you just suffer from a lack of power and energy, hope need to be constantly ignited
if live is meaningful only by dying, your just lost
do not forgot yourself on focus on what life could be, what the universe could be, if so, if then, etc
it might be everything you think, but don't forgot the only measurable truth, your in the reality you live, and you can master it
the quest for desire is one of the only way to find yourself in here, desire might be volatil but its a really demonstratively powerfull engine
things aren't here just by their ends, live them, regrets are impulsive and you could live them excruciatingly, they incarnate themself in our suffer and eat us little by little, don't fall in that
regrets are a true death, be the powerfull human you need.