Keryo Koffa

@LambdaDelta Is your recent absence related to this post by any chance?

Soon we'll have an "Are you AI?" captcha, because you're probably not ready to access what's behind this if you haven't transcended your humanity lol

@theleelajoker You are tuning yourself and others into aligned patterns so "the universe conspires to make desires happen through social interaction". But it can be a pain in the ass and it's time to set boundaries, have quality alone time and learn to balance your relationships and yourself, what you are and are not willing to do, learn to say no and integrate. The last weeks meant many awakenings, the balance of higher consciousness and everyday reality is in a dynamic living evolving homeostatic balance.

Does that come before or after subconscious reprogramming? ^^

Sure, why not. But include and transcend, there's infinite more and deeper associations where that came from. Also, using a single character instead of one and zero for ten is just cooler. Another massive inspiration is Alien X from Ben 10, which is an omnipotent entity that can change reality and do anything.

I know

I was afraid, couldn't see beyond, raging whirlwinds seemed like a final black hole singularity, persistent existential discomfort: I've reached the other end realizing the fabric of reality connects looping back around every strange loop in metamorphic evolution: @Davino And so the journey continues, now in curious exploration, having evolved through previous volatile desperation.

@RawJudah I'm sorry I'm wasting time with this comment. I just saw the main forum page and this was hilarious: "stage turquoise", then your profile picture being turquoise next to it.

@Salvijus Thanks for slapping sense into me, literally! lol

@Keryo Koffais a one of actualized.org prodigies. It's obvious that as soon has he or she started posting that they understand the full potential and can transcend the most advanced material of actualized.org. Keryo is the type of person Leo talks about who are naturally 8 feet tall, but in consciousness. Keryo is a Mozart while we are merely Mozart's classmates. It's great that us veterans ( @Princess Arabia @Salvijus etc) are here making sure he is ok, but Keyro is the type of person who we should support and watch the beautiful things he or she will do with consciousness and for the world. What is actualized.org of not a cradle for creating highly exceptional people that can change the world? Hope you are ok @Keryo Koffakeep exploring and I know we can expect good things from you. @Davino I haven't felt this flattered in my life! But from my perspective I just went so deep a week ago, that I could only save 10 things in the universe inside my conscious experience and had to let go over ever knowing the rest, so I prioritized as my senses dissolved volitionally, then out of these 10 I had to pick three, I did, then I had to let go over caring about the other 7, potentially forever, then I had to pick these 3 as if my life depended on it, to only be able to experience them and let go of everything else, then it was down to 1, I picked but realized that the universe expanded again because that thing related to others, I did the same with the others unless I reached 0, that night I counted to infinity in rhythmic patters and have the most uncomfortable experience imaginable, seeing what sight is made of and the swirls that bind reality and senses. Everything became this shape and it was everywhere, not just the space connected by color but the background also and yet the shape itself so persistent, I was being pulled into it and it was the source of discomfort, I tried hard and hard to forget it until I fulfilled every desire I could before I allowed release into death at which point I became it and was reborn: That was a total nightmare and yet when everything finally dissolved and I realized that I just accepted my life having ended and was still alive, I am now rebuilding in health both my earthly sensual experience and my spiritual self-exploration in art, world and dreams. And so I had to become everything to dissolve everything like this: To humorously jujitsu the hows and concerns of what I've done: To sum up how I'm currently feeling, here's a video link, I timestamped it to get to the exact moment I want to reference (10:16+):

@Salvijus The following video reminded me partly of you in the beginning and then a lot of me before I had calmed down the last days

someone would be them and they would dance of their own volition, unless they didn't want to which would also be someone's expanded decision. Someone has control to make oneself disappear or reconstruct one's own experience but to override another, one would have to become the other and conquer their ego barrier

No matter the perspective, no matter the level of solipsism, no matter the difference in attitudes and values, I've been here for close to a year and the discussions are fun and mind-expanding. Each of us enters with their own personality and humor, direction and goals, even if the goal is to have no goals. Even if the goal is to attain samadhi and leave this place. But this forum at this point feels like home, I feel massive joy talking to all of you. Leo has raised my awareness immensely and so did every single one of you, despite my own foolishness and problems. I just felt like expressing appreciation, I love you all. To mention some: Leo of course, An young being, Someone here, Javfly33, What Am I, Davino, Breakingthewall, A Fellow Lighter, Princess Arabia, James123, Water by the River, Schizophonia, Evelyna, Yimpa, Danioover9000, Salvijus, Razard86, MellowEd, Ishanga, OBEler. Thundercat, Thought Art, Paradoxed, enchanted, Jehovah, Hojo, Dodo, integral, tuku747, LastThursday, Inliytened1, theleelajoker, gettoefl, Osaid, Carl-Richard, DefinitelyNotARo, UnbornTao, Lila9, DianaFr and everyone left unmentioned that I did not spontaneously happen to remember despite the significance Maybe I'm being overly sentimental, maybe I'm stacking up too much karma, maybe I'm playing ego games, but from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Not that I'm leaving, although granted levels of consciousness, I might, but I don't know, I just feel very happy.

@Breakingthewall If you watch a tv show, how real are the characters, how real are we, each other and ourselves? Is it not conceivable that on a higher plane of awareness we are creating each other and ourselves for the experience, it does not take away the authentic evolution of our desires or the local realness of survival. Under psychedelics, it's like the pathway of light is being curved ever more with the doses until you become the singularity of self-reflecting thoughts, emotions, sensations and ego self-construction mechanisms, whose nature you can see through...

@eTorro The truth is immutable: you feel as you feel. And it's not upon you to pander to everyone, you got your own desires and boundaries, people get entangled in various concepts. And you not caring is just as if not more legit than others caring about some specific thing, so if they wanna talk 3 hours about it, an equally valid more on your side is just to say "I couldn't care less" and move on to something else. Else you really are betraying yourself and wasting your time, it's like being an artist working on an assembly line or as an accountant, or an esoteric science professor being dragged into clubbing and gym, or a bodybuilder athlete made to live a sedentary lifestyle. There's a spectrum of interests and everyone has their own, from the focal point we can expand into any direction but working against our body, mind and soul is a fools errand.

@James123 With enough consciousness, questions transform from why to why not?

@Schizophonia Aight! Well, I don't even know what do look for as anything can offer a new experience and ideas and desires come from the past and there is also the future. General health of course, everyone keeps talking about protein and some say meat is necessary, not in my experience, I seem to be getting by pretty well of fruits and veggies alone, with some yoghurt and dairy in the mix, tea too. I buy the supplements for just a few bucks each and they last weeks though I really just do so not to lack anything, for all I know I don't even know if I need them or protein or anything for that matter. I guess I need some raw materials for my body to utilize but to be honest I don't know to what degree self-placebo overrides the truth of what is and isn't essential or healthy and fasting sure expands one's senses.

@James123 What's the difference between an end and a beginning anyway?

what do you call this "you are just not aware of it."ness?

@Schizophonia I'm moving away from psychedelics and substances in general. Still got general supplements like omega 3, all the vitamins and minerals, collagen because why not. Since you have so much experience, can you give me some pointers to what foods, supplements are beneficial?

@Danioover9000 He does me the latter jreg, the construct-aware madlad post-post-meta-modern one. Here's a collab we did get fortunately, it's lovely at least those two get to meet up and make a long podcast:

@Davino @OBEler @Ishanga "It's not a phase, mom!" - they say 2 days before they change their mind. "SADHGURU! LEO! I'm Leo, I founded actualized.org" they keep shouting Don't worry, been there, done that, it'll pass! Look up cinema movie trailers, the all went meta and we get all the sequels we want, it's amazing, so chill out!

@Javfly33 Who needs jobs, we need to chill and explore art

Mastering Lucid Dreaming surely seems like the next step!