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My life purpose is clear: I help adult children of dysfunctional families release shame, reclaim self-worth, and live freely and authentically. I’ve gone through deep pain, emotional neglect, shame, trauma. Through inner child work, emotional healing, and self-awareness, I went from a miserable, lost person to someone who is mostly joyful, emotionally literate, sometimes ecstatic, and increasingly aware of his true nature. But I still ask myself: Will people trust me without a diploma? I fear not being taken seriously. I fear being seen as not good enough without formal education. But I know what I offer is real. It comes from life, not from a classroom. To those walking a similar path: Did you struggle with something similar? How does one build trust without a degree? @Emerald @Leo Gura @Exystem @Michael569 @Thought Art Tagging a few I know are on a similar path, but I’d appreciate feedback from anyone who is on a path of mastery.

You transitioned from M to F or F to M?

@Michael569Thank you, your response gave me exactly the kind of clarity I needed. I’ve been refining my niche, and here’s what feels the most true: Who I help: I support adult children of emotionally immature/alcoholic and religiously abusive families ,people who grew up feeling invisible, guilted, and shamed into self-erasure. Many were raised to believe that love had to be earned through obedience, silence, or martyrdom. They’re often in their 30s–40s, intelligent and emotionally sensitive, but stuck in cycles of self-abandonment, shame, and toxic loyalty. They’re just starting to awaken to the fact that their burnout, anxiety, or lack of identity is rooted in deep childhood conditioning, even if they most probably don’t use the word “trauma” or "CPTSD." **** What they’re looking for: They Google things like: “Why do I feel guilty saying no?” “Was my childhood emotionally abusive?” “Religious guilt healing” “Why do I feel responsible for everyone?” They’re not always ready for therapy, some are afraid of being pathologized. But they’re hungry for truth, emotional safety, and practical insight. They want realness, not academic distance. They want someone who’s lived it and speaks their language. **** My Offer: I’m not YET a therapist. But I’ve walked the fire, and healed most of it. I offer trauma-informed support rooted in emotional reparenting, inner child work, and the kind of spiritual clarity that only comes from surviving deep confusion and toxic shame. Your point about professionalism, boundaries, and legal protection is absolutely valid, and I’m sitting with it as I design what this practice becomes. But your biggest gift to me was this reminder: "Don’t just lead from what you survived. Lead from what your client is searching for.” As always thank you for being generous and sharp at the same time.

I forgot to mention: I’m 34, a father of two, working full-time. In my free time, I focus on healing, understanding my trauma, and learning how to share my insights to help others heal and grow too.

@Clarence you're incredibly brave. Your strength and honesty are deeply inspiring. Kudos to you!

"A fool thinks he can outrun reality" @Leo Gura is this about the guy who sprinted during a bad trip?

@Leo Gura, I’ve always admired the raw honesty and authenticity you’ve demonstrated, especially in talking openly about psychedelics and even sharing footage of your own trips. That’s rare and powerful. What I’d love to understand is this: How did you get to a point where you could publicly speak about something so controversial, without being crippled by shame or fear of judgment? Did you ever feel doubt, anxiety, or concern about how others (family, friends, public) would react? How did your close ones respond when you started openly talking about tripping and posting those videos, even talking about stage turquoise realizations which can easily be taken as insane or totally out of place? I’m able to talk about my realizations, but only when I feel the other person is open-minded enough. Going fully public with this still feels like a huge leap. I’d love to hear how you made that transition at that point of life.

@Leo Gura I had similar things on my mind. As always, thanks for clearing the fog!

@Leo Gura or anyone who has a good experience with middle to high doses of this chem. What is that extreme, violent, constantly shifting energy I feel during a 5-MeO-DMT trip? It’s like my entire being is being torn apart by a chaotic energy. It’s more like a trillion flies flinging around at ultra speed in all directions,almost like a living current made of raw intensity. No thoughts, no concepts, just pure, unbearable energy moving through “me,” yet there’s no “me” to hold onto. It feels like fiju fuj suc fijjoii hdhusjdbhhaixnshdisnxjsj totally beyond language. What exactly is this? Is it the raw nature of God? Infinite Energy? Or just my ego resisting annihilation? EDIT: I don't get this on other psychedelics, no matter how deep the trip becomes.

I prefer embodying Christ, but Goku works just as well for me.

Yeah, that could be it. I don't have these problem on other psychedelics. I will try vaping lower doses with a vape pen and working through these blockages.

I guess having a clearly defined life purpose and a "carrier" built around it made this easier. It's hard for me to imagine doing such things things while working 9 to 5.

Boofing sadly never had any effect on me at all. No matter the technique or dose. IM is also not an option. Don't like the idea of sticking needles in my veins. Yeah, I tried LSD, 4-AcO-DMT and 5-MeO-MALT, and had great experiences with all of them. Good point. I will do this. Good point. Will do this also!

It's extremely hard when my only option to use this chem is vaping. I am blasted away before I even know what is happening and after not more than 7 minutes I am back with only memory of what I described above. Maybe I should stick to longer lasting chems.

Weird. I though it's something what everyone goes through on 5-MeO. I had about 10 trips on mid-high doses and every single time had this experience.

I found this on reddit recently RDT_20250330_092212.mp4 I am watching it on loop.

I take 5mg daily and have been for about a year. But I also use a variety of brain detox supplements, so it’s hard to isolate which one gives the best bang for the buck. That said, I’m generally very focused and present most of the time.

Did you try taking some others forms of it? This could be an option for you if you experience the same problems with all forms of Vitamin D. https://www.sperti.com/?zCountry=DE

Yeah, it reminds me of the question I oftentimes ask myself: If the process of enlightenment is so scary, wtf is so funny when you attain it? (Just a rhetorical question.)

I haven’t had a psychedelic awakening in months, but I’ve been going deep into healing core psychological wounds. Out of nowhere, lying sober in a dark room for 2 hours, this arose: -Psychedelics are like a needle that bursts the fragile bubble of what we call reality. But no needle is actually needed. The bubble could burst in the next moment. In fact, the moment never was. In fact, I am everything that is, and what is, is infinite. The bubble itself was imaginary. No psychedelics, just pure sober direct experience. I’m usually super-sensitive to psychedelics, even weed, but this came out of nowhere after several months of inner work. Pros of a sober awakening: no need for throwing up nor taking a shit mid-trip. (Psychedelic folks will get it.) @Leo Gura, I’d genuinely love your take on this. Does this resonate with your view of direct awakening beyond substances? Or is there a subtle trap here I might be missing? Would Love your input.

I still feel like a crack whore when I convert my chemicals by heating them up on the spoon before savoring.

I am planning to do the same, but for a bit shorter period. What kind of retreat would you recommend? Any advice?

I find Teal Swans premium guided meditations utterly amazing. The core of them is basicaly - emotional literacy and shadow work. I had a breathtaking awekening on LSD while doing some of the methods learned in these meditations.

"Let the gods rain shit upon us. I no longer give a fuck." "The gods can go fuck themselves." My favorite lines from: Spartacus, blood and sand.

Sounds interesting, will definitely look into it... Is this a good introduction into this practice?