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Actually no, You are assuming what I'm doing is imagining theoretical constructs, when in reality I am honing my observational skills and capabilities with years of dedicated training that allows me to have a deeper and more nuanced direct experience. The observations science have made are a supplement to my direct experience, not a replacement. It's a corroborator just like my direct observation of nature and how it mirrors the movements inside me is a corroborator and reference. People are so dunning kruger with direct experience and too ignorant to realize how much more our bodily processes need to develop and evolve. In essence what I am telling you people is you THINK/BELIEVE these things about absolute nothingness because you are jumping to conclusions about the direct experience of reality before properly developing the multitude of capabilities humanity depends on for interacting and communicating with life via direct experience. "How can you discover a potential change if you're not aware of it or sensitive to it? How far can potential take you if you can't trust it? How well can you internalize a group of sensitivities if they're not coherent and able to create a story to build upon? What good is the story if it's rapport's are off, if it's chemistry is adversarial and in conflict? How far can you take a story if it can't flow and dance? How can you share it if you can't simplify it? What good is simplification if it get's so simple it becomes one-dimensional and it's connections collapse? How can you even build any story, or create any change of length, if you are not resilient enough to handle the pressures of it's development? If you haven't given yourself the authority to choose to do so?" Each of the above points to a specific capability we employ during direct experience. If they are not developed, not connected and synergized our experience of direct reality will be limited and flawed. We will fall prey to delusion, over-certainty, superiority, tunnel-vision, and derail our growth. We have to train them physically via life and it's resistance, much like weight training. Not just from sitting in some safe little space on a cushion for an hour and asking ourselves a couple of questions. Life demands way more then that for evolution.

Thank you!

This is amazing

Offer something better as the time and situation allows. Differentiate levels of importance that determine when and why you should intervene.

Oh man, it changes everyday, depending on which of those 12 compound elements my body is showing me I need to work on. For instance, if I need to work on traction, then I'm working with pressure on that day. Differentiating the directions of pressure between front-end and back-end, or the pressure to hurdle forward and act and the pressure from things blocking your forward motion that lead to frustration and other reactions (there are other directions beyond that). I step into the middle of those pressures and hold them as they build in intensity rather than giving into their influence and reacting. What happens is the intensity builds and the tension increases till it crosses a threshold and once that threshold is crossed a small adaptation occurs. I'll stay calm and present, paying as much attention as possible to everything going on in my body during the whole process. Following the connections and inter-relations, the cascades that result from it. I won't do this for an hour, I'll do this for the whole day or a couple days if needed and then it will become something my body automatically does afterwards as it sees fit or if I need it. So the pressure to scratch an itch, the pressure to move when standing or sitting still, the pressure to remember something, the pressure to fuck when my sexuality is roaring to go... pressure is involved in all facets of life, from pleasure to pain to motivation to drain (an absence or lowering of pressure). I work with pressure across varying intensities and the more meaning it has, the more tied into my actual life and desires, the better. It makes me a much stronger and more stable person, because it means I can hold the pressure and then act, rather than just get impacted by the pressure and REACT. These past couple days I've been working on coherency and fidelity. Doing my best to stay in what I call my zone of normal, no matter how exciting or stressful things might get. If I start getting too excited or too hype I remind myself to stay normal and keep my head. Resisting the pull to indulge in a greater wash of energies. So during boxing I wouldn't let myself get too excited and lose my pace, same for during sex, and every other activity during the day, always keeping an eye on my levels and not crossing thresholds. Doing so allows me to stay in the space where the greatest amount of coherency and fidelity of communication is present, so I'm internalizing the greatest quality of information. It may not seem like much, but I've crossed points in my development where my body trusts me enough to remove certain limiters upon what feelings and experiences I can access. This means wider ranges of intensities that includes my body tantalizing me with the release of crazy amounts of euphoria that I have to ignore and not over-indulge in because it puts a strain on my body and creates a chemical wash that at times is opposed to the learning process (the over-excitation takes me out of my zone of peak coherency). Plus it's a lot for the liver and kidneys to clean up afterwards, especially when indulged in chronically, creating a drain on my health that will make me sick. I've got a journal on here, where I used to write down my daily experiences with this stuff and what I focused and worked on. You may or may not find it interesting. Regarding your last question, no you're not doomed, just temporarily blocked (although some people never do get past that block or attempt to try, depending on how much they buy into their certainty that the feeling is true). It's an emotional response and how you relate to that emotional response determines what happens immediately afterward. This would involve resiliency, which is how quickly you bounce back to normal after the impact of an energetic stimulus, plus rapport, which is the aforementioned way you're relating to the challenge, and traction which I talked about earlier. Imagine a magnet and a piece of metal. When their close but not touching you can actively feel the pull of magnetism. It's activated, but once they touch and attach, that pull, that activated magnetism tangibly dissipates. In a way this is analogous to what happens with those emotional challenges. As soon as you feel that stress, but before your mind generates the narration of this is too hard, is when the metal and the magnet are activated but not yet attached. When the line of thought "this is too hard" initiates is when the metal and the magnet snap together. You've attached to the stress being past a certain threshold, which creates an emotional collapse, and that shift in attachment is actually what spurs the line of thought that "this is too hard". Every time we come to a conclusion about a thing, things have energetically snapped and attached together, creating a decrease in tension or decrease in the activation of magnetic pull per our analogy. This is the comfort a person feels when they have closure. The release of a tension, a tension often times felt as a pressure or even a discomfort subtly pushing you to resolve and close the opening, the uncertainty and potentiality. After training with the three capabilities I mentioned, what happens is you can handle the stress so the threshold that caused the collapse has a much higher ceiling than before, a ceiling most things with a given level of complexity won't reach. So you don't cross that threshold of collapse, and you can handle the tension and discomfort of keeping your focus open about a stimulus rather than immediately closing with a conclusion about it being out of reach. So rather than "this is too hard" you feel the stress of complexity, but in response it's maybe curiosity or determination or playfulness in regards to that complexity, which keeps you in the space to stay focused on unraveling it's complexities, rather than getting hit with the emotion of I can't do this and the resultant demotivating forces, which also take you out of the flow state and immersive space you normally would have been in, while working on the complex challenge. Hopefully, this makes sense to you. It's very much like any other physical training. You want to get a stronger deadlift, you work on exercises that strengthen the muscles you need to perform that action. Here, instead of working on your back, butt, and hamstrings, you're working on resiliency, traction, and rapport. Pushing past previous thresholds of stress, reaping the adaptations and raising your ceiling in the process so you can live and do more than before.

If it helps, you might want to look at models as a desire for a certain part of your mind with a certain specialized function. It's your perspective really and the perspective/conceptualizing area of your mind is still under development and has cravings and indulgences it has to mature with. So the trick is, understand that this is a specific facet of your mind, work with it, so it develops. But, also balance it and keep working on differentiating it from direct experience and the part of your body that deals with direct experience. Involve yourself with both commensurate to the degree of preference you desire, but never leave one idle to the degree that access becomes difficult (which is a problem western society seems to have, getting locked in their head or locked in perspective mode). Eventually you can hold both in parallel and in harmony so their both activated at the same time with superposition. So your dipping a bit into conceptualization mode when you want to organize yourself or gain perspective and back into direct experience when you want to act and run on instinct/intuition/automated processes or whatever. Shifting the ratio of activation as needed.

You can still have a range of potential ways a thing can counter-balance and then a further range of how things will potentially move after that initial action. And since the specific flavor of that range of potentiality hasn't yet been realized or made more solid, there is uncertainty. Men and women are a counter-balance to each other are you saying there is no uncertainty, no potential for difference and range in their dance? It sounds like your tunnel-visioning on some singular or limited set of things in your conceptualization. A counter-balance limits scope, it does not limit that scope to only 1 direction.

Well, it's quite simple actually. Observation is an action and a sending and receiving and all those things involve motion. Things bounce off of each other during observation and those things have a weight and a unique feel to them. Haven't you ever felt the "weight of someone's gaze"? How things change in your experience, how your motions change, when you realize your being observed? That sending and receiving, that bouncing back and forth of information wouldn't happen in a theoretical place where motion can't occur. Things need to bounce off each other, involve themselves with each other to spur change. And change is require for growth. On that second part, you're misunderstanding what I said about observation leading to "no progress, etc,". I was saying observation without motion leads to those things. Observation with motion, the sending and receiving of information as things connect will definitely lead to progress. And a final thing. Please stop making the assumption that I dogmatically follow science. Science is a supplement, a corroborator for my direct experience. I've been doing focus/meditation work for over a decade, fine tuning my senses and observational capabilities.

Yup, people call this is a "law" but it's more a balancing action of the universe, once you realize what else it's connected to. Specificity is connected with limitation. The more specific something is, the more solid the form of an object, the more specific it's actions can be, but also the more limited in range of scope (less range, more depth). People might look at that statement and say wait, doesn't that kind of put the universe into a corner? But no, because it still has access to changing back into something less solid, less specific, but with less limitation. The universe is constantly and ever-flowing, shifting dynamic mix of the full spectrum from solid specificity to ephemeral uncertainty/potentiality. It's another way of viewing chaos and order. That's why I revise the uncertainty principle to be uncertainty/potential counter-balanced by specificity/limitation.

Be careful of limiting yourself here In my experience there is an awesome place I call trinity worlds, where there is my world, her world, and the shared world. So the best sex is when your intimately connected to all three at the same time. Feeling these deep amazing connections within yourself, seeing and connecting with her personal connection to her sexuality, and then connecting with the sharing and interplay between them. This makes for the best kind of sex, but also the best kinds of relationships. It doesn't have to be a binary, either or thing, or a single unitary thing, but a superposition thing, where all three stack and superimpose on each other, while still all as distinct and coherent. It's amazing really. Of course it's something a person leads up to and develops into over time, but I figured it's super helpful to be aware of it as a potential reality.

Thanks! I'm going to focus on your first question for now because I believe it's answers tie into your second one as well I'll touch on some things in general and then give examples of how those things increased my potential as a human being. If you have any questions please let me know. So there is maximizing your potential and realizing/manifesting your potential. What are the building blocks that affords us the capability to do those things? What are the building blocks of capability and learning? That is where I initially put my focus and effort. You have awareness, but what does awareness need to expand? Well, you need to increase your sensitivity, which will increase the population or diversity of sensations/inputs your awareness is encompassing and connecting with, but then you need to be able to understand the differences contained within this population so it's not this mushed up incoherent thing. So just in the above you can see elements of capability and learning, include the abilities of awareness, sensitivity, population/diversity, and differentiation. But, there are many more abilities like connection/rapport which is a huge arena of how things inter-relate. Do they connect? How do they connect? Is it complimentary or adversarial? Attractive or repulsive? Do they merge, do they stack, do they interlock, or do they adhere? Then there are other abilities like dimensionality and compression, pace/flow, traction, stability, resiliency, coherency, limitation, and authenticity/fidelity. Each of these are abilities and actions we physically carry out in response to things that actually occur. Patterns of universal movement we can learn to read, decipher, and harness. And when we synergize all of them together we have a set of skills that at all times and all situations we can practice and develop that changes us as human beings. Allowing us access to greater degrees of potential as well as the ability to bring that potential out into real life. Essentially, by hooking into and involving myself with around 12 compound movement patterns of capability over the past 7 years I have gained access to the ability to learn anything I want and change anything I want within the bounds of what my health will allow. It's how I became a polymath and gained a high capability in all of the 9 different kinds of intelligence among many, many other things. See the cool thing about those 12 elements of capability is that you change as a human being when they reach certain thresholds, both individually and when the overall level of synergy crosses one. For instance, because of my development of sensitivity and differentiation I can feel at all times in a superimposed state emotion and sensation, but also the energetic/electromagnetic shifting movement that cascades concurrently with that feeling. Van der waals forces or the pull and push of energetic activation which gives me twice the amount of information my body is processing compared to how I used to be, but also twice the amount of options and actions. I can change how intensely I am attracted or repulsed by things, which allows me to shape how my emotions arise in response. I can use this skill to localize physical imbalance in the body and shift them inside myself. I can do it to a more limited degree in others through touch. A person's muscles will shift and move, in response to my touch via my modulation of their attractive/repulsive qualities. Sharing pleasure with another increases and the way it shifts them becomes more influential. Further, working with tension has increased my capacity or ability to hold or store greater and greater amounts of it in my body. The action for this is called mutual capacitance and it's the same concept behind electrical coils. Which is also responsible for increases in my charisma or the degree to which the expression of my emotions influences and shifts other people, as well as the degree to which that emotion and energetic content internalizes within another. This makes me more attractive, trustworthy, gives me greater impact in communication, and the ability and potential to have deeper and richer relationships. Actually, it makes me seen as more of a man and seen as more sexually viable, because of the simple fact that I can handle greater and greater levels of sexual tension, when in contrast most guys can't and freeze or break the tension with a less attractive response. Plus the greater the sexual tension, the greater the degree of sexual automation and trance, which in subtle ways makes me just that much more captivating as a person. Other changes include the ability to access different kinds of flow states, greater access to instinct and synergizing it with my rational mind, the ability to handle the emotional curve of learning, including resistances like the feeling of "this is too hard" or "I don't know what to do" which often halts people in their tracks. Greater connectivity and response to bodily connections affording me greater speed, flexibility, strength, and reaction times. I can slow down my perception of time with practice which is essential actually when it comes to observing what happens inside our heads as we think and reflect and observe. It allows me to take a split second of time and slow it down so I can see more and more going on within that flicker than I ever could before. Then I can review that, without falling into the habit of tunnel vision or judging the experience in a vacuum. I can of course create a vacuum if need be to isolate and decipher, but then reconnect it to it's preceding processes and potentialities before jumping to a conclusion and moving on. I don't get carried away by my experiences, because I have greater traction against their emotional impact, which allows me to stay in the spaces of intensity where the greatest amounts of coherency and fidelity reside, which allows me to internalize deeper and more inter-connected experiences of life with less distortion and delusion. All of which compounds over time creating more and more growth and more and more potential and capability. The experience of this over the past couple years has been truly incredible. It's been brutal and dangerous as well, but I can't even describe what it feels like to have the tools of evolution, life itself, truly in your hands. Not just in an intellectual sense, but in a tangible, real way that reaches in every single aspect of your being and bears fruit nearly every day. I hope that gives you some sense of the potential inherent to this path. There is so much I could write about, so many experiences to recount, and understandings to share, but hopefully they give you some idea of the potential awaiting all of us if we only lean into that edge of life where evolution and expansion reside.

It's about respecting her choice and her level of privacy with a bit of forethought and common courtesy. If you can't see or understand that I don't know what to tell you. Anyways, I'll leave the rest of this up to her. It's not like I'm her protector or anything. But I will stand up for a level of common decency as I see it. Those are my standards, regardless of the person. If you wanna respond send me a pm so we don't clutter up the thread.

@jse man, that's bordeline creeper territory. If you really wanted to know that you could have just pm'd her. If it's not her, who cares, let a woman choose her own way of being perceived. No need to make things awkward for her. And frankly you make it even worse for her if it is, because now you're violating her privacy. I'd remove that post if I were in your position.

With all due respect, Leo and anyone who is ascribing to his assertion in that post is the one taking the purely imaginative or delusional approach. If your "actual" nothingness has heat in it, it is not absolute nothingness, if it is still permeated by fields of potentiality like the universe is at all levels that is not absolute nothingness. If your absolute nothingness is being contained by matter in the form of bone, sinew, and brain matter it is not "absolute" nothingness. How about you move your mind out of the binary paradigm of beginning and endings and rise into quantum cognition? With superposition you are both 1 and 0 at the same time and can "birth" one or the other and from that one or the other "birth" another superimposed status. Humans all too often make the mistake of projecting their own limitations on the universe, but the universe doesn't give a shit and keeps on being dynamic with access to potentiality preserved. There aren't beginning or endings, there is instead recombination with different layers of complexity and synergy while still maintaining access to both poles of simplicity beyond our current evolution of cognition and levels of complexity that humans have not yet developed the cognition to contain. Every time a person falls into the paradigm of beginning or endings, they are taking an isolative view of reality which does not consider it's preceding combination. And that holds doubly true for absolute beginnings or endings which are a violation of the uncertainty principle. I'd like an evolving dialogue where people put the time and effort into expanding themselves in ways that are in harmony and synergy with real life with practical application. Where people critically think and explore rather than blindly follow the establishment of a given place. I'd like to see people work with tension and differentiating between how a change feels and how it shifts us. Gaining traction with those shifts, slowing and stabilizing them so their awareness can gain perspective and clarity around the nuance that occurs within it. I'd like to see people gain a greater ability with depth, to understand how things balance and counter-balance and how that motion affects the formation of a person's reality at the time. I'd like to see a lot of things actually. What do you want? Do you want to maximize your potential or do you want to remain in your comfort zone? Maybe try and feel the tension there, note down whether your initial reaction to that question was attractive or repulsive and then play the experience back in your mind slowly, including in your investigation the type of narratives playing in your mind. Investigating the other options you might have chosen had you not immediately snapped to either of those charges. Notice how much choice and potential we leave on the table and miss with our snap judgements and reflexive conclusions about a thing.

Are you saying all fear arises from this conclusion you've stated? I happen to appreciate fear and I don't demonize it or automatically attribute it a negative value like you seem to be doing with the above. From where I stand fear is a problem when it crosses a threshold level imbalance that creates an immobility or freeze response. Other than that fear can be very helpful and even precious. For instance, I love that I am afraid to lose the things that I care about, it means they matter to me and they're connected to me on deep levels that intermingle with the core of my humanity. My fear works with me in harmony. It doesn't immobilize me or keep me from acting with spirit and character. Instead it sensitizes me, sharpening my senses and making me more aware. It helps me counterbalance against the numbing agents of comfort with it's slight fire, like holding a hot coal in a tin cup on a snowy winter night. Last time I checked this forum was for self-actualization and expanding and challenging beyond the comforts of preconceived notions. You say asking yourself those questions made a lot of difference for you. I've already asked those questions and developed many abilities over the years to ask even deeper ones, some of which I've shared with you. ... but, like you kind of said, if you don't want to examine them and stay where you are, that's okay. You might want to update your knowledge pool with regard to quantum thermodynamics and some new theories regarding singularities and the big bang. We had a discussion about it in another thread that you might find interesting. Being able to hold a vacuum can seem special and great, but after awhile it becomes normal and not a big deal. That's a typical pattern to so many things in life. People experience something new that shakes them to the core and for awhile they think they have superpowers and achieved this pinnacle of humanity. And then after a period of time it becomes normal again. When you get on a road where you're growing at this depth more frequently, this pattern becomes more apparent and you learn to predict and properly prepare for how the changing contrasts of these experiences effect you. The problem arises when people want to hold onto that feeling of greatness, and choose to make they're identity reliant upon continued validation of greatness or superiority (like Trump for instance). It's much more stable and harmonious to choose energies/emotional flavors of validation that rely on other things then either greatness, superiority, and inferiority. For instance, I don't internalize or indulge in thought narratives of how great I am about a particular thing. Instead I shift my focus to my degree of capability and my confidence and trust in that capability. And for the other side of the coin that holds inferiority and suckitude, I instead focus on being humble and thankful for how much more I still have to learn and involve myself with. When you do this you find concepts like power kind of masturbatory and a waste of time and instead focus on building with capability and creating meaning rather than self-aggrandizement. It gives me a tighter and much, much richer spiral of growth and I don't waste my energy on the kinds of fears or over-exertions that come from trying to validate a position of greatness or invalidate areas that reflect the avenues where I have just begun new growth and am "not all that great" in. In order to master mastery, you have to master being a beginner and that means mastering all the things a beginner deals with like struggle, ignorance, awkwardness, frustration, and discomfort. If you want to work on your ego, embrace being a beginner. Don't demonize your identity as a whole (which some "kill the ego" extremists seem to misguidedly do).

You're don't appear to have understood what I'm attempting to convey. Do you understand that when you actively try to create a thoughtless space in order to be the observer that watches the rising of thoughts that you are creating an altered environment from the normal base-line? You have to account for the added influence of this temporary stasis or vacuum and how it affects potentiality and consequently position. In this case how it limits or collapses potentiality, just like observing a wave function or electron cloud causes the same collapse. Do you understand that shifts in the narration of thought coincide with deeper shifts below your consciousness that also carry with it an electric or energetic charge that expresses as a split-second pulse your brain normally filters out to maintain the representation of a seamless flow of consciousness? That split second pulse also has an effect on your cognitive recollection of what is actually occurring. If you have not worked with tension and developed traction and stability in the face of these micro energetic attractive-repulsive forces that happen within your brain, you will NEVER gain access to all the subtle shifts and inter-connections that occur within and from that pulse. It will literally snap close like a magnet snapping to metal in that fraction of a second, but you'll never even realize it. Your whole post smacks of looking for some absolute beginning and ending, but that's not how reality works and is a limitation of human beings we are attempting to evolve and expand from. The universe is an ever moving, beautifully inter-connected system of balance and counter-balance which includes the counter-balance between specificity/limitation and uncertainty/potential. Access to potentiality is never cut off in an absolute sense. Thanks

Humor is a great counter-balance to attributing over-importance to things, which can make you overly serious and lead to anger and developing unhealthy rationalizations that support you treating people like crap because this "other thing" is too important and too serious to take the time to correct the behavior. In a single instance this might not seem like too big a deal, but in the long-term it can have a deep effect. In fact, I bet if you think about it you can easily identify people you've came across in your own life who have this issue. The business man who only cares about the bottom line and making money is too important to pull away from to spend time with his kids and play or to be kind to others. Or perhaps the guy who is only interested in things of intellectual importance and "has no time for silly things" so he's generally an egotistical pain in the ass to be around. Or shit, even the people who get angry at others who drive super slow and arrive at their destination in irritation, rather than laughing it off as not a big deal (I've been working on this one myself to great effect). I'm super thankful for humor and I will strategically use it to deflate the importance of things that aren't really that big of a deal so I can treat people better and be more at ease and happy within myself. For me at least, it's a foundational or core tool for modulating my rapport with the world. It makes you more flexible and less brittle, plus less abrasive to be around. If everything is always so serious and the most important thing in the world that other people "just don't understand". Chances are you can use some humor in your life to counterbalance that way of being

What are you looking to gain from mastery of sex? Maximization of your personal pleasure? Your partner's? Access to the upper reaches of sexual trance-states? Ability and resiliency with sexual tension? Deeper discovery of and access to your own sexual nature? A greater sensitivity and inter-connectiveness to your own unique sexual chemistry and how to synergize and build that chemistry with another? Or are you just talking about a mechanical type of mastery? Little moves and whatnot? I've experienced a lot of progress and depth in the above, but where the above things kind of radiate and manifest from, can in a way be tied to the balancing of three things (for a man at least). I call it "the beast, the heart, and spirit". As a man growing and maturing into his sexuality, the beast (sexual appetite), the heart (trust, connection and intimacy), and spirit (meaning and purpose around the sex plus confidence in creating and sharing that meaning) all have to be harmonized, balanced, and synergized in order to have access to the greatest and most diverse ranges of sexual satisfaction. A man with a weak beast comes across as lacking passion, that sexual edge, etc. But, a man with a strong beast, but a weak heart and spirit is like a dog, mindlessly humping a chew toy. Only concerned with release and likely to treat his or her partner as disposable... basically the act of sex degrades to him masturbating into another's body, treating the other person like an object. A man with a bit of beast, a bit of heart, but no spirit carries out sex in a mechanical fashion. Do this here, press here, hope for orgasm... the meaning is shallow and the satisfaction afterwards is kind of bleh. The best sex is primal and hot as hell, with the beast roaring away inside. Tempered and restrained by the heart so he doesn't completely slide into the fog of sex and lose control and inter-connection with his partner as their beings dance. His spirit, who he is, and everything he feels during sex aligned with creating and enjoying this shared experience with the woman he has chosen. They're history and every interaction leading to this moment of fierce joining, exploding into this soul wrenching force of passionate pleasure that shakes you to the core and squeezes you dry. ... my orgasms are so soul shatteringly intense at times, that I worry they might break me. I sometimes ration my passion and check with my body to see if it can take it, like if I've got a fever or something and my body can't handle the spiritual explosion that normally awaits. It's like I have rivers deep inside me, running through my bones that take me to all sorts of places sexually. The pleasure is so incredible and it increases more and more as I continue to develop. This may or may not be helpful for your own sexuality, but it will help you in choosing your partners and deciding upon who you truly want to grow with. The people we share sex with become our mirrors in the act and how the dance flows will depend on how well they can reflect back what you send as they meet you in that space in the center of the fire. As a woman you will feel uninspired by a man lacking spirit, unable to trust and let go around a man lacking heart, and frustrated by a man who can't reflect back the potential of primal desire you may carry inside you. Be careful of sticking around too long with guys out of balance, because a dearth in any of those areas will have a depressive effect over time in your corresponding areas as well. But, a man who is growing in all three will also help you grow as well. I would never have this development I have if it wasn't for my wife and her being such a deep sexual mirror in all three facets. Good luck and happy hunting

Science is the disciplined and systematic observation and study of reality. I can understand taking issue with some of the conclusions they draw from that study, but the actual dynamics of motion are grounded in reality. You're assertion above reads to me like you are divorcing your spiritual or philosophical view of reality from reality. Which comes across as delusional or at the very least un-grounded. I don't know how many years you've been working on your mind or how far you've gotten, but progress should be leading you towards foundational touchstones that are present in all facets of reality that govern and protect the balance, harmony, and incredible inter-related diversity of the universe. It should not be leading you towards extremism and delusion. Have you for instance expanded your awareness down into the different layers of internalization all humans hold? How deep into your subconscious have you gone? I've gone so deep it's made me sick, because like I mentioned below to Gleb, awareness does have a weight to it and there are very fragile things inside us that govern automated processes inside us that will degrade under it's weight. A person learns from those experiences how there are limits that are only properly handled through balance and synergy, rather than one dimensional extremism. You learn that the uncertainty principle is a real dynamic of reality and how to protect the integrity and coherency of all the diverse things inside a human being. The way the universe moves is really quite beautiful actually. I mean, it's also brutal as well... it's beautifully brutal. That "empty space" in an atom isn't empty its permeated by fields. In fact the whole universe is permeated by fields and clouds of probability/potentiality. Absolute emptiness is not what is at play here. There are vacuums, which are suspensions of a certain degree of excitation, but even that state relies on motion to contain and restrain it along the edges of that vacuum in order to be maintained, while again STILL being permeated by fields and still not an "absolute" emptiness. "The idea that atoms are mostly "empty space" is, from a quantum viewpoint, nonsense. The volume of an atom is filled by the wave function of its electrons, or, from a QFT viewpoint, there is a localized excitation of the electron field in that region of space, which are both very different from the "empty" vacuum state. The concept of empty space is actually quite tricky, since our intuition "Space is empty when there is no particle in it" differs from the formal "Empty space is the unexcited vacuum state of the theory" quite a lot. The space around the atom is definitely not in the vacuum state, it is filled with electron states. But if you go and look, chances are, you will find at least some "empty" space in the sense of "no particles during measurement". Yet you are not justified in saying that there is "mostly empty space" around the atom, since the electrons are not that sharply localized unless some interaction (like measurements) takes place that actually force them to. When not interacting, their states are "smeared out" over the atom in something sometimes called the electron cloud, where the cloud or orbital represents the probability of finding a particle in any given spot. This weirdness is one of the reasons why quantum mechanics is so fundamentally different from classical mechanics - suddenly, a lot of the world becomes wholly different from what we are used to at our macroscopic level, and especially our intuitions about "empty space" and such fail us completely at microscopic levels." http://physics.stackexchange.com/questions/126512/why-doesnt-matter-pass-through-other-matter-if-atoms-are-99-999-empty-space You're second to last paragraph about imagining makes no practical sense to me and ignores what you touched on earlier about the fact that awareness or observation has a "weight" to it that spurs or activates change/collapse/shifts in the composition of a thing. Observation is an action with motion, so there is no observation without motion, there is no direction without motion, no position or orientation, so there would be no "looking back" or looking at all. There would be no contrast, so no bigger or smaller, no inside or outside, no relativity, or perspective. Which means no progress, no development, and no growth. It's an imagining that provides no value in practical application within reality, no offense. Well what I believe happens and most of the patterns I've experienced bears this out, is that the creation and releasing of those intensities wouldn't create a singularity, but instead a kind of "flip-flop" effect where the overall dominant and submissive contrasts in the dynamic would shift positions creating a threshold, floor to ceiling change rather than a unitary absolute. It's kind of like the action prevalent in the concept of "negative" temperature. But, it's also mirrored in the way stress adaptations occur. An upward trend in intensity that reaches a threshold and then flip-flops (or breaks the system unfortunately). http://physicscentral.com/explore/action/negative-temperature.cfm

Nah, it's for all of the black hole and speaks to the current view that slowly over extremely long lengths of time black holes kind of evaporate and fade away as the particles that split at the edge of the event horizon take some of their mass with them as they escape the gravity of the black hole. When you add quantum mechanics to the mix rather than just general relativity, the concept of a singularity begins to fade away. In fact, some are positing that what happens is particles split along the event horizon, some get sucked into the black hole and others get flung back into space, and after this pattern concludes to the eventual evaporation of the black hole the information that was sucked into the black hole lies dormant as kinds of soft particles that can then be re-engaged or activated once again by introducing energy into their environment. However, no one has yet to see a black hole evaporate, because even the smallest ones we've discovered will still take a shit load of time to do so. Plus, there is still a major issue or conundrum to figure out when the black hole evaporation event meets the threshold at the half-way point between particle splits. The tipping point in other words between the ratio of particles flung back out into space and those sucked into the black hole. And, there are other ideas out there like instead of a singularity there is a wormhole or bridge to another part of the universe or multiverse via quantum loop gravity. You reach a sort of threshold density in the black hole that then flip flops and reduces as you "come out the other side" into some other part of the universe.

You might want to take a look at black hole thermodynamics... "When we take quantum mechanics into account, black holes can emit light and other particles through a process known as Hawking radiation. Since a “quantum” black hole emits heat and light, it therefore has a temperature. This means black holes are subject to the laws of thermodynamics. Integrating general relativity, quantum mechanics and thermodynamics into a comprehensive description of black holes is quite complicated, but the basic properties can be expressed as a fairly simple set of rules known as black hole thermodynamics. Essentially these are the laws of thermodynamics re-expressed in terms of properties of black holes. The zeroth law states that a simple, non-rotating black hole has uniform gravity at its event horizon. This is kind of like saying that such a black hole is at thermal equlibrium. The first law relates the mass, rotation and charge of a black hole to its entropy. The entropy of a black hole is then related to the surface area of its event horizon. The second law again states that the entropy of a black hole system cannot decrease. One consequence of this is that when two black holes merge, the surface area of the merged event horizon must be greater than the surface areas of the original black holes. The third law states that “extreme” black holes (those with a maximum possible rotation or charge) would have minimum entropy. This means that it would never be possible to form an extreme black hole. For example, it would never be possible to spin a black hole so fast that it would break apart. The advantage of black hole thermodynamics is that provides a way to get a handle on the complex interactions black holes can have. Thermodynamic black holes have not just mass, charge and rotation, but also temperature and entropy. The rules first devised to describe the heating and cooling of simple gases also seems to apply to black holes." https://briankoberlein.com/2014/09/09/black-hole-thermodynamics/

Do you understand how physically cold an actual experience of true nothingness would be? Just reaching the "edge" of absolute zero is 100 million times colder than the depths of space. It would kill you. Our bodies can't handle such an extreme. People may think or believe they've experienced "true nothingness" but that is just a label and not what they're really experiencing.

It's about balance and the very real truth of protecting potentiality from the delusional extremism of absolutes and stasis. Protecting the reality of the dynamics of motion. It's about showing how the compulsion for Absolute Certainty is a flaw humans have to develop from in order to have a level of cognition more in line with quantum mechanics. A quantum cognition with perpetual motion, potential, and superposition, rather than unitary or binary stasis. Voids or vacuums are not an environment with absolute nothingness, there is no absolute beginning or ending, no absolute zero, no absolute or true self, no absolute or one truth. Instead there is always motion and access to something potentially different, no matter how "fixed" or "solid" or completely empty something appears to be. Everything can always change and that change is never so absolute, that it can't change into something else. It also points to a fundamental truth of the connection between specificity and limitation. And how that connection is counter-balanced by uncertainty and potentiality.

Motion and the connection of various pockets of motion into patterns are the absolute rather than nothingness. Enlightenment is a paradigm created by people who have not evolved enough yet to have quantum cognition as their base level state. Nor have the tensile resiliency to maintain cognitive superposition. I mean look at computers, they are binary electrical switches of 0 and 1, similar to how people argue between oneness vs duality. But you don't see people trying to make computers with only 0 or only 1 right? No, they are working on quantum computers that allow for Qubits to be both 1 and 0 at the same time as well as just 1 or 0. This gives computers exponential levels of multi-dimensionality because you can now stack and connect rather than remain in isolation. That is also how humans can evolve (how I have been evolving these past 5 years). You don't go backwards to this nonsense of everything being JUST one thing with zero differentiation. No, you learn how to work with connective tension and control your inner mechanisms of magnetism (van der waals forces or attraction and repulsion) and how that effects your perspective and cognition. That gives you control over intensity of attraction and repulsion and how it shifts your mind and emotions, choice over our propensity for tunnel vision (of which oneness is an extreme example), the ability to slow down and create a better environment for stability and harmony (much like suspending particles a hair above absolute zero), which allows you to STACK and build and connect to much greater levels then humans currently have experience of. That's the road to reality, not nothingness. People think thoughts arise from nothingness, but that's because they're stuck in on/off mode and aren't fast enough and expansive enough to see the underlying structures in the human body that activate the narrative and perspective creating parts of our minds. They can't hold the superposition necessary to have their awareness touch those other structures without automatically attaching and collapsing into a non superimposed state. Without that state, you can't see the different layers of dimensionality and the inter-relations between such things as volition and automation while also mediating all the various elements of movement that are all having an influence simultaneously at all times. There is so much nuance and context a person is missing out on, without that key multi-faceted ability.

Well, I feel connective tension or van der waals forces in parallel to normal sensations at all times and through that I can feel all different kinds of flavors or gyrations all over my body, including my brain.