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@Monkey-man It is so true! I just discover so much about myself today.

@Charlotte I started to see things more objectively. My understanding is that they are people who believe drugs are evil and pride themselves in not taking any drugs. By putting down people who do drugs, they feel better about themselves and that's why they reacted the way they do when cannabis was brought up. Now that I think about it, it's really that I don't want someone to be above/superior to me. They said they're "looking out for me", which made me think they're treating me like a child and that they think they're above me. I didn't want to allow that so I tried to fight it. The way I fought it was, since I was being put down, I'll put them down too so they wont be above me. So I mocked them for thinking cannabis is evil. It was really a fight to see who puts the other down further so they can stay above. So my issue is I don't want people to feel like they're better than me. I'll really have to work on that. I thought more about it, I'm not really sure why I don't want to allow people to feel superior to me. I'll have to investigate further.

@Spinoza Thanks. I think I sort of get it. I shouldn't have taken it personal, because there is no free will. Mentioning weed -> some people reacts negatively and therefore said such remarks to me, it's like a mechanic. It's just how those people are and it had nothing to do with me. Upon reflecting, I think my view of the world is "people always want to be better than others. Some people are condescending to others and put them down so they can feel superior themselves." That started this whole conflict, really. I'm not sure what to do about this view, as it is sorta true

Recently I keep remembering moments from different dreams from my whole life. I would remember a specific scene in one of my dreams, and then realize to myself "oh that was from a dream i had before". They're not recent dreams, I don't know know from when, I just know they're a dream of mine from before. Happens more and more often. What's this mean?

I'm turning 20 and I'm not in education. I've been depressed for years now stressing about my education/careers. I hate school(dropped out of HS) and I hate a career where you just give your life away for 40 hours a week (1/3 of ur life, plus 1/3 for sleeping basically you only get to live 1/3), it's so depressing to me to live life like that. I also have a strong passion for skateboarding and I want to see how good I can get with it. Right now I have a strong desire to just get a car and live in it and become a nomad and skate everyday. I think that just solves all the problems in my life. Now I know living in a car has a lot of problems, like food, toiletry, ventilation, but they're not unsolvable and I'm eager to solve these problems, the reward i get is not being bound to working 40 hours a week or having to go to school. Whenever I see someone living in a car, I really admire the fact that they're able to do that but I never thought about doing it myself. But now I want to do it myself. I never admired people who went to college to become engineers or doctors or are now making 150k a year or whatever. That's how I kinda figure out what I want. I recently lost my job and I've been extremely frugal with my money and I actually kind of enjoy doing that, so I know making a lot of money doesn't really mean anything to me. What are ya thoughts? Cheers

@aurum How would you afford living while you're pursuing your life purpose without slaving 40 hours a week?

@Moreira @nightrider1435 I don't plan to just not work Im going to work part time so I can afford things. @Proactive That's exactly my plan right now but I'm happy to learn about some other alternatives too. Also I think by skating a lot I think it actually shaped my style in skating. I wanted to skate hours and hours so I had to learn how to do a trick optimally and use the least amount of energy possible. In skating we call this "steez" (stylish + ease), I'm not sure about stylish but my ease is definitely there, i can actually skate a long time before i'm drained because of my style. It just feels like walking, doesn't take too much energy.

@Girzo Already read that book, it tells me I need to start a business to make money and how it works, but i dont have anything to offer in a business yet. What'd I miss?

@Robert @SOUL I thought about getting a van, but I decided for a Toyota Prius atm because I really don't need that much space to live. I noticed this in my apartment right now, the only space I use are my bed and couch lol. Most the time I'll be outside anyway or I can go to the library, I'll only need the car to sleep in. Plus the Prius is super efficient MPG and temperature control wise, and the biggest advantage is that no one will suspect a thing because it just looks like a regular car.

@aurum I edited my comment again right before you responded lol. You're right that I'm doing this partly because I don't know what else to do. What are some alternatives to slaving 40 hours a week?

@Jol356 Well being a driver is not exactly that free. You're still bound to a schedule. I plan to do side jobs like Uber and postmate whenever I feel like, though.

Thanks @cirkussmile @vibrate Why didn't you get to? @Jamie Universe

@aurum Hey, thanks for the input. Edit: Actually if I got a million dollars today I will still do it for the experience for sure. But after a while I might get tired of it and retire off the million dollars. The difference is when i do it now I will always stress about the future about what I'm going to do next in life, because I don't know if I'll get tired of living in a car and want an alternative, but if I have a million dollars, i know i have something to fall back on if I get tired. So I guess I want it for the experience but also to avoid slaving 40 hours a week for now. What are some alternatives to slaving 40 hours a week?

I love skateboarding. However it's extremely difficult to get good at it because it has physical limitations, you simply can't practice it too much. I couldn't find any skater that became pro if they start after 18 just because of how hard the sport is (you can check for yourself). However, I have only one life and I want to give my best to try. I practiced for about 30 hours this week and my legs are killing me. Funny story, one day my legs were very sore, and I realized one thing: soreness is merely a sensation from the body telling me i need to rest, it doesn't actually physically stop me from skating. I can just ignore the feeling and keep skating, At that moment I felt like I was Goku and I have surpassed the laws of human physique. It worked for about 2 days. The soreness is not just a sensation, it's physical. My legs literally just refused to do what I want. I would be doing a trick in my head, but my body wouldn't execute on it because it was too fatigued. I'm also thinking that if I just keep skating, I might force my body to adapt to recover faster, that's why I skated on average 4-5 hours everyday this past week (imagine jumping up and down for 4 hours straight). Some of the days I was actually surprised my legs were able to recover when I thought they wouldn't. I'm learning and making progress but it's not enough. If I want to become pro in my lifetime I would have to find ways to make faster progress than this. Thoughts? I know people have surpassed their physical limits in history.

@Paulus Amadeus That's exactly what I thought. I know I'll regret not having this experience if I don't do it. You're also right that my unhappiness comes within me... I'll still stress about the future even if I live in a car, because I can't live in it forever. Oh well, I'll think of something when the time comes. Thanks for the words.

I do the same thing. I just dont like the skins that are growing back on the lips, so whenever they try to grow back I bite them right off again and they never end up recovering.

I want to learn skateboarding tricks. Often I can do a trick very well, I even think I have learned/mastered it and I always lose it, for absolutely no reason. I just can't do it anymore, and then I'd have to relearn it. I've read that there is 4 steps for learning things: 1. unconscious incompetence 2. conscious incompetence 3. conscious competence 4. unconscious competence To me, I feel like I get unconscious competence before conscious competence. Sometimes I just feel it, but I can't explain exactly how, which i guess is why I lose it. And then I'd have to figure out exactly what I'm doing right, after figuring it out I practice to drill it into my subconscious mind. But after that, sometimes I forget the skill, and so I have to figure out what I'm doing again. So it kinda goes from unconscious competence to conscious competence, and then back to unconscious competence, so on and so forth. I don't lose it completely, I just can't do a trick consistently every time. I'm so sick of constantly losing my skills. Does anyone have any suggestions? Any books that would help? Thanks in advance

So I think I figured something out. When I think I learned a trick, I really haven't. When I'm able to do a trick, it's because I've tried so many times and failed so many times, and just happen to have hit the right combination, like the "give monkeys a typewriter" type of thing. But I don't really understand how I made it happen. So my strategy now is to skate with more mindfulness. Every take I take I will try to figure out in my mind exactly what works and what doesn't. Hopefully I'll see good results soon.

@Truth ah so I'm gonna create a little line to do everytime too. I think conscious incompetence helps me too. I notice things that don't work and avoid them. For example to do a 180 I know I can't start turning midair, i have to be turning before I'm off the ground.

@Truth Chris Chann hell yeah, i already watch his videos. The tricks I can do consistently with good style are only ollie, heelflip and pop shuvs. I can land a bunch of other tricks if I tried a bunch of times but I wouldn't say I "have" them until I get them consistent.

@Soulbass I'm reading this book right now, it's really good. I think you're right, I might have tricked myself into thinking I've learned something when I really haven't.

@Truth Hey dude, it's sick that you skated 15+ years! I don't mind failing at all. My concern is how do you go from failing 200 times to land it once, to failing 10 times to land one, to landing every try?

I purchased the life purpose course 2 years ago but never got to finish it (yeah I'm one of those people) because I was extremely depressed at the time. Over the 2 years I discovered my love for skateboarding. I've never in my life loved something so much. I would go out to skate for hours and hours until my legs and knees fall off. I fall and bleed but I get up and keep going. I've been doing that consistently for over a year. But I can't just skate everyday. I need something that makes money so I can pay the bills. I know I'll become decent at skateboarding, but it takes a long time and I don't think i'll become world class at it or good enough to make it my career. So I started watching the life purpose course again to find a purpose that will actually make me money so I can survive. I still haven't finished it yet, but as I was watching the videos about mastery and 10,000 hour rule I thought to myself, that's me!!!! that's me when I'm skating!!! I want to master it so badly!! So what do you make of this? Do I look for a new purpose that makes money? If not then how can I survive with skateboarding? I'm going to finish the course first, of course. Thanks

If you have something you love enough you'll wake up with no effort sometimes I don't want to go to sleep simply because I can't wait to wake up

Regarding visualization, one time I was having trouble learning a flip trick. One night I had a dream where I was doing the flip trick perfectly. I remember seeing so vividly the board rotate under me perfectly. I still remember that image in my head. A couple days later I was doing the flip trick perfectly and I saw the board rotate the EXACT same way as in my dream!