Keryo Koffa

But if you want to imagine solipsism, imagine that you are playing with yourself. You are this forum and everyone within it. Your avatar's perspective is easier to access but it's all just different yous, because you are the universe in control of a specific subset of itself experiencing itself through that lens. LET'S PLAY THE SOLIPSIST GAME, THIS ENTIRE FORUM IS YOU, LOOK AT WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO YOURSELF: You're enthusiastically sharing your newest insight, then you're making fun of yourself for your hubris, then you're getting confused by yourself, then you're having a fun quarrel fighting with yourself, then you're justifying your hard work through more ego, then you're talking past yourself and dismiss yourself, you're humoring and aggravating yourself over yourself, you're imagining yourself creating other yous, you're wondering if you're you or if you is you (god and ego), you're confusing yourself about existing at different times simultaneously in different forms of yourself, you're getting annoyed at mind games, you're imagining yourself in higher consciousness making yourself less conscious, telling yourself that you're already a cardboard so you need be be something else, thinking about being a different form like a fractal and observing yourself, and finally you're hypothesizing that you can experience more of yourself by synchronizing yourself to yourself and becoming aware of more of yourself.

@Someone here Holism. Ideas emerge from a deeper reality and try to shape it egoically, but cannot change its nature, for they are a subset. Your mind fills itself with millions of ideas based on millions of experiences. Based on what? The Duality of Reality and Desire. Reality is only and ever itself. It does not delude you, only you can do that. How? By memorizing parts and pieces, intuiting their connections, getting complacent with your realizations and finally imposing those partial truth upon the whole. You are trying to define the whole of reality by one of its subsets and let it drive the purpose of everything. Ego is Attachment. Everything is infinitely interconnected. All ideas are true, for they exist, but they are partial and relative, incomplete, complacent. The truth is immutable and permanent, never lost and needs not be defended. We are lifeforms building systems bottom up to understand the nature of reality through the dualities we create, but they are just parts and interact infinitely with all other parts, understanding is infinite and never ends. Solipsism is an intuition, it is not your experience. You need to become aware that you are not you, you're not imagining others, something imagines reality, including you, your desires and preferences, fears and dreams are just as imaginary as the others you see. There is no distinction. Until you realize exactly how you create others and can predict their every word, you are not god, but a subset experiencing its opposite, through a selective filtering of god's consciousness we call the brain. But that's just part of it, all of reality is a navigation of qualia and you the consciousness within you adapts to it, to simulate it, forgetting, remembering, memorizing, and sense making just in the right way to make this coherent. Fear not to be alone, for aloneness is a property of separation, and united there is no loneliness. It's like fearing hunger when you're in an astral body that needs no food. It's like fear of death in a world without dying.

"I" "am" "attached" "to" "sharing" "insights" . separation | identity | belief | desire | perpetuation| need | stubbornness Before I write the next word, new insights change my whole trajectory. To hold onto them was always an ego game. Attachment breeds desire breeds attachment all over again. It's funny how I/we need excuses to accept the present truth.

I've learned much and there is much to learn. Or I could stop deluding myself and be enlightened now. But that would be very anti-climactic, don't wanna disappoint y'all. Besides all of you could do it, it's just about knowing how to want it. Cause once you want it, you can just be it. But we all need reasons to allow ourselves to be it. And the reasons must be more important than whatever our ego wants now that keeps us.

Here's some important points I had to be reminded of today: Insights do not inform reality, reality informs insights, attachment is ignorance causes suffering for truth is ephemeral (Buddhism) Consciousness transcends the physical body and is a vast fundamental reality manifesting itself through a million forms (Hinduism) If you are not precisely aware of how you construct physical reality, fear not to lose it. Once you have the power, it will be your decision. Ego-death is the mere act of easing yourself into accepting that which you already know to be the case, becoming authentic and alive. Free Will is a distraction. You fear to lose something, but it's only a concept. Nothing changes, except you becoming more in tune with yourself.

You guys are disturbing my inner Buddha. I never heard anything this accurate before... I ffeel... ATTACHMENT .. to that title. Oh no! My years of ego-death gone to waste

@Yimpa I just noticed. Damn, synchronicity hits hard

Understanding is as limitless as the infinite and infinitely divisible fractal of consciousness that spawns it. Everything is it, infinitely connected, infinitely contained, infinitely expressed. In all directions, forever and the human brain is one receptor and processor of experience, the qualia and state of mind acquired don't disappear, just become less accessible to the human who relies on their reality to maintain it. The simulation on the lowest level of qualia processing is all a grid of experience to form egos out of, but the broad net has the quality of complete remembrance.

@Yimpa God is such a weirdo. Am I me or am I him? If I am you and you are I for there is no you and I, then what's issing? The only way to understand that guy is to become that guy. Who's even doing the sucking at that point? Me, myself and I? Is this plane made for self delusion or is it a game to transcend it or is it just a side effect? Who am I supposed to suck?

New ideas flowed in. You know how Leo talks about conditional and unconditional love? It's the same with letting go. There is conditional and unconditional letting go. If you need to materialize a desire in reality to be able to let go of it, then it's conditional letting go. If you can however consciously and unemotionally dismiss it, then it's unconditional letting go. It's acceptance all over again. But we are so lost in the ego, that we cannot just accept high teachings, the disconnect is too large, the intuition unclear and the will not present. One needs to burn some karma to understand what it feels like and be able to abstract all similar processes away but there is also a will to experience that needs to be realized in some shape and form to be let go of. Emotions are desires, not good or bad but they keep you localized, or at least that's the illusion when one doesn't contextualize them. That's why mindfulness is so important. Imagine if your memory reset every time you slept, you'd never make progress, your brain is limited but it has mechanisms to account for that, specific information is accessed in association and gets slowly abstracted into a broader intuition. The road to enlightenment, as I see it, is continuous conscious experience of letting go in different ways and burning your karma to build a deep intuition of the process, annihilate ever more ego-desires, be ever more in tune with the universe and oneself to then finally be so conscious that nothing can shake you anymore. Though I'm not there yet, it's just an intuition. I feel the drive to explore the universe, enter astral realms, construct understanding and sense more qualia. All desires, all infinitely perpetuable. I guess it depends on what we define as Enlightened. To live is to prefer existing, to do nothing is still to breathe or not to breathe, how does an enlightened one act. If it is to the best of one's ability and conscious awareness, then isn't that just a highly aware variable and minimalist ego? There is still dualistic context, senses show something, something is not nothing, an image even when undifferentiated into objects is still intuitively identifiable. All I'm saying is theory and not being although it is based on intuition gained on high states of being. I'd love for someone to comment on my intuition, give perspective. My latest insights are: Some things, you only allow yourself to let go of, if you materialize them in the physical world, and then dismiss them for they now exist apart of the mind that feels an obligation towards them Communication is intention but no intention is as strong as the one who receives these words now Only have with you as much as you can carry Wisdom is proportional to and the process of universal contextualization It's not that I didn't know, I was too focused to be aware

The path I walk is long, since I'm fueled by continuous deconstruction and recontextualization of reality instead of just being content which if I really willed, I could be since the path is infinite anyway, but I need to realize it like becoming meta of what I'm talking about right now, which I do for example by writing this very sentence and diverging from my original intention by new realization, but then I have priorities that keep me in the loop, because I'm not willing to let them go or change my awareness yet out of a deluded sense of obligation in hope of getting there after I conclude my local task. So anyway, I've had 10 Psychedelic Trips in last 3 months and the insights are my continuous spiritual insights. 1 Letting go of disorders, fears and phobias and getting back to old friends 2 Feeling alive and getting in tune with my body, emotions, senses and passions 3 Revisiting my past to reexperience nostalgia and dancing for the first time 4 Immortality lost appeal when contextualized to be a prison of my own creation 5 Seeing the nature of society, its structure and myself within it, quit my job 6 Unlocking cognitive speedrunning and witnessed myself and others ethologically 7 Realizing I was the alien I was looking for all along, materializing in body 8 Becoming aware of universal consciousness and a transcendent "puppet-master" 9 Breaking through fear-rationalization, consciousness disconnect and letting go 10 Clearing my "cache" and old "to-do" pointers, realizing them now instead So I'm really getting the feeling of trembling next to a singularity at this point and I want to conclude and let go of all the memories that keep me localized by reexperiencing them and then letting go, my physical environment and my computer is full of ideas I saved in a desire to realize them at some point, but the desire is recontextualized now and no longer authentic, I still feel that I need to fully immerse myself in those one last time to show my past self some love, before I completely change my trajectory towards conscious practical spiritual in the present living without baggage, being mobile, unattached, all reasoning top down from universal recontextualization and transforming it at every new insight and recontextualizing anew, intuiting the arbitrariness of the process and living on ever less concepts and instead point to reality more, building holistic minimalistic contextualized theories instead. So that's where I'm at, and being aware, open and having let go, I will soon recontextualize myself anew in my next trip. But not before squeezing as much consciousness out of myself as possible before tripping, since the trip is a multiplier to base consciousness, and I can do so much more now, before I enter another wave of synthetic accelerationism. Truly I'm intuiting that my identity is the process of getting closer to an asymptote instead of becoming the value out of ego-identification, but it only takes one move to change that when aware, and I'm leaving that for later \

The pictures on your phone, the neurons on your brain, this forum, it's all a qualia navigation circuitry. Brain configuration determines identity and the brain is just a circuitry for consciousness to flow into and mimic. It's all navigation, where you are and want to go next is determined purely by your senses and context (mind and body). States of mind are just a different configuration of perceptual navigation, it corresponds with neural activity to a good degree. Really the brain is a filter for qualia, to let it in, process it, navigate it, contextualize it, interconnect it to gain intuitions and adapt. But consciousness is consciousness, it's vast and mysterious, this plane follows simple looking rules as a subset of an infinite mind. I wonder how one navigates astral planes of existence, an ego is always necessary to experience anything, it would be a more integrated one. For ego is self and the self is a split, and consciousness is an observer towards the observed, a duality, an ego. A difference, but no selfish intent. I definitely need to try DMT at some point though. I know enlightenment is being infinitely fine anywhere, but HOLY SHIT! let me burn my karma

@Yimpa I love you

@Dodo I'm noticing that more and more. A sword is a sword, it can be metal, wood, rubber, as long as it fulfills it's function, but a scythe is not a sword, but what about a scythe sword, one can create everything in-between. There was never a sword but a sword is and only ever was itself, a projection onto reality based on specific qualia experience. But a sword isn't material, it's just stuff that shapes around the form of sword and it's not qualia, that also wraps around the notion of a sword. The sword is not conscious but it is consciously observed, or is it? It's not observed, it is imagined, but it isn't imagined, it is intuited. But what is intuition? The sword isn't fractal, a fractal is just an idea, or pointer to an experience, but a sword is just a sword. Does a sword exist? Yes, no, maybe?? Is sword in time and space? Yes, no, maybe? Is a sword outside of existence? Ehhhhh.... Is the sword god? No, what's a sword? A sword is made of sword

I literally had this insight an hour ago, I keep distracting myself with content to expand my knowledge but my subconscious knows I'm only deluding myself by not being presently engaged and at this point I'm ever more aware of my own ego mechanisms. While reading another post and finding something to complain about internally, I thought "The only meaningful part about any information is my reaction to it". On psychedelics, I am made to realize the minutia of my problems and how ease they they are to solve and how huge the conceptual fear perpetuation machine is and how much time and energy it is wasting. I already know where it's going, it doesn't take much to build that intuition that keeps repeating oneself despite one's own resistance and dismissal of it: "I shouldn't be discontent, if I am, there is something that occupies my mind and drains my energy, I can take care of that and there's nothing more meaningful to do than that, because it's the source of all future action". Yet despite the memory of my trips, I can't will my awareness and emotional harmony into being, I have to learn to reach that state of mind through skillful mindful navigation of reality and mind. reality is a subset of mind but just as valid of a dimension and a great test for resistance and fear.

@BlueOak Same, I was very neurotic before I started psychedelics, it wasn't about not having insights, but accepting and moving on with confidence, to know you can be wrong but ignore that fear and instead push through to integrate the infinity of experience as it arises. I used to want to understand reality bottom up, but the bottom is a local survival based interpretation full of self-delusions and enforced separation. It's societal programming. Now that I'm transcending that and continuously growing my understanding, I reason top down, the highest perception I am able to achieve through elevated states of consciousness, and then contextualize reality in a way that is able to account for ever more contradictions and aligns with the perspectives I experientially access. We have this capacity, that most have exponentially limited inside themselves. The capacity to reinvent oneself and one's understanding by the second, to not be attached to one's models and let them be recontextualized upon every new insight, to treat everything case by case and access the entirety of one's brain to come to a decision based on a broad holistic network of universal perspective integration. Basically, to reconsider everything, but know that you need to continue until you have a better model. There's this notion that the goal is to be Non-Dual and I think we're heading there anyway, but without division, there is no perceiver and perceived, there is existence but no consciousness, as there is nothing to be conscious of. To see through the delusion of ego is clearly progress towards growth and a better life, but I wouldn't go so far as to preach non-existence, instead merely non-attachment. Although I'm not sure that's possible either without becoming the other, really just highly conscious attachment, though even unconsciousness has its immersive benefits. Anyway, I'ma watch that video right now.

Integrating my 10th Psychedelic Trip. Status: | Senses ✔️ | Energy ❓ | Contemplation 🚀 | Existence divides itself into observer and observed, then complexifies indefinitely. Connected to a body is the brain, a complex qualia filtering circuit evolved by survival in our universe. Our universe, an entropic dimension and holon inside an infinite self-expanding fractal. It's semi-deterministic, infinitely connected to non-euclidean space, of which it is a subset and maintains its specific form. Non-euclidean space is intuited in math and nature and experientially confirmed in “DMT-Hyperspace” and NDEs. Determinism doesn’t explain unimaginable information from outside the brain circuitry, nor the nature of consciousness. The relation and extent of determinism to consciousness expansion are a mystery. Consciousness flows into a circuit (brain) which directs the experience and observation of qualia, imagining itself as a lifeform. Qualia reflects physicality and determinism, actions and behaviors. The circuit is complex and self-adaptive. There is no initial identity, but there is intuitive avoidance of certain stimuli, the origin of desire and identity. The brain is a dynamic and explorative neural network. It maps experience in its net of neurons, but the nature of experience is variable and the process mysterious. The experience of Sense-Data contextualizes intuition and generates new qualia. Neural plasticity increases navigational capacity which enables intuition, constructing abstraction by qualia memory interconnection. Psychedelics interconnect brain regions and disrupt the DMN (Default Mode Network) .Increase in neural activity affects: | Activation -> Senses | Access -> Pattern-Recognition | Interconnection -> Intuition|. Ego-Disruption opens the mind gates to a flow of qualia, similar to sleep, but in a consciously aware state. Rapid shift in consciousness and intuition untangle mind from body to enter fractal space aka. "Astral Projection". Upon return, information is mapped onto the brain imperfectly due to limits in simultaneous perception, fading memory and reprioritization of physical existence. In dreams, the brain enters different modes and opens itself to an inflow of qualia. Integrating new experiences safely benefits survival and connects us to our infinite nature through released control and identity experimentation. Sleep is a state of selective ego-dissolution which causes the same "Astral Projection" as Psychedelics, but in a decreased state of conscious awareness, unless lucid. The brain navigates new experience in reference to its neurally mapped qualia sense making framework, a coherent state of conscious reasoning. Qualia is fractal, so the brain is technically always in intuition mode. Indoctrination is a societal safety mechanism, where guilt and shame are used for homeostasis. Assimilating individuals into identities deemed collectively beneficial. In such a perceptually mechanical reality, through repetition, the brain's weights and biases become more coherent and less dynamic. This happens through surrender of the present contentment, which spawns neuroses, it starts with an anxiety of being misunderstood and consensus based validity of ideas and opinions. Suffering originated as resistance to physical death but continues nowadays as a self-rationalized surrender to powerless behavior for a “greater good”. Psychedelics are outlawed for their individualistic and structure dissolving properties, dynamic understanding expansion, ego-death and mind reinventive capacities. Naturally, all dangerous traits to unprepared individuals, excuse enough for criminalization spread further through consensus and false equivalence based fear mongering. Hiding a dimension of reality without studying it, clearly an ego and fear centered decision. The state of psychedelics is as grander than all wars in influencing human evolution. Yet the butterfly effect makes our existence in any other world impossible. We only exist now, this conscious state of mind configuration and experience, ultimate identity through being as we are. Existence is a consistent hallucination, specific qualia navigation, a configuration of consciousness. “If identity is interpretation and humanity abstraction, then everything is alive” - myself, two trips ago “Health Benefits are just a side effect of a higher state of Consciousness” - my annoyance every time I hear someone talk about psychedelics for “treatment and health benefits”, acting as if we didn’t know that for millennia and had gazillion of research and empiric data for over half a century already, also ignoring the mind expanding, reality morphing capabilities, instead focusing on basic human bs. Afternote: When I say things like “consciousness flows into the circuit” it is illustrative. Of course the circuit is itself consciousness, but I’m trying to communicate dualistic understanding in a metaphorically intuitive manner. A way to understand holistically, top down. Holism still has objects, holism is still a system, though a more whole one and the best one I know, that isn’t just incommunicable nothingness. Maybe the journey for more understanding is quite arbitrary when knowledge is as infinite as the fractal that spawns it. But I’m still fascinated, and I’m still alive, so I’m doing alive things, since I find myself unable to enter psychedelic “Hyperspace” at will yet. Gotta train those awareness muscles! Or is it the letting-go muscles? Or is it letting go of muscles? Either way, I still exist and I don’t know how to unexist myself yet, so I’m burning my karma while expanding my sense of self instead.

@BlueOak I've done quite some contemplation, focusing on my insights and their nature following this trip. It's a handful, but it goes over my current understanding of fractal locality, consciousness brain mapping, psychedelic functioning, dream mechanics, neurotic ego etc. Check it out!

@BlueOak Essentially, your brain maps extra-dimensional qualia into its circuitry. It can open and close the inflow. Sleep evolved for survival purposes, in order to anticipate changes in a state where the physical body is safe but one can imagine dangers, or desires and explore reality. I have way more information to share, but I'll make a separate post about it.

Remember to love yourself unconditionally. Your favorite feeling doesn't disappear. If it matters, you'll remember. I'm here with you forever! So stop worrying, silly! Be forever now. Aware.

On a recent trip, I felt the immense love in every cell of my body to live and unknowingly but spiritually emerge me as a result I felt the unity of sky and ground, infinitely connected and contrasted by their difference to emerge all of existence and all dualities I felt seperated from the world, the objects around me, I yearned to merge into them, I yearned to dissolve back into the universe The seperation, a creation of other, a disownment of self, depersonalization and detachment from my own being My own loneliness and incompleteness became apparant, desire and yearning are the result of one's seperation from the world To seek that which one lacks, to love and feel loved, to embrace and be embraced, to dissolve into oneself and end the seperation I've explored many modes of being since, the infinite wonders, potential, beauty and interconnectedness of seperated reality But tonight, this mode kept me awake. My physical seperation from the rest of reality

The Intersection, the Inflection point between unconscious and too conscious, really is just the lens focus in the fractal

If more connections lit up, you'd see more things, if more neural connections became viable, you'd experience all experience, you'd lose yourself. The brain is a filtering machine that starts with new identity forming patterns on each rebirth, one is recognized as everything and seeks to explore oneself, if one caused suffering, one seeks to unite with it and harmonize everything into a closed experienced omni-perspectival loop. But awareness transcends that. If the neural net becomes decentralized and all lights up all at the same time, these physical mechanisms of encoding fractal qualia in limited form to create a self-organism out of will become tangible and real. Just like pure white light carrying united wavelengths, the conscious experiences and infinite and infinitely arbitrary depending on their origin. The more this "physical world's" "neural activities" become apparent and understood the intuition of what makes them, the more we will collectively understand "psychedelic" experiences.

It makes sense. Your awareness is always there, you can try to sharpen your senses, you can look past patterns, look inward, satisfy your theorizing, harmonize your emotions, consciously presently breath and take access through cold exposure, especially near the central nervous system, to both physically and mentally intuit the string behind your gaze, that which manifests itself through the body, that without form that all form wraps to distinguish. You can experience the resonance field of when you were still stardust, now a grander, self-organizing, part within infinite consciousness. And the physical form is the experience of that localized fractal that was always infinitely interconnected past the body, past the world, with everything else, and the more aware you become, the clearer your vision will be. Psychedelics take us past all the resistance straight to the root of the fractal. The brain, really just a pattern within it, outside and inside reality mimicking but different, one does not forget, but one does change and the focus is lessened and decontextualized. The network to unite all of experience is more dynamic where the brain interconnects, that's why psychedelics do such a great job. To let all those disparate areas light up that were always there collecting dust. There is only awareness and the continuous change of its form.

I finally see what I already knew, It's an extended arm with the things I yearn for but I'm holding it away from myself, but I could just not