Keryo Koffa

@Javfly33 Hmm, but I don't read your thoughts, I still see a screen, I am aware of interpreting my perception, I do not yet realize the mechanisms that contextualize it although I infer that the same self writing is the same self creating its and all experience. I don't seem to be able to morph my perception to instantaneously visit Kailash for example to the same depth I now see this screen. Advice?

@Javfly33 Ultimately, it is realizing the transcendent perspective which clears one's vision to gain the choice, right? I'm still here so I have not experientially realized it yet, I have desires, should I just let go? Then again, you all are here also...

And I feel proud for speaking my mind, actually in real life and including myself in my criticism and catching myself I feel this is a distraction from actually doing the change itself, instead of preaching/hypocrisy and ruining my reputation I feel the rant was misplaced and compassion would have been a better option and fundamentally a better value I'm also devaluing the effects of war from my priveledged position and ignoring the suffering in the rant, which is cruel I might also have delusions of grandeur and being too simplistic, I do forgive myself for my previous ignorance also and no grudges Anything more to add?

@Jehovah increases Itself, my consciousness, the pointed to direct experience that I am distracting myself with this reply and forum post from?

The wind speaks

They expand your awareness and get you closer to the source of infinite health and intelligence, at the expense of our desires, drives and beliefs, whose momentum shape this reality. The pendulum swing creates ego-backlash, as one has to reconcile the newly gained freedom with the loss of the structures that imposed and desired themselves into perception and identity.

I've been integrating/transcending/deconstructing/accelerating in my quest for holistic understanding. I keep acquiring and intuitively navigating ever higher layers of abstraction. I've been researching and experientially awakening to entire fields of principles in the nature of: Epistemology, Metaphysics, Thought and Cognitive Biases, Emotional Mastery and Navigation, Meditation, Concentration Art, Philosophy, Science, Game Theory, Technology, Society, Culture, Technology, Economy, Ecology, Systems Thinking Spirituality, Esotericism, Psychedelics, Dissociatives, Yogic Traditions, Gnosticism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Christianity Channeling, Ra and Seth Material, Alchemy, Hermetic Principles, Chakras, DMT Realm, NDEs, ESP And each trip, I realize how little I know and how many Synchronicities there are connecting all these domains. Without awakening and accelerating through trips, I would be stuck figuring out one narrow domain for years, now I can do it in a day, it leads to a paradigm expansion each time, only to realize the scope and magnitude of what I don't know. And not-knowing itself expands in magnitude and the not knowing of what I'm not knowing I can know. I've been selfish in the past but now I know I was not selfish enough. I was altruistic in the past and now I know I was not altruistic enough, both extremes simultaneously ought to be maximized and transcended. My Practicality exponentiates through Esotericism, and my Esotericism exponentiates through Practicality. The external world appears too slow to gain experience in and at the same time I have to keep up with the technological singularity. What advice can you give me?

You can frame it in a more positive, humorous light, it's an equally valid perspective You can also see it as change / cessation / transcendence / expansion / dissolution / shift of focus / change of perspective. You can also perceive it as a shift in identity / a haircut / pruning tree branches / getting new clothes / moving house / going on vacation / a new job / making new friends / going to party / upgrading your PC / cleaning yourself of mud with a shower / taking a dump (a massive ego-dump) XD. You can also realize it as quitting a toxic relationship / setting boundaries / taking action / lifting weights / change of lifestyle / healthy habits. Those were all positive framings, but it can also be experienced in a negative light, so its important to be aware and know why. You can feel it as nostalgia / missing an ex, even if they were abusive / being homesick / the loss of a parent / having a tornado sweep your home away / being alienated from the people around you / being promoted after having gotten cozy in your position / you and your friend going to a different college after high school / long term relationships / leaving your family behind as you go into space as an astronaut / missing your childhood and hometown / having the favorite flavor of your favorite food disappear and be replaced / having somebody destroy your long gathered collection or the sand castle you spent so much effort on / feeling alone and lonely / feeling abandoned, forgotten, left behind, ignored / being forsaken by god / entering hell / panicking / massive discomfort / being an alien / being stranded on a deserted island not knowing if help is coming. So then most importantly, it's how you integrate your understanding/perspectives/experiences into your deeper awareness, to mitigate panic during trips. Your essence is beyond life and death but do take care of your body, it's your temple and made of love Fear is vanity but caution is wise, here's no benefit in panic, a greater explorative awareness is a better choice You are Love. You deserve Happiness. You're doing the Best you're currently Capable of. You are an Expression of the Infinite. You have Agency. Fall in Love with what you Choose to Engage in. Surrender to intuitive Flow. Your Journey is about Liberation from Limitations, not about perpetuating Suffering or Hardship. This journey is uniquely yours to cherish and unfold. When you Realize the Vanity of your Pursuit, you'll stop asking questions and start having fun Transcend and include, all perspectives exist in a web. Any duality can be united. You can transcend the spectrum of experience and get to its essence, instead of aiming for maximum joy, truth, purpose, you can become their essence itself, including the whole thing inside yourself and understanding it in and out, though you can always contextualize and expand your awareness further. You are your beliefs and you have the power to change and determine them. Anything is possible and you access it with higher awareness and faith in yourself. Your doubt itself limits your experience and creates the life you have. This is all tricky, as your own paradigm-lock will prevent you from even seeing others beyond it, that would give you the agency to choose, that's why deconstruction/concentration/meditation/contemplation/yoga are important. "Ego-Death" itself is a valid perspective, the ego dies, but your essence doesn't die, you liberate it and gain greater awareness of both the previous ego and its opposite duality. You get to choose, you expand your autonomy, you transcend paradigms, your life when integrated holistically will turn to the better, if you're not lost in backlash and work through it. Just like lifting weights will give you soreness but leave you stronger, how solving a puzzle is frustrating but grows you, how emotional labor makes you suffer but gain greater appreciation, awareness and perspective.

I just wonder how? I am shedding the need to think in mechanical terms, it's just so perplexing how complex reality is and how infinite god is, how simultaneous and intelligent everything is

@Jehovah increases I suppose my fear was to lose myself, now that I see the infinity beyond me and how small my experience is, I realize how small my reality was and still is and it's kind of insane.

@Jehovah increases Yes, but there is a focus that highlights aspects and creates one's perception and one can go meta and realize there's infinitely more beyond that. What I called paradigm-lock may very well have been a self-determined focal point that oneself forgot about and gets the feeling of remembering anew. I suppose there is no forgetting, just awareness shifting, but even so it is marvelous.

@RamPhoenix I don't know how to keep up, I guess it's my "intuition" behind the scenes is interconnecting, but the paradigm expansions are increasing and I am amazed by its infinite complexity. All of reality flows so steadily, no system could encapsulate it, yet to understand the present moment, infinitudes of complexity are manifesting. I don't know how to feel and be at this point.

@RamPhoenix So the reactionary "OMG" or "no,no,no,no,no!" is the amygdala being insecure? Fascinating...

@Jehovah increases Desire, need, want, it wants the best, but it itself determines what that is. It wants the best of all worlds. But that creates a cycle of problem solving and its own paradigm-lock, but the ego wants what it wants irregardless. It's quite a pickle...

Infinity? Experience? Love? Being?

I was contemplating the effects of age on psychedelic experience and that's how my reasonings go at the current stage of my development, do you have any pointers towards the next stage of reasoning ability that transcends my current one?: Less rigidification, people tend to lose their flexibility and open-mindedness with age because they adjust to societal norm, like they say "you're the average of the 5 people you spend time with" but also "you average towards the system you live in, as time progresses", though that's just one perspective. When one accomplishes everything, one can start individuating from there and expanding one's paradigm as needs are met, see maslow's hierarchy of needs. So any position can be justified and rationalized, though all of them are rooted in some real component, which often leaves major cues to its origin in general social tendencies but also there are important individual components to the complexity that can't just be described in simple statements. So the Zen Masters are right to affirm and negate and be discontent with any position, even as spiral dynamics stages keep swinging the pendulum to ever greater discernment and balance, though all of that is done through transcending dualities, though there are ever greater dualities to infinity, though one can also know one's own intent intuitively and shortcut that process, though one's subconscious is vast and exploring it always leads to greater perspective and realization of the interconnections that create reality and exist outside one's limited awareness, though one can presume that there is a layer of god so vast, that it contains all possible explanations and reasons, as Leo states in his "An Advanced Explanation Of God-Realization" video, though that's not within my direct experience yet, though one could say that it is and I'm just not aware of it, though someone else would say that it is even then, though I could continue this chain of thought to infinity, though it may end, or it may not and I am getting tired of this specific line of reasoning and exploration, which is really probably just to say that I should take psychedelics and experientially transcend it all, though I had previous experiences like that and they continued with the same process just on the experiential instead of mind axis, though that may not be a bug but a feature, though I guess I intuit one can get to a stage where everything is so tuned into and synchronized, that one becomes the experience and all its facets oneself to the extent that one's reasoning ceases, as it becomes known, felt experience. Leo must have a lot of experience of this, as he always seeks ever greater big picture understandings and continues making these long contemplative videos on various layers of the holarchy. I am enjoying the process though but Hmm...

@Javfly33 Are you sure? Logic can disprove logic, that's the essence of paradox. Why not the same with reason? How else do you leave a paradigm, but by dismantling its axioms to open you up? Welp, expanding through feeling and yoga, psychedelics and consciousness also works I guess But I do enjoy reasoning, I want to push its boundaries and ultimately dissolve it from the inside out, I just find that really satisfying and completing, to implode a structure and realize its vanity, just as Leo always makes new videos... Else I'm left feeling that there are assumptions I haven't questioned and that boggles me But maybe I'm also addicted to exploration itself, I like relating all these concepts and dimensions, it's like Art Maybe that's its own Ego-Identity, I'll question it on my next trip, though I'll also do it in the time until then, though as you would say it, being hung up on it is it's own problem, maybe... I guess it's the question of exploration vs transcendence, I do like exploration and transcendence opens me up to more, I want to explore but not be limited in the exploration, so then that's transcendence, I'll keep going, though maybe to keep going one needs to stop going... hmm....

@An young being Another view I have to offer is that we make ourselves unhappy unconsciously and use unhappiness and "not being blissed out" just as we use negative emotions in order to navigate our experience, point us towards growth and progress and as a means to make us aware of greater dimensions of possibilities. It's like a homeostatic guidance system and the worse/less happy we feel, the further we are from god/bliss/consciousness/desirable experience. In a way, I came to realizations that none of the emotions even matter, they're like the flavor of food, or different genres of music, they're a means of navigation and communication and we can tune into either one, but as we become more conscious, we'd realize their arbitrariness and though we could be blissed out and maybe neutral = bliss, we wouldn't necessarily need to, though we might do it simply because it would make life better, but different emotions exist and so they clearly have a purpose, though that itself may be transcended. Maybe what others say is exactly right, emotions like bliss being a pointer to expand one's awareness, experience and tune into higher dimensions of consciousness, but that would of course come at the expense of living this life, since all its needs and desires would be transcended to the point that it would feel like a meaningless distraction, or an arbitrary limited focus. So then, bliss has to be acquired or trained by becoming more conscious and transcending paradigms, in order to eliminate all those states of mind which create distractions and needs and prevent one from being universally content... In a way, it may not even matter what one does and what activities one chooses to engage in, one would simply need to dissolve the state of mind that believes that doing these activities is an objective need and believes in the objective meaning and purpose of survival itself. One can of course continue to survive even without the belief in its importance and the need to do it, simply for the experience itself and let go of all limitations and barriers that impose it, and then rather do it for its own sake irregardless, being blissed out. Look at kids, they're naturally blissed out, though they also navigate other emotions for convenience but also out of ignorance. Of course that process would lead one to higher states of consciousness, in which survival would become a conscious choice and one could still survive out of higher awareness and love, but the state of consciousness itself would of course feed one's experience with greater awareness of its nature, which may lead to the realization of the vanity of survival itself, but a truly high stage would still continue to do whatever is healthy, though it may at some point decide to enter madasamadhi, it may or may not choose to upgrade one's or other's lives first but who knows, at that point, it's an individual matter, or god's matter, however you wanna see it, so yeah, transcend beliefs and operate on consciousness alone without rigid systems, like spiral dynamics and leo point to, but easier said than done, though we have amazing tools and it's all up to one's own self...

@An young being Thanks, it's definitely important! I did have an off day today for example, the last few days I was hyper-focused on all day long sadhana around various aspects and I really needed my mind to rest, go swimming and am going to sleep early. Yesterday specifically was an "extreme tripping" day, I got into such deep states of dissociation, that it felt similar to my january truffle triple-heroic-superdose. My context was extremely limited and narrow and I was stuck in looping time segments, where I felt that I had to think, act or be a certain way in order for the loop to progress and I wasn't certain if I was doing it right, and if I wasn't I'd be stuck in that loop and be doomed to keep forgetting and repeat it, consistently experiencing deja-vu and feeling it more inevitable with each iteration stretching to eternity, so it was important to be very presently focused and act in the way that felt would progress it, each restart with context reset being a new challenge. I got through it rather well though, it just felt like "Did I let go of all chakras simultaneously?" or "Am I adjusting to be content quick enough?" or "Is the buzzing sound at the right frequency, let me shuffle through possible actions and see when it adjusts to the right one". Through and after it, I made the greatest progress however and was able to let go and abstract away all concepts to far greater degrees and far more directly and experientially access reality and synchronicities. I didn't expect the redose to take me that far, but it was extremely profound, especially during the long comedown phase.

@An young being I haven't achieved a consistent state myself, but from my psychedelic trips and childhood memories, there were times where irregardless of what I was engaged in doing, I was in flow and complete bliss, the state itself was independent of activity and painted them blissful instead of being determined by them. I'm convinced it is belief, association and conditioning that make it so activities affect the feedback loop backwards but it is not an absolute. It is really that one doesn't allow oneself to be happy unless one achieves something or gets one's way, instead one could operate, choose, act on top of the state itself, instead of waiting for it to arise, but it is something to become conscious of, do shadow work about and learn to master and I am on the way towards that myself. After all, you know there were times in your life when you weren't happy no matter what and times where you were overjoyed no matter what and if you experienced that once, you know it's possible and you can work on that.

@Princess Arabia Never been diagnosed but up until a year ago behavior-wise absolutely, though I basically had every neurodivergence under the sun, as a kid I had a hard time reading social cues and being practical, so I compensated with becoming good at technical understanding, but ever since I started psychedelics a year ago, I dissolved all the compulsiveness and narrow-vision/one-track-mindedness, and am now just left with the drive itself to understand and contextualize things that fascinates me, big picture. Used to have headaches, was pretty stressed out, but since I lifted the compulsions and anxiety, I'm enjoying a far larger perspective, openness and am for more relaxed and present. I was always drawn to contemplate, though part of it was overanalyzing to cope with social ineptness, ocd and perfectionism, now it's for fun alone. Found it funny to use overly fancy language, now it just comes naturally and helps cut down space through abstraction. As for "nerdiness", I've always been into fantasy and sci-fi like star wars, star trek, movies, shows, anime, manga, my hobbies include, art, drawing, coding, gaming, esoteric brainstorming, so I guess I qualify.

To give you an example of what I'm talking about: There are endless models and paradigms of information and reality navigation like this picture below. I am simultaneously integrating the significance and awareness of principles like these, while balancing them with genuine authentic expression, they can be at odds and I have to account for the circumstance, while simultaneously being adept at using every tool I have to my advantage and for greater effectiveness, yet not to succumb to manipulation or power games, yet integrate the strategies all the same and holding them with their opposites in a superposition of awareness, interrelate them, and holistically navigate them in relation to all other paradigms and abstract layers of understanding.

All you need to do is to let go of everything that holds you back. And that's a massive ego identity issue. You have to become more aware and expand your perspective, you have to synergize your understanding and let go of all needs. But you can do that through conscious active work, emotional jujitsu, counter-intuitive feelings reversal to get to the source, realizing the arbitrariness of all desires and feelings on dissociatives, expanding your awareness and integrating the understanding of arbitrariness between reality and imagination through psychedelics, bringing out extreme emotions and fears through cannabis. Become radically open minded and dynamically balance yourself. Face the core and source of every emotion and sensation. Realize the freedom of response-ability and how you can instantly change your circumstance through conscious effort. Let go of outcome and realize lifelong dedication to working on yourself with the goal to reach the truth which will make you at peace and in love. Work through all emotional drama, accelerating the process through perpetual motivation since it makes you feel lighter every time. Do something three times to establish a positive habit and then let go of that at some point. AND THERE IS NO CONTRADICTION SINCE THIS WILL SURELY TAKE MOST AND TOOK ME OVER A THOUSAND HOURS, BUT DON'T HOLD THAT AS A BELIEF TO SLOW YOU DOWN. EACH MOMENT YOU TAKE ACTION, YOU TRANSCEND YOURSELF AND THAT WILL ACCELRATE, BUT YOU GOTTA START WHERE YOU'RE AT AND YOU WILL KNOW SINCE THAT'S THE HURDLE This is a post for all those who feel as I felt, demotivated that it will take forever, instead realize it doesn't matter and your baseline changes and improves and you will feel better and freer each time you face some difficulty and become aware of the source of your current focus Of course, be responsible, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but what if it does kill you and not in the good way, trust your intuition! Don't go so far that it will cripple you, or send the pendulum so far that it makes you stop and turn bitter and miserable! Be aware of the risks of shortcuts and substances, their cost is their intensity, imagine being stranded in hell or being eaten alive, now integrate that before the suggestion or unconscious fear manifests in experience and be directly aware of the illusory nature of reality, ego, fear, fear of death, fear of the unknown, fear of dissolving your identity, fear of inhuman discomfort. Be careful, be aware, integrate. But don't let the notion of needing so long slow you down and its a rule, maybe it doesn't apply to you at all and you can do it in one! But to understand the relative domain, you have to learn about it and the process will take time as well.

I've become conscious/aware of what I'll call "force". This "force" can be seen as a center that creates homeostatic drives. I guess I could also call it self/object/thing/subject. I guess it's really actually ego or one could call it life also. It's a type of focus, a solidified structure, a bias/preference/distinction. To make clear what I'm talking about, picture any object, it probably has a word/name it's codified under. We can look around and we can distinguish things through contrast, objects through barriers, through inside outside, surface,, strong color difference, properties. Think of a metal ball and a wooden block. We associate the metal ball with its grey color, round shape, reflective surface, metallic touch sensation, heavy weight. We associate the wooden block with its blocky shape, edges, brown color, wood pattern texture, lighter weight/density. Through our innate senses, we have distinguished patterns we associate to both and we can hold each individually, through these associations we have created the very thing I'm pointing towards, objects. And from here on out, we can start believing in the permanence/specificity of such objects. We have memorized the pattern and imbued it with significance (significance is a thing, huh? gotta contemplate that later). And so we created an object or subject, the difference is kind of arbitrary, and I guess that's how we created our own image or ego also. And through mechanisms/will of the mind/brain, we are continuously reinforcing such things to be things, even though they're an arbitrary relation of patterns that can be broken apart (probably). I had been rather eager to share this aha-moment, but now I realize how much more there is to contemplate and awaken to, so I'll leave it at that before this paradigm itself solidifies too much.