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Ulysses is not about women but his wife Molly having an affair, and our guy is getting cucked. most of the plays and tragedies also descend from greek tragedies and names are as like, odyssey homer Ilia,d, etc. but you got my point. i am also on Shakespeare's level while worshiping and simping for women lol.

@Schizophonia I am still figuring things out, but I am very sure about pursuing a master's degree and changing what I want to do.As of now, I am in my hometown because I lack the money so moving out if not an option, and a master's degree is necessary for me since I didn't do very well in college. I also lost interest in computer science, so I need to change my career field.I plan to expand my social circle in college. Attending a top college will give me the advantage of recruiting and networking with some of the best minds in the country, so I feel that will be worth it.

No, even when considering Russian authors like Leo Tolstoy, whose famous work Anna Karenina centers on women's experiences, it's clear that many literary works highlight female perspectives. For instance, James Joyce's Ulysses and F. Scott Fitzgerald's novels also reference women significantly. While I can't name every example, it’s evident that women's roles are often woven into the narratives of these prominent authors.I believe pop culture serves to represent universal themes that resonate with the majority, which is why we see a plethora of romantic music, novels, and films. Love has been idealized over time because many poets and writers have drawn inspiration from spiritual love, transforming it into a concept that often obscures the physical act of sex.This idealization began during the Romantic era in English literature, a time when the British Empire was a dominant colonial power. They controlled the narrative around cultural and emotional expressions. This continues to influence modern culture and societal perceptions today. mostly I feel art that I consume passively has a mode of being virtuous and validated to be superior in being. i have more to write but I will later but thanks for your reply @zurew what you think?

yes, thanks for your reply i will look into it. i feel awaking is very exaggerated, but I am a beginner in spirituality and meditation. i listen, and understand more about nonduality and stuff through Advaita vedant, upnishad-type stuff. i initially got into spirituality after being a nihilist for a long time just to see a new perspective on life.

There's always a reason to feel sad. And sadness can often feel more real and fuller as an emotion than happiness, and you get sort of addicted to sadness. Like I said in my post, it's mostly ego and validation-seeking behavior, and sadness and pity are something that give more attention from people if you are rather happy. I don't know, I don't think we know for sure but that's my speculation. @Ulax @Candle

@Ulax i will look into what you mentioned but it feels like they are all that tells me what the problem is which I already identified maybe I will find something new idk. I feel that therapy focused on connecting with one's own feelings and analyzing them is entirely wrong for someone who is as self-aware as I believe myself to be.

i didn't understand it but felt good reading this.

this is post i wanted to link

I’m 22 years old, a mediocre man who has failed at many important college entrance exams. These failures weigh heavily on me, leaving me feeling like a character from a Kafka story—lost and insignificant. To cope, I’ve turned to spirituality and philosophy, hobbies I can pursue alone since socializing scares me. My romantic life is no better. I’ve never had a girlfriend and, at 22, I’m still KHHV. This fact fills me with shame. I focus on self-improvement, hoping it might lead to something better someday. The one thing I excel at is going to the gym. I joined nine months ago and have made good progress—I can bench press 90 kg now. It’s the one area of my life where I feel accomplished because all it takes is dedication to sleep, food, and training. The gym has become my only source of hope. I recently finished my Bachelor’s degree in Computer Science. My college life was surrounded by awkward, smelly nerds like me. The job market is tough, and landing a decent job seems nearly impossible, so I’m planning to apply for a master’s program next year. At the start of 2024, I set a goal to get into a good college for my master’s. I failed the exams this year, so I have another year to prepare. I feel super self-aware, like the protagonist in Notes from Underground by Fyodor Dostoevsky. That book feels like my biography. I don’t enjoy much in life. I have no addictions to food, drugs, or alcohol, mostly because I don’t have money. Whatever I do have, I spend on protein and a bland gymcel diet, just so I can lift more at the gym. The gym is basically all I do. I feel like having a girlfriend could fix my life. but dating is super hard this post encapsulated how I feel in dating The expectation for men to be completely self-actualized before even entering the dating market is absolutely ridiculous. : r/PurplePillDebate Mainstream events and celebrations don’t appeal to me. Today is Christmas, and soon it will be New Year’s. But I know I’ll still be miserable. I don’t enjoy being alone. I crave having a woman in my life. Every kind of media I consume—movies, music, books—seems to revolve around women, love, and sex. I can’t relate to any of it because I’ve never experienced romantic feelings myself. After watching videos by Leo, I realized that I want a girlfriend just to validate my existence. Relationships seem to be an ego game. In my spiritual journey, I’ve consumed content from countless gurus. They talk about the ego, the mind, and escaping it through “ego death.” But it all feels abstract and distant. When I desire sex, it doesn’t feel like an ego thing—it feels like a basic need of the body. By writing this, I’m justifying my need, but it’s how I truly feel. I’m a virgin, and I struggle to interact with women. I’m 6 feet tall and somewhat jacked, yet I feel like an abused dog—unworthy of love. My mind constantly tries to justify my wants and needs as though they’re supreme. At this age, when my hormones are active, all I think about is sex. I wonder what I’ll desire when I’m older, and I’m sure I’ll justify those needs too. Life is passing me by. My dad never had the money to let me go out, have fun with friends, or travel. thank if you read this. i just needed to let out my feelings. maybe ChatGPT will analyse this and tell me about myself.