Keryo Koffa

@Javfly33 Are you sure? Logic can disprove logic, that's the essence of paradox. Why not the same with reason? How else do you leave a paradigm, but by dismantling its axioms to open you up? Welp, expanding through feeling and yoga, psychedelics and consciousness also works I guess But I do enjoy reasoning, I want to push its boundaries and ultimately dissolve it from the inside out, I just find that really satisfying and completing, to implode a structure and realize its vanity, just as Leo always makes new videos... Else I'm left feeling that there are assumptions I haven't questioned and that boggles me But maybe I'm also addicted to exploration itself, I like relating all these concepts and dimensions, it's like Art Maybe that's its own Ego-Identity, I'll question it on my next trip, though I'll also do it in the time until then, though as you would say it, being hung up on it is it's own problem, maybe... I guess it's the question of exploration vs transcendence, I do like exploration and transcendence opens me up to more, I want to explore but not be limited in the exploration, so then that's transcendence, I'll keep going, though maybe to keep going one needs to stop going... hmm....

@An young being Another view I have to offer is that we make ourselves unhappy unconsciously and use unhappiness and "not being blissed out" just as we use negative emotions in order to navigate our experience, point us towards growth and progress and as a means to make us aware of greater dimensions of possibilities. It's like a homeostatic guidance system and the worse/less happy we feel, the further we are from god/bliss/consciousness/desirable experience. In a way, I came to realizations that none of the emotions even matter, they're like the flavor of food, or different genres of music, they're a means of navigation and communication and we can tune into either one, but as we become more conscious, we'd realize their arbitrariness and though we could be blissed out and maybe neutral = bliss, we wouldn't necessarily need to, though we might do it simply because it would make life better, but different emotions exist and so they clearly have a purpose, though that itself may be transcended. Maybe what others say is exactly right, emotions like bliss being a pointer to expand one's awareness, experience and tune into higher dimensions of consciousness, but that would of course come at the expense of living this life, since all its needs and desires would be transcended to the point that it would feel like a meaningless distraction, or an arbitrary limited focus. So then, bliss has to be acquired or trained by becoming more conscious and transcending paradigms, in order to eliminate all those states of mind which create distractions and needs and prevent one from being universally content... In a way, it may not even matter what one does and what activities one chooses to engage in, one would simply need to dissolve the state of mind that believes that doing these activities is an objective need and believes in the objective meaning and purpose of survival itself. One can of course continue to survive even without the belief in its importance and the need to do it, simply for the experience itself and let go of all limitations and barriers that impose it, and then rather do it for its own sake irregardless, being blissed out. Look at kids, they're naturally blissed out, though they also navigate other emotions for convenience but also out of ignorance. Of course that process would lead one to higher states of consciousness, in which survival would become a conscious choice and one could still survive out of higher awareness and love, but the state of consciousness itself would of course feed one's experience with greater awareness of its nature, which may lead to the realization of the vanity of survival itself, but a truly high stage would still continue to do whatever is healthy, though it may at some point decide to enter madasamadhi, it may or may not choose to upgrade one's or other's lives first but who knows, at that point, it's an individual matter, or god's matter, however you wanna see it, so yeah, transcend beliefs and operate on consciousness alone without rigid systems, like spiral dynamics and leo point to, but easier said than done, though we have amazing tools and it's all up to one's own self...

@An young being Thanks, it's definitely important! I did have an off day today for example, the last few days I was hyper-focused on all day long sadhana around various aspects and I really needed my mind to rest, go swimming and am going to sleep early. Yesterday specifically was an "extreme tripping" day, I got into such deep states of dissociation, that it felt similar to my january truffle triple-heroic-superdose. My context was extremely limited and narrow and I was stuck in looping time segments, where I felt that I had to think, act or be a certain way in order for the loop to progress and I wasn't certain if I was doing it right, and if I wasn't I'd be stuck in that loop and be doomed to keep forgetting and repeat it, consistently experiencing deja-vu and feeling it more inevitable with each iteration stretching to eternity, so it was important to be very presently focused and act in the way that felt would progress it, each restart with context reset being a new challenge. I got through it rather well though, it just felt like "Did I let go of all chakras simultaneously?" or "Am I adjusting to be content quick enough?" or "Is the buzzing sound at the right frequency, let me shuffle through possible actions and see when it adjusts to the right one". Through and after it, I made the greatest progress however and was able to let go and abstract away all concepts to far greater degrees and far more directly and experientially access reality and synchronicities. I didn't expect the redose to take me that far, but it was extremely profound, especially during the long comedown phase.

@An young being I haven't achieved a consistent state myself, but from my psychedelic trips and childhood memories, there were times where irregardless of what I was engaged in doing, I was in flow and complete bliss, the state itself was independent of activity and painted them blissful instead of being determined by them. I'm convinced it is belief, association and conditioning that make it so activities affect the feedback loop backwards but it is not an absolute. It is really that one doesn't allow oneself to be happy unless one achieves something or gets one's way, instead one could operate, choose, act on top of the state itself, instead of waiting for it to arise, but it is something to become conscious of, do shadow work about and learn to master and I am on the way towards that myself. After all, you know there were times in your life when you weren't happy no matter what and times where you were overjoyed no matter what and if you experienced that once, you know it's possible and you can work on that.

@Princess Arabia Never been diagnosed but up until a year ago behavior-wise absolutely, though I basically had every neurodivergence under the sun, as a kid I had a hard time reading social cues and being practical, so I compensated with becoming good at technical understanding, but ever since I started psychedelics a year ago, I dissolved all the compulsiveness and narrow-vision/one-track-mindedness, and am now just left with the drive itself to understand and contextualize things that fascinates me, big picture. Used to have headaches, was pretty stressed out, but since I lifted the compulsions and anxiety, I'm enjoying a far larger perspective, openness and am for more relaxed and present. I was always drawn to contemplate, though part of it was overanalyzing to cope with social ineptness, ocd and perfectionism, now it's for fun alone. Found it funny to use overly fancy language, now it just comes naturally and helps cut down space through abstraction. As for "nerdiness", I've always been into fantasy and sci-fi like star wars, star trek, movies, shows, anime, manga, my hobbies include, art, drawing, coding, gaming, esoteric brainstorming, so I guess I qualify.

To give you an example of what I'm talking about: There are endless models and paradigms of information and reality navigation like this picture below. I am simultaneously integrating the significance and awareness of principles like these, while balancing them with genuine authentic expression, they can be at odds and I have to account for the circumstance, while simultaneously being adept at using every tool I have to my advantage and for greater effectiveness, yet not to succumb to manipulation or power games, yet integrate the strategies all the same and holding them with their opposites in a superposition of awareness, interrelate them, and holistically navigate them in relation to all other paradigms and abstract layers of understanding.

All you need to do is to let go of everything that holds you back. And that's a massive ego identity issue. You have to become more aware and expand your perspective, you have to synergize your understanding and let go of all needs. But you can do that through conscious active work, emotional jujitsu, counter-intuitive feelings reversal to get to the source, realizing the arbitrariness of all desires and feelings on dissociatives, expanding your awareness and integrating the understanding of arbitrariness between reality and imagination through psychedelics, bringing out extreme emotions and fears through cannabis. Become radically open minded and dynamically balance yourself. Face the core and source of every emotion and sensation. Realize the freedom of response-ability and how you can instantly change your circumstance through conscious effort. Let go of outcome and realize lifelong dedication to working on yourself with the goal to reach the truth which will make you at peace and in love. Work through all emotional drama, accelerating the process through perpetual motivation since it makes you feel lighter every time. Do something three times to establish a positive habit and then let go of that at some point. AND THERE IS NO CONTRADICTION SINCE THIS WILL SURELY TAKE MOST AND TOOK ME OVER A THOUSAND HOURS, BUT DON'T HOLD THAT AS A BELIEF TO SLOW YOU DOWN. EACH MOMENT YOU TAKE ACTION, YOU TRANSCEND YOURSELF AND THAT WILL ACCELRATE, BUT YOU GOTTA START WHERE YOU'RE AT AND YOU WILL KNOW SINCE THAT'S THE HURDLE This is a post for all those who feel as I felt, demotivated that it will take forever, instead realize it doesn't matter and your baseline changes and improves and you will feel better and freer each time you face some difficulty and become aware of the source of your current focus Of course, be responsible, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but what if it does kill you and not in the good way, trust your intuition! Don't go so far that it will cripple you, or send the pendulum so far that it makes you stop and turn bitter and miserable! Be aware of the risks of shortcuts and substances, their cost is their intensity, imagine being stranded in hell or being eaten alive, now integrate that before the suggestion or unconscious fear manifests in experience and be directly aware of the illusory nature of reality, ego, fear, fear of death, fear of the unknown, fear of dissolving your identity, fear of inhuman discomfort. Be careful, be aware, integrate. But don't let the notion of needing so long slow you down and its a rule, maybe it doesn't apply to you at all and you can do it in one! But to understand the relative domain, you have to learn about it and the process will take time as well.

I've become conscious/aware of what I'll call "force". This "force" can be seen as a center that creates homeostatic drives. I guess I could also call it self/object/thing/subject. I guess it's really actually ego or one could call it life also. It's a type of focus, a solidified structure, a bias/preference/distinction. To make clear what I'm talking about, picture any object, it probably has a word/name it's codified under. We can look around and we can distinguish things through contrast, objects through barriers, through inside outside, surface,, strong color difference, properties. Think of a metal ball and a wooden block. We associate the metal ball with its grey color, round shape, reflective surface, metallic touch sensation, heavy weight. We associate the wooden block with its blocky shape, edges, brown color, wood pattern texture, lighter weight/density. Through our innate senses, we have distinguished patterns we associate to both and we can hold each individually, through these associations we have created the very thing I'm pointing towards, objects. And from here on out, we can start believing in the permanence/specificity of such objects. We have memorized the pattern and imbued it with significance (significance is a thing, huh? gotta contemplate that later). And so we created an object or subject, the difference is kind of arbitrary, and I guess that's how we created our own image or ego also. And through mechanisms/will of the mind/brain, we are continuously reinforcing such things to be things, even though they're an arbitrary relation of patterns that can be broken apart (probably). I had been rather eager to share this aha-moment, but now I realize how much more there is to contemplate and awaken to, so I'll leave it at that before this paradigm itself solidifies too much.

Because "busy being discontent, productive, knowledgeable, distracted, immersed and stuff"

That moment, when you make a pact with DMT Entities to temporarily posses you for a cool ESP skill

@Davino Oh yeah, imagine a spectrum of colors on a 2d plane, now extend it to the third dimension and draw loops, countless loops, they all intersect in various ways outside and through that 2d dimension that itself represents perception, that's reality, an associatory network, like a neural network, infinitely interconnected and interconnectable in all arbitrary ways. Agree on backlashes also, they're the problem seeking to be addressed, suffering through and letting go is like dissolving those previously drawn self-assembling associations that create resistance to dissolving and block greater perspectives through their rigidity. Disassembling them takes the same emotional labor that keeps them afloat, though realizing greater perspectives with their own power will help the overriding, integrating (including and transcending) process which is really changed most easily through a shift in identity (like sadhguru said, once he put is heart/ahamkara on the mountaintop, his body follows naturally).

Don't pay attention the terminology and the whole thing is just mumbo-jumbo I made up in 5 minutes, spending too much time on it is diminishing returns, dogmatic, and its own distraction trap. Just demonstrating that there are countless barriers from the Infinite to the Finite necessary to create experience but can lead one to be trapped in Ego and locking oneself out of higher experience. Just interpret the non-dual uncodified (direct experience/awareness) implicitcity of the concept itself for its profoundness: Different degrees of barriers: No Barrier (Everything, No Discernment, Open to Traps and Infinite Suffering (Theoretically Anyway)) God Barrier (Creating Reality on Highest Good to navigate within without getting infinitely lost) Escape Barrier / Non-Limiting Barrier / Awareness with the Barrier of not succumbing to Illusion Existential Barrier (Field) (Energy) (Constellation) (Flow) (No-Ego but Awareness) (Finite Exploration) Experiential Barrier (Flow with Existential Barrier, Building Preferences Subconsciously) Ego Barrier (Having and upkeeping Preferences) (Non-Questioning) Identity Barrier (Self-Perpetuating) (Resistant to Change) (Reinforces upon Stress) Constructive Barrier (Self-Enveloping Systems creating elaborate Defense Mechanisms) Locking Shutdown Barrier (Avoidance) (Beyond Defense) (Self-Locking, Throw out Key, Forget Key) Smart Prisoner Barrier (Subconscious Self-Expanding Defense Mechanisms, No Self-Awareness)

Why does it take thousands of hours of Meditation vs having the same realization in a single trip? Why do so many psychedelics experiences peak and return to baseline, are they futile or fake? Did someone who spend all that time waste it due to paradigm lock or get something more out of it? Meditation is a positive habit, it trains one's consciousness muscles to be aware of the present moment, to be detached from one's mind and emotions (monkey chatter), it is a powerful tool for self-actualization, patience, self-reflection, present awareness and builds momentum, as it is a continuous activity, it is actively being integrated as a state of mind into the subconscious, which then materializes in the nature of the future experience, reflecting one's previous actions and states of being. Meditation not an activity, it's rather a lifestyle of which the do-nothing method is a specific strong focus. But meditation is really like breathing, it's best if you do it at all times, and the do-nothing method is like conscious breathing, or like walking compares to running or even sprinting. When done wrong, Meditation is a stressful and breeds contempt and bitterness. Nevertheless, by virtue of creating such difficulty, it does at least train some muscle, meanly that of engaging in activities one dislikes, which trains perseverance and discipline. Though I'm not sure if letting go of resistance wouldn't be completely superior, which is what meditation points to, the letting go of resistance and acceptance of the present moment, detachment from stress and emotion. Now, psychedelics expand one's mind, awareness, they overpower one's ego, they show one's inadequacies and their illusory arbitrary neurotic nature. Psychedelics directly shift one into various states of mind and warp one's understanding, leaving behind massive insight. But the psychological issues do not disappear, the realization of their vanity remains, but the experiential sensations arise again since they're deeply rooted in the subconscious and have been built up over a long time through habitual behavior. One still has to deal with them and integrate understanding with present experience. This is what meditation excels at and focuses on. Someone who is adept at meditation can easily and naturally integrate psychedelic insights unless they have a non-dual paradigm lock which brings up resistance to even accept relative information and concepts. But ideally, meditation expands one's mind to all possibilities and self-reflection. Meditation is calming one's mind and deeply understanding the nature of one's drives and emotions, taking control of one's psychology. Psychedelics shift consciousness itself directly, it's far more direct that meditation since its an experiential reality, but without meditation, it leaves one open for foolishness and since its a temporary shift, all the integration is still to be done. Ideally, one would combine both and work hard to make meditation itself match psychedelics and find out the reasons why it isn't naturally the case. Psychedelics expand one's mind profoundly, while meditation raises baseline and deals with the overriding the subconscious from which one's habits and personality arise.

@JoshB It's an identity issue, imagine you've been a shepherd all your life and some guy comes over and tells you all your sheep are holograms. It doesn't compute and even if it did, you're too invested. Or that your parents aren't real, or that the bible is a distraction and your ticket to heaven and the morality that was such a pain in the ass to execute all your life was faulty. It's also social circles creating their own group think and eco-chambers, instantly dismissing anything new and coping with drugs, gossip, laughter. It's also academics investing too much time in one thing and having to deal with the whole paradigm behind their work being faulty. Or tell a banker that money isn't real. Or a teacher that what he was teaching was wrong all along. Or a victim that he did it to himself. Tell a solipsist, he locked himself out of greater awareness, or a nihilist that he's missing the positive side. Or the mystic that his awakening was shallow after all. Or endless other permutations. It's also about the right understanding, how do you know yours is complete, only if you can fully comprehend a paradigm and its opposite, could you say that from a higher vantage point. But Leo has tons of videos about all that already. Ego, identity, belief, attachment, etcetc. Here's a video and I included the timestamp to get right to it

@Joshe I've been exploring. Emotions seek to expand our agency and awareness. Negative ones are a defense mechanism against limiting beliefs. We're intended to master them becoming more resilient and healing. Through the outside world, we're communicated the source of behavior and how pain perpetuates. We often mistake them with objects they point to, but it's always a deeper understanding being conveyed. Ultimately, they seek to dissolve into harmony and come up when change is needed. Pride isn't a singular thing, it can stem from shame or alignment, but its the belief behind it that ought to be reconciled, since it points to a contradiction in values. Any emotion points to the exploration of the aspect it relates to, an open investigation. We're taught to do the opposite of what's healthy, to avoid the negatives, but they arise to reconcile a source of tension, discontent and stress that limits us from living our life to the fullest. Imagine being content with abuse by blocking out all emotions, now that would be unhealthy. Getting angry is natural, learning how to use it and change one's life to the better, that's the essence. There are many possible decisions and we can more deeply explore those, lashing out itself is still healthier than doing nothing, but one can learn many higher strategies to deal with its root cause, which is the situation and lack of agency it points to, to transform oneself into someone who takes action and is independent and moves away from toxic environments. Pride can be a sign of strength, but its arising points to a circularity of the external that perpetuates it, to be addressed. Pride can also be a suppression of shame, in which case, it is one's inauthenticity itself that needs to be addressed. Either way, they are catalysts for change, and ideally lead one to expand one's self-understanding to the point of being flexible and confident enough, for them not to need to arise.

I used the word belief consciously here and am currently exploring and integrating it into my understanding. You see, our past actions were based on good intentions (from their own perspective and level of understanding) but also mistaken beliefs, which is why they lead to suffering. And the way I see it, every possible action is filtered by belief, so while that is the case, I want to use the word belief to signify that it is in fact such, hence turning it more self-aware and open to change based on ever evolving experience. How can I for example take any action at all or have an intent, without having a belief that it leads to a certain outcome? How can I desire anything, without believing it is desirable? How can I understand anything without the belief that it is understandable? How can I talk, without believing the other person will hear me? It's just that beliefs are mostly unconscious and I am transforming them into conscious flexible ones. Walking is believing, thinking is believing, you believe you can take actions and don't second doubt that belief every millisecond because of the uncertainty if you'll stop existing, you act despite that possibility out of faith. The way I use belief rather turns into a capital B Belief here, rather than a random assumption, although it really is that also, but also far more connected to every other part of perception, interpretation, action, understanding etcetc Absolutely agree with Sadhguru and Sarah. Awareness is key, and mastering emotions on top of that, which is really just realizing how they feel, when they occur and what they point to, what their purpose is and how to regulate them. Past karma embeds itself within us and turns the same gears inside that pushed them on the outside before and its up to us to become aware of, understand and change those patterns. I realized an important thing about the nature of intelligence and evolution as I was pondering it yesterday. The more detached you are from the outcome the more intelligent you can become, think of chess. Simultaneously, desire attracts its future fulfillment and drives evolution, the means is dynamic. It is really to deeply contemplate and understand what Outcome is desirable, which is awareness. Then to take actions towards it but be willing to adjust and change them anytime to correct momentum. The outcome might be certain but the path is not. And that's why the present moment is so important, it is what actual reality looks like and from there, any awareness and change can be established and such change and action has to constantly be adjusted as the present moment flows. It's like intelligence evolves the means to bridge the present and future as long as one isn't stuck in beliefs that limit it from expressing itself and manifesting through oneself.

Conscious response-ability actually is very liberating, it recontextualizes all situations as an endeavor one chooses to engage in and makes one delve deeper into why the reasons for doing so. When one is unaware, judgements and beliefs can form and be attributed to situations and behaviors being implied to have an objective immutable basis. But as one delves deeper, it transitions from "life is x,y,z" or "x,y,z made me do it" or "x,y,z is responsible for making me feel that way" or "I have no choice" etcetc, to "I chose to do x because I believe it leads to or avoids y, which I find meaningful because I believe z". As often said, the past is past and the present is the origin of agency and new behavior, following one's understanding and will. You may not be able to determine the conditions you are in, but you can look for ways to change them, make the best of them or be at peace, either way resistance usually implies one is missing something in one's current understanding.

@Heaven Hell is being stuck in judging and comparing creatures and creating an ideology of one being superior

What I'd add to that is a pointer in the form of "left and right brain hemispheres", reason and intuition. During psychedelics, our state of mind desolidifies and enters the deeper immaterial realm, but we're not there when sober, and the reason for that would be, that we still haven't worked out all the things that keep us grounded and reconciled them. I believe we can have the best of both worlds but need to reconcile and transcend the duality of material/spirit but it takes deconstruction and emotional mastery, in order to learn how to wield that power. To do so, we must change our basic patterns and transition through ego-backlash and authentically deal with all the limitations to bridge those states of mind and become more open and receptive to change, but not through force, but insight. And all world religions already point to these experiences, all art and poetry does as well, all kinds of new age phenomena, astral projection, schizophrenia, the fact that we dream and everything else also. But we have erected psychological and psychic barriers towards that freedom in the shape of identities, relationships, attachments, material desires and these form their own homeostasis that we have to transcend in order to purify and consecrate ourselves to uncover the mist that surrounds us and prevents us from being naturally psychedelic.

@Javfly33

Some observations I just made watching some videos and reading related posts: The more detached you are from the outcome the more intelligent you can become, think of chess Simultaneously, desire attracts its future fulfillment and drives evolution, the means is dynamic It seems intelligence always opens new doorways and also stacks on top of all that comes before Intelligence seems to be: There's a start and an end and intelligence evolves the bridge between Yet on the other hand, where did the start and end come from? Evolved by intelligence also?

Furthermore, it is to realize that any impulse we feel is a pointer. We can grow addicted to circumstances or emotions themselves and try to mechanically recreate them but they are inherently pointers to navigate and explore the nature of experience.

Ah, yes, one can perceive the masculine and feminine aspects in reality but overidentifying with either causes many problems, in fact it seems that from whatever reference point we have adopted, the natural tendency should be to integrate the opposite. Of course everything is inherently united and what we really ought to work out, is what we are disconnected from. To quote Seth: "On some occasions, for example, the woman may go overboard and exaggerate female characteristics, in which case the animus or male within comes to her aid, bringing through dream experiences an onrush of knowledge that will result in compensating malelike reactions. The same applies to a male when he over-identifies with what he believes to be male characteristics, for whatever reason. The anima or woman within will rouse him to make compensating actions, causing an upsurge of intuitive abilities, bringing a creative element to offset aggressiveness. Ideally, left alone, these operations would result in a balance individually and en masse, where aggressiveness was always used creatively, as indeed it can and should be. The animus and the anima are, of course, highly charged psychically, but the origin of this psychic charge and the inner fascination are the result of a quite legitimate inner identification with these personified other-sex characteristics." And I can definitely see the connection of emotion and thought, they are often tried to be separated but are far better used united, yet both of them have to be understood and mastered as well. Sadhguru for example says it is both inherently merged, emotion being "juicy thought" and carrying greater momentum, both being connected to feeling.