creating their own group think and eco-chambers, instantly dismissing anything new and coping with drugs, gossip, laughter. It's also academics investing too much time in one thing and having to deal with the whole paradigm behind their work being faulty. Or tell a banker that money isn't real. Or a teacher that what he was teaching was wrong all along. Or a victim that he did it to himself. Tell a solipsist, he locked himself out of greater awareness, or a nihilist that he's missing the positive side. Or the mystic that his awakening was shallow after all. Or endless other permutations. It's also about the right understanding, how do you know yours is complete, only if you can fully comprehend a paradigm and its opposite, could you say that from a higher vantage point. But Leo has tons of videos about all that already. Ego, identity, belief, attachment, etcetc. Here's a video and I included the timestamp to get right to it

@Joshe I've been exploring. Emotions seek to expand our agency and awareness. Negative ones are a defense mechanism against limiting beliefs. We're intended to master them becoming more resilient and healing. Through the outside world, we're communicated the source of behavior and how pain perpetuates. We often mistake them with objects they point to, but it's always a deeper understanding being conveyed. Ultimately, they seek to dissolve into harmony and come up when change is needed. Pride isn't a singular thing, it can stem from shame or alignment, but its the belief behind it that ought to be reconciled, since it points to a contradiction in values. Any emotion points to the exploration of the aspect it relates to, an open investigation. We're taught to do the opposite of what's healthy, to avoid the negatives, but they arise to reconcile a source of tension, discontent and stress that limits us from living our life to the fullest. Imagine being content with abuse by blocking out all emotions, now that would be unhealthy. Getting angry is natural, learning how to use it and change one's life to the better, that's the essence. There are many possible decisions and we can more deeply explore those, lashing out itself is still healthier than doing nothing, but one can learn many higher strategies to deal with its root cause, which is the situation and lack of agency it points to, to transform oneself into someone who takes action and is independent and moves away from toxic environments. Pride can be a sign of strength, but its arising points to a circularity of the external that perpetuates it, to be addressed. Pride can also be a suppression of shame, in which case, it is one's inauthenticity itself that needs to be addressed. Either way, they are catalysts for change, and ideally lead one to expand one's self-understanding to the point of being flexible and confident enough, for them not to need to arise.

I used the word belief consciously here and am currently exploring and integrating it into my understanding. You see, our past actions were based on good intentions (from their own perspective and level of understanding) but also mistaken beliefs, which is why they lead to suffering. And the way I see it, every possible action is filtered by belief, so while that is the case, I want to use the word belief to signify that it is in fact such, hence turning it more self-aware and open to change based on ever evolving experience. How can I for example take any action at all or have an intent, without having a belief that it leads to a certain outcome? How can I desire anything, without believing it is desirable? How can I understand anything without the belief that it is understandable? How can I talk, without believing the other person will hear me? It's just that beliefs are mostly unconscious and I am transforming them into conscious flexible ones. Walking is believing, thinking is believing, you believe you can take actions and don't second doubt that belief every millisecond because of the uncertainty if you'll stop existing, you act despite that possibility out of faith. The way I use belief rather turns into a capital B Belief here, rather than a random assumption, although it really is that also, but also far more connected to every other part of perception, interpretation, action, understanding etcetc Absolutely agree with Sadhguru and Sarah. Awareness is key, and mastering emotions on top of that, which is really just realizing how they feel, when they occur and what they point to, what their purpose is and how to regulate them. Past karma embeds itself within us and turns the same gears inside that pushed them on the outside before and its up to us to become aware of, understand and change those patterns. I realized an important thing about the nature of intelligence and evolution as I was pondering it yesterday. The more detached you are from the outcome the more intelligent you can become, think of chess. Simultaneously, desire attracts its future fulfillment and drives evolution, the means is dynamic. It is really to deeply contemplate and understand what Outcome is desirable, which is awareness. Then to take actions towards it but be willing to adjust and change them anytime to correct momentum. The outcome might be certain but the path is not. And that's why the present moment is so important, it is what actual reality looks like and from there, any awareness and change can be established and such change and action has to constantly be adjusted as the present moment flows. It's like intelligence evolves the means to bridge the present and future as long as one isn't stuck in beliefs that limit it from expressing itself and manifesting through oneself.

Conscious response-ability actually is very liberating, it recontextualizes all situations as an endeavor one chooses to engage in and makes one delve deeper into why the reasons for doing so. When one is unaware, judgements and beliefs can form and be attributed to situations and behaviors being implied to have an objective immutable basis. But as one delves deeper, it transitions from "life is x,y,z" or "x,y,z made me do it" or "x,y,z is responsible for making me feel that way" or "I have no choice" etcetc, to "I chose to do x because I believe it leads to or avoids y, which I find meaningful because I believe z". As often said, the past is past and the present is the origin of agency and new behavior, following one's understanding and will. You may not be able to determine the conditions you are in, but you can look for ways to change them, make the best of them or be at peace, either way resistance usually implies one is missing something in one's current understanding.

@Heaven Hell is being stuck in judging and comparing creatures and creating an ideology of one being superior

What I'd add to that is a pointer in the form of "left and right brain hemispheres", reason and intuition. During psychedelics, our state of mind desolidifies and enters the deeper immaterial realm, but we're not there when sober, and the reason for that would be, that we still haven't worked out all the things that keep us grounded and reconciled them. I believe we can have the best of both worlds but need to reconcile and transcend the duality of material/spirit but it takes deconstruction and emotional mastery, in order to learn how to wield that power. To do so, we must change our basic patterns and transition through ego-backlash and authentically deal with all the limitations to bridge those states of mind and become more open and receptive to change, but not through force, but insight. And all world religions already point to these experiences, all art and poetry does as well, all kinds of new age phenomena, astral projection, schizophrenia, the fact that we dream and everything else also. But we have erected psychological and psychic barriers towards that freedom in the shape of identities, relationships, attachments, material desires and these form their own homeostasis that we have to transcend in order to purify and consecrate ourselves to uncover the mist that surrounds us and prevents us from being naturally psychedelic.

@Javfly33

Some observations I just made watching some videos and reading related posts: The more detached you are from the outcome the more intelligent you can become, think of chess Simultaneously, desire attracts its future fulfillment and drives evolution, the means is dynamic It seems intelligence always opens new doorways and also stacks on top of all that comes before Intelligence seems to be: There's a start and an end and intelligence evolves the bridge between Yet on the other hand, where did the start and end come from? Evolved by intelligence also?

Furthermore, it is to realize that any impulse we feel is a pointer. We can grow addicted to circumstances or emotions themselves and try to mechanically recreate them but they are inherently pointers to navigate and explore the nature of experience.

Ah, yes, one can perceive the masculine and feminine aspects in reality but overidentifying with either causes many problems, in fact it seems that from whatever reference point we have adopted, the natural tendency should be to integrate the opposite. Of course everything is inherently united and what we really ought to work out, is what we are disconnected from. To quote Seth: "On some occasions, for example, the woman may go overboard and exaggerate female characteristics, in which case the animus or male within comes to her aid, bringing through dream experiences an onrush of knowledge that will result in compensating malelike reactions. The same applies to a male when he over-identifies with what he believes to be male characteristics, for whatever reason. The anima or woman within will rouse him to make compensating actions, causing an upsurge of intuitive abilities, bringing a creative element to offset aggressiveness. Ideally, left alone, these operations would result in a balance individually and en masse, where aggressiveness was always used creatively, as indeed it can and should be. The animus and the anima are, of course, highly charged psychically, but the origin of this psychic charge and the inner fascination are the result of a quite legitimate inner identification with these personified other-sex characteristics." And I can definitely see the connection of emotion and thought, they are often tried to be separated but are far better used united, yet both of them have to be understood and mastered as well. Sadhguru for example says it is both inherently merged, emotion being "juicy thought" and carrying greater momentum, both being connected to feeling.

The following will be a pointerful description from which you are to interpret the singular focus and theme. To realize as its own holon and name the ability and activity of directly accessing and realizing the pointed to source which unites, correlates and contextualizes so much of one's activity and thought. The act of realizing the source of a duality, the non-dual pointed to "thing" behind it around which everything manifests. Imagine studying tons of mathematical concepts but not having the label of Mathematics and not realize the substrate that binds all the different areas. To realize as its own thing the fundamental question whose inquiry leads to the manifestation of all concepts and understandings. The act of inquiry itself, meta inquiry, source. That which I point to is the ability and mental faculty to realize that there is something that all knowledge gravitates around and that gives rise to all conceptual pointers that point to it but are not it. And in that realization, attempting to access that source directly. Pointers to describe that activity: God, Source, Non-Duality, Meta, Unity, Pointed To, Context, Source of the Context But most importantly: DIRECT EXPERIENCE But beyond that, there needs to be sufficient context to question the source and interconnectedness of and unite all that data, see where it springs, what causes emotions to materialize, and then going meta on the emotion itself, and then go meta on the source of all emotions, and then go meta on the source of metaness itself, and then go meta on that This is what Awakening is, to realize a deeper context as its own thing, the access and realization of which recontextualizes everything Now, how does one become aware of such? Consciousness! Levels of consciousness! Awareness, Inquiry, Intuition, Pattern Recognition, Psychedelics, Authenticity, Openness, Radical Open-Mindedness, All the titles of all of Leo's videos, navigating all the videos in chronological order and realizing the source of the evolution of the topics Leo talks about and realize through Direct Experience the reason for all of them and all of Leo's experiences he's pointing to.

YES! I am currently in the middle of a three step process: Dismantling old belief systems with the help of arising emotions that point me to them, concentration and meditation in the present and an ever growing desire for exploring the mystery of life. As you speak about the eternal, transcendental aspect, I am deeply engaged in exploring it and letting go of everything that keeps me from connecting to it, there's a channel I started watching that delves deeply into the topic. And regarding the bread crumbs, that in and of itself I realized is extremely profound and I made a post about that.

I've reached an equilibrium with Dissociatives. I've done much of the theoretical groundwork through binging actualized.org videos and emotional awareness and then used them to dissolve and equalize otherwise rigid subconscious karmic attitudes and operate from a clear frame of mind again. Now with all these barriers down, I am tempted to increase my overall awareness and explore the morphing experiential, sensual and metaphysical nature of raw consciousness again and expand my frame of mind. I'd like some suggestions, practices you found to be deeply meaningful in your experience, pointers to philosophical self-understanding, emotional mastery, physical exercises, yogic scriptures, breath techniques. And also I'd like for you to tell me about the most scary trips and nightmares you know of, for me to process, face, experience and make peace with before and as a preparation for the trip to push my limits now and then experientially integrate them. In fact, can you list me significant milestones from your journeys for me to contemplate, pointers to focus on, and ego-defense mechanisms to learn about? Can you list me sensations to focus on when tripping and ideas, perspectives and paradigms to integrate? Why do I wanna trip / use psychedelics? To accelerate, expand and intensify my perception and dissolve boundaries, to expand the understanding of what I am and am capable of experiencing, to explore the nature of reality that would otherwise take very long. Now, if instead you know other practices without the need for psychedelics that can do that, then I welcome these whole-heartedly. It's just that travelling the world or interacting with the external environment, while being a great horizontal expansion, doesn't go into the depth and detail of my experience, which is what I really seek, to intensify present experience and uncover unaware biases.

@Evelyna It's that I feel resistance that appears to lead to a contraction of energy and I could just ignore and act despite it, but I find that it actually is a pointer to reconcile a deeper belief from my past which has deeply shaped my experience. And I seek to get to the bottom of it and unearth it, and I have had mystical experiences before and I could even see how they transcend my paradigms, but it's not enough for me to let go. I feel the need to delve into those paradigms and find those contradictions in order to fully be at peace, to reconcile. Now, I have been working on accelerating this process and making it more direct, gaining momentum and working on higher layers of abstraction, to get to the root cause, which the dismantles all smaller assumptions. As you suggest, I am working on installing new programs as well, as the shamanic element of Mystery being a key focus. I feel my learning accelerates and I am quite surprised by the pace, on one hand it is the lack of previous resistance, on the other it is being attuned to the present, then also it is a growing desire and energy to explore and it feels great. I take your advice to heart, I am integrating various perspectives and both the Yogic as well as Shamanic dimension are part of it.

@What Am I Amazing pointer. I remember this being the center of my previous experiences, that energy that continuously flows through me animating my behavior and vitalizing my body and form. What is often referred to as ego-death, I feel is a type of overpowering cleansing energy, that regenerates oneself from the inside out, shedding previous attachments and beliefs. I will actively focus on those inner feelings and combine meditation and concentration with focus on the inner sensations.

I hold many unconscious beliefs that create stress in my daily life. The act of philosophy, journaling and posting lets me achieve a higher perspective, become aware and reframing those beliefs that cause me trouble and discomfort I am working on that, just figuring out what keeps me from being fully open to it

Imagine you're the surface of the ocean, from outside the ocean, one can observe waves, but from the perspective of the ocean, there is only one surface, no matter the local shape, from the absolute point of view, it's perfectly level. It's kinda strange, cause the surface of a sphere is really level from its own point of view and dimension, it takes a whole other dimension to loop it around and see a distortion. All this to say, when you are everything and everyone and your ego also, you are not alone, even though you're a singular thing overall, but nothingness has no room for judgements and infinity has room for all contradictory judgements simultaneously rendering them arbitrary. Now on another layer, you might imply that you're the singular source of your experience, that you are an entity who creates others but is itself objective, but that doesn't really make sense since you are a creation of yourself also, including the distinction, including your mental ideas, including the notion of individuality and collective, to even say you are 1 is really an arbitrary focus since you are 0 and ∞ also, you are whole. And as long as you believe yourself to be an absolute entity simulating reality, you hold that distinction, but its an arbitrary one, you dissolved the notion of others but not that of self, now you believe that there are others and simultaneously that they don't exist, but if you actually believed there were no others, then you couldn't access that as a concept to feel lonely through.

For example: I take responsibility for having posted this in the wrong sub. I engage in so many spiritual topics that posting here has become the default. Now that I am aware of it, I will pay more attention. Though one can say all topics are spiritually connected, just kidding.

@An young being The way I see it, there is a personal and collective reality. Psychedelics tune you out of the collective and into the personal, they reveal how you construct your experience, which of course includes the collective one inside of it. Actually affecting the collective reality on a material level however does not usually work and I would ascribe the reason to it being a self-limiting reality where the will, belief and agency of others creates certain barriers and its own limitations, unable to be affected from personal experience alone, even though it is in a feedback loop with it, the intake of information might be unobstructed, but the expression of energy outwards has certain barriers and might be limited by having to pass through the barriers of the body. One's consciousness might exists beyond the body on higher layers irregardless and affect the body top down, but there might be a certain energetic limitation based on the nature of the collective world which makes it hard to manifest oneself because it would easily break all illusions. It's like switching between different vibrations of energy with some subtly affecting others, but also passing through each other and not being able to just influence each other directly but through vessels and less direct means to uphold the integrity of our reality.