gambler

Masturbation is not healthy for me. It will always have control over me unless I go back to being normal where the serious idea to masturbate happens once every month or two. I’ve had a point in my life where I did not masturbate for half a year. There is no such thing as forcing myself to abstain. There is no such thing as struggle. There is just me going through the days with a focused mind that is present and not hyper sexualized. And that’s how I was able to go six months. This journal is an attempt to go back on that path. However by discussing it or focusing on it, this will probably be a self-defeating journal, since the secret is to not have any care or put any attention on masturbation. The attention should be focused on being present in the moment and having a mind that is calm—not hyper active and bored, but peaceful and distracted with meaningful things to do. We’ll see if I’ll be able to replicate my old success and change for the better. To begin. All thirst traps must go. Will be installing an ad blocker where I can manually block elements within a page permanently if it is a tempting image. Apps like X, even though I have the settings to where it blocks inappropriate material, I should not be using. This is going to be hard since the internet is spammed with beautiful women everywhere, but I must block the images. I’ve probably lost the moment I decided to document this, but eff it, why not?

Beautifully majestic sky. This is one of my favorite things to anticipate and idly stare at for as long as there's purple in the sky.

religion is the liberation

I’m stressed for you. If you need money DM me.

Stop trolling for the love of decency. This is the most ridiculous thing you have said as of yet, and you’ve said crazy things that I thought couldn’t be topped.

Better to be a truthful baby than a liar.

Fair enough. But I just want to make it clear that you don't even know how I identify myself as.

He only practiced the religion for a year, when he was 8. An age where you're not required to pray. But somehow wudhu is burned into his nervous system: @Sandhu Do you not see why I'm triggered over the blatant gaslighting? Are people here actually going to consider, like Leo, that his dad was advised to break the laws for religious jihad because the laws of the United States is satanic and thus a duty to break it, and he went ahead and got arrested 20 times? Hello???

You’re larping as an ex Muslim.

No. There is precisely 0% chance anything he said is true.

Times up. Gave you the simplest question and you couldn’t do it.

How many rakats in wudhu. I’ll give you 20 seconds so you don’t google.

Do you not understand the level of shock that I’m in. I’m from a Muslim background. It’s Haram Islamically to break the laws of the land, especially foreign lands, or to encourage people to do this. What is this person on. It’s obvious to any Muslim from the west who reads his post to know he’s lying through his teeth.

You’re so full of shit. GTFO this forum if you’re going to gaslight and lie this outlandishly on this level. Disgusting devil.

Maybe. Me personally, girls who are socially developed and not boring either have way too many options or it becomes apparent from talking to them over a long period of time that they would be absolutely incompatible with me. I've learned that I'd take the cute, quiet, agreeable and boring girl any day of the week. Done with even being friends with the former .