Keryo Koffa

Conscious response-ability actually is very liberating, it recontextualizes all situations as an endeavor one chooses to engage in and makes one delve deeper into why the reasons for doing so. When one is unaware, judgements and beliefs can form and be attributed to situations and behaviors being implied to have an objective immutable basis. But as one delves deeper, it transitions from "life is x,y,z" or "x,y,z made me do it" or "x,y,z is responsible for making me feel that way" or "I have no choice" etcetc, to "I chose to do x because I believe it leads to or avoids y, which I find meaningful because I believe z". As often said, the past is past and the present is the origin of agency and new behavior, following one's understanding and will. You may not be able to determine the conditions you are in, but you can look for ways to change them, make the best of them or be at peace, either way resistance usually implies one is missing something in one's current understanding.

@Heaven Hell is being stuck in judging and comparing creatures and creating an ideology of one being superior

What I'd add to that is a pointer in the form of "left and right brain hemispheres", reason and intuition. During psychedelics, our state of mind desolidifies and enters the deeper immaterial realm, but we're not there when sober, and the reason for that would be, that we still haven't worked out all the things that keep us grounded and reconciled them. I believe we can have the best of both worlds but need to reconcile and transcend the duality of material/spirit but it takes deconstruction and emotional mastery, in order to learn how to wield that power. To do so, we must change our basic patterns and transition through ego-backlash and authentically deal with all the limitations to bridge those states of mind and become more open and receptive to change, but not through force, but insight. And all world religions already point to these experiences, all art and poetry does as well, all kinds of new age phenomena, astral projection, schizophrenia, the fact that we dream and everything else also. But we have erected psychological and psychic barriers towards that freedom in the shape of identities, relationships, attachments, material desires and these form their own homeostasis that we have to transcend in order to purify and consecrate ourselves to uncover the mist that surrounds us and prevents us from being naturally psychedelic.

@Javfly33

Some observations I just made watching some videos and reading related posts: The more detached you are from the outcome the more intelligent you can become, think of chess Simultaneously, desire attracts its future fulfillment and drives evolution, the means is dynamic It seems intelligence always opens new doorways and also stacks on top of all that comes before Intelligence seems to be: There's a start and an end and intelligence evolves the bridge between Yet on the other hand, where did the start and end come from? Evolved by intelligence also?

Furthermore, it is to realize that any impulse we feel is a pointer. We can grow addicted to circumstances or emotions themselves and try to mechanically recreate them but they are inherently pointers to navigate and explore the nature of experience.

Ah, yes, one can perceive the masculine and feminine aspects in reality but overidentifying with either causes many problems, in fact it seems that from whatever reference point we have adopted, the natural tendency should be to integrate the opposite. Of course everything is inherently united and what we really ought to work out, is what we are disconnected from. To quote Seth: "On some occasions, for example, the woman may go overboard and exaggerate female characteristics, in which case the animus or male within comes to her aid, bringing through dream experiences an onrush of knowledge that will result in compensating malelike reactions. The same applies to a male when he over-identifies with what he believes to be male characteristics, for whatever reason. The anima or woman within will rouse him to make compensating actions, causing an upsurge of intuitive abilities, bringing a creative element to offset aggressiveness. Ideally, left alone, these operations would result in a balance individually and en masse, where aggressiveness was always used creatively, as indeed it can and should be. The animus and the anima are, of course, highly charged psychically, but the origin of this psychic charge and the inner fascination are the result of a quite legitimate inner identification with these personified other-sex characteristics." And I can definitely see the connection of emotion and thought, they are often tried to be separated but are far better used united, yet both of them have to be understood and mastered as well. Sadhguru for example says it is both inherently merged, emotion being "juicy thought" and carrying greater momentum, both being connected to feeling.

The following will be a pointerful description from which you are to interpret the singular focus and theme. To realize as its own holon and name the ability and activity of directly accessing and realizing the pointed to source which unites, correlates and contextualizes so much of one's activity and thought. The act of realizing the source of a duality, the non-dual pointed to "thing" behind it around which everything manifests. Imagine studying tons of mathematical concepts but not having the label of Mathematics and not realize the substrate that binds all the different areas. To realize as its own thing the fundamental question whose inquiry leads to the manifestation of all concepts and understandings. The act of inquiry itself, meta inquiry, source. That which I point to is the ability and mental faculty to realize that there is something that all knowledge gravitates around and that gives rise to all conceptual pointers that point to it but are not it. And in that realization, attempting to access that source directly. Pointers to describe that activity: God, Source, Non-Duality, Meta, Unity, Pointed To, Context, Source of the Context But most importantly: DIRECT EXPERIENCE But beyond that, there needs to be sufficient context to question the source and interconnectedness of and unite all that data, see where it springs, what causes emotions to materialize, and then going meta on the emotion itself, and then go meta on the source of all emotions, and then go meta on the source of metaness itself, and then go meta on that This is what Awakening is, to realize a deeper context as its own thing, the access and realization of which recontextualizes everything Now, how does one become aware of such? Consciousness! Levels of consciousness! Awareness, Inquiry, Intuition, Pattern Recognition, Psychedelics, Authenticity, Openness, Radical Open-Mindedness, All the titles of all of Leo's videos, navigating all the videos in chronological order and realizing the source of the evolution of the topics Leo talks about and realize through Direct Experience the reason for all of them and all of Leo's experiences he's pointing to.

YES! I am currently in the middle of a three step process: Dismantling old belief systems with the help of arising emotions that point me to them, concentration and meditation in the present and an ever growing desire for exploring the mystery of life. As you speak about the eternal, transcendental aspect, I am deeply engaged in exploring it and letting go of everything that keeps me from connecting to it, there's a channel I started watching that delves deeply into the topic. And regarding the bread crumbs, that in and of itself I realized is extremely profound and I made a post about that.

I've reached an equilibrium with Dissociatives. I've done much of the theoretical groundwork through binging actualized.org videos and emotional awareness and then used them to dissolve and equalize otherwise rigid subconscious karmic attitudes and operate from a clear frame of mind again. Now with all these barriers down, I am tempted to increase my overall awareness and explore the morphing experiential, sensual and metaphysical nature of raw consciousness again and expand my frame of mind. I'd like some suggestions, practices you found to be deeply meaningful in your experience, pointers to philosophical self-understanding, emotional mastery, physical exercises, yogic scriptures, breath techniques. And also I'd like for you to tell me about the most scary trips and nightmares you know of, for me to process, face, experience and make peace with before and as a preparation for the trip to push my limits now and then experientially integrate them. In fact, can you list me significant milestones from your journeys for me to contemplate, pointers to focus on, and ego-defense mechanisms to learn about? Can you list me sensations to focus on when tripping and ideas, perspectives and paradigms to integrate? Why do I wanna trip / use psychedelics? To accelerate, expand and intensify my perception and dissolve boundaries, to expand the understanding of what I am and am capable of experiencing, to explore the nature of reality that would otherwise take very long. Now, if instead you know other practices without the need for psychedelics that can do that, then I welcome these whole-heartedly. It's just that travelling the world or interacting with the external environment, while being a great horizontal expansion, doesn't go into the depth and detail of my experience, which is what I really seek, to intensify present experience and uncover unaware biases.

@Evelyna It's that I feel resistance that appears to lead to a contraction of energy and I could just ignore and act despite it, but I find that it actually is a pointer to reconcile a deeper belief from my past which has deeply shaped my experience. And I seek to get to the bottom of it and unearth it, and I have had mystical experiences before and I could even see how they transcend my paradigms, but it's not enough for me to let go. I feel the need to delve into those paradigms and find those contradictions in order to fully be at peace, to reconcile. Now, I have been working on accelerating this process and making it more direct, gaining momentum and working on higher layers of abstraction, to get to the root cause, which the dismantles all smaller assumptions. As you suggest, I am working on installing new programs as well, as the shamanic element of Mystery being a key focus. I feel my learning accelerates and I am quite surprised by the pace, on one hand it is the lack of previous resistance, on the other it is being attuned to the present, then also it is a growing desire and energy to explore and it feels great. I take your advice to heart, I am integrating various perspectives and both the Yogic as well as Shamanic dimension are part of it.

@What Am I Amazing pointer. I remember this being the center of my previous experiences, that energy that continuously flows through me animating my behavior and vitalizing my body and form. What is often referred to as ego-death, I feel is a type of overpowering cleansing energy, that regenerates oneself from the inside out, shedding previous attachments and beliefs. I will actively focus on those inner feelings and combine meditation and concentration with focus on the inner sensations.

I hold many unconscious beliefs that create stress in my daily life. The act of philosophy, journaling and posting lets me achieve a higher perspective, become aware and reframing those beliefs that cause me trouble and discomfort I am working on that, just figuring out what keeps me from being fully open to it

Imagine you're the surface of the ocean, from outside the ocean, one can observe waves, but from the perspective of the ocean, there is only one surface, no matter the local shape, from the absolute point of view, it's perfectly level. It's kinda strange, cause the surface of a sphere is really level from its own point of view and dimension, it takes a whole other dimension to loop it around and see a distortion. All this to say, when you are everything and everyone and your ego also, you are not alone, even though you're a singular thing overall, but nothingness has no room for judgements and infinity has room for all contradictory judgements simultaneously rendering them arbitrary. Now on another layer, you might imply that you're the singular source of your experience, that you are an entity who creates others but is itself objective, but that doesn't really make sense since you are a creation of yourself also, including the distinction, including your mental ideas, including the notion of individuality and collective, to even say you are 1 is really an arbitrary focus since you are 0 and ∞ also, you are whole. And as long as you believe yourself to be an absolute entity simulating reality, you hold that distinction, but its an arbitrary one, you dissolved the notion of others but not that of self, now you believe that there are others and simultaneously that they don't exist, but if you actually believed there were no others, then you couldn't access that as a concept to feel lonely through.

For example: I take responsibility for having posted this in the wrong sub. I engage in so many spiritual topics that posting here has become the default. Now that I am aware of it, I will pay more attention. Though one can say all topics are spiritually connected, just kidding.

@An young being The way I see it, there is a personal and collective reality. Psychedelics tune you out of the collective and into the personal, they reveal how you construct your experience, which of course includes the collective one inside of it. Actually affecting the collective reality on a material level however does not usually work and I would ascribe the reason to it being a self-limiting reality where the will, belief and agency of others creates certain barriers and its own limitations, unable to be affected from personal experience alone, even though it is in a feedback loop with it, the intake of information might be unobstructed, but the expression of energy outwards has certain barriers and might be limited by having to pass through the barriers of the body. One's consciousness might exists beyond the body on higher layers irregardless and affect the body top down, but there might be a certain energetic limitation based on the nature of the collective world which makes it hard to manifest oneself because it would easily break all illusions. It's like switching between different vibrations of energy with some subtly affecting others, but also passing through each other and not being able to just influence each other directly but through vessels and less direct means to uphold the integrity of our reality.

I agree, that is the extreme end of the dichotomy however and I think she is fed up with the act itself of seeing the world in black and white and demonizing or renouncing materialistic desires, instead of seeing them more holistically and exploring the material world more open-heartedly. When conscious, you can experience and enjoy material experience for what it is without falling into the need for endless expansion of the same phenomena, you can enjoy buying and driving a car being fully aware that such an experience is available to different degrees and different extents, but without the compulsive need to experience an ever growing quantitative difference. Though I would describe this awareness as a spiritual process itself, as many fall into neurotic chasing. The same trap does exists with spiritual pursuits however and creating a spiritual ego, though ideally it would lead one to be more aware and holistic. In a way, we can chase an endless expansion of states of consciousness and enjoyment can be found and experienced anywhere. The material world after all is a reflection of the immaterial and part of it.

Dogs are such bundles of joy! Your post really made me more aware and appreciative of all the dogs throughout my life. They're almost like an ideal, so playful and direct. I've lost touch with the present experience in the last years and now I realize the value as I regain it. I still seek to understand larger contexts, but even that I can now transmute into an experiential reality, thinking has its limits and there's no reason to focus on it standalone, which I've previously subconsciously done, as it flows and is interconnected with one's experience, emotions and everything else.

@Evelyna The amount of empathy and love I feel emanating from you is amazing, the way you write is very open and explorative. I've recently stumbled onto the topic of Non-Violent Communication in a post and realized many patters and its value, Leo's videos also helped me grow. I'm deeply appreciative of your encouragement and reflect it back at you also.

@Princess Arabia Hmm, we do seek the feeling, though Spirituality might also seek to understand more directly what it is and how to reach it, it's goal is to become more aware. But Spirituality comes in various forms and even through Materialism, we can experience the feeling, though we may lack the understanding that it is in fact a feeling that we seek and might confuse the objects we identify as the means of reaching it to be innately inseparable from the feeling itself. To me, it's like peeling back layers of the onion but of course each is made of onion. In a way I would say, Materialism is a part of Spirituality, its most outer layer, feelings here are realized the same way as on any other layer, since it's all the same onion, but Spirituality seeks to remove resistance and get to the source to make the process of chasing emotions itself more pleasant and direct. Though there's no objective reason not to find fulfillment in Materialism and ultimately life is an exploratory process of experiencing, no matter which layer.

The way I understand it, focus obscures vision, though everything is available here to be realized already. It's like seeing an environment of objects but not being able to distinguish them, though here its probably the opposite.

@AerisVahnEphelia Let me be the first to counter-intuitively support your endeavor. In my experience, aligning psychedelics with your actual life can be very meaningful and transformative or even to create further experiential depth. I took them outside while I was in a bad mood before and they tuned me into the reality around me, dissolved all my judgements, and made me blissful in any activity. Though depending on one's awareness, some might experience a bad trip but even those have their lessons as long as one doesn't lose awareness itself due to heroic doses. Go with your Gut, everyone's individual and many here swing too far on the pendulum in their beliefs about self-regulation, uniform dosing curves and the safety/purpose based setting of trips, which can actually contract one's paradigm and possible experience. Start small, if you feel that's right, the experience will definitely tell you about your current life, how you see and feel about it, maybe it will tell you something new or confirm it, psychedelics are great to gain a meta perspective.

I see what you mean now, well maybe, maybe I need further clarification. Let me draw some distinctions: There is the ego, current perception, moment to moment awareness. Unaware of the greater context. I have an idea of a Godhead. The non-dual capital M Mind that contains all possible experience. And then Ego is a subset of the Godhead. An particular manifestation of experience and form within it. The Godhead would then contain also the subconscious with contextualizes the flow and change of perception. Did you become the Godhead to the extent that you saw the exact mechanics of the subconscious processes? Because I am aware of but have not experientially witnessed how that intelligence creates my experience Science and philosophy uncover connecting patterns, but I'm yet to witness directly the unfiltered process Now you might say the present experience is already it, but I believe that because my senses and cognition focus me into the specific reality I witness, there are greater meta forces behind it that are hard to become aware of but can be.

I do not follow. My direct experience is consistently morphing and changing. There might be a timeless infinite substrate from which it originates, but the experience itself is always in flux, hinting at a further dimension unobserved. Think of a pink elephant, now a red and blue one, now the pink one's gone, now it's back, you do not know what I will say next until I do. Are you saying the universe itself disappears when you don't look at it, where does it come from then when you do, where was it before? Does it pop in and out of existence? I merely see it obscured.