AerisVahnEphelia

The bullshit you see about me is that I m just french. Sadly I suspect certain things can't even be transcended . . we are just made of bullshit. But I m almost certain than reckoning it is always better.

I wasn’t disagreeing at all, I just got reflective with my own recent experience. It’s hard to navigate people who believe they’ve transcended and therefore aren’t willing to grow or examine their own trauma or experiences. You can’t really rise above something if you believe you’re already beyond it. I always keep a window open to the possibility that my entire reality might be a complete delusion, just a way for my ego to navigate its own comfortable roleplay. I’m not an expert on trauma healing. Most of “mine” was resolved through what I’d call karma burning or hardcore philosophy (Leo, Ralston type), basically controlling my attention and replacing “bad programming” with “good programming.” But that doesn’t necessarily mean the deepest insecurities were truly transcended. I might still carry some that I’m not even conscious of.

I m playing all you.

I see a lot of people being paradoxical about this: the unconscious is made conscious, but it isn't truly transcended. Claiming you have no insecurity about 'X' or 'Y' in fact, even mentioning that you have no insecurity about something; often suggests it is already very conscious and still has power over you. Most of the time, this doesn't signal healing or transcendence. Real healing is much harder than just making the unconscious conscious.

Going in therapy with yourself ?

I was obviously making a metaphor. I can talk of neurosurgery, if I remove a simple part of your brain, you wouldn't know your mother name. . "Reality" is whatever your mind make it up to be, moment by moment.

Absolute enlightenment is not egolessness. It is being full of ego, even more than before. The ego becomes so conscious that it annihilates itself by being fully present.

It's easy to tell the truth, when your truth is a lie.

I m definitely more special. Special doesn't mean better it means out of average. You literally don't even hallucinate basic reality properly and your level of delusions is so clean you can bullshit yourself into any average normies fantasy. You'll never have any romance a single time without lying. Don't try to self justify your bullshit and call it truthful.

that was my point.

it's litteraly irony over irony, it was so obvious, read it again, find god.

total projection of your path. I did follow all my passion first, found them all empty. Now I m so enlightened than making money or not do not matter at all. ( it never ever mattered, but European are less restricted than american, our societies provides ) having sex or not doesn't matter at all. being there or in that place doesn't matter at all. this is lived experience, not talk. I m killing time instead of myself <3

Lot of people claim to be, then they are all emotions. Autism has become a good cover up nowadays for all kind of self perceived "abnormal behavior". But I know what you mean though. Rather the core ontology shall be : Someone who understand that two selfish full of shit at the core being are just trying to preserve their nature and so will bullshit and create constant fantasy to self justify their full of shitness, reality is a fantasy of the mind. that's ideal love. People are fantasy addict, science addict, bullshit addicts. And then this person needs to be also of my age range or else we cannot even relate to playing toy (fantasy) We also need the same core integrity & value (biological needs)

Chasing Truth is bullshit indeed. Survival imply to self generate meaning, which is very natural overall.

good to know you escaped all this bullshit, mr sincerity. but you clearly didn't escaped as much as I did.

omg I laughed, you're so pathetic believing you're enlightened, I'll tell you what real enlightment is, it is being me, but you're not me, you cannot access it, you'll never do, I m just born superior in every way and domains. Sorry that it is the way it is.

Lmao so leo is me UNHINGED.

Nice music. I can see the paradox. You could frame truth as “all that is.” So “lying” becomes part of absolute truth. But that would also be a story; and a worse one for my ego. My ego wants its truth to be true; it needs to survive and do what it wants. There is no escape from our own bullshit. So what do you do when you know that the truth is you’re making it up all the time? What if I bring this up in a relationship; what is left? Who is winning? What is true if I am the creator?

it's so nihilistic that nihilism cannot be framed anymore lol

@Leo Gura he clearly said enlightment cannot be gained through psychedelic and he specified 5 meo dmt, and probably also hinted at you. he is deeply wrong. You shall do another talk with him, he is open about it, I m sure. Make it happen. -- my claim is, you don't need to do it a hundred times, but you cannot know states you never experienced, and therefore you'll not know some of the deepest end of the mind and how it function.

This. When it's positive you're just a genius.

They want nothing that's why they get to be 'follower'. If you wanted something you would do anything to get it.

You're divergent Leo lmao. The fact you try to avoid it. Is also part of the fun. Man watch again your 'awakening live' and tell us you just a normie. I think you need to have this level of delusions to keep doing your video. The fact you believe you can teach people things. When it's only you weaving again and again the tapestry of your mind. No one is going to awaken from listening anyone, or maybe they will. Ultimately at the highest understanding of how god work, it's all 8th dimensional ( things that interact without our awareness ) Also your video was very repetitive and way too 'mindy' and meta, it would be more fun if you added some real texture to it. One of your best video is the smoothie. Think it's time you stop the meta and start vlogging to show us some real practice that you do. Whatever that is, like hell today I m gonna Livestream how I m working on this oblivion mod. You can stay meta, but that's what I mean by texture. Awakening live is a really funny and authentic video. When I realized I wasn't really listening to philosophy but to someone who just like telling what goes through his mind, awakening !!!

Damn I m definitely like this. At a sick point though. I would sacrifice everything to focus on my impulse. My life proved it. Tell us more. I also take all informations in and that's why I filter all my environment at the core. Always knew I was a genetic genius only because of my downsides being also my upsides.

I liked cosmic space, and it happens also if you do a lot of psychedelics, no need for dmt. weed is bad, more than people think, especially smoking. it rewire your system and you'll have broken sleep, food disorder ( not eating or too much ) it just fuck up your system. I've been sick almost 4 years when I stopped. But maybe it's cause I smoked tobacco with it, and it was way stronger in this way. Tobacco alone does nothing, but mixed with weed it makes you stimulated a lot. Weed is an hard drug, people are delusional about it.