zenburnt

I want to become a monk. I am bipolar 1 with ADHD. I have a difficult time achieving anything in my life, whenever I begin any pursuit in my life, I give up entirely when it gets challenging. I am addicted to porn, RuneScape, YouTube and social media. At my job I want to kill myself and just escape, I know this is a terrible reason to become a monk but I truly believe if I were to do a 5-year monk program, I would be able to develop the self discipline required to make real change in my life. Also it would help rid me of all the distractions in my life and help me become content with the present moment. I want to do something big with my life but I don’t know what I want to do and I’m 27 years old and feel like I’m just watching everyone else live their life. I’m looking for any advice, is becoming a monk unrealistic for a degenerate like myself? Should I try to find peace in my daily life instead of giving up a decent job? My life feels so pointless and I’m so stressed as a wage slave, I feel like life isn’t worth living like this. I’m going to do the Life Purpose Course and report back.