Keryo Koffa

@Javfly33 A thought came to me "there is nothing you are not"

Got it! There's space for everything. I'm not saying differences don't form valid expressions in identity. I am biased towards deconstruction over exploration. But I've seen women suppress their masculine and men their feminine characteristics before, quite artificially and to their detriment. There is much variety in expression and what you're drawn towards usually is based on aspects you lack within yourself. I saw Yang's video you posted, it's quite beautiful to see and embrace sexuality without lenses. Sorry for the rambling, it was out of context, everything has its place.

Actions speak louder than words, we take adults for granted just like science experts, but if you're emotionally attuned you can pinpoint the source of behavior and see more clearly rather than assuming by labels and constructs how people are

@enchanted I'm 23 and have lived my life shifting through various emotions of great intensity. As a child I have been sentimental and attuned to life and pets and people, I grew up when the internet, technology and video games grew in popularity, yet I lived in rural areas, I got to experience a 50/50 split of both worlds. I've carried a great sense of loneliness being an only child and being on my own, though I've also experienced times of immense joy and friendship. I have always contemplated everything deeply and this also led to great amounts of anxiety and overthinking. I spent my late teenage years in nature and past that worked two years in excruciatingly monotonous jobs. I started my psychedelic journey in September last year and transcended so much, I've become a whole nother person since, though its really the progress of acceleration. I've been drawing for many years now and am learning how to code, currently I am experimenting with making animation and video games. What accelerated my journey is Leo, Sadhguru and Seth, though I'm always soaking in whatever content I can find at 4.5x watch speed and it's not fast enough with thousands if not millions of unique lessons and experiences that took lifetimes of other people to learn. I'm integrating as much as I can with the multiple dimensions of yoga, books written by channeled entities, life advice from all stages, exploration of life through art like movies, series, books, deliberately looking for the tones I'm drawn to and delving ever deeper into shadow work and epistemology to bring out all within myself that distorts my perception. As Leo said, this is massive work and I've made so many posts and been journaling for so long, that it would probably amount to countless books, but I've got no time for that, every new perspective recontextualizes the whole, AI is not creating frameworks fast enough, I've learned to trust my brain to keep track of everything as I learn new frameworks to organize it, I've been practicing visualization and I've been practicing yoga and yet every time I meditate or go for a psychedelic/dissociative trip everything gets recontextualize to the point that I wonder if I've been fooling around and wasting my time, but I then remind myself of what I've been doing every minute every hour and realize I'm always progressing and standing on the shoulders of giants and my own. Where am I going? I seek to integrate all information of the world into a coherent framework in myself and organize it in a way that simplifies it elegantly, I seek to create art and create stories and AI will certainly help in that. I want to keep myself open and maybe explore the world. I am letting go continuously, doing shadow work and inquiring towards self-actualization. And I'm working to balance all that. Honestly, I wouldn't be here without psychedelics, they opened pandora's box of consciousness and without I might have led a pretty anxious and monotonous life that I fell into. It's like I modified reality through my higher self go give myself that possibility to break patterns and transform myself, though it's been a pretty difficult journey with much suffering at times.

There's no such thing as "woman's psychology", there is a division of roles which creates and reinforces polar attitudes and traits that evolve culturally through spiral dynamic like stages however. You are the whole self who took on a particular perspective and disbanding it puts you in touch with the opposite outwards projected polarity from which you've been alienated. There is no ground to this, it is an expression of circumstances that evolve and morph through the world, though different shows will show you the current state of balance, but don't believe there's anything innate to that for you to create a system about to reinforce ever greater division. See it instead as a reflection of modern circumstances and how they construct social identity and express themselves in different forms and identities, assumptions and axioms, models and systems, attitudes and desires, interdependence and specialization, complimentary cohesion and simultaneously self-alienation. There is biological differentiation, but its a nudge/shift in balance rather than a block of energies.

I keep wondering, I'd like to just have a void for myself to rest for a long time, like being submerged in water but able to breath in it, with no one to disrupt the peace and no physical limitations, a place to just be still and unwind, with time maybe create but even then I'd live to take my time. Then again, you say there is no 'here', no 'place' to begin with, maybe I can find or manifest such places and circumstances in this reality but whatever the case, I'll be taking a long break for incarnation if not leave it entirely after this life. If there are to be others, I'd want to become them instead and solve whatever problems arise internally.

Usually stuff happens for a reason but other times we get entangled in our ego karma and frustration makes us aware of that, its basically getting side tracked, though the deeper you go the more you see how your main track was itself a sidetrack of another sidetrack of anther sidetrack and at some point we have to deal with all that and wonder what the point actually is

Let me start with one that I've been carrying since childhood, it goes like this: When something bad happens to someone else I think "I'm glad I'm not them, I'd hate it to happen to me, hope they get better so I can feel safer if it actually did, there are so many risks, look at the people who had accidents and be glad you're as careful as you are" or when I hear someone's detailed interesting experience it goes like "That sounds cool, now I feel like I totally missed out, whatever, it's not that important in the grand scheme of things, I'm not missing out, look, now they're past it and it doesn't matter, they're right back to baseline, hearing about it is much more compact, now I get the insight without wasting all that time". So I'm looking to let go of these coping mechanisms but the karma runs deep, it might take some time, advice would be nice And we can expand this thread to look at other tendencies, I bet we all have something others do too but are unaware of

Human history has brief times of great transformation that keep becoming more dense and we are just about to enter a whole next level singularity

@Breakingthewall I do see what you mean however. Polarity creates existence and all action has this thrusting out characteristic, desire, expression, direction, choice, purpose, meaning, life itself is an expression of energy, of movement, of change, of death. Our skin cells are continuously falling away and being replaced with new ones. Living being are always on the move. The life energy permeating the universe lives by change, life is change and change is death, the universe at war. But war is also a state of mind and it is but one lens to take on. The Hindu for example see the life as one big play "Maya"

@Breakingthewall Alright, I shall breathe violently then

Understandings are twisted, those who are selfless do not care to be selfless, they are that because they're experientially attuned and drawn to it and experience joy and fulfillment in doing so. It's likely they transcended their selfish desires a long time ago or haven't developed them, look at Jesus or Gandhi. But we are human and we desire, there is nothing wrong with desire, the problem is the damage we create in insisting upon it, in the aggressive tendencies that we express through violence and domination that perpetuate the cycle of suffering, the ignorance and endless greed that can never be satisfied. It is because we are so separate, because we do not understand the interconnectedness of all life, that selfishness is a problem. Originally, there was no thing as selfishness, everything was selfish, because everything was self. But the conditions we created by enslaving and objectifying each other and nature for our convenience, that's what creates massive suffering. The ego deserves to be selfish but for its own sake and through its own means, not at the expense of others yet the world we live in is highly distorted, we suffer so much because we do not realize that our actions influence each other and many simply don't care.

Does it though? Or is it simply one potential evolutionary path we took because suffering tends to perpetuate itself and we've been walking it so long that we forgot what life was before we fell from grace? Also, wars are short for a reason, only so many can die before we run out of people, most of our life is spent building the civilizations for which war can even become a possibility, no unity, no tribe, no war. It's like that bias where you only notice those that shout the loudest even if they're in the minority. Most life is life and there's some war sometimes because people don't know how to communicate properly. Planets and all matter is made of consciousness, objects are focal points that create specific forms and experiences, a landscape of being. Then again, what is it like to be a planet? I really don't know

In a way, he is pointing to that, but there's a nuance, its rather the attitude that keeps you calm and collected, that you are already whole, that any experience is an addition, that you are not reliant on it for happiness, that you act out of abundance instead of desperation. That you can chose your desires and engage in the process independent of outcome which is never certain. To exemplify with a worst case scenario, imagine believing: "If I don't become omniscient in the next five seconds, I will not allow myself to be content ever again" and then when you don't, now what? Instead if you go "Omniscience would be amazing and I wonder how I'd get there, let's imagine I'm omniscient already, now how would that look like? I won't beat myself up if I don't get it immediately" then that's an entirely different attitude.

@James123 "Quite literally, the "inner self" forms the body by magically transforming thoughts and emotions into physical counterparts. You grow the body. Its condition perfectly mirrors your subjective state at any given time. Using atoms and molecules, you build your body, forming basic elements into a form that you call your own." We are infinite, yet we come from nothing. We collect experiences across lifetimes and we emerge out of environments from which we individuate, we affect it and direct our experience, we tune into and attract certain experiences based on our beliefs, needs and desires, attitudes and troubles, dreams and disappointments, passions and failures. "If you hate illness you may bring upon yourself a succeeding life of illness, because the hate has drawn it to you. If you expand your sense of love, of health, and existence, then you are drawn in this life and in others toward those qualities; again, because they are those upon which you concentrate. A generation that hates war will not bring peace. A generation that loves peace will bring peace. To die with hatred for any cause or people, or for any reason, is a great disadvantage." "Change of form is not destructive. The explosive energy of a storm is highly creative. Consciousness is not annihilated. A storm is part of creativity. You view it from your own perspective, and yet one individual will feel within the storm the unending cycle of creativity, and another will personify it as the work of the devil. Through all your lives you will interpret the reality that you see in your own way, and that way will have its effect upon you, and in turn upon others. The man who literally hates, immediately sets himself up in this fashion: He prejudges the nature of reality according to his own limited understanding. Now I am emphasizing the issue of hate in this chapter on reincarnation because its results can be so disastrous. A man who hates always believes himself justified. He never hates anything that he believes to be good. He thinks he is being just, therefore, in his hatred, but the hatred itself forms a very strong claim that will follow him throughout his lives, until he learns that only the hatred itself is the destroyer. Remember what you concentrate upon"

Desire creates conditions for experience. The more conscious we are, the more control and freedom we have. Imagine us as byproducts of a larger consciousness that through experience grew into their own autonomous ascending selves, coexisting in this shared reality and ascending to perceive ever greater dimensions as even the absolute seeks change

@Butters Spirituality is awareness and contentment, problems is stacking ignorance on top of that, and we live in a collective world so it ain't easy when the action of one becomes a paradigm that influences all

@James123 The lion is important and I am important, we both want to survive and might get into conflict, which might make a mess. If my importance is courage, then I will learn better and acquire humility in death. If my importance is survival, I will tread carefully. Bodies age and die but souls know no death.

Because they want to be and cause collateral damage in the process

@James123 Everything is important and importance is important also, every part of reality is important to itself and we build bridges that make it important to other parts also, united in importance universally but in conflict locally Personals opinions are important and ultimately the fabric of reality is made of opinions, even if they have other opinions to battle with

@James123 why is the language of inquiry, an exploration of reality doing is an active process, the act of becoming you is an identity which creates such preferences implies subtle judgement and directs energies needs manifests themselves as cravings which create tendencies to is a destination which predisposes distance which creates a journey understanding is the process of integration it is something experienced to be other, or duality implies beginnings and endings creating a framework of time in which events take place questions demand answers The question answers itself why do you even need to understand it in the first place? inquiry leads identity towards desiring unity integrating duality by journey But beyond that, his need to understand is fundamentally a question no different to your question of his question

Try this: Sit down on a chair in front of a mirror and tell yourself to stop caring, then react with whatever comes up Figure out what the you within you wants and why and when it will be content so you can be free

Acceleration is to speed up the reel of time towards the conclusions we're unconsciously gravitating towards irregardless. I have found much value and understanding in art, at this point art seems more fundamental than philosophy and science, it is the language of creation and its cause, to explore and become. It seems I don't want to forfeit my ego but to experience, transcend and incorporate it. All experience creates karma, without it there is no existence, God is expressing itself through Infinity and becomes its creation in the act of realizing balance between love and autonomy in its own self-exploration. Selflessness is a selfish desire. Everything is selfish since everything is Self. When you interact with another, you're interacting with a different version of yourself that you are unconsciously simultaneously experiencing, you are viewing them through your lenses and can seek to understand them, to enhance their experience is to enhance your own experienced later, but beyond that you become the transformation and energy that you express, when you express compassion you become compassion, find and channel it from within yourself and let it resonate through your being. When you create a story, you become its characters and their differences, you set the stage and consciousness may scale to be the same thing on our layer of actuality. Our own position is one of autonomy but our desires and individuality originate from the collective environment that formed them, in other words, we formed ourselves externally and now enter a feedback loop internally. Pure selflessness is death, it is to fulfill all desires within oneself and seek to do the same for others, but life itself is love, to have desires is to live, our life is chaotic but only because we're learning how to be as consciousness. We're learning to balance desire and autonomy with harmony and love, we're seeking individuality and unity simultaneously, to discover and create and to live, to make our own choices and have our own will, yet we all share the same reality and become it in the process of creating it, further subdividing ourselves into the others that we then experience the environment and difference through, that spawn different conflicting desires we have to learn to navigate. I thought to become whole was to become nothing, but nothing as I understood it is pretty boring, this is perfect.

@James123 Get to the source of it and burn it up!